nowhere to be found

He stood by the bench in Chaoyang Park, dazed.

It was noon now.

For the place where he was now was only so empty and silent at night and at noon.

He looked up at the sky, it was gloomy gray, and the horrible dark clouds were pressing against the ground, and the wild birds returning home seemed to be overwhelmed, gliding closer to the ground than usual.

It should be raining soon.

This kind of weather is the one he has seen the most and the one with the deepest impression.

Autumn in City Z is always full of rain.

But it is not the dullness of summer thunderstorms, nor the freshness of spring sun and rain, nor the ruthlessness of winter with hail.

The autumn rain here is a kind of strange peace of mind.

Raindrops are soft, light, and flowing like snow.

Warm autumn rain.

That person always described the autumn rain here.

Ah, but the weather here is actually generally benign.

The summer in City Z is very cool, and the spring is not too cold or hot. The fly in the ointment is that the winter here is very cold, because it is close to the sea, so the winter is cold and humid.

At that time, that person would always lie in bed and complain about the weather here, and when he was in a bad mood, he would scold the weather as if he had a deep hatred with God.

But he himself can accept it, because he has never had any special requirements for hot and cold sensations.

It's just that he, like that person, has a special love and nostalgia for Qiu Yu here.

Is it because I was born in the rainy autumn?

He stood for a while before he realized that he was going to buy flowers today.

Today is his birthday.

It's also that person's birthday.

Yes, they were born the same, in the same hospital, in the same ward.

Wonderful fate.

I don't know if it's because of this fate that the parents of the two of them who have never met have become friends, and even become neighbors inexplicably.

That person's parents were actually natives of Z city, but they were in business, and a large family traveled all over the world. Their parents took that person and that person's brother with them, and they were all small businesses, but they couldn't make a lot of money.

Not long after that person was born, the whole family left again.

But in second grade, they came back.

By chance, I lived next door to his house.

He heard his mother mention that person's name more than once.

At that time, he was still young and didn't understand his mother's jokes. He just knew that a strange little friend who was born on the same day as himself became his new neighbor, and there was a word "Xun" in his name.

Searching.

A word that sounds weird.When reading this word, the mouth must be pursed and the teeth clench.

He likes to use this word to call that person afterwards.

Searching.

He was the only one who called that person that way, like he called Xun Zhuo.

But when he was a child, he always couldn't pronounce correctly.

Then Xun's family officially moved in, and they invited people in the same building to have dinner together, and while waiting for the delicious food, all the little kids in their big yard gathered together.

Only at this time did he really get to know this strange "little partner".

Xun is not as tall as him, nor as "strong" as him, and his skin is a bit dark, but his eyes look particularly bright.

He felt that Xun was very similar to a cat he had raised, and he looked very clever.

"Hello!" Xun brought a lot of fruit candies to all the children when they first met.

The candies are colorful, one by one, lying in a transparent plastic bag, one by one, shining brightly in the sun.

He and the other little fur kids living around were bought off in an instant.

They all went around looking for this new guy who looked easy to bully.

You must know that these "old residents" originally planned to hunt for this "new resident".

At that time, it was normal for children to bully a new "intruder". Although they were all low-level pranks, when a child who had just changed his environment was isolated and bullied by the group, he still felt lost.

But on the first day I found it here, I used the simple method of "one candy per person per day" to solve it.

"Hey! You're the guy next door to me!"

After distributing candies, he saw Xun whispering to him.

"Let's go back together later."

He nodded.

After distributing candy, they played crazy after a large group of children.

During the short waiting time for the meal, he felt that Xunzhen was very powerful.

As expected of a person who traveled all over the world with his parents since he was a child, Xun was very experienced and had a lot of fun with a bunch of them. He came up with ideas that their peers couldn't think of at all.

Recalling this, he couldn't help laughing as he walked on the street.

In fact, he doesn't remember much of the previous games now.

I just know that I am very happy.

very free.

As he was walking, he passed a cute little girl beside him.She is wearing a butterfly hairpin, pink blue, very cute.

In her hand, she was holding a bag of candy.

It is also such a transparent plastic bag, and it is also such a colorful sugar paper.

He remembered that in the past, Xun always gave out candies when the friends gathered, and then played with everyone all day, and walked home with him after the end.

At that time, the two little kids always liked to race against the setting sun, competing for who would get home first.

He will say that whoever wins will be rewarded.

But it turned out that no matter who among them ran home first, in the end, as if by magic, he took out two purple candies from the plastic bag that should have been empty.

Xun always kept two candies, and gave him one of them.

He still remembers that when he took the candy that Xun gave him, he couldn't help laughing with a funny smile with a missing front tooth.

The two of them were born in the same year, the same month, and on the same day. They were sworn brothers from the moment they were born, just like real brothers, and they had to be treated well.

It's something they've both said to each other.

And when he was a child, his pronunciation was not accurate, and he didn't like to talk too much in front of people. Maybe he was really restrained. Every time he just nodded and took the candy from that person with a simple smile.

But the pursuit of sugar for him is different. You can say touching and happy words so simply.

In fact, when he was a child, he always wanted to tell Xun that he liked the smell of purple grapes the most.

He is very happy to go home with Xun, and even more happy to be "brothers" with Xun.

Then they started school.

Finish elementary school, go to junior high school, and then go to high school.

The two of them are really destined.

Because they have been in the same school and the same class from the second grade to high school graduation, the difference is that he was too short after the second year of high school so he couldn't complete the record of "Always and Xun at the same table".

They go to and from school together every day and really look like twin brothers.

And standing with that person, he will always involuntarily become quieter, or less present.

For he is always shining, as conspicuous and dazzling as the sun.

Like Xun's parents, Xun is very eloquent, sweet-mouthed, polite and pleasing.

Not only that, but he also has a lot of knowledge, and he can always express unique and novel insights.

Xu Shi has been running around a lot outside, and his vision is not comparable to that of other peers.

When he was in junior high school, Xuncai grew taller and taller than him.

Xun looks like his father, resolute like a soldier.

It's just that those eyes are still too clever or cunning?

If Xun laughed, it would definitely increase the favorability of other people.

Many students joked that everyone from an 80-year-old lady down to a three-year-old child can be impressed by the "charm" of Xun...

A little bit jealous, he looked up and saw the traffic lights.

It turned out that he had already crossed the park crossing.

He sighed slightly, and stood at the traffic light intersection waiting to cross the road.

Compared with Xun, he himself is not good enough. In front of people and

It was like being "pressed the mute button". In the past, apart from his family and Xun, he hardly talked to anyone else.

I really don't know how I became a teacher.

Standing at the intersection of traffic lights, he saw a lot of flowers on the ground on the opposite side of the road, as well as things like gifts and photo frames.

Who is this in memory of?

Behind him were a few passing aunts talking about something.

"Oh, just had an accident this morning. A graduate student who had just started working, ran to the middle of the road to save someone. It was broken in two."

"Ah!? Save who!?"

"A child, he really saved it, the child was only broken, but the one who saved the life, tsk tsk tsk, what a crime—"

"Hey, which family's child is really pitiful. At such a young age... what will his parents do? I don't even think about it. It's not a good thing to try to save people."

"Isn't that right, you can't rush up at this time, silly. Really. I have to teach my family well, next time don't go up to death like others. Have you heard, the last time the college student went to help the elderly about?"

"I heard, but it's not..."

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Hearing them walking further and further away, he realized that the green light was on.

Walking on the street without cars made him feel very uncomfortable.

Because of the impact of what I just heard.

To be honest, he has always struggled with saving others and sacrificing his own life.

It is said that helping others is a pleasure, and self-sacrifice is for others.

This he agrees with.

He admires those who sacrificed their lives for their students and their families.

And he always hopes that he can help others, especially children.

Perhaps this kind of "kindness" comes from the teacher's nature.

But I really want to take my own life...

He still doesn't know what he will choose.

Do you choose noble morality, or choose to be alone and stand by.