looking away

【Let's go】

Don't be embarrassed, okay?

Leave a good ending.

Don't cry, okay?

Erase loveless memories.

Don't look back, okay?

Love poems are already rolling in the sand with the sound of the wind

I stand there smiling looking at you

let's go

The setting sun urges people to leave

regret no love pillow dream

81. Engagement

On the fourth day after his father was discharged from the hospital, Xiao Fan met Zhang Luyun's parents.

On the tenth day, Zhang Luyun booked a hotel for the engagement ceremony two days later.

In the past few days, Xiao Fan, who didn't talk much, seemed more and more silent. No matter where she was, she would be like air, and it was easy for people to ignore her existence.She carried out her parents' request step by step, without any rejection or suggestion.After all, the mother couldn't bear to see her, and secretly said to her wife: "It seems that Xiaofan is still unwilling, don't we..."

"Is it something?" Dad's eyes widened. "Did you interfere with her? Forced her? Huh, I tell you, I just interfered. She is different from others. She is obviously short-sighted in finding a partner to marry, which is a disability! Things she can't do No matter who is in charge of parents? If we don’t help her, are we going to let others see her jokes? Let me tell you, this matter is settled like this! It can’t be wrong.” Mother sighed and nodded slightly .

After returning to City D, Liu Tong would spend some time chatting with Xiao Fan every day.Sometimes I ask about the situation of the family on this side, and sometimes I talk about the trivial matters of life on the other side.

Once, Xiao Fan couldn't hold back after all, and asked her why she called Zhang Luyun.On the other side of the microphone, Liu Tong paused for a while, and did not answer Xiao Fan's question, but said, "Xiao Zhi is here. She and Gao Lingling seem to be planning to have a bar. Lao Xie is helping them find a place these two days."

"Really." Xiao Fan waited for Liu Tong's next words.

"In the past few days, Xiaozhi and I have talked a lot. Xiao Fan...family is the responsibility that must be faced. If you can't escape life, you can only rush in calmly and bravely. As for me, the least What I hope to see is: Among the reasons that hinder your calmness and bravery, there are my factors."

"What does it mean to hinder me from being brave? What does it mean to have you?" Xiao Fan asked.

Liu Tong continued to avoid her question, and said to himself: "Xiao Fan, compromise is the only way we must go now."

Xiao Fan was startled, and asked helplessly in a low voice, "You know I'm engaged, right?"

Liu Tong suddenly raised his voice: "Engagement is a good thing. Uncle and aunt must be very happy. That buddy Zhang Luyun is a nice guy, and he should be able to live a good life. Oh, by the way, I forgot to tell you, I have a friend who is doing it abroad. Travel business, asked me to play, said several times. I plan to take advantage of this time is not busy, go to his place for a few days. So, I will not go back to join in the fun of your engagement ceremony! Wait for the wedding day, I'll be there to congratulate you."

"Liu Tong, aren't you angry? Why don't you lose your temper? Why don't you scold me? You..." Xiao Fan suppressed his already choked voice. Over the past few days, she has accumulated almost all the sadness, sadness, depression and grievance in her heart. It's about to erupt.In the past few days, what she wanted to hear most was Liu Tong's voice, but she was most afraid of hearing Liu Tong's voice.She knew that no matter how wronged and depressed she was, the last person she should confide in was Liu Tong.

For this marriage, Xiao Fan has no right to demand Liu Tong's understanding, no right to extravagantly expect Liu Tong's tolerance, and he knows that he should not shamelessly expect Liu Tong's comfort.

Xiao Fan reminded himself with his last rationality.At this moment, the most important thing she should do is to deal with the villain to the end, to be consistent with the outside, and to have no room for it.Only when she clenches the sharp blade tightly with the hands that have caressed Liu Tong countless times, and then stabs viciously into Liu Tong's heart, can everything really pass.And all of this is the best choice to cut off the relationship between the two.It is the best choice for Liu Tong to hate him and leave without nostalgia.

Xiao Fan secretly reminded himself, don't cry, who is crying for?To whom to cry, to this victim who was hurt by oneself?She gritted her teeth secretly, and changed into a lazy, contemptuous, and disdainful tone again: "But it's okay, I can save a lot of trouble if you don't lose your temper. Break up, are you familiar? It's my turn." Yes. Once for you, once for me, fair."

Liu Tong on the other side of the microphone did not respond for a long time, Xiao Fan's heart shrank to one place nervously.She didn't know how she expected Liu Tong to answer herself, and how Liu Tong could face herself after the heartless and unjust words she just threw out.

"Oh!" Liu Tong sighed deeply, and she said softly, "Why bother?" Then she hung up the phone first.

Only Xiao Fan was left with stiff arms, holding his mobile phone and froze in place for a long while.

The engagement ceremony was simple and not many people were invited.There are less than 20 parents and relatives of the two families, plus a few good friends.Zhang Luyun booked a private room in the hotel, where everyone sat at a round table.

During the dinner, Xiao Fan watched his father who had just been discharged from the hospital raise his wine glass, and hurriedly stepped forward to stop him.But Zhang Luyun was one step ahead of her, and took the wine from Father Xiao's hand: "Uncle, may I change a glass of champagne for you?"

Xiao Fan looked at Zhang Luyun's thoughtfulness, and recalled a conversation they had in the coffee shop the night before.

"Xiao Fan. I know about the engagement, you probably did it to obey your uncle's wishes."

"Yes, why did you agree to the engagement?"

"Because I really like you very much. Xiao Fan, we have reached the age where we should not pursue perfection too much in everything. Although consensual marriage is enviable, I think the long-term lovesickness after marriage is even more touching. I have thought about it carefully. , in order to achieve the latter with you, I am willing to take a step back."

"Marrying me is a choice to take a step back?" Xiao Fan casually grasped the ambiguity in the words.

Zhang Luyun shook his head and said, "It's a step back to allow you to use me as a condition to comfort your parents; it's a step back to agree to the marriage knowing that you don't care about me; it's a step back to walk into a game with you with my parents' expectations." A future without a plan is a step back. I am using a lifetime commitment to gamble on happiness that is currently invisible.”

Xiao Fan was speechless by Zhang Luyun's words, she lowered her head and said lightly: "Do you regret it? You can choose to quit."

Zhang Luyun smiled and said: "I never regret the decision. Besides, who knows what will happen in the future? Xiao Fan, I have a hunch that life may favor me. Looking back after a few years, your decision, I The choice will be the most correct."

Xiao Fan looked at the smiling Zhang Luyun, and the gleam in his eyes suddenly went out.

At the engagement ceremony, Xiao Fan obeyed his father's order and changed the suit into a skirt. His father, who doesn't like taking pictures, took Xiao Fan and Zhang Luyun to take many photos.That night, the old man, who never played with his mobile phone, even posted a circle of friends for the first time: the photo is a group photo of Xiao Fan holding Zhang Lu Yun's arm.The text reads: Daughter Xiao Fan is engaged today, and will live a happy life with her son-in-law.

82. Interlude

Liu Tong hung up the phone and walked to the balcony.Lighting a cigarette conveniently, I recalled Xiao Fan's words in my mind: You take me once, it's fair.The voice lingers, lingers, floats, floats, and refuses to leave for a long time.

Liu Tong knew that Xiao Fan just wanted to save himself from being too sad.She smiled faintly and thought to herself: How can this idiot who is so hard to hate be so kind.Her childish stupid remark will only make people feel more distressed about her situation.

well!Life is really bullying honest people, but it just made her encounter so many things that go against her nature and she has to obey.In the hardships of life, Xiao Fan has more unspeakable grievances than others.

After a few puffs of smoke, the cigarette has gradually burned out.Liu Tong tightened the windbreaker draped over her shoulders. The coolness of the night reminded her of the season when she first met Xiao Fan many years ago.Scenes from the past, accompanied by the awakening of memory, reappeared clearly in front of my eyes.

The girl who forced herself to go to the hospital, the girl who packed her bags with a cigarette in her mouth, the woman who kept herself drinking and smoking to stay up late, the lover who imprinted kisses deeply in her tears... Before you know it, the sky is dawning.

Liu Tong threw a lot of cigarette butts around him.Facing the ray of dawn in the distance, she said to herself: Xiao Fan, I have known you and loved you in this life, it is worth it.

The night Xiao Fan got engaged.Yu Li, who never contacted, sent Liu Tong the second photo after so many years: a screenshot of Xiao Fan's father's circle of friends.

Liu Tong frowned. Although he had already prepared himself mentally, he still felt uncomfortable when he saw the photo with his own eyes.What bothered her even more was the person who sent the photo, Yu Li, a woman who seemed to have a unique ability, always buzzing and flying out when people were about to forget her.Liu Tong couldn't figure it out, why he couldn't figure out the relationship with her, could it be that there was some evil relationship in his previous life?

Liu Tong scolded in his heart for a long time, and finally he took the initiative to call Yu Li.She was afraid that if she ignored it, Yu Li would harass Xiao Fan because she had nowhere to vent.

The phone rang for a long time and no one answered.When Liu Tong was wondering, the reminder sounded for the WeChat video invitation.After connecting, Yu Li's delicate and cold expression appeared on the phone: "Why do you want to find me?" Her question did not look like she just sent a photo to Liu Tong.

Liu Tong smiled and asked, "How are you?"

Yu Li tilted her head, seemed to think for a while before saying, "It's okay, how about you?"

"I'm fine too." Liu Tong replied while thinking: Yu Li is suspicious, sensitive, and very smart at the same time.So it’s best not to beat around the bush when talking to her. Once she detects that you are tempting, she will immediately set up a defense line. Once you try to reason with her at that time, it will be basically hopeless.

Thinking of this, Liu Tong said sincerely in a serious and peaceful tone: "I saw the photo, thank you for telling me."

The corner of Yu Li's mouth twitched, she curled her lips and said, "Thank you? You said thank you? Well, you're welcome. How are you feeling now?"

Liu Tong kept a calm tone and whispered, "I'm in a very bad mood right now."

Yu Li's expression instantly eased, because she heard what she most wanted to hear: "Hmph, you deserve it if you're not good. You asked for it."

Liu Tong lowered her head, and from the screen, she seemed speechless to Yu Li's words.

Yu Li glanced at Liu Tong, feeling somewhat sympathetic: "Did you know beforehand?"

Liu Tong didn't speak, just nodded.

"Know? What's the use of knowing. You were blind at the beginning, so you chose her. Two years ago, I sent you a photo, but you didn't see it. What did she do behind your back? You Fortunately, I don’t know what ecstasy soup I was poured into, and I turned around and rolled with her again. Humph, this time it’s okay, after having fun with her, she patted her ass and got married! What about you? Who cares? Look As her father said, live a happy life! She has gone to live a happy life. If you mess around to the end, it will be considered an episode."

"Yu Li" Liu Tong raised his head slowly, and said seriously: "I want to tell you something, can you help me keep a secret?"

Yu Li was startled, and then said, "Of course, you can tell."

"It wasn't Xiao Fan who left me, it was I who dumped him."

"what?"

Liu Tong took a deep breath and said, "Yu Li, I think you really care about me, that's why I told you. I haven't told anyone except you."

This opening remark was not intended to be Yu Li's favorite, she straightened her posture, and nodded solemnly.

Then, Liu Tong first told Yu Li what happened back then, and then said: "Xiao Zhi first found Xiao Min, and then you took pictures and sent them to me. We all know these things from the beginning to the end. Xiao Fan and I both feel that you It must be for the purpose of protecting me, so she is not only not angry, but also very grateful for your concern for me. "

Liu Tong emphasized his tone and continued: "Xiao Fan also told me that Yu Li is a clear and sensible person. We use Xiao Min to deceive people, which is definitely not in line with your always open principles of life. So you It's normal to be emotional and unhappy." Speaking of this, Liu Tong paused for a while, and then said in a more earnest tone: "Xiao Fan has always admired your straightforward and open personality, so she always felt that in this incident back then, she There was a debt. Therefore, when Xiao Min came to ZhZ City, Xiao Fan really did his best to take care of Xiao Min and help Xiao Min. He not only took her to live in his own home, but also contacted the leaders of related units to help her prepare Application materials."

Liu Tong's words took Yu Li's intentional incident as a matter of course.After Yu Li listened, she didn't know how to answer the conversation for a moment. She fiddled with the ends of her hair, looked sideways out of the phone screen, and listened quietly.

Liu Tong continued: "As for me, I really have to apologize to you. When Xiao Min came to ZhZ City, my health was at its worst. So, apart from treating the girl to a meal, I didn't do anything else. Yes. Sigh, as her sister's friend, I'm really not qualified." Liu Tong deliberately wiped out the matter of Xiao Min chasing Xiao Fan.

83. Notoriety

"Are you sick?" Yu Li stared at the screen and asked.

"Well, Xiao Min didn't tell me when I went back? Oh, it's no wonder, my sister may not know, and Xiao Fan and I didn't tell her clearly."

"What disease? Are you feeling better now?" Yu Li asked with concern.

Liu Tong slowly opened the neckline, exposing a large scar on his chest, and said, "It's okay, that's it. But it's not so uncomfortable now. The saddest time was the six months before and after Xiao Min came, every ten days I had to go to the hospital, and then I was stabbed like a hedgehog, and then I came back to stand up. Hehe," Liu Tong continued the crime he committed in D City to ZhZ City, and described the tragedy at that time with emotion .

Yu Li's expression changed from surprise to doubt, from sympathy to pity: "Looking at your usual spirit, no one would have committed so many crimes."

Liu Tong nodded and said, "Isn't that right? People don't have smooth sailing. They look good on the outside, but there may be hardships behind them."

Hearing this, Yu Li snorted, pouted her lips and said: "Not necessarily, I don't think Xiao Fan is sad. If you want the wind to get the wind or the rain to get the rain, the scenery is as good as you want." This sentence is true. It reveals the real reason why Yu Li has been dissatisfied with Xiao Fan for so many years.

In her eyes, Xiao Fan is the darling of the world. Not only is he tall, good-looking, and in good shape, but he also has an enviable job and a warm family.Yu Li couldn't figure out why there was such a big difference between the same human beings?

Why can Xiao Fan get whatever he wants?Why do so many people like her and love her?Why can she get everything that others have tried so hard to get?How could she get Liu Tong?Why didn't she cherish it when she got it?Why should she abandon this woman who she couldn't even dream of?

Why can she get married if she wants to?Why can she still marry such an outstanding man?Why?Why?Why?Why is the life that Yu Li dreamed of being easily possessed by such a woman?That's why she hates Xiao Fan, because in her eyes, Xiao Fan's existence is just a symbol to despise her, belittle her, despise her, and laugh at her.At the same time, she hated Xiao Fan because in her fantasy, Xiao Fan occupied Liu Tong, her life, and her love that should belong to her.

Liu Tong glanced at Yu Li and asked, "How do you know that she is going to be like the wind and the rain?"

"Isn't it?" Yu Li raised her eyebrows and asked back.

Liu Tong knew that the key point of the conversation had arrived.In order for Yu Li to let go of her prejudice against Xiao Fan, she must first let her know that Xiao Fan has no hostility towards her. After completing this step, she must also weaken Xiao Fan's advantages and highlight Xiao Fan's disadvantages.Because, only when Xiao Fan is unbearable can Yu Li feel balanced, and it is possible for her to let go of her paranoia and opposition to Xiao Fan.

Liu Tong sat up straight, put his mobile phone on the table, lit a cigarette with his free hand, took a sip, and said, "She looks good, but she's actually having a miserable life. Yu Li, your mother passed away. It's been a few years."

"Ah."

Liu Tong continued with a voice squeezed between his teeth: "Xiao Fan's father, like your mother, has a heart attack. He is most afraid of getting angry. Why do you think she got married? This year alone, her father has been hospitalized three times. Xiao Fan is afraid that her father will leave again because of her."

"Her father knows?" Yu Li asked in surprise.

"There is no impenetrable wall." Liu Tong knew that Yu Li was still filial, so starting with her parents would definitely win her sympathy.

Liu Tong smoked and continued, "You said she went smoothly, but you didn't know that she was almost kicked out of the company, right? She is a child of an ordinary family with no background and qualifications, and she has been working in the company for more than three people. , basically work overtime every day. Just like this, because I can’t get along with people, I offended the villain, and I couldn’t get along in the end, so I had to stay away from my family and go to work in an unfamiliar city of Zzz, and start from scratch here. No matter how difficult it is, she was begging everywhere like a grandson to make a living." Liu Tong said as he got up and poured himself a cup of tea.

Liu Tong's words were slightly modified in the real situation, and slightly exaggerated emotionally.But it immediately resonated with Yu Li, who had a similar experience.

"Hmph, the world is as black as crows. The bosses of those companies are vampires, and no one treats people as human beings! Alas, I thought Xiao Fan was the same as them, but unexpectedly, he is also an unlucky victim." Yu Li muttered in a low voice.

"Well, she is unlucky enough. In fact, the main reason for her back is because of her own faults. Too bad! If you want to find a way, you have to go to the dark. It's like this in work, but it's also like this in love. Can I have one?"

Liu Tong put his face close to the screen, with an expression filled with righteous indignation: "Just take the fact that she came to me after she came to ZhZ City, it is simply inexplicable. You said, I broke up with her when I left D City, Why is she still looking for me? Besides, I already had someone here at that time. Oh, yes, your sister also met Gao Yu who is 11 years younger than me. When Xiao Fan came to see me , we are already living together."

"What did you say?" Yu Li was a little confused for a moment, "But Xiao Min said, you are with Xiao Fan."

"Hey, don't listen to me in a hurry. After she found out that I already had someone, she fell into a depression. She drank, fought, and even hurt herself. Hey, you said she squatted downstairs in my house every day waiting for me. I'm sorry Go ahead, it annoyed me enough, I asked her what she wanted to do, but she didn't speak, she just stared at her like a dumb person and shed tears. Alas! It turned out to be a good thing, my little girlfriend was killed first. She was frightened, said she didn't dare to play with me, and moved away voluntarily. As for me, I also felt sorry for her at the time, so I walked with her again. When Xiao Min came, we were just together."

Yu Li stared blankly at Liu Tong: "You don't like her anymore?"

Liu Tong smiled: "If you like it, there will be nothing later. After we were together, I was not idle, and I still had a relationship with my little girlfriend. After she knew about it, she played for a while, but she didn't trick me. Son. Until this year, we had a company reunion. I had a good time, so I drank a few more glasses, and then went to the hotel with a vice president of the customer unit. A hotel entertained customers, but she was blocked! This time she was completely upset, and she was so angry that she moved out that night."

"What?" Yu Li's thoughts were gradually frozen, and her ears were buzzing, making it impossible for her to hear every word of Liu Tong.

"Hey, I guess she got engaged so happily this time. Maybe it has something to do with this matter."

"How can you still laugh? She, how kind is she to you?" Yu Li had already forgotten who she originally hated.Now she only felt that Liu Tong in front of her was disgusting.

"She is willing, and I didn't ask her to be nice to me. She shouldn't have come, and she shouldn't have come to me when she came. Why bother. Huh!" Liu Tong lit a cigarette, and his tripod was lifted up. The table where the phone was placed was shaking slightly.

Yu Li looked at Liu Tong's expression in front of her, as if she didn't recognize her: "But you just said, you think she is in a bad mood to get married?"

"Of course I'm in a bad mood, but it's not because she's married. I'm because I've been too boring recently. After Gao Yu's mother came here, she stopped playing at all. People who used to hang out with each other also Ignore me. The vice president’s wife is pregnant, and he took the initiative to transfer back to TW and didn’t contact me. It’s so boring! Hey, I just saw you send a photo, and I suddenly thought of you.”

"What do you think of me?" Yu Li felt a chill on her back.

"Yu Li, how are you? I've always been thinking about me. Why don't you come to ZhZ City while I'm free recently? Let's play together?" Liu Tong had a smirk on his face.

"Playing?" Yu Li was so angry that she didn't know what to say.At this time, the part of her sealed memory suddenly exploded.Liu Tong's unfocused, unreliable, and irresponsible reuse many years ago flooded into his brain.Yu Li didn't know many people in the circle in D City, but almost everyone had a bad impression of Liu Tong.She also remembered that at a party, someone mentioned Liu Tong and Xiao Fan, and everyone she knew said Xiao Fan was blind!From today's perspective, all this turned out to be true.

Yu Li secretly hated her eyes blinded by hormones, hated how she could ever have feelings for such a shameless person.She said fiercely to the screen of the mobile phone: "Liu Tong, if you want to play tricks, you are looking for the wrong person. I take back what I said before that you are only looking for Xiao Fan when you are blind. Now it seems that it is not you who are blind, but I am blind, she is blind, we are all blind, we are all deceived by your appearance in human skin. Liu Tong, from now on you are you and I am me, we don’t need to contact any more.”

After the video was hung up, Liu Tong exhaled a long breath, looked at the clouds in the sky in the distance, and showed a wry smile.

The author has something to say:

【Let's go】

Don't be embarrassed, okay?Leave a good ending.

Don't cry, okay?Erase loveless memories.

Don't look back, okay?

Love poems are already rolling in the sand with the sound of the wind

I stand there smiling looking at you

let's go!

The radiance of the setting sun urges people to leave,

It is a pity that there is no love pillow dream.