nowhere to be found

he knows.

This kind of question will be answered in a special, special cold-blooded way.

"I won't spend too much time on things that don't bring me benefits."

In fact, this is quite in line with the selfishness in Xun's bones.

Perhaps it was caused by finding a living in a business family.

The longer he stayed with Xun, the more he could see that Xun's ambition smelt of money and copper.

But isn't that what people do nowadays?

If there is no benefit in return, who would be willing to do it?

Perhaps because of such ambitions, Xun, who was ranked among the top in the school, left the city after graduating from high school to develop outside...

Walking slowly step by step, he recalled those old events in detail.

Looking up again, he found that he could see the flower shop, so he withdrew his thoughts and got ready to get the flowers.

Find a favorite fire lily, a flower that resembles a flame.

Dozens or even more than 100 orange-red flowers gather together and look like they are really burning when viewed from a distance.

Since Xun was hospitalized, he has been buying this kind of flowers to visit Xun.

Yes, found it five years ago.

Xun has worked hard outside for six years. During that glorious time, Xun had a successful career and became a major shareholder of a company. He lived in a high-end villa in downtown Z city and drove a high-end imported car.

At that time, he was not as promising as Xun, he was only studying in school, and his parents were as poor as officials at home, so he had to earn all expenses by himself.

The poor and the rich are probably the contrast between the two of them.

He still remembered that the day he returned to City Z happened to be the class reunion, and his temperament and aura unique to successful people were particularly conspicuous.

Then, as always, he quietly watched Xun laughing and exchanging greetings with the others.

Everyone is curious about Xun, after all, they are still living the lives of ordinary people.

Everyone is curious and envious of the success stories of unusual people, and some even want to woo them implicitly.

But during the conversation, they were somewhat unfamiliar with Xundu.

Because in the few years after graduating from high school, Xun seemed to have disappeared, and he hadn't contacted anyone present.

Although 'anyone' present does not include him.

Because he has written letters to Xun and has always received replies.

It's just that what the two of them talked about on paper were all ordinary things, and they didn't mention the journey of finding success at all.

More about what I had for dinner, seeing the beautiful scenery, occasionally attaching a photo, where I live, who I hate or like...

It seems that it has always been like this, the world between the two of them is so simple.

Even boring for some.

But he still wrote letters asking these questions.

Xunya always replied without getting bored.

Could it be that I am too...ordinary and quiet.

He thought so more than once.

And other friends also said that he and Xun are two buddies, one is white and the other is black.

There is nothing like it.

Ah, except birthdays.They are children born on the same day.

At the end of the banquet that day, he went home with him again.

Although Xun proposed to send him home and revisit his former residence by the way.

Xun Ju's face was red, but he didn't look drunk.

They still walked quietly as before.

There is no need for pleasantries, and no need for chatter.

Between them, there is only silence.

It is as quiet as the autumn rain here.

On that day, the summer night in Z city was so cool that one could wake up immediately. The wind was very strong and the wind speed was fast.

Like the wind, they were home in no time.

"I found a boyfriend." Xun suddenly said.

When he heard it, he was stunned.

"Boy friend?"

"Yes, he's at my house now. He's a mixed race. I met him when I was doing business. He's quite shy. I'll bring him here for you to meet some other day."

He reacted.

Xunyes came out of the closet.

Xun He also had a few girlfriends in high school before, but they broke up not long after.

At that time, the desire to find a boyfriend really didn't show up, maybe I wasn't so open at that time.

"Okay." He smiled and nodded as usual.

Xun Ye smiled, turned and left.

But he stood there, watching Xun go away, until he couldn't see Xing's figure, he walked into the door slowly.

He has lived in this house for more than [-] years, and now his parents and younger sister have moved away and left the house to him.

He lives alone in a small, empty house.

do not know why.

Suddenly, lonely.

Still say, cold hearted.

At that time he felt that he was very strange.

Why do I suddenly feel cold.

It seems that he understood at the beginning, but now, he forgot.

Thinking of this, he has already arrived in front of the flower shop.

The door of the flower shop was wide open.

"Hello." He walked in to say hello, but found that the boss was not there.

The boss is a beautiful Yujie who is a year or two older than him.

She is really tall and big, and she especially likes to go to the next door to play mahjong. She is very strong and has a very loud voice.

People who haven't seen her may think she is a national treasure level aunt just by hearing her voice.

He looked at the empty storefront, and skillfully took out a bundle of flame lilies prepared behind the counter.

He has paid the fee for half a year, and he comes here every week to get a bunch of flame lilies or gypsophila, even the boss knows him well enough to call him a brother.

He also often chatted with her about that person.

"I'm leaving." He bid farewell to the empty shop as usual. If he was lucky, he could hear the boss and her lazily responding from the back door of the shop.

If you take the flowers, he should go to the hospital.

Xun is now in the hospital.

Life is really hard to control.

Yeah, that man from five years ago is back with a successful career and a loving partner.

But a year ago, that person suddenly fell down.

Encountered an economic crisis, that company went bankrupt, and whatever could be used to repay the debt was used to repay the debt.Almost all deposits, luxurious houses, furniture, brand-name cars...

This is probably the feeling of falling from heaven to hell in an instant.

However, there is something more unfortunate.

Sudden heart attack, after searching for life for so long, he was suddenly overwhelmed by this disease, and all kinds of diseases, big and small, entangled him.

Since then, Shin has to stay in the hospital for treatment.

He was shocked when he heard the news, how could he suddenly have a heart attack.

But at that time Xun had already been hospitalized for a month.

He rushed to the hospital, and this time he saw the man's so-called boyfriend.

That person looks small, very cute, with a Western appearance, his eyes are watery blue, and he smiles with a shy and restrained look.

He had never met this Xun boyfriend before.

Although Xun always said that he would bring it for him to see.

Because after that party, they seemed to be separated.Occasionally met on the street, simply smiled and nodded, and said a few words of the most common concern.

During those four years, he and Xun went further and further away as if they should fade away like this.

Several of his colleagues said that he has no brains, and he doesn't want to get rich when he is young and prosperous.

He just smiled and said that they have grown up and become unfamiliar.

Then other people began to express all kinds of emotions, saying that no matter how good friends are, there will be times when they are separated, people's hearts are unpredictable, and so on.

He also smiled and echoed them.

What the truth is, he himself is very clear.

Not rusty at all.

I just didn't dare to go any closer.

Two completely different worlds, two completely different people.

As before, the two of them have nothing in common except their birthdays.

But the gap between them is getting bigger and bigger.

Just like in junior high school, when he stood outside the crowd, he watched Xun sweating in the middle of the court wearing his jersey exposed to the sun, throwing one ball after another to win the enthusiastic support of the audience.

Then he was squeezed out little by little by the enthusiastic crowd. He could only watch the shadow of the ball passing in the air, and he could only hear other people calling that person's name.

In the end, just like meeting again at the party, he turned around and left without needing to approach Xun again.

The strange thing is that he clearly decided not to get any closer.

But he can't help but listen carefully to things about that person.

Seeing similar figures from the back on the road, his eyes can't help but follow them.

He always thinks about the past while doing the things he used to do together.

when that person fell.

He passed right away.

That was the first time he saw Xun's boyfriend, and the only time he saw him.

He went to the ward, and the blue eye was playing with the phone, and the game sound was loud.

He can't be blamed for this, it's really boring for him with blue eyes to stay in the hospital.

Look again.

The man just leaned on the hospital bed with a blank expression.

He took the flowers and didn't know what to say.

Ke Xun turned around and was surprised to see him coming, forced a smile to greet him.

He now forgot what he talked about that day, and it seemed that they were all the simplest trivial things in life, but...

However, that blue-eyed 'boyfriend' never appeared again after that day, leaving only a modest amount of money for medical treatment, and he left to fly away.

From that day on, he became a frequent visitor to Xunzhi's ward, and he sat by for an hour every day.

The ward is air-conditioned in winter, so he is more than happy to sit there and take advantage.

After making a pot of hot tea, he and Xun looked at their books and newspapers, thinking about the secrets in their hearts.

Xun also has a dedicated nanny to deliver food and clean up, but he always feels ashamed that he spends all day using the air conditioner and taking a rest, so he will try to bring some snacks made by himself to share with Xun.

Xun did not refuse, and said that he was very happy that he would come to see him, and invited him to come often.

And he does come often.

Although the two of them still spoke very little.

Except for that time, Xun mentioned his parents for the first time when he took the fire lily from him.

It turned out that after graduating from high school, Xun told his parents that he liked men.

Then Xun was ruthlessly kicked out of the house, and his parents severed relations with him.

It turned out that Xun didn't want to work hard on his own, but just had to live on his own.

He smiled and asked why the man didn't come to join him. Both of them were brothers who grew up wearing a pair of trousers.

I looked for him for a long time, but there was no answer.

"Do you... hate homosexuality?" Xun asked him.

He didn't expect Xun to ask him so suddenly.

But he really didn't know how to answer this question, because to be honest, he didn't know much about homosexuality.

In his heart, the combination of a man and a woman is the right decision.Although he doesn't have a girlfriend so far, it's shameful to say that he hasn't even talked about love.

With a blank emotional history, he was struggling with how to explain the principles of "love has no boundaries" and "free love" to that person.

Maybe it was because the expression on Xun's face was too strange and disturbed him too much, so he said jokingly at that time, "I come to see you every day, don't you think I'm annoying?"

Xun Ye smiled and said nothing more.

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Now that he could see the hospital, he lowered his head and rearranged the bouquet in his hand.

Can be inexplicably nervous.

In fact, he has always been surprised by his behavior.

In his own eyes, the most he had with that person was just a former neighbor with a deep friendship.

So why should he care so much about that person.

pity?

Overwhelmed with good intentions?

Or is it because of the nostalgia of living together before?

He remembered that he heard clearly why he wanted to do this, but now he forgot.

He walked through the door of the inpatient area and sighed.

Why is my memory getting worse recently?

The inpatient area was quiet, so he tried to walk as lightly as possible, and slowly turned into the stairs.

He tried hard to think about what he was going to say later.

Happy birthday?It seems a little bland.

He remembered clearly intending to say something exciting.

get well soon?Not right either.

Do you want to talk to that person about the future?

Seems a little close.

After finding bankruptcy and being hospitalized, it seems that I have given up everything, not thinking about how to get back up.

Obviously the brain is very good.He thought regretfully.

Finding him must have been a blow.

The business failed and he became poor, and his partner left him and went away. Which man would not feel lost after experiencing these.

Although Xun has not shown any special fluctuations in front of him.

However, the doctor also told Xun that before the final operation, there should be no emotional fluctuations, and the body should be recuperated to the best condition.

Should I stew a chicken soup for that person to make up for it?With that in mind, he walked slowly to the second floor.

After the operation, that person should have nowhere to live.He thought about this with worry.

Oh yes.

He wanted to tell Xunti about the fact that he wanted to invite Xun to live with him after he was discharged from the hospital.

Anyway, the place is big enough, and he doesn't charge money. .

It sounds like a good idea for the two of you to live together.

I just don't know if Xun, who is used to living in villas, will dislike his small apartment.

He knocked on the door of the ward and pushed it open.

But he only saw empty rooms and neatly made beds.

He panicked immediately.

Turning around to look at the cabinet, he saw that there were still clothes in the cabinet, so his hanging heart was half relieved again.

Putting down the flowers in his hand, he anxiously planned to find them.

It's about to be operated on, why is that person still running around, what if...

What if something happens and you die.

Nervous, he ran downstairs, only to find that the nurse at the front desk was gone.

The nurse is in charge of looking after Xun. He has been in the inpatient area for a long time, and he can't call the names of the people in the hospital, but he still knows their faces.

The more he searched, the more strange it became. Everyone here seemed to have disappeared.

Maybe there's a meeting.

He searched in and out of the entire inpatient department, but he didn't see Xun's figure.

There is no place to bask in the sun, no place to take a walk, no place to eat, not even the doctor's office.

He began to panic.

Will Xun run outside?

But surgery seems to be tonight.

After thinking about it, he ran out of the hospital without hesitation.

He had a strange feeling in his heart.

That feeling was urging him to find that person immediately.

Find him, find Xun.