Find him in the crowd

"Xixi. Wake up." Chu Zifan shook the people around him to wake up, and turned on the desk lamp, "Did you have a nightmare?"

When Xiang Sixi woke up, the primordial spirit was entangled between dream and reality for a while before gradually returning to its place.

Chu Zifan poured a cup of hot water and touched his forehead. It was not hot, but a little cold, and he was sweating.Dry him again with a towel.

"You were crying all the time just now, you scared me to death." Chu Zifan looked at him worriedly, without blinking his eyes.

Xiang Sixi touched his shoulder, it didn't hurt or bruised.It's a dream.

"what time is it now."

Chu Zifan glanced at the time, "Four o'clock."

It's already Christmas.

After such a toss, I lost sleepiness.

Xiang Sixi said, "Come talk to me."

"Okay, what do you want to say?"

"Anything is fine."

"Then let's talk about my mother. My mother...he always talks about wanting to see you. I didn't dare to tell you before, for fear that you would refuse or have a burden. "

"Then why not be afraid now."

"I'm afraid, and I'm afraid now. But if you refuse, I'll think of other ways."

"I promise you, but I have to see my recent work arrangement, and I will tell you when I confirm the time. In fact, you don't have to be afraid that I will refuse. Don't you often videotape with my mother? This is the treatment of the royal palace. You should treat yourself Have a little confidence."

While secretly delighted, Chu Zifan groped Xiang Sixi dishonestly.Xiang Sixi patted his hand away. "be honest."

Chu Zifan remained obedient, "My parents are very nice and reasonable, and they will definitely like you."

"Yeah." It's okay if you don't say it, but once you say it, you really want to retreat.

Chu Zifan didn't realize it, and talked about the interesting things in the past.

"I remember one time my mother introduced me to someone, yes, it was a designer of a big luxury brand. She had a good accent, was also very funny, and was good at chatting. At that time, I thought it was reliable and could be everywhere, but we both fell in love with each other. If you don't want to do it, you will leave."

"Pfft!" This ending was a bit unexpected, but it seemed reasonable.He said with emotion, "It's really drought to death, and waterlogging to death."

"It's a lie. Later, I still talked about it for several days, thinking that I missed such a good offer from the other party. But this kind of thing is very important, and it's not easy to tell her, so it's embarrassing."

"But your mother is really open-minded."

"Don't look at her being open-minded now, she was very angry at the beginning, and didn't talk to me for several days."

"But later, I still accepted you."

"Yeah, when it comes to their children, parents are always the ones who compromise first."

……

"What about before this designer? Have you ever had a boyfriend?"

Chu Zifan wanted to sleep at first, but was awakened by Xiang Sixi's question.But when I thought about it, I didn't seem to have said this to him. Since I asked him, it's okay to chat.

From my crush on the "Prince" who plays the violin downstairs to the first person I formally communicate with.

"He's a Japanese. He looks cute. When he smiles, he shows his teeth. He's very naughty. He loves to cook. During that time, he brought me bentos in class every day. But I don't really like Japanese food."

"Well, and then." Xiang Sixi asked.

"And then we broke up."

"Why are you so casual, why did you break up?"

"After we graduated, he went back to Japan, and I went back to China. Could it be possible to have a cross-border relationship?"

"why not?"

Chu Zifan thought about it seriously, "It seems that I haven't reached this point. In fact, there are quite big differences between me and him, in terms of life, culture, and music concepts."

"So the points are divided?"

"Well...not really. I thought it was nothing at the time, but I was also disappointed for a while later."

"Then just follow your teacher Tony's sensuality and indulgence?"

"No way." Chu Zifan refused to admit it. "At most, it's just drinking to relieve your worries."

"Then relieve your worries."

"Sorrow is even more worrying."

Xiang Sixi changed her posture and leaned on his arm, "Is there any more?"

"No, then it's you."

"Really?" Xiang Sixi didn't quite believe it. "This is a circle with many monks and few groceries. According to your conditions, it should be very popular."

"Of course I was popular at the time." Chu Zifan smiled smugly, "But I also have my own standards. Besides, I was already a public figure at that time, so I had to restrain myself. And I was busy with my studies and graduated at that time. Later, I will create my own studio.”

Xiang Sixi remembered that even in the busiest time, she never missed a romantic relationship.Now compared with Chu Zifan, I don't know whether to be ashamed or happy.

"Thinking about it now, if my parents knew that the person I was dating was Japanese, probably the family wouldn't let it go so easily."

"That's great." Xiang Sixi turned over, turned off the lamp, and got ready to sleep.

Chu Zifan hugged him behind him, and kissed the top of his head lightly, "Actually, I used to always think you were very split. I heard about you from other people's descriptions, I think you should be a very sentimental person, but it seems that there is nothing wrong with it." Fame. In public, you are polite, with the melancholy look of a literary youth. As for your works, you have a demeanor of thoroughly understanding life and attaining Taoism. That’s why I can’t help but want to look at you more.”

I can't move it when I look at it.

It was noon when I woke up.After moping on the bed for a while, I got up and ordered a takeaway, and it disappeared for most of the day.

After dinner, the two of them went out one after another, each carrying their own bricks.

Xiang Sixi's contract will expire in a year, and he has decided not to renew the contract, so he doesn't plan to write a new script.I want to travel abroad with Chu Zifan in the spring, and prepare my own studio when I come back, so it is best to finish the work at hand before the end of the year.

Xiang Sixi hadn't seen Luo Rui for a while, and she lost a lot of weight.

"Are you losing weight for your new role?" Xiang Sixi asked.

Rory replied perfunctorily, "Just take it for granted."

"You're so skinny that you're almost out of shape. Why, you're finally going to challenge yourself and play a drug criminal."

"I said you open your mouth, it's okay."

"Are you alright?" Xiang Sixi patted him on the shoulder with sharp edges and corners. "What the hell is going on with you?"

"You're so worried about me." Rory raised his eyebrows, showing a domineering president's smile, and said in a low voice, "I'm fine, if you break up with your little musician someday, I'll still try my best to chase after you." you."

"roll."

Xiang Sixi originally wanted to ask again, but other crew members came in one after another, so it was inconvenient to continue, so he had to end the topic.

The screenwriter and director got together to revisit the plot, add what should be added, delete what should be deleted, and let him die vigorously as long as it does not affect the development of the main plot, basically let it go.

The Christmas trees in the streets and alleys have just been demolished, and then replaced with New Year's Day-themed decorations.It's a pity that Xiang Sixi and Chu Zifan's holiday was spent in rush work, and they didn't feel the festive atmosphere.

Fortunately, Xiang Sixi finally completed the script at hand.The finalized story style hardly has his own label, but a mature commercial work.Xiang Sixi read every word, and he couldn't tell what it was like, everything was fine, but he felt something was missing.

The more he lived, the less he understood.

After New Year's Day is over, Xiang Sixi has to get busy again.As early as a month ago, he received an invitation card for the award ceremony. It was an award for TV dramas with a relatively high gold content. This was already his regular job every year.

Although I know that this year I only have nominations and no awards, but in order to match the new drama that will be released next year, I still have to attend the promotion with the crew.Of course, the most important thing is that he has no prize to receive, but Chu Zifan does.

After lunch, Xiang Sixi and Chu Zifan arrived at Wen Hao's studio slowly.Rory has done her makeup and is doing her hair.The clothes were a little loose and a belt was tied, which stretched his legs by a few centimeters, and his figure was immediately revealed. The whole person was a bit more energetic, not as scary as he looked a few days ago.

Xiang Sixi couldn't help taking a few more glances, feeling that big stars are really different, no matter how sloppy they are usually, after all, they still have their own brilliance when they stand casually in the crowd, and they can't accept it.

Chu Zifan on the side was not happy, so he couldn't get angry with Xiang Sixi, so he took advantage of Luo Rui.Where is Luo Rui the one who suffers the most, he turned back when he turned the corner, Chu Zifan didn't get any cheap, and he was about to become angry from embarrassment.Xiang Sixi hurriedly pulled a coat from the hanger next to her. "I think this one is quite suitable for you, go and try it."

Wen Hao also saw that the two could not stay together, so he directed his assistant to take Chu Zifan upstairs to try on clothes. "You look at it and choose him, don't make it too weird."

Chu Zifan was about to defend his aesthetics, but before he could speak, he was dragged away by the female assistant.

"Why do you keep messing with him when you have nothing to do? You are in a hurry." Xiang Sixi glared at Luo Rui, but his expression was not angry.

"You're too biased. It's obvious that he provoked me first." In order not to stain his lip makeup, Rory drank his coffee with a straw between his teeth, and said meanly, "Besides, don't you think he's fried?" It's time to knock ~ isn't it cute?"

Si Xiqiang is not happy now, "It's not yours to be cute, so don't look at it."

Rory rolled his eyes in disgust, "You're the only one who treats him as a treasure."

Xiang Sixi ignored him, and turned to look at Wen Hao, "Teacher Tony, help me with the whole look. It's best to match Chu Zifan as a couple, but don't be too obvious, the low-key kind."

Wen Xun was caught off guard by being stuffed with dog food. Normally, the two of them could resist in the circle of friends, but now that the food was being distributed in front of him, they could only swallow it. "Then you have to wait a while, let me see what Chu Zifan is wearing first."

He watched Wen Hao go upstairs.Xiang Sixi asked Luo Rui again. "When did you change the styling team?"

"No change." Rory said, "The previous team has expired, so there is no renewal."

For an artist of his caliber, it's a big deal not to have a styling team. "what happened to you."

Luo Rui turned his chair in the other direction, with a serious expression on his face, "I plan to quit the showbiz after I finish filming this movie. So some contracts that have expired one after another will not be renewed."

Xiang Sixi is very clear about Luo Rui's situation. It's not just because of his looks that he can get from being an extra in the film and television city to where he is today.Now you say give up and give up?

"Are you really not going to act anymore? Be a full-time domineering president in the future?"

Rory smiled and shook his head, "The company will also be managed by someone."

Xiang Sixi was very surprised, and wanted to ask the reason carefully, but finally held back.

"Have you thought about it?"

"Think about it."

"Since you've made up your mind, I support your decision."

"I thought you'd at least keep it going,"

"As an adult, the decision you make must be the result of your careful consideration. As a friend, I have no reason not to support it."

Luo Rui covered his face in a shy manner, "I'm really touched." Then he said seriously, "Thank you."

Xiang Sixi remembered something again, "I haven't asked you yet, what did you and Chu Zifan say, He Fei?"

Luo Rui quibbled, "He asked An Mingye, didn't I also kindly divert his attention."

Xiang Sixi, "Is it a distraction or is it not a big deal to watch the excitement?"

"You think everyone is so bad."

Xiang Sixi slapped him on the head, "Are you still bad? There are no bad people in this world."

"Your uncle's Xiang Sixi! I only have my hair done!"

Regarding the red carpet, it has always been the home of the stars. As a behind-the-scenes staff, Xiang Sixi advocates keeping a low profile and making quick decisions.Unless there are topics that cannot be escaped, the rest of the time is free from the camera.But that's it, it's still a hot topic.It was mainly the warm-up of the new drama, there were no leading actors on the red carpet, only the screenwriter director and music director, and Luo Rui's title was still the producer.

But for the sake of publicity, there are topics to be published, and there are no topics to create topics.I just don't know what went wrong. The topic changed from red carpet styling to "all Xi" or "xi all" and heated discussions started. For a while, fan video clips and illustrations emerged one after another, and finally in the "reversible and irremovable" All parties reached a consensus on one point, and the heat finally subsided.Of course, this is all for later.

As one of the organizers, An Mingye was also at the venue, which is not surprising.The strange thing is that I don't know who doesn't know how to arrange An Mingye next to Xiang Sixi—what a joke, even a big guy like Luo Rui can be in the front row, can he arrange such a position for "Dad"? ?Don't want chicken legs anymore?

Even though the beast in his heart was running wildly, Xiang Sixi still calmly introduced each other to the ex and the current one. This could be regarded as their official first meeting.

At the beginning of the ceremony, one side was releasing the low air pressure all the time, and could ignore the "excess people", while the other side was as usual, talking and smiling, but every time he spoke in Xiang Sixi's ear, Chu Zifan The temperature over there is a little lower.Xiang Sixi is caught in the middle, feeling what is called "two heavens of ice and fire".Rory in the front row looked back at the excitement from time to time.

One third of the process went on, the award presenters on stage read Chu Zifan's name.Xiang Sixi was more excited than himself, and was the first to stand up and applaud, and took advantage of the opportunity to give Chu Zifan a hug, and left a kiss when he brushed his ear.The small movements under the eyes of everyone were inexplicably exciting and romantic, and the little awkwardness in Chu Zifan's heart disappeared with this kiss.Even An Mingye's blessing was accepted regardless of the past.

An Mingye looked at the people on the stage who were giving acceptance speeches, and then at the people around him.He said nonchalantly, "I've listened to his music, and it's not bad. He should be a good person too."

Xiang Sixi's eyes were still glued to the stage, "It's very good."

An Mingye felt like a third party, a third party who had nowhere to intervene.The person he thought would be waiting for him had already gone far away.But the self who had gone far away turned back to the original place and found that no one was waiting for him.

A little disappointed and said, "That's good."

Xiang Si hoped that he would get up and prepare to leave. "Are you leaving?"

"Well, there's still some work to do."

"Let's go together, I still have something to say to you."

When Chu Zifan came back, Xiang Sixi sent a message to Luo Rui, and the three of them left first.Chu Zifan didn't show his temper this time, and went ahead to pick up the car from the garage first.The two followed unhurriedly.

Xiang Sixi took out a bunch of keys and a bank card from his pocket.Originally, I wanted to find An Mingye today and return it to him.

"Here is the key to the apartment, and the bank card you gave me. It's still the same password, and I can't change it. I arranged for housekeeping to clean the apartment regularly, and I haven't lived in it. It should still be the same. Go back and see if there is any change." Nothing is missing. I have always wanted to pay you back, but I have no chance."

An Mingye confiscated "I gave it to you and it's yours. At that time, I was in a hurry and many procedures were not completed. When you are free, come with me to transfer the house to..."

"An Mingye." Xiang Sixi interrupted him. "I know you've helped me a lot, but I can't pay it back. But if you can pay it off, it doesn't belong to me after all, and I don't feel happy holding it."

"Sixi, in fact, I confessed to you at the beginning because I couldn't help being impulsive. If you rejected me at that time, I might just treat it as if I never said that. You are still you, and I am still me, and they have nothing to do with each other. But you responded to me, and I was both happy and at a loss. You are like a treasure I got by accident, holding it in my hand, and I can watch it day by day. From the beginning, I knew that one day I would have to leave Leaving you, so I actually have nothing to give you, money, real estate, nothing more than that."

Xiang Sixi didn't know what to say for a moment, but felt that the raised arm was a little sore, and the corner of the key was biting his palm.

Chu Zifan turned his head around, pulled over, sat in the car and watched that they didn't intend to finish, tapped the steering wheel with his index finger anxiously, turned on the stereo viciously, and turned the volume to the maximum.

"Our love can't go back, can't go back, why don't you let go..."

"..."

"..."

The singing echoed in the empty underground garage, with its own echo.Someone must have prepared the playlist in advance, and at this time, the inexplicable fit and embarrassment.

Xiang Sixi just wanted to take that embarrassing guy away as soon as no one else came.

Put the key and the card in the hands of An Mingye "thank you anyway, in any case, they provided me with a lot of help when I was in the most difficult time and needed money the most. Whether it is compensation or debt, this is enough gone."

"Our hug can't go back, can't go back, why don't you let go..."

The music continues.

"Do you have to be so clear with me?" An Mingye raised his voice a few times, "An Mingye, I've been afraid of being poor since I was a child. Let me raise my head in front of you for a while."

"We can't go back to our homeland, we can't go back, why don't you let go..."

An Mingye was in a stalemate, "Okay, I accept it. But let's not always be like strangers when we meet in the future, it's okay to say hello, right?"

"of course."

An Mingye stood where he was, and saw him get into the car without looking back, and drove past him.Leaving behind a row of exhaust gas, and singing voices that gradually fade away.

"We can't go back, we can't go back, please let go, let go..."

A black car stopped beside An Mingye, Zhuo Zhuo got out of the car and opened the rear door. "Mr. An."

An Mingye got into the car, rubbed the keys in his pocket, and gave an address.

The former lover taught us many beautiful things, material and spiritual, to decorate each other's lives one by one.The good ones and the bad ones are all reluctant to throw them away. Looking back, they all become treasures.That being the case, let's bid farewell calmly and thank him for the years he has been here.

The music has been changed in the car. It is a Korean song. I don’t understand what it is singing. The rhythm is very fast and noisy. Chu Zifan turned it off impatiently.Xiang Sixi opened it again, "Why do you turn it off, it sounds nice."

"Where does it sound, it's so noisy."

"I think it's good." Xiang Sixi hummed the only two lines that he could understand, "thisislove～thisislove～"

The lover didn't appreciate it, "No, I'm still not happy. I can't coax it."

If you can't coax it well, you have to coax it. "Then I will think of other ways."

Chu Zifan couldn't hide the smile on his face, and still refused to let go, "Think about it."

"Let's talk about something serious. Didn't you say last time that you want to take me to see your parents?"

"Um……"

"It may not work during Chinese New Year. I haven't been home for two years. I promised my mother to go back this year. So, if your parents don't mind, I will accompany you to visit them during the Lantern Festival."

"Really? You must do what you say, and you can't go back on your word."

"There's nothing to regret about this kind of thing."

"No, say it again, I want to record it."

"Childish ghost." Xiang Sixi looked at his stupid look and was speechless, "Drive hard, and be happy when you get home."

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"Can't Go Back" Xin Orchestra

"THISISLOVE" Super Junior