looking away

【The poison of the fruit】

You're gone, away from the heat of love.

The sun rises in the east, the sun sets in the west,

Use soft light to shine on me who is drowned in peace.

I once wanted to grow a sweet fruit with you,

But they said that it is fake if it is so sweet, and the fruit is poisonous and should not be eaten.

You're gone, away from this glacial river of love.

The sun rises in the east and the sun sets in the west

That indifferent light shines on me who will eventually slip away.

I have engraved your entrustment every time you love me in my heart,

Mixed with tears, slowly reconciled, swallowed this fruit mixed with poison and astringency.

With a hoarse throat, I sang a farewell love song.

The sun rises in the east and the sun sets in the west

Irritably hot in summer, annoyed cold in winter.

But nothing...

In memory, the joy with you is everywhere.

When night falls, I smile,

The bitter and poisonous honey fruit, like the mellow aroma of fermented rice, floated in my heart.

87.Three years

Three years later--

Xiao Fan stood in the company bathroom, making troubles at himself in the mirror.The hair fell more and more fiercely, and the only hair left was pitifully small.Every morning, I have to spend a special time to bathe, wipe and dry them one by one, so as to ensure that each of them can stand upright and fulfill the role of other people's one or two hundred hairs.

Even so, it is sometimes useless.As long as a slight breeze blows, the coolness can easily pass through those seemingly super fluffy hair.Then, the unsteady strands of hair couldn't stand the wind's teasing, and when they were lightly brushed by the wind, the ends of the hair immediately surrendered, exposing the roots, and letting the wind play tricks.

As a result, the hair that was supposed to support the facade became limp at every root.Leaning left and right, he greeted the light and the warm sun, exposing the embarrassment of his pale scalp without any cover.

The doctor said that it was caused by staying up late too hard, living an irregular life, and not keeping up with nutrition, and it was true.After returning to ZhZ City, Xiao Fan put all his energy into his work, running non-stop like a machine without temperature and tirelessness.

With Xiao Fan's efforts, the happiest person is Ning Xiaofeng.Without much effort, the company has gained a firm foothold in less than three years, and its performance has quadrupled.The headquarters greatly appreciated them, and at the same time as promotion and salary increase, they also made a promise: If Xiao Fan wanted to go home, she would be appointed as the prime minister of the three provinces affiliated to City D, representing the company to the personnel work of the nine companies in the province, Unified management of foreign-related business.Thus, Xiao Fan became the first female manager appointed by the company since the establishment of the company, with no family background or social background.

Xiao Fan walked out of the bathroom, returned to the office and just sat down, Ning Xiaofeng stepped into her office with a face full of joy, and told Xiao Fan about the company's appointment.After listening to Ning Xiaofeng's words, Xiao Fan just nodded and said, "Thank you." There was no trace of joy.

"Are you unhappy?" Ning Xiaofeng asked suspiciously.

"Happy." Xiao Fan replied blankly.

"You're so happy... you're quite restrained?" Ning Xiaofeng said half-jokingly.

Xiao Fan pushed his glasses, showed a half-smile expression and said: "'If, I want to go home', does this mean that I don't have to go back?"

Ning Xiaofeng was taken aback: "Not going back? You don't want to go back?"

Xiao Fan lowered his head, turned the watch on his wrist, and said unintentionally, "Anyway, it doesn't matter if you don't return now."

Two years ago, Xiao Fan's father finally left.During that time, the last thing Xiao Fan dared to do was to examine her own heart. She vaguely felt that besides grief, she felt an inexplicable sense of relief. This made Xiao Fan very scared, and she was deeply afraid that she would really become The kind of person who can disregard the kindness of his parents because of his own private thoughts.

In order to correct their own "mistakes".Xiao Fan made up his mind, after he settled his father's affairs, he immediately submitted an application with the company, and went back to City D to accompany his mother.But when my mother heard about it, she didn't agree.She said that there is a mother in her 90s in her hometown who used to be unable to leave her body to take care of Xiao Fan's father because of his health. This time, she wants to go back to her hometown to stay with her mother.Mom also said that as long as grandma is alive, Xiao Fan doesn't need to think about her, because she is still young, and she is still a child with a mother...

The night before Xiao Fan sent his mother off, his mother touched Xiao Fan's thin cheek and said distressedly: "Why did you lose weight again? Are you too busy and tired at work?"

Xiao Fan wrapped his mother's hand in his palm and shook his head gently.

My mother stared into Xiao Fan's eyes and sighed: "Hey! It's almost 40, so I take everything lightly. In fact, if you think about it carefully, in a person's life, except for the health of himself and his family, nothing else matters. Tighten it up. Xiao Fan, be nice to yourself, don't try too hard." She turned her head to look at the photo of her husband on the bedside, held it in her hand, and gently brushed the face in the photo with her fingers.Said to Xiao Fan in a low voice: "Man, this life is too short. When you are young, you don't understand life, and when you understand life, you get old. When you get old, your eyes don't work well, and when you can't see things clearly Undoubtedly confused, Fan, don't blame your father."

Tears burst out of Xiao Fan's eyes, she tried her best not to cry, but her body trembled with crying, after all, she couldn't hide her pain at the moment.

Mom raised her fingers to wipe away the tears on her face: "Stop crying. Your dad is relieved after leaving, and the torment of his illness is finally over. Sigh, he is just too stubborn and takes face too seriously. Your dad and I have lived our lives cautiously in the eyes and mouths of others. Xiao Fan, mom doesn’t want you to live like us. I think you can live more comfortably and happily. Than we To live a more relaxed and comfortable life. Nothing makes me happier than your happiness. I believe..." She looked down at the photo in her hand and said, "I believe, your father must Psychology also thinks so, but when he is alive, he doesn't know how to tell you."

Xiao Fan got up and knelt at his mother's feet, lying on her lap, weeping uncontrollably.In the psychology of the mother who loves her the most, common sense and recognition of fame are not worth her health and happiness.

Maybe it was the death of the father that broke the shackles, maybe it was the words of the mother that lifted the burden.Xiao Fan finally made up his mind. On the 3rd week after his father passed away, he ended his marriage that had been stalemate for 1 year and 7 months. Zhang Luyun did not keep him this time. Facing Xiao Fan's long-standing indifference, he completely lost his hope. Patience to go on.Xiao Fan has always felt sorry for Zhang Luyun in his heart, so after the divorce, he took the initiative to keep in touch with him, and the two became friends who could trust each other and support each other.In the following two years, Xiao Fan also played a significant role in Zhang Luyun's career development.

88. Fragment

"Why is it meaningless? This is a veritable reputation! You have to know, this is a position that many people can't even dream of. You just got it at 40. Isn't this meaningless?"

Looking at Ning Xiaofeng's doubts, Xiao Fan really wanted to tell him: No matter how good it is, it's not what I want.

The first thing Xiao Fan did after his divorce was to tell Liu Tong the news.After the obstacles between the two have been resolved by time, what Xiao Fan desires most is to find Liu Tong and find happiness.But no matter whether she called or sent a message by herself, or asked Lao Xie and Gao Yu to find Liu Tong, there was no reply.This person seemed to have evaporated from the world, and there was no news of him.Xiao Fan was in a hurry and ran directly to the country where Liu Tong was.With a piece of paper, the address on the gifts that Liu Tong mailed to everyone during the New Year, she fumbled to find it.

Not long after the plane landed, Xiao Fan received a call from classmate Liu Tong, "Are you Xiao Fan? I'm a classmate of Liu Tong."

Xiao Fan was excited for a while, this was the first time since she contacted Liu Tong, she came into contact with someone in the same environment as Liu Tong: "Oh, yes. Is Liu Tong there?" She asked eagerly.

"Oh, the company's car is here to pick you up. I'll send you the car number in a while. We'll talk again when you come over."

When the phone was hung up, Xiao Fan's heart was half cold.

When we arrived at the downstairs of the travel agency, a man with the same height as Xiao Fan was standing at the door with a smile. He introduced himself as Chen Guang.

"Unfortunately, Liu Tong just went to Europe. The company's docking personnel there have recently adjusted and some problems have arisen. So, Liu Tong will go over and deal with it."

"When will she come back?" Xiao Fan still didn't give up.

"Well, it's hard to say. If it goes well, it will take about a year. If it doesn't go well, it may take two to three years. The main company still wants to use this adjustment to expand its business scope. So..." Chen Guang bowed his head Picking up the teacup to drink water, avoiding Xiao Fan's direct gaze.

"So long?" Xiao Fan was completely lost. She leaned on the back of the sofa and rubbed her forehead.She suddenly remembered something, then sat up straight and asked, "She knows I'm coming?"

Chen Guang put down his teacup and smiled: "I know, she should know everything!" Chen Guang said meaningfully.

At the dinner table, after Chen Guang had a few drinks with Xiao Fan, his eyes and cheeks turned purple.He told Xiao Fan that Liu Tong's mobile phone number in China has not been shut down.She takes all messages, just doesn't reply.He also said that sometimes Liu Tong would be in a bad mood, cry, and be very silent, but it would definitely not affect his life and work.She eats and rests on time, mails ointments from China, and takes medicines on time.He said that Liu Tong once told him that she promised a person to live a good life, and she would do what she said.

Chen Guang patted Xiao Fan's shoulder at last and said, "Don't look for it, you should know her well. If you chase her closely, she will be scared away. Wait a minute, maybe one day she will figure it out. I'll go back and find you."

"Really?" Xiao Fan seemed to be asking himself.

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In the dimly lit bar, as the last bell rang, people of different skin colors raised their glasses and cheered "Happy New Year!" in unison. Whether they knew each other or not, they would stretch out their arms and hug warmly, and some of them were bolder. At this time, you can continue to drink and kiss the person you have admired for a long time.

At this moment, Liu Tong was hugged in the arms of a tall and thin man, with his head raised, his eyes slightly closed, feeling his passionate kiss.The smell of wine in this kiss is so familiar, Liu Tong searched in his mind motionless.

The camera quickly rummaged through the memory bank, and finally a clip was shaken off in the corner nine years ago.It was late at night, and most people's homes had already entered their dreams, only a few windows still had light shining through their windows.Among the only remaining lights, there was a yellowish lamp that was burning in the living room. There was no tea table in front of a large sofa under the light, but a square floor mat.There are two wine glasses on the floor mat, and a wet towel is placed next to the wine glasses... The shaking camera suddenly blurred, and after adjusting for a while, it focused on the two people lying together on one side of the mat.

They were two short-haired women. The woman on the body took off her glasses with one hand, and stroked the cheek of the person below her with the other hand. She leaned over a little bit, and the warm breath gradually covered her face and concentrated into her mouth again. ......right!It was that same kiss that smelled like wine.

"Tong..." The tall and thin man raised his head, whispered Liu Tong's name, stared deeply into Liu Tong's eyes, liked the faint blue in her eyes, liked her small nose, liked her With her thin and soft lips, I like her resolute and responsible style of doing things, and I am used to her optimistic and positive nature.Since he started working with Liu Tong, the man has been deeply attracted by this oriental woman.He held Liu Tong in his arms again, and when he wanted to kiss her again, Liu Tong gently pushed her away.

"Jacques, happy new year. I'm tired, I'll go back first." Liu Tong turned and walked out.

"Tong," Jacques wanted to hold her back, but there were too many people in the bar, he hurried a few steps and still couldn't catch up, seeing Liu Tong get into a taxi and leave.Jacques scratched his hair angrily, took out a cigarette and lit it, then picked up his mobile phone and sent a message to Liu Tong: Sorry, Tong.Forgive my inability to help, I like you very much.

When a cigarette was about to burn out, Liu Tong replied: Forget it.Happy New Year!

Jacques looked at the three words, and his chest was full of loss and frustration.

89. Yu Li

City D.

Xiao Fan was transferred back, and the company gave him a week to rest.But just two days later, she couldn't stand it anymore.Early this morning, she left home in casual clothes, planning to go around the company first.

I came to the underground parking lot filled with a smell of rust, and with the few lights, I found the car that my colleagues from the company parked here a week ago.I got in the car, started the car, and as soon as I got out of the parking lot, the phone rang.

"Xiao Fan, you're back? Damn, you still know you're back?"

Xiao Fan smiled: "Your nose is as smart as a dog's nose!"

Yue Qing had long heard that Xiao Fan would not only get a promotion when she came back this time, but also be in charge of the personnel work in the three provinces.This news made Yueqing so excited that he didn't sleep well for several days. It was God's help. Isn't the spring of Yueqing's career just around the corner?He had inquired at the company, and it was estimated that Xiao Fan would come back in these two days. Hearing Xiao Fan's voice, Yue Qing raised his voice excitedly: "It's not interesting, Lao Fan! Don't say anything in advance, so I can pick you up." .”

While driving, Xiao Fan said with a smile: "What to pick up? It's not that I don't know the way. I want to rest for two days and then find you two. Who would have expected you to call first."

"So how are you doing? Doesn't sound like you're at home?"

"I just wanted to go out for a while, and you called now."

"Hey, this is tacit understanding. If you have nothing to do, let's sit together at noon? I'll contact Li Jun."

"Row."

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"Damn, it didn't go there again." Li Jun clicked the mouse in frustration, cursing dissatisfiedly.In the competitive game hall, Li Jun has been sitting for two days.In two days, he only drank one bottle of water, ate two boxes of instant noodles, and never left his seat except when going to the toilet.People who came and went saw him playing in the dark, and they couldn't help being puzzled. After all, middle-aged people are rarely seen in such places.Many people thought to themselves: Does he have no family and no job?How could you be addicted to this for so long?

In fact, Li Jun didn't want to sit here either, but he really had nowhere to go and no desire to go.Resignation, divorce, a series of unlucky things have all collided, and now he seems to be placed in a fire, scorched and suffocated by the smoke, but unable to break free.

Sitting in front of the computer, looking at the dead character lying on the ground on the screen, he couldn't help laughing.If only I could lie down like this and never get up again.The phone on the table rang suddenly, "Li Jun, where are you?"

"What's the matter?" Li Jun went to the bathroom while answering the phone, lit a cigarette, glanced at the mirror above the washbasin, stroked his unshaven chin, and thought to himself: What a bloodbath.

"Come on, Lao Fan is back"

"So fast?"

"Stop inking, hurry up. I'll wait for you in the coffee shop downstairs in Wehen."

"Hey, hello..." Li Jun was about to say something when there was already a blind tone on the phone.Forget it, don't go home to clean up, let's just go, anyway, friends for many years don't care about his sloppiness, Li Jun thought that Xiao Fan was no better than him when he left, what a turn of events!This bad luck seemed to stick to them, and it turned around and finally it was my turn.

Start the car and drive all the way to Wyhen.

Xiao Fan flowed in the river of cars unhurriedly all the way to the company.Looking at the scenery on the side of the road, she secretly compared the changes that have taken place in the past few years.The buildings are taller, the roads are wider, there are more cars and fewer people.Compared with ZhZ City, although it lacks the breath of the times, it can still see the speed of development.

When we got downstairs of Wei Heng, we parked the car and opened the door, and saw a fat man, Yue Qing, standing at the door of the coffee shop across the road.Xiao Fan smiled, this kid really hasn't changed at all, he is dressed in gaudy clothes, glittering with gold, and his flamboyant temperament is fully revealed.

Yue Qing also saw Xiao Fan at this time, and immediately shouted, dancing and shouting: "Here, here, Lao Xiao, come quickly."

Xiao Fan waved the car key with one hand, and waved to Yue Qing with the other, and then walked along the path beside the building to the opposite side of the road.

Weiheng Business is a 27-storey office building.There are 17 companies in the building.Yu Li's current company is on the 10th floor. Usually, she never goes to floors above 10. Today, she walked into the stairwell with her head down, and looked upstairs.Holding the mobile phone in one hand, she picked up the plan she had just retrieved from the manager's office in the other, and smiled wryly: Incompetent!

Rubbish!Yes, I am incompetent!Otherwise, how could I be used by you and take the blame for you.And not once, twice, now, it has become a habit, right?

Yu Li recalled what the manager said yesterday: You must come up with a new plan before [-] o'clock tomorrow afternoon, otherwise you will bear all the responsibilities and you will reimburse the company for the economic loss.

All... all responsibility, is the problem all on me alone?It was almost noon, and even though she didn't sleep last night, the plan in her hand was still not half finished. She just went to the manager's office to ask for help, but was kicked out again by vicious ridicule.At this moment, she only felt that her eyes were dark, her throat was dry, and her chest was constricted and it was difficult to breathe.The phone rang, and my father called and said that my third uncle in my hometown was going to have an operation and wanted her to give me 5 yuan.Yu Li replied that she couldn't afford that much, and her father sighed and said, "Girl, your third uncle took the money when you were in school, but now it's hard for her, if you don't help her, you will poke us in the back... After putting down the phone, Yu Min received a promotional poster for studying abroad and a voice message from Yu Min: Sister, this is my last chance. If I don’t go again, I will never have such an opportunity in my life when I get older. up.Sister, you can mortgage the house first and help me.Don't worry, when I make money in the future, I will buy you a bigger one, I promise!

Yu Li's head was getting bigger. She walked to the roof step by step. There are still 15 floors... There are 3 floors, and 1 floor. Pushing open the iron door leading to the roof, a gust of wind The blow made Yu Li shiver.The sweat from climbing the stairs was blown dry.

Yu Li clasped her arms and walked step by step to the edge of the top floor. She leaned over and looked down. The cars on the road were so small, the people were so small, and the leaves of the trees were so small that they couldn't see clearly.She looked down at herself, put the plan at her feet, and pressed her mobile phone on the plan.

After thinking about it, she took off her black high-heeled shoes again. She rubbed her toes that were sore from being squeezed by the shoes, and thought to herself: Dad, once I leave, no one will poke your back again.Sister, once I'm gone, your dream will come true more easily.Glancing at the plan under her feet, she suddenly burst into joy: This time, let's see who of you dare to laugh at me and look down on me!This big gift I will give you at the end will definitely help you to go bankrupt.

After making up her mind, Yu Li turned over and crossed the parapet wall with a smile on her face...

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【The poison of the fruit】

You're gone, away from the heat of love.

The sun rises in the east, the sun sets in the west,

Use soft light to shine on me who is drowned in peace.

I once wanted to grow a sweet fruit with you,

But they said that it is fake if it is so sweet, and the fruit is poisonous and should not be eaten.

You're gone, away from this glacial river of love.

The sun rises in the east and the sun sets in the west

That indifferent light shines on me who will eventually slip away.

I have engraved your entrustment every time you love me in my heart,

Mixed with tears, slowly reconciled, swallowed this fruit mixed with poison and astringency.

With a hoarse throat, I sang a farewell love song.

The sun rises in the east and the sun sets in the west

Irritably hot in summer, annoyed cold in winter.

But nothing...

In memory, the joy with you is everywhere.

When night falls, I smile,

The bitter and poisonous honey fruit, like the mellow aroma of fermented rice, floated in my heart.