nowhere to be found

But he regretted it when he ran out of the hospital.

He hadn't had time to check to see if the man had a cell phone with him, but he didn't seem to have his own cell phone either.

Finding someone is a bit of a hassle now.

Perhaps, Xun is just going out to get some air, and there is no need to worry at all.

Then why is he feeling so uneasy now.

He stopped abruptly.

He seemed to want to... tell the man what was going on.

very important very important thing.

However, he couldn't remember it all at once.

He just realized that he didn't know when he brought the flowers out again.

No, it seems that he used to send Gypsophila to the hospital, only today is different.

Why did he send the flame lily today?

He couldn't remember.

After a while, he saw a cleaner in an old uniform at the gate of the hospital.

The uncle's complexion is not very good-looking, the whole person is gray, yellow, and skinny.

"Excuse me!" He called out to the cleaner.

"You didn't see a young man, 27 years old, a head taller than me, he should be wearing a gray sweater and jeans, he is quite handsome."

The cleaner was stunned for a long time when he heard him call him, but for some reason stood up agitatedly and couldn't speak.

But the old man looked at him, finally pointed to the door and said in a hoarse voice: "He... went out from here."

"Thank you!" He simply thanked and rushed out.

It was almost three or four o'clock, and he quickly walked the street looking for Xun's figure.

"After this operation, I don't know if it will be successful..." He recalled Xun who said sadly yesterday.

He understood the patient's anxiety before the major operation, so he tried to open the other party as much as possible, and after talking...

In the future, what will happen in the future?

He can't remember like amnesia.

At some point, he was standing in front of that old coffee shop.

Looking at his ordinary face reflected in the glass, he seemed to recall his own words in a trance.

"Don't give up, if your operation is successful, I will tell you something very important, it's a celebration of my 28th birthday and yours..."

So what am I going to say...

he muttered to himself in a low voice.

Through the transparent glass windows of the coffee shop, you can see that there are not many people inside, and they are all sitting in twos and threes.

He used to be here, and Xun each ordered a cup of coffee and sat in the corner by the window for an afternoon.

They will read books here.

Extracurricular, in-class, literary, romantic, boring... Occasionally they said a few words, but most of the time the two of them stayed together quietly.

But if it was someone else, Xun would chat enthusiastically, talk about the world, and give out a few praises or exclamations from time to time...

Looking at it like that, it seems to be very happy.

Sighing, he once again blamed himself for being so "less talkative".

It must be boring to stay with yourself.

That's right, at that time, you shouldn't be close to that person again.

However, it is like an inconspicuous sunflower following the sun's rays, like a small planet revolving around the sun.

He just seems to be inseparable from Xun.

It occurred to him that Pluto, the farthest planet, was not a planet.But it is still spinning around its sun in the outermost part of the solar system, and it will never stop.

He felt strange.

Something in my heart gradually became clear.

He regained his senses and checked inside, and confirmed that there was no Xun in the coffee shop.

Then the steps moved away automatically, he didn't know where he was going, and now it seemed that his feet were leading him.

As he walked, he looked up at the sky.

It's going to rain soon, and he doesn't know whether that person has an umbrella or not. Now being in the rain is not good for the operation, and it's even worse for the body.

·······

Involuntarily speeding up and running, he soon ran to the library in the city center.

He always felt that his physical strength was very good today, and he didn't feel tired after running.

I looked at the record book at the door of the security room, but there was no name I was looking for.

He turned his head in disappointment, but saw a figure.

The man looked very like, he was carrying a bag and plugging his earphones, walked lightly into the gate, and turned into the stairs.

He almost called out his name when he first saw it.

For a moment, I thought that person was Xun.

Unfortunately, that person is not.

He looked up at the library's gold-lacquered name.

At the beginning, he fought with others for the first and only time in this library.

It is to find.

At that time in the third year of high school, he deliberately "distanced" from that person, for no reason, he just didn't want to get too close.

But in the library, he saw people surrounding Xun, who pushed and shoved with displeased faces, and then cursed Xun a few words.

He was very angry at that time, and when he realized it, he had already come out from the stairs and started to beat someone, the force of the beating was so strong that his own hands were numb.

But why did you beat someone up?

What did those people say?

No longer struggling to recall these past events, his uneasiness increased when he couldn't find that person, so he turned around and ran away again.

This town is not big or small, but it is really difficult to find someone here quickly.

But he just had a gut feeling.

He can find that person.

OK·······

Just like before, no matter where that person is, his gaze will always follow that person's dazzling back.

Never found it.

Because, because of what?

·······

He couldn't stop walking, he ran all over the place where that person might go, and he felt his breathing becoming more and more short.

He went to the abandoned construction site where they used to play together, the small pond where they swam together, the field where they caught fireflies...

Every time I go to a place, the memories of the past will appear in my mind.

He thought he had forgotten it long ago, but when he came to these places full of memories again, the deep and clear pictures in his mind reminded him all the time.

He didn't forget, never forgot.

He still remembers the joy, sadness, anger, and unique peace in the past.

As the memory reappeared, every frown and smile of that person gradually became clearer and clearer, with a heart-pounding feeling.

His running speed began to slow down, but the temperature on his face did not drop because of the rest, but it became hotter and hotter.

When did it start, this feeling.

a different feeling.

It is not the favor among friends, nor the dependence among brothers.

It's more like, admiration, a kind of greed that wants to be close.

Is this how I feel about Xun?

He was puzzled.