looking away

【beautiful hope】

graceful in that figure

Yingying his hand

the smile on that face

hard to find

The beauty is far away and condensed at this moment

shackles

Extravagant warmth approaching fettered feet

in shackles

84. No Arrogance

The wedding date is set for May.Seeing that it was less than a month, Zhang Luyun was so busy that he wished he could split it into eight pieces and use it alone. The buyer ordered furniture privately, and looked for etiquette to choose the scene. Except for the things that required Xiao Fan's cooperation, other Zhang Luyun I took it all by myself, and fell asleep as soon as I got home from being tired every day.

Originally, according to Xiao Fan's intention, the wedding was just a formality, so the simpler the better, but Xiao Fan's parents and Zhang Luyun disagreed.So, seeing that Xiao Fan couldn't stop him, he let them arrange it, but he didn't ask and didn't interfere, as if he had nothing to do with him.Although Zhang Luyun didn't want Xiao Fan to do anything for him, but now Xiao Fan's appearance of nothing to do with him still caused some emotions in Zhang Luyun.Especially in the last few dates, when Zhang Luyun wanted to be intimate with Xiao Fan, Xiao Fan refused them all.This made Zhang Luyun's mood even more dissatisfied.

Zhang Luyun thought to himself: Looking at Xiao Fan's appearance, it doesn't look like he wants to welcome but refuses.And even if it's embarrassing, it's not unacceptable to kiss her husband.Every time Zhang Luyun thought of this, he would think back to those rumors he had heard, and he couldn't help but feel a little bit drummed in his heart: Could it be that she is really lesbian?However, almost at the same time as he thought of this sentence, he would persuade himself: So what?Sooner or later a woman has to lie in the arms of a man.As long as you get married and become a mother, who cares about everything in the past?What's more, it's still with a woman.Hmph, isn't that just a game for children looking for excitement!Xiao Fan, Xiao Fan, just wait, as long as you taste the joy of being with me, I promise you will fall in love with me with all your heart.

When he was about to get off work on Friday afternoon, Zhang Luyun picked up his mobile phone and sent Xiao Fan a message: To try on the wedding dress tomorrow, I will pick you up.As expected, it took a while for Xiao Fan to reply the message: Yes.Looking at this simple word, Zhang Luyun shook his head helplessly.

Xiao Fan threw the phone aside, lay on his back on the sit-up board in the gym, stared at the group diagonally above, the multifunctional fitness machine he had just finished, and his body remained motionless.Her sweat-soaked clothes were tightly attached to her body, and the sweat beads on her face flowed down her ears and neck into her hair, and then dripped onto the board along the ends of her hair, and rolled into the ground.

After returning to D City, her father stopped letting her cut her hair short, and now it has grown beyond her shoulders.Every time he exercises, Xiao Fan will tie his hair tightly behind his head with a black hair band.Recently, in order to overcome insomnia, she will stay in the gym for two or three hours every day, and will not stop until she is almost exhausted.

After the wedding date was confirmed, Xiao Fan felt that the time had never passed so slowly as it is now, crawling by second by second, Xiao Fan was next to each other, waiting, looking forward to, but the wedding day was still like a snail crawling before him.Xiao Fan agreed with Zhang Luyun to return to ZhZ City immediately after marriage to continue working. The reason is that the company is still unstable and is in the climbing stage, and she, a start-up, cannot leave it alone.For this matter, Ning Xiaofeng flew back specially and went to Xiao Fan's home to have a detailed discussion with Xiao Fan's parents and Zhang Luyun. After explaining the indispensable importance of Xiao Fan, he said: In our two years or so, the company will be able to run smoothly.At that time, let Xiao Fan return with a reputation, and he will surely gain both fame and fortune.

For this matter, Xiao's father was originally firmly opposed to it. His plan was to let Xiao Fan have a child immediately after marriage.However, when he saw Ning Xiaofeng's sincere attitude and Xiao Fan's expectant eyes, he hesitated.

During those few nights, he tossed and couldn't sleep. Seeing him, Xiao Fan's mother was worried about his health, so she persuaded him in a low voice: "Old Xiao, you know that our child can pull a hundred cows for whatever she wants to do." Not coming back. Besides, work is a serious matter, so we can’t hold back! Besides, if it weren’t for your health this time… Sigh! Xiaofan is quite sensible. This time she I left after getting married. I don’t think Lu Yun has any objections, so why worry about it? Let her go if you want to. Isn’t it only two years, it’s not too late to come back and have a second life.” It made sense, and he acquiesced.From that day on, Xiao Fan finally showed some expressions and smiled from time to time.

"I'll be back in half a month." Xiao Fan said to Liu Tong on the phone.

"Aren't you going to travel?" Liu Tong asked.

"I've accumulated a lot of things in the company, so I won't go."

"No matter how much the company has to do, it won't be a few days. Besides, you have to worry about Dr. Zhang's feelings."

"He is also busy, and said that he is going to attend an academic exchange meeting in a hurry. Let's talk about traveling when we have time later." Xiao Fan's originally happy mood was cooled by Liu Tong's words: "Don't you expect me to go back sooner?" ?”

"How can there be? What are you thinking about?" Liu Tong said with a smile: "By the way, after I go to the wedding, I have to go home to do some things, and it may take a while. In this case, when you come back, I will I can't pick you up."

"Are you coming to the wedding?" Xiao Fan was surprised.

"Yes, such a big happy event, I must be there to congratulate."

"Liu Tong, you can't come." Xiao Fan said anxiously.

"why?"

"You ask knowingly, if you want to come, I will definitely not be able to continue acting."

"Acting? How do you mean acting? Xiao Fan, marriage is a major event in a person's life. If we want to get married, we have to get married well, and live a good life in the future."

"I understand what you said, and I will be responsible for my choice. But, but you can't use this method to test me! Liu Tong, I can't imagine how to continue calmly if I see you at the wedding. go down."

"Why can't you continue seeing me? Am I that scary?" Liu Tong joked with a smile.

Xiao Fan was in a hurry: "Liu Tong, are you trying to punish me? If this is your punishment for me, I won't say anything. Come if you want." Xiao Fan hung up the phone first, waved He punched the sandbag with a fist.

Liu Tong stared blankly at the phone for a long time, but under her expressionless appearance, her heart was crying softly: Xiao Fan, people say that the most beautiful moment is when you get married. It's because I can't hug you when you are the most beautiful, so, don't I even have the right to watch from afar?You said I was going to punish you, but I was actually punishing myself. Do you know how much courage I have to muster to face you being kissed in my arms?My heart is crying blood, can you hear me?How much I want to tell you, don't go, come back!However, that voice can only be buried in the bottomless bottom forever, by my carefully decorated expression, by my indifferent smile, forever, forever.

Xiao Fan, do you know?The wind in my ears and the rain in front of my eyes are all singing three words: I miss you.

85. Drunk wake up

In the next few days, Xiao Fan picked up the phone several times, but put it down again.She missed Liu Tong and thought it was hard to sleep day and night, but she was deeply afraid that she would be speechless when she really saw Liu Tong.In particular, what she dared not think about was how to face her if she saw her on the wedding day.

Time is like this, whether you are looking forward to it or fearing it, it will come as scheduled.On the day of the wedding, the sun was particularly scorching, and the greenery that had just emerged in the north was extraordinarily strong.

"Xiaofan is really blessed. It was windy yesterday, but today the sky is clear. God knows that Xiaofan is going to get married, so I feel better." Neighbors, relatives, neighbors, friends and colleagues all came.Everyone flocked to the bed where Xiao Fan was sitting in waves one after another like visiting animals, talking about the same content in a hurry.

Xiao Fan mechanically maintained a polite smile, and glanced at the door from time to time. She didn't know whether she was looking forward to it or fear, her heart was hanging in the air and she couldn't let it go.

Before the ceremony, sister Yu Li unexpectedly stood in front of Xiao Fan, Xiao Fan's heart tightened, and he subconsciously looked at his parents who were standing not far away.

Seeing Xiao Fan's expression, Yu Li understood the fact that she was not popular.She shook her head with a wry smile, and said to Xiao Fan in a low voice: "Don't worry, I didn't come to make trouble. We did things too much before. I know you are a lot of adults, and you never got into trouble with us. But, I You can't get cheap and act good, just pass by without saying a word. Today, I will take advantage of your big day to apologize to you. Xiao Min and I sincerely wish you a happy wedding, and hope that you will start from today From now on, stay away from beasts and villains, work and life can go smoothly, the better.”

Xiao Fan was baffled by Yu Li's words, but seeing her sincere and sincere appearance, it didn't look like there was any hostility.Since I really couldn't figure out what they were thinking, I had no choice but to express my gratitude politely. After chatting for a while, Li Jun came over and led Yu Li and Yu Min to sit down at the auditorium.

Accompanied by the music of the wedding march, the wedding ceremony began.Everyone listened carefully to the host's introduction. Xiao Fan and Zhang Luyun were side by side on the stage, and the best man and bridesmaids were on both sides.Following the trigger of the host, he echoed a few answers from time to time.Xiao Fan's eyes calmly examined every face in the audience.Just when she could almost conclude that Liu Tong hadn't come, her eyes stopped on a chair by the door, which was the furthest from the stage.

There sat a woman with dark glasses and a gray-blue canvas hat.Because he was sitting too far away, Xiao Fan couldn't see the facial features of this person clearly, but the outline of that person's figure, the movement of his arms propped on the edge of the table, made Xiao Fan feel familiar.Xiao Fan's breathing stopped suddenly at this moment, and he could clearly hear his heartbeat speeding up instantly in his ears.She stared straight at the man, her eyes almost popping out of their sockets.

"Groom, bring your bride a diamond ring that symbolizes eternal love." The host's voice fell, but Xiao Fan did not turn to face Zhang Luyun, so he removed the microphone and reminded Xiao Fan in a low voice: "Bride, The bride turns around."

"Ah, oh." Xiao Fan turned around, after exchanging the rings, when he turned his head to look again, the seat was already empty.During the whole process of the wedding, Xiao Fan failed to see that woman again.

Is it Liu Tong?Xiao Fan wasn't sure.But if it wasn't for her, why did this person disappear?

After seeing off the last batch of guests at night, Xiao Fan was so tired that he lay down on the sofa and fell asleep without removing his make-up.Zhang Luyun loosened his tie and looked at Xiao Fan, walked into the bathroom, soaked the towel with warm water, took it into the room and gently wiped the pastel on Xiao Fan's face.Xiao Fan woke up with a start, stood up hastily and said, "Oh, I'll do it myself." Then he went into the bathroom and closed the door.Holding a towel in his hand, Zhang Luyun looked at Xiao Fan's back with exhaustion in his expression.

In the middle of the night, the bright moonlight shone on the bed through the window curtain, reflecting on Zhang Luyun's sleeping face.There was some toilet paper and a used condom in the trash basket by the bed.There was no one around Zhang Luyun, Xiao Fan was wrapped in pajamas and standing on the balcony, looking at something with his mobile phone in his hand.

In the phone are a few photos that Li Jun sent an hour ago.One is dozens of empty wine bottles scattered on the ground, one is Yueqing making faces at the screen, one is someone lying in front of the hotel toilet and vomiting, and the other is three figures thrown on the bathroom floor. reflection.Perhaps Li Jun was also drunk, and the photos were all blurry, so he couldn't see the details clearly.When Xiao Fan looked back and forth, he stopped in front of the third photo.She was vomiting, and the watch on her left wrist caught her attention.She enlarged the photo and carefully identified it. Isn't this the one she bought for Liu Tong's birthday two years ago.

Xiao Fan's fingers were cold, and she quickly sent a message to Li Jun: Where is it?with who?No one answered.After turning around on the balcony a few times in a hurry, she turned and went back to the house, picked up her clothes lightly and walked out of the bedroom.

As soon as he left the house, Xiao Fan rang Li Jun's phone, but no one answered after ringing for a long time, and no one answered Yueqing's phone.After hesitating for a moment, she still called Liu Tong.The phone rang for a long time, and Liu Tong's soft voice came from the receiver: "Bride, why don't you sleep?"

Xiao Fan tried to identify Liu Tong's location from the noise in the microphone, but he couldn't hear anything except the wind in his ear: "Where are you?"

"At home. Where else can I be?" Liu Tong's voice was full of tiredness.

Xiao Fan slowed down his pace: "Oh, I thought...you'll be fine if you're at home."

"What do you think, you're dreaming in the middle of the night? Spring night is worth a thousand dollars, and time on a wedding night is precious. Don't take it blindly. Hang up."

"Hey, wait a minute," Xiao Fan hurriedly stopped Liu Tong and said.

"Anything else?"

"Well, I'll be back in three days."

"Ok, I know."

"Okay, good night."

"..." Liu Tong just hung up the phone, and the strong vomiting could no longer be held back, and several mouthfuls spewed out of his throat.toilet lid,

On the bathroom floor, it's all over the place.She sat crookedly by the toilet, leaning against the wall of the bathroom, closing her eyes and enduring the whirling in her mind.Hearing the voice, Yue Qing ran over and saw Liu Tong sitting by the toilet with his legs stretched out, his body and hands were all sticky, Yue Qing took out the phone from her hand and glanced at it: "Did Xiao Fan call? "

Liu Tong closed his eyes and did not speak.

"Hey, it's Li Jun who is blind. If you drink too much, go to bed honestly. I don't know when I sent some photos to Lao Xiao behind my back. If he didn't tell me just now, I don't know yet. .”

"How is he?" Liu Tong asked with his eyes closed.

"It's okay, just sleep. He doesn't drink much, and he gets drunk when he drinks a little, so it won't hurt him."

Yue Qing stopped suddenly, and he found blood streaks on the vomit next to the toilet seat. He turned his head to look at the corner of Liu Tong's mouth, only to find that there were also dark red stains.He was startled, quickly grabbed Liu Tong's arm, and while pulling it up, he said, "Liu Tong, no. There is blood on your vomit, you can't stand it anymore, go to the hospital."

Liu Tong shook off Li Jun's hand, lowered his head and waved his arms, then pointed to his throat and said, "No need. It's normal to vomit."

"What's normal? You have something to do, how can I explain to Lao Xiao, if you can't, go away quickly."

Liu Tong slowly opened her bloodshot eyes, and it took a long time to see Yueqing's facial features clearly. She suddenly laughed, and then she asked, "Yueqing, tell me, why am I not drunk?"

"Not drunk yet, how many hours have you been throwing up?"

Liu Tong waved his hand and said: "You don't know, I'm not drunk. I'm more sober now than ever before. I want to be drunk, so drunk that I don't know anything, I can't think of anything, I'm so drunk that no one can think about it. I don’t know. But, look at me now? Hey, I know you, I know the person lying in the room, I know her who just called, I know she’s just married, I know she’s beautiful , I know I miss her..." Liu Tong's tears flowed down her cheeks, but the corners of her mouth were still smiling, "Yueqing, she is so beautiful, have you seen it? She kept Hair, did you see it? Her eyes are so bright, she saw me with so many people at once, she stared at me for a long time, did you see it? Yueqing, will that man love her more than me? Are her parents satisfied this time? Can she really be happy? Tell me? Yueqing, tell me, how can I not get drunk..."

Yue Qing hugged Liu Tong's trembling shoulders and cried too: "Oh, forget it, let it go."

"Well, let it go."

"Go to the hospital."

"No. I'm not drunk yet."

"Ugh!"

86. Farewell

Liu Tong vomited a few more times, but he couldn't hold back Yueqing after all, and was dragged to the hospital by him and Li Jun who had just woken up.Before the drip was finished, it was dawn.

"What time is the plane?" Li Jun asked Liu Tong, handing over a glass of warm water.

"afternoon"

"Can you do this?"

"Well, it's better now."

"You say you, alas!" Looking at Liu Tong's gray face, Li Jun couldn't help feeling a little distressed.

Yueqing bought it and came back early, Liu Tong smelled the steamed stuffed bun and quickly held his breath, waved his hands away: "Hurry up, buddy."

"Ah, can't it?" Yueqing took two steps back and said, "There's porridge, would you like some?"

"Forgive me, even you smell like a steamed bun shop. Stay away, stay away, lest I spray you all over." Liu Tong said half-jokingly.

Li Jun said with a smile: "This can still be troublesome, just see you later. After a while, go to my place. Take a shower and change clothes. You won't be able to pass the security check on the plane like this."

The sound of water came from the bathroom of Li Jun's house. He sat in the living room and fiddled with his mobile phone, hesitating.In another three hours, Liu Tong will be leaving. You must know that this trip is not going back to ZhZ city, but going abroad.Xiao Fan's plan of going back and reuniting with her was doomed to fail.

While drinking yesterday, Liu Tong said: She quit her job when she heard the news that Xiao Fan was going back.Next, she plans to go abroad to help friends travel.Yueqing asked her why, and she smiled and said: "I don't have confidence in my concentration. The moment I saw her at the wedding today, I wanted to rush over and drag her away. If she really When I come back, I promise that I will immediately become a shameless and bottomless mistress without any hesitation. Hey, at that time, what is rational, what is the principle, what is right and wrong, what is the relationship, what is here with me It's nothing like a fart. In order to avoid such bloody incidents, I must expel myself."

Yue Qing raised his thumb: "Liu Tong, I believe you, you are a man. Oh no, you are more like a man than a man."

"Get lost!" Liu Tong kicked Yue Qing with a smile.

Li Jun asked: "Then, what should Xiao Fan do?"

"Her, time will take her to fix everything." Liu Tong finished drinking the wine in his glass.

Li Jun didn't ask any more questions, but he still vaguely felt that something was wrong.Is it really like what Liu Tong said, is it the best choice not to tell Xiao Fan and keep her in the dark?Are you really not letting them see this one last time?Is that right?

"Li Jun, what are you doing? You don't want to tell her, do you?" Liu Tong wiped his hair and walked out of the bathroom. Seeing Li Jun fiddling with his phone in a daze, he grabbed it to check it.

"I haven't called yet. However, I still think you two should meet. Liu Tong, you said, if Lao Xiao knew that you had come back, we would still hide it from her with you, why don't you kill us? "

"No way! Ding Tian'er complains and scolds you a few times, and she will know that you are doing it for her own good." Liu Tong put Li Jun's cell phone in his pocket, then grabbed Yue Qing's cell phone and said, "I'll do this first." It’s confiscated, and I’ll return it to you two before getting on the plane, let’s go and have a drink.”

"Still drinking?" The two said in unison.

Liu Tong smiled, picked up the key on the table and said, "Toutou, I have to sleep when I get on the plane."

"Damn, isn't it good for you to take sleeping pills?" Yue Qing completely surrendered.

"Can the medicine be taken casually?" Liu Tong smiled and pushed Yueqing out of the door and said, "Just drink some beer, I'll scare you. Let's go."

At the airport, Li Jun watched Liu Tong wave his hand and left the security checkpoint.He looked at Yueqing and sighed: "Let's go. After sending this ancestor away, we still have to face that master."

Yueqing suddenly covered his stomach: "Oh, oh, no, I have something wrong with my stomach. Then what, you go first, it's convenient for me to go, and I'll take a taxi back later."

Li Jun smiled, and Yue Qing, the host, said on his neck: "That's not good, you pull yours, I'll wait for you for as long as you want. Do you want me to accompany you?"

Yueqing failed to make a plan, so he straightened up and said: "No need, just for a while. It doesn't hurt so much now, let's go." Li Jun looked at Yueqing with a smile and shook his head helplessly: "Your trick How many years have you been with me? You can't change it."

In Maoer Cafe, Xiao Fan was sitting with his back to the door.Li Jun and Yue Qing faced her, with their heads down, fiddling with the coffee cups in their hands.

"Has she been back?" Xiao Fan didn't seem surprised after hearing what the two said.

Yueqing replied: "Yeah. I drank all night, and finally vomited blood foam..." Li Jun touched Yueqing with his leg, and didn't let him say any more.

"She wants to go abroad?" Xiao Fan seemed to be asking himself.

Li Jun said: "Xiao Fan, Liu Tong wants you to live a good life."

"She thinks, I can?" Xiao Fan clenched his hands tightly.

"You are married..." Li Jun blurted out.

"I," Xiao Fan lowered his head speechlessly. "She's so ruthless, she didn't even let her see her face, so she just left."

Yue Qing said: "She is also doing it for your own good. Just you two, as long as you meet, something will happen. Then it will be even more difficult."

"She's gone, what's the point of me going back?" Xiao Fan asked himself in a low voice. "She's gone, what's the point of my waiting? She's gone, what's the point of my being alive..."

Li Jun was stunned: "What are you talking about? Old Xiao. This is not like you. What is life meaningless? Your parents have raised you for more than 30 years, and this is meaningless for you. What about your career? What about your ideal? What about your pursuit? Why, Liu Tong will be gone after he leaves. Let me tell you, don’t try to get into a dead end."

"That's right," Yue Qing continued, "Don't let your buddies look down on you. Besides, even if Liu Tong leaves, it's not like he won't come back. Do you hope that she will see you devastated when she comes back?"

"Hmph, I guess, according to Liu Tong's character. If you see you are decadent for her, you will definitely not be able to feel pity and love. She is only interested in the strong. At that time, she will no longer have to hide She didn't feel it when she was sitting across from you." Li Jun followed suit and fanned the flames.

Xiao Fan's eyes gradually lit up: "She told you that she will come back?"

Li Jun and Yue Qing looked at each other, and then said in unison: "Of course, otherwise she will stay abroad for the rest of her life? Come back, definitely come back, and then you will see each other."

Xiao Fan nodded, and made up his mind: OK, as long as you come back.No matter how many years, I, Xiao Fan, will wait!

The author has something to say:

【beautiful hope】

The gracefulness in that figure,

Yingying his hand.

The smile on that face,

Shanshan is hard to find.

The beauty is far away and condensed at this moment,

Shackles full of hesitation.

Extravagant warmth approaches fettered feet,

It's hard to save.