Find him in the crowd

Xiang Sixi guessed that Shen Yi would not break up with him because of this, but he didn't expect that Shen Yi's response to him would be "That's it?"Instead, he kept scolding him, "There are so many ways to solve the problem, why do you choose the stupidest one. It feels good to make yourself like this."

Xiang Sixi didn't know whether to be thankful or sad, like a child who was raped by his parents for doing something wrong, he didn't dare to speak.After Shen Yi finished counting, he remembered an important thing, "This VIP ward earns a lot of money every day." The decoration configuration of this ward looks like a VIP level, and I don't know if I have enough money.

Shen Yi laughed angrily at him, "You must be stupid. The hospital bed is tight, so I won't accept you, and I will carry you back exhausted."

"..."

"This is my apartment, you can live here first, and leave after school starts."

Xiang Si hopes that people are poor and short-sighted, Shen Yi said so, and he doesn't refuse.He smiled and said, "Thank you."

"You're welcome."

Shen Yi's apartment is not big, there is only one bedroom, and now it was given to Xiang Sixi, so he went to the sofa in the living room with his pillows in his arms.Feeling sorry, Xiang Sixi grabbed the door frame of the bedroom and said, "I'll sleep on the sofa. You've already taken me in. How dare you occupy your bed again."

"Of course you sleep on the sofa." Shen Yi said, "For the sake of you being a patient, the bed is only for a few days."

"Oh."

Xiang Sixi stayed at Shen Yi's apartment until school started.During the period, I made a phone call to my family, but my mother still answered the phone.Knowing that Xiang Sixi arrived at school safely, I feel relieved, "Xixi, the marriage has been retired. You can go to school with peace of mind, tell the family if you don't have enough money, and sell the land if you can't. You study hard and don't think about making money anymore It's over."

Xiang Sixi responded with all his mouth, but both mother and son kept silent about that matter.It's as if if you don't say it, it really doesn't exist.

The relationship between parents and children is really strange. They are the most unscrupulous when they hurt each other, and the most regretful when they calm down afterwards.

After spending a few days lying on Shen Yi's sofa, school finally started.Xiang Sixi couldn't wait to grab her luggage and rush back to school.

Shen Yi couldn't stand it anymore, "Those who didn't know thought you were abused by me."

I'll certainly not.It's just that Xiang Sixi suddenly felt that everything in the world belonged to others, and only the bed in the dormitory really belonged to him.

Xiang Sixi ran to the club classroom to look for He Fei as soon as the school was over.

"I knew you were here."

He Fei was tuning the piano, her expression froze when she heard the words, and then she smiled wryly, "Where can I go if I'm not here."

Xiang Sixi is a sensitive person, and he knew that he probably said something wrong when he heard it. Although he didn't know where the mistake was, he hurriedly made it up, "I just thought you love playing the piano so much, you must come back here."

There are two spare violins in the community classroom, bought with club funds, for students who don’t have violins on one side to practice.

"I didn't come here because I love playing the piano, but because I have nowhere to go."

Oops, instead of making it up, it adds fuel to the fire.Xiang Sixi didn't know what to do.

"what happened to you?"

He Fei stopped plucking the strings, "This is my fifth year in school, and I still teach an insignificant class this year. I can't get anyone to come to the classroom. If this continues, I don't know whether I can stay in school next year." It's hard to say." After He Fei finished speaking, she looked at Xiang Sixi, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have told you this. You can't help me, you can only add trouble to you."

Really can't help.But Xiang Sixi still tried her best to comfort him, "You are so good, you can be a good teacher anywhere."

"It's different. This is Yanda University, the only Yanda University... Forget it, if you are carefree, you probably won't understand."

Xiang Sixi wanted to refute him, but he could understand that he was not carefree.In the end, He Fei changed the subject before he could speak, and asked him, "What are your plans? Work or go to school."

Xiang Sixi had no choice but to give up. "Go to school and continue to be Mr. Shen's student."

"Then I'll start preparing next semester. I wanted to be Mr. Shen's student back then, but it's a pity that Mr. Shen didn't want me. But with you, it will be fine."

Xiang Sixi thought his words were weird, but he didn't know what was wrong.In fact, when he came today, he really wanted to tell He Fei that he had confessed to his family, and anyway, he had taken the first step.I didn't say it until the end.They burned a piece of incense and sat and played the piano, and no one spoke.

Since then, He Fei has been busy with her work, and rarely even participated in club activities.Xiang Sixi didn't know what he was busy with, but since he couldn't help, he couldn't bother him.When I met him, I could only encourage him a few words without pain or itching to cheer him up.Other than that I really don't know what else to do.

Around Qingming, my mother called to say that my father was hospitalized again.Xiang Sixi took a few days off to go home.

Lying on the hospital bed, his father closed his eyes when he came in, and ignored him when he spoke, as if he was still angry.Xiang Sixi had nothing to do, she said a few words of comfort to herself, and went to see the doctor with her mother.

My father's illness was diagnosed as bone cancer when he was hospitalized last year. Just by hearing the name, he knew that the disease could not be cured, and it must be a bottomless pit.My father didn't plan to treat it, and he couldn't cure it. He prescribed some medicine, and if it lasted for a day, it counted as a day.She didn't want to affect Xiang Sixi's going to school, so she didn't tell him all the time. Xiang Sixi only thought that she was hospitalized because she was getting old and couldn't bear the headache.

The doctor advised them to transfer to a provincial hospital, where the medical conditions are good and they may be saved.

Mother was wiping away tears, and there was nothing she could do about the current situation.

"Your father said that the family had no money, so he died."

Of course you can't listen to him.Ask the doctor to contact the provincial hospital for help, and prepare to be transferred.Although the father is unwilling, he is now lying on the hospital bed and living on painkillers. The mother sees her son as the backbone, and even ignores her husband's objections.

The piece of land at home that was talked about for sale was finally sold.It was sold to the village as public land, and the land in the backcountry was not worth a lot of money. With some money I saved, I got only tens of thousands of yuan, which was still a bit heavy in the bag, but it would not last a few days in the hospital.

Mother stayed in the hospital to take care of father, Xiang Sixi returned home and exchanged almost all the money that could be exchanged for money, and then went door to door in the village to borrow money, laughing first when she saw someone, and talking about uncle and aunt. Cry poor and sell miserably again.He was originally introverted and unsociable, so he asked to borrow money for this purpose, but was dismissed by a bunch of buns, full of grievances.

In April, there is still a trace of chill in the mountains, and the roads that have rained are potholes, and there are no street lights.He walked back with difficulty by the moonlight, stepped on the mud, and slipped a little carelessly.There was no one waiting to welcome him at the door, and there was a cold pot and a cold stove in the house, only then did he remember that he hadn't eaten today.There is no microwave, no gas stove, just a large pot and a pile of firewood.In order to allow him to concentrate on his studies, his parents seldom let him do anything at home.It's nothing more than helping my mother build a fire and cook a pimple soup, unlike other children who grew up in the fields.

When he was about to go to the city to go to school, his father, like today, took him with a lame leg to borrow money from house to house.He is not in charge of the family, he doesn't know how expensive rice is, and he doesn't like his father's humiliation to others for money, and being looked down upon by others.Today it was his turn to borrow money, and only then did he realize that it takes courage to be humble and to be looked down upon.

He took out the cold, hard buns from the bag and took a bite. I don’t know what kind of wild vegetables are stuffed, but the taste is not bad. In fact, the people in this village don’t have spare money to borrow, they just rely on the wild vegetables on the mountain. life.

Xiang Sixi filled his stomach with cold water.If you can't borrow money, you can only think of other ways.

Early the next morning, Xiang Sixi went to the village to issue a poverty certificate, and asked about some procedures for applying for subsidies.

A group of idlers smoking and playing cards gathered at the entrance of the village. When they saw Xiang Sixi coming, they rushed to give him advice. Xiang Sixi really thought they had a solution, but someone introduced him to usury, and someone persuaded him to sell himself.All in all, it's a quick way to get money. The advice of "hard-hearted" is for your own good.They seemed to know something, and they came here to laugh at him, with obscene eyes under their "concerned" faces.

Xiang Sixi couldn't bear it anymore and punched the man in the eyes, and other people gathered around seeing the situation. Fortunately, Sun Cheng drove by in his pickup truck at this time and insisted on taking Xiang Sixi away.

"Thank you." If Sun Cheng hadn't taken him away, he would have suffered a bit, after all, there were so many people on the other side.

"Those bastards are not a good thing. You should avoid them from now on." Sun Cheng originally planned to return to the village, but when he saw the situation, he drove away again. "I'll take you back to the hospital first."

"Just take me to the station, my dad has been transferred to the provincial hospital."

"Row."

When he arrived at the station, Sun Cheng took out another 5000 yuan from his bag and gave it to Xiang Sixi, "Take it, don't worry, I can't take out the extra."

Xiang Sixi did not refuse, "Thank you. I will pay you back as soon as I have money."

"What's the return? We have been friends since childhood, and we don't mention borrowing or repaying." Sun Cheng patted his shoulder to comfort him, "Don't worry, now that medicine is so advanced, uncle will definitely be fine."

"Ah."

When you arrive at the hospital, you should first apply for a reduction or exemption according to the procedures, and then take time to call the school and ask for a few days off.After all the formalities were completed, I went to visit my father in the ward.

The illness came like a mountain, and he underwent chemotherapy several times in the hospital. His condition was stable, but he lost his energy. He saw his father being tortured by the illness and couldn't sleep. He was really shaken, whether it was right to insist on treatment.

Changed the mother to rest, he took care of the father.The doctor told him not to eat this one and that one, so Xiang Sixi had no choice but to order white noodles in the cafeteria.My father didn't feel like eating, and he sighed.

"I'm at this age, I've lived enough. It's you, I can't watch you get married, and I won't feel at ease when I leave after graduation."

"It will be fine Dad, now that medicine is so advanced, the doctor also said that your condition has improved."

"Last time you said you...you...are you true, so you can't change it? Not at all?" My father guessed that there were people in other beds, so he didn't dare to explain.But Xiang Sixi knew what he meant.

His hand holding the bowl trembled slightly. The doctor couldn't guarantee how much time his father had. This might be his last wish. He knew what his father wanted to hear.but……

"Let's eat first."

He didn't want to lie to his father and let his father leave with a lie.I don't want to lie to myself, such a lie can't make him feel relieved.

Father shook his head, wiping the tears from his eyes. "It's not your fault, it's me. I didn't teach you well. I just let you study, but didn't teach you how to be a human being."

"Dad, it's not immoral or shameful. I haven't done anything illegal or hurt others. I'm just... You should rest first."

After leaving the door of the ward, the nurse gave her another charge sheet.Xiang Sixi glanced at the amount on the list, feeling exhausted physically and mentally.He sat outside the ward and watched the patients and their family members go back and forth in the corridor. There were people like him who were worried about the bills and called around to raise money.He touched his chest, and there was a small card sealed inside the T-shirt, because his father was hospitalized, and he brought it with him just in case he came, but he didn't want to use this card if there was any way.But compared with his father's life, his own "spine" is nothing.

He walked to the nurse's station and asked, "Excuse me, can I swipe my card here? Where can I swipe it?"

The problem of medical bills has been resolved, and the parents have settled down. Xiang Sixi has to go back to class again.

The school seemed to be another world, where he only needed to bury his head in studying hard, and those things that made him burnt out really didn't exist.After two days of soaking in books, I still have to return to reality.

In addition to the magazine's regular contributions, Xiang Sixi looks for part-time jobs whenever she is free.I go back to the dormitory every day with the gate locked.

The roommate thought he was just earning pocket money, and joked, "Why do you have to go to such trouble if you are short of money, you can sell your watch and have everything."

The watch he was talking about was the one Xiang Sixi wore when he first started school.It was a Christmas present from An Mingye.But later, Xiang Sixi had returned the watch to the apartment, and hadn't worn it for a long time.Moreover, even if it is still there, it cannot be sold, it has cost him money, and when he sells his watch again, when will he be able to pay it off.

In order to see He Fei often, Xiang Sixi enrolled in his class.Every time I arrive at class on time, I never miss a class, but recently, in order to work part-time, except for the compulsory courses, all others who can escape have escaped, and I haven't seen He Fei for more than half a month.I finally had time to come to class today, but in the end I changed the teacher.

Xiang Sixi thought it was a problem with his work, so he called to ask and found out that he had changed the course. It is said that it is a very popular elective course. Although it is not compulsory, it is already very satisfying.Invite him to dinner to celebrate when you have time.Xiang Sixi readily agreed that this was probably the only good news during this period.

As the May [-]st holiday approaches, Shen Yi's sister's gallery is going to hold an art exhibition. Shen Yi asks Xiang Sixi to help decorate the exhibition hall. He says it is to help, but in fact it is to help Xiang Sixi, because a lot of work in the early stage requires errands and coolies, and he will pay the corresponding remuneration .Xiang Sixi was naturally embarrassed to accept it.

"I usually ask you to take care of me. Your sister is my sister. How dare you ask for compensation for such a trivial matter."

"There's nothing embarrassing, I'll take it if I give it to you. Besides, I didn't come to work for nothing, and we treat each other equally."

"..."

In order not to let Xiang Sixi misunderstand that even his own sister was killed, Shen Yi explained, "The pen, ink, paper and inkstone also cost money."

Xiang Sixi knew that painting was expensive, and some of the pigments that Shen Yi often used were said to be ground with precious gemstones and sold by gram.only--

"I thought painting was quite profitable."

Shen Yi took a look at Xiang Sixi's outfit today, "I thought I was making money as a family."

Because Shen Yi talked about holding an art exhibition on the phone, Xiang Sixi specially wore a suit of more formal clothes, which were still bought by An Mingye when he was there, and the style and material revealed that they were expensive.Who knew that he came here as a coolie.

Xiang Sixi teased herself, "It's because the ex-boyfriend is rich."

Shen Yi also followed, "Thanks to Dad."

The two of them laughed at themselves in the warehouse for a while, they didn't decide who was better, and they were immersed in their work.

"But." Xiang Sixi took off the hanging chair, pulled the shirt on her body and said, "Can you find me a coat or something?"

……

Relying on Shen Yi's mother's reputation in the calligraphy and painting circles, as well as Shen Yi's sister's own fame, many well-known painters were invited to come, and the specifications were raised several levels at once.Xiang Sixi's outfit also came in handy.He doesn't know much about painting, so he just watched the excitement, but fortunately, Shen Yi was explaining at the side, so he had seen the world.

There is also a chrysanthemum painted by Shen Yi in the exhibit.Although Xiang Sixi didn't understand the ingenuity of the painting, he only felt that the painting of chrysanthemums was so lifelike, as if he could pick one off with just one hand.Beside Shen Yi, he praised in different ways.

The compliment made Shen Yi feel embarrassed, "Your friendship bonus is too exaggerated."

"Anyway, I'm a layman, and my understanding of paintings is that they look good."

Shen Yi said, "It's just for people to see, as long as it looks good. If you like it, I'll draw one for you another day."

Xiang Sixi did not refuse this time, "From now on, I will not be able to sit on the ground and raise the price. I have to collect it well and pass it on to the next generation."

"Lend your auspicious words."

The art exhibition went well, and Sister Shen was also very happy, so she rewarded each of them with a big red envelope.Shen Yi and Xiang Sixi took the red envelopes, worked tirelessly to finish the work, and helped see off the guests by the way.

Xiang Sixi didn't know anyone, so Shen Yi introduced him in a low voice, this one is a famous painter, that one is a musician, this one is a senior scholar in the industry...

"I recognize this, the dean of Yan University. But it's not from our school."

"It's from the State Administration of Customs." Shen Yi added. "Beside him is his niece, who is a Ph.D. student at Yanda University and also from the State Administration of Customs. She seems to be quite famous in their department. Haven't you seen her?"

Xiang Sixi shook his head, he didn't pay attention to these things at school.Then he saw He Fei, coming out of the exhibition hall, holding a lady's bag and coat in his hand.He put the coat on the rather famous doctor.

"This... I don't recognize it." Shen Yi looked at He Fei and said.

"I know."

He Fei also saw Xiang Sixi, but she just glanced at Xiang Sixi in surprise, just one glance.Then, as if he didn't see Xiang Sixi, the people with him got into the car and left.

"That's He Fei."

Hearing this, Shen Yi was stunned for a moment, then looked at the direction the car was driving away, and then at Xiang Sixi.Want to comfort him, but don't know how to speak.Xiang Sixi said that she "recognized" Shen Yi and thought she was just an alumnus, but she didn't expect it to be this kind of relationship.

That day Shen Yi insisted on sending Xiang Sixi back to school, and watched him enter the school gate before leaving in peace.

But the last place Xiang Sixi wants to go at this time is to study.The canteen where they ate together, the classroom where they went to his classes, the playground where they played ball together, participated in club activities held on the school lawn together, recruited new students together by the school's tree-lined road, and in front of the dormitory. Chatting in the garden...

Within a few days, Xiang Sixi saw the news about He Fei's love affair.In the gossip entertainment section of the school forum, for this kind of male talent and female talent, the relationship between male and female appearance usually passes with a few words of blessing in the comments.But Xiang Sixi didn't know until he saw the content of the post that they had been dating for half a year.

The next day, Xiang Sixi stood by the door of the classroom. When the bell rang, He Fei walked out of the classroom with his classmates. Xiang Sixi greeted him with a smile at the door, "Teacher He."

He Feiqiang responded to him with a smile, and walked out of the teaching building together.

"Didn't you say last time that you want to celebrate together? I didn't invite you because I couldn't wait for you. I didn't bother you."

"of course not."

"Is it because if I don't come to you, you forget about it."

"No, I'm not very familiar with the new courses recently, so I need to prepare more lessons."

"Well, I thought the teacher forgot about the students when he had a girlfriend."

Like teachers and students talking about their homework, they walked under the corridor of the school garden, and the eaves of the corridor were covered with lush vines. This season is when there are many mosquitoes, and even lovers don’t like to come here to whisper.

"Is this the way you came up with?" Xiang Sixi looked at him with a smile while flipping through the book, with an expression that didn't look like he was questioning at all. "If I hadn't bumped into you, how long would you have kept it from me?"

"I didn't intend to lie to you."

"But he didn't intend to tell me either."

"I didn't mean that, I just thought about us seriously... After all, we are all men."

"They're all men? You just found out that I'm a man today? Or did you think it through and compare the two and found that she helped you more? Speaking of which, I haven't congratulated you for finally fulfilling your wish and changing courses. The next step is to stay in school for promotion." Professor? He Fei, even if I don't have any evidence, just tell her that you like men and date them for promotion and salary increase, will it affect your future?"

Xiang Sixi's tone seemed to be talking about what to have for lunch today, but the content made He Fei break out in a cold sweat.Instead he calmed down.

"This will also affect your studies, and none of us can escape. Is it worth it?"

After listening to his words, Xiang Sixi thought for a moment, "That's right. It's not worth delaying my studies for someone like you. Then, I wish you every step of the way, and a happy marriage for a hundred years."

Xiang Sixi closed the book in his hand and left quickly.

"Xiang Sixi!" He Fei suddenly called him from behind, "I'm different from a young master like you. I have no way out. My everything depends on this school. I tried my best to stay here just for my sake." I have worked hard for the school for five years but have nothing. I am also a victim! I just use my only means to get a fair treatment. What is wrong with me! Why do you look down on me. "

"You're a victim, so what. You can hurt someone? Hurt me? Hurt an innocent girl, let her be your tool to get 'fair treatment'!"

"What qualifications do you have to say about me?" He Fei gritted his teeth and said, "Every time I go to see Mr. Shen's son, I bring a bouquet of flowers. What are you trying to do? Do you think I don't know why you are favored by Mr. Shen?" ."

Xiang Sixi couldn't believe it, this was the teacher he admired and respected.The teacher who speaks well and quotes scriptures when he speaks the piano.The same white shirt, the same pair of glasses, and the same person changed overnight.

Xiang Sixi has nothing to say, and doesn't want to take another look at him.

Shen Yi found Xiang Sixi in a park near the school.Sitting by the artificial lake surrounded by flowers, there is a pile of finished beer bottles under your feet.When he saw Shen Yi, he opened another can of beer from the shopping bag in his hand, "Come on."

Since the art exhibition that day, Shen Yi has called him twice a day to check on him.I didn't get through to the phone this afternoon. I was afraid that he would not be able to control his temper, and if he got angry and made a big fuss, it would affect his graduation.

Shen Yi took the wine and sat down beside him. "How not to answer the phone."

"It's out of power." He didn't know when it was turned off.

Xiang Sixi went to drink again, but Shen Yi stopped him, "Don't drink."

"Let me drink, I want to drink." Xiang Sixi raised his head and downed half a bottle. "This is my first time drinking alcohol, really. I thought I would drink poorly, but you see." He pointed to the empty wine can on the ground, "I didn't get drunk after drinking so much. Actually, An Mingye walked That night, I wanted to drink, but his wine was so expensive, it was the kind of foreign wine that cost thousands of bottles. I couldn't afford it, so I didn't dare to drink it. "

Shen Yi didn't know how to comfort him, so he had to drink with him.

"Okay, I've drank all the wine, so let's talk about any unhappy things. Anyway, there is no one else here."

Xiang Sixi tilted her head to look at him, as if thinking about where to start, finally grinned, and swallowed all the thousands of words from her mouth while drinking the wine.

Shen Yi accompanied him here to drink and feed the mosquitoes.After Xiang Sixi finished drinking, he fell on Shen Yi's shoulder, looking at the lake surface illuminated by the street lamps with flying insects, "It's so beautiful." He said.Then he picked up a stone and threw it into the water, and was surprised by the buzzing of mosquitoes. "Look, Firefly."

……

Shen Yi was quite speechless.He picked up cans all over the place and looked for a place to throw them away.Looking back, Xiang Sixi, who was still there and didn't know where he was going, called Zhao Yunxiu.

When Zhao Yunxiu arrived, Xiang Sixi was drunk in Shen Yi's arms, unconscious.Last time it was a hospital, this time it was a park.He reluctantly helped Shen Yi stuff Xiang Sixi into the car - even though he wanted to take advantage of the situation and throw Xiang Sixi into the lake to finish it off.

"Where are you going?" he asked

"Begonia Apartment."

"Damn! The golden house hides the beauty."

"Putting over in front, I called the car again."

Zhao Yunxiu counseled in seconds, "Okay, okay, okay, why don't you stop asking! There is no one who is so eager to be your driver."

"That's why I called you specifically."

"you……"

Zhao Yunxiu was speechless and concentrated on driving.When we arrived at the downstairs of the apartment, we also provided considerate door opening service.She brutally dragged Xiang Sixi out, but because of his savage pull, Xiang Sixi turned her head and vomited in the car.Shen Yi waited for him to finish vomiting, took out a few big bills, and said to Zhao Yunxiu, who was stiff with anger, "I'm sorry, let's take it to the car wash."

Zhao Yunxiu came back to his soul, "Why did you pay for what he vomited! Why are you apologizing!"

"That's right." Shen Yi took back the money, and simply carried Xiang Sixi out to go upstairs—the princess still carried her.

Leaving Zhao Yunxiu in place, he was so angry that his seven orifices were filled with smoke.Because it was Shen Yi who called, and he even drove out in his most flamboyant car, he couldn't just go on a date with Shen Yiyue in the middle of the night, why should he suffer this kind of treatment.Zhao Yunxiu glanced at his beloved car, wishing he could just throw it on the side of the road.

"Depend on!"