looking away

【short】

a few thirty thousand

narrow years

with his wishes

feel at ease

Short

shallow abyss

Conformity

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78. Hospital

In the early morning, the plane landed steadily in D city.Xiao Fan walked out of the airport quickly, not far away, Li Jun was already waiting at the exit.

Sitting in Li Jun's car, Xiao Fan didn't say a word.Li Jun glanced at Xiao Fan, and said comfortingly, "The old man is in much better condition now."

"En." Xiao Fan kept staring out the window.

"She didn't come back with you?" Li Jun asked.

"Ah."

"Alright, it's more troublesome to come back." Li Jun asked himself and answered. "Well, Mrs. Zhang is really nice. This time it's all thanks to him. When the old man was admitted to the hospital, he was on duty, taking pictures and going through the procedures to find a doctor... He was busy and saved a lot of detours. Oh , By the way, he has prepared a batch of good medicine from the superior hospital, this medicine is really good. Seeing the old man..."

"Got it." Xiao Fan interrupted Li Jun suddenly, frowned and closed his eyes.

Seeing Xiao Fan's irritability, Li Jun closed his mouth and stopped talking.

When the car arrived at the hospital, as soon as Xiao Fan got out of the car, he saw Zhang Luyun standing at the door of the hospital and waving to her.She nodded and turned to open the trunk of the car.In the suitcase is a gift that Liu Tong prepared for Zhang Luyun for himself.Staring at this gift, Xiao Fan's heart seemed to be poured with a glass of strong wine, burning hot.

"How many things? I'll help you get them." Li Jun saw that Xiao Fan didn't move for a long time, and walked over.

"Ah, not much." Xiao Fan closed the trunk and walked towards Zhang Luyun with the gift.

"Just arrived? Are you tired?" Zhang Luyun greeted Li Jun with a smile, and then asked Xiao Fan.

"It's okay. This is for you." Xiao Fan pushed the gift into Dr. Zhang's arms, and walked around him to the elevator.

Zhang Luyun was startled, looked down and saw the things in the bag, then smiled.He caught up with Xiao Fan and said, "I just said it casually last time, do you still remember? The last time I went to the ZhZ market, I saw that this tea was sold on a consignment basis, so I bought some. No, just finished drinking it, so you take it with you Came back. So timely."

"En." Xiao Fan looked up and saw that the elevator light stopped on the 7th floor for a long time and did not go down.

"Thank you!" Zhang Luyun continued.

"You're welcome. Is my mother there?"

"Oh, it should be here." Zhang Luyun looked down at his watch. "But at this time, maybe it's time to go get dinner. Xiao Fan, uncle knows you're coming back today. Although he didn't say anything, I think he's quite happy."

Stepping out of the elevator, Xiao Fan stood in front of the door of Ward 1013.She took a deep breath and pushed the door open.On a hospital bed near the window, Father Xiao leaned against the head of the bed wearing glasses and reading a book.Hearing someone coming in, Father Xiao looked over the glasses. The moment he saw Xiao Fan, Father Xiao's eyes first flashed with excitement, then hesitated for a second, and finally recovered. To the initial calm.

"I'm back." Father Xiao said.

"En." Xiao Fan's voice was trembling, she stared at her father's white hair, at the protruding blood vessels and veins on the back of his old hands, and the pre-buried needles were placed between the veins and blood vessels in an eyesore.Under the increasingly thin cheekbones, sunken cheeks, a pair of oversized eyes stuck on the bridge of the nose covered with fine folds, blocking the sharp eyes that were once so sharp.Xiao Fan's tears were about to spill out of the corners of her eyes, she turned and left the ward, squatting at the door and crying silently.

Zhang Luyun was about to go out with Xiao Fan, but was stopped by Li Jun. "You accompany uncle, I will go."

As soon as he went out, he saw Xiao Fan squatting at the door with an expressionless but tear-stained face.Li Jun put his hand on her shoulder and patted her lightly: "If you want to cry, you have to change the place. Auntie will be back in a while. If she sees it, you should be sad."

Xiao Fan quickly wiped away his tears, stood up and strode into the bathroom.When I came out again, I happened to meet my mother who had come back from cooking.

"Xiao Fan, when did you come back? Have you seen your father?" When the mother saw Xiao Fan, her face was filled with excitement and joy.

"Well, see you. Mom, get it for me." Xiao Fan took the lunch box from his mother with one hand.He wrapped his arms around his mother's shoulders and kissed her forehead affectionately.

"Oh, this kid." Mom smiled awkwardly and pushed Xiao Fan, "He's over 30 years old, and he doesn't seem to have grown up yet. Li Jun, don't you guys have eaten yet? I'll call again share."

"No, no, auntie, don't be too busy. My company still has something to do. I'll leave after delivering Xiao Fan."

"Ah, don't you want to eat? How can you be so busy this early in the morning? Let's go after eating, or, Xiaofan, why don't you accompany them to eat? Dr. Zhang probably didn't eat either... ..." Seeing his mother thinking about this and taking care of that, Xiao Fan suddenly felt that this moment was very fulfilling in his heart.She turned her head to look at her father sitting on the bed, and happened to collide with his father's eyes.The four eyes met, one seemed to be asking something, and the other seemed to be telling something.

"Oh, let's all go? Auntie told you, breakfast is very important, you must not skip it. Really, I have troubled you so much, you don't even eat a meal, Xiao Fan, Xiao Fan, you send Xiao Zhang and the others ..." Mom said while tugging at Xiao Fan's hand, and took the opportunity to wink at Xiao Fan.Xiao Fan snorted, and reluctantly sent the two of them away.

Li Jun went out and said to Xiao Fan: "I have to leave quickly, the company really has something to do. Call me if you have something to do here."

"Okay, thank you buddy." Xiao Fan patted Li Jun's arm.

Li Jun smiled: "Aren't you superfluous, which one of us is with whom. Doctor Zhang, I'm leaving first, and I'll treat you to a drink another day."

Watching Li Jun walk into the elevator, Xiao Fan asked Zhang Luyun, "Aren't you leaving?"

"I have a consultation today."

"Then, let me treat you to breakfast." Xiao Fan remembered the look in his mother's eyes.

Zhang Luyun smiled: "Let me invite you, I know this place well. Wait for me to change clothes."

Xiao Fan was waiting in the lobby on the first floor, and after a while Zhang Luyun also came down, holding a men's down jacket in his hand. "Put it on, it's cold outside." Xiao Fan took the clothes and put them on, and followed Zhang Luyun into a steaming breakfast shop.

"Boss, what vegetarian stuffing do you have?" Zhang Luyun didn't ask Xiao Fan what he likes to eat, but ordered Xiao Fan a steamed stuffed bun with melon and shrimp skin, and a bowl of millet porridge.

"Do you want pickles?" asked the boss with a southern accent.

"No. Some vinegar."

Xiao Fan looked at Zhang Luyun without saying a word and thought to himself, he knows himself far more than he knows him.

79. Gossip

While eating, Zhang Luyun introduced his father's situation to Xiao Fan, and while talking, he suddenly sighed: "Oh! You also know that uncle is most afraid of getting angry because of his illness. If he hadn't heard so many gossips, he would not to get sick."

Hearing this, Xiao Fan felt that there was something in Zhang Luyun's words: "What did he hear?"

Zhang Luyun seemed surprised: "They didn't tell you?"

Xiao Fan shook his head.

"Oh, I guess it's because I'm afraid you'll get angry. Well, it's really nothing. There are some people who are idle and have nothing to do. Some people are just talking nonsense. Unfortunately, my uncle overheard..."

"What?" Xiao Fan asked.

Just as Zhang Luyun wanted to open his mouth, he closed it again. He stared at Xiao Fan for a while, and then said: "Forget it, it's over, and you know it's just one more person making trouble."

Xiao Fan frowned, and continued to ask: "I must know the reason for my father's illness. If you don't tell me, I'll ask other people, or ask my father directly."

"Don't! Don't go." Zhang Luyun hurriedly said, "It's okay if I tell you. But I must declare in advance. First of all, I don't believe it."

Later, Zhang Luyun explained in detail the reason why Xiao's father fell ill.After hearing this, Xiao Fan froze in place, and the temperature in her body instantly dropped to freezing point. She never expected that the cause of her father's illness was actually related to herself, who was thousands of miles away.

The source of this incident came from a little-known bar in this city: Feidu.

Shortly after the Valentine's Day is approaching, various bars have launched various activities to attract more old and new friends to visit.The non-degree bar is of course no exception.On the night of Valentine's Day, the Feidu bar was very lively, people were drinking, chatting, playing, and having fun, enjoying the indulgent time happily.But what I never expected was that among these reveling crowds, one person quietly took out his mobile phone and aimed at the women who were kissing and flirting.

The next day, an electronic photo album titled "Perverts Run Away, Demons Dance Randomly" spread across Moments, and the Feidu Bar instantly became the focus.Hundreds of people crowded into the bar's WeChat platform overnight, all for the purpose of insulting and cursing.The bar was thrown rubbish, smashed glass, and sprayed paint for several days. The owner Xiaozhi's car was smashed and almost scrapped.In less than a week, Feidu closed its doors.Xiao Zhi also left City D with his girlfriend, but no one knew where he was going.

However, the remaining warmth of this matter did not disappear because of this.Bored people started round after round of discussions on this topic.Overnight, everyone seemed to have eyes of fire, and they compared, compared, and searched for everyone around them like hunting dogs.See who looks like an accomplice in that message, and who fits the picture.They opened their foul-smelling mouths and approached the faces with slanted eyes, muttering and pointing, completely ignoring that the smelly spittle had already splashed across each other's faces.

There are only a few of these things living in Xiao Fan's community.Since they saw such a message in Moments, they immediately realized it.They self-righteously understand why so many people live so differently, why so many people reach their age and don't get married, and why so many people don't dress like women.Therefore, their eyes easily focused on Xiao Fan.

"The daughter of the old Xiao family is probably this kind of person."

"It must be, you see she dresses like a little boy, and she doesn't talk or act like a woman at all."

"That's right, she's in her thirties and hasn't married yet. If she wasn't this kind of person, why is she? Perverted!"

"Hey, hey, I heard from one of my nephews that she was caught by someone in the original company. That's the kind of thing. Otherwise, why did she go to work so far away? After being discovered , I have no choice."

"Really! Oh, do you think Lao Xiao and the others know?"

"It's enough to know, how else can I live!"

"Hey! Old Xiao's temperament, he will be strong all his life, who would think?"

"Hmph, yes! Old Xiao deserves it, let him pretend to be a cultured person all day long, as if everyone looks down on him, and even have a word with us. This time, it's okay, I don't want to die. There is."

"Don't say that, he can't figure out that he can give birth to such a child. Fate!"

"What the hell! I think he has a problem with his education. His little girl sings and dances, but he is lucky. He runs and punches, and he has never been raised as a girl. This time it will be fine! Retribution is coming."

"Oh! If my child is like this, I will definitely not live. What is this? It's better to have a mental illness than this, how embarrassing!"

"..."

This kind of trivial matter that had nothing to do with anyone turned out to be explosive news. It spread faster than major national events, weather forecasts, and food hygiene. matter.

So, on a sunny morning, on the way Father Xiao must pass for a walk, those topics that have been repeatedly processed and deeply interpreted finally jumped into the ears of the old man without permission.In an instant, anger and shame squeezed into the blood vessels, raising blood pressure and overwhelming the father who always stood upright.

80. Obedience

After Xiao Fan listened to Zhang Luyun's narration, his stomach suddenly felt nauseated.In my mind, it was like rushing into a crazy wild horse, trampling on and on.It made Xiao Fan dizzy, his temples throbbed, and his head hurt like it was going to explode.

She suppressed the food that was about to fall out of her throat, and rushed outside the breakfast shop. The cold air rushed into her hot and stuffy lungs instantly. After Xiao Fan took a few deep breaths, he was dragged back from the shell. .

Zhang Luyun paid for the meal and followed out the gate. He looked at Xiao Fan and said nothing, and the two walked back to the hospital in silence.

When approaching the door of the ward.Xiao Fan suddenly turned his head and asked, "How do you know such details?".

Zhang Luyun smiled: "It's not difficult to know."

Xiao Fan snorted, and said in a cold tone: "I'm afraid you want to know more, right?"

Zhang Luyun's expression remained the same: "This is enough."

Xiao Fan stared at Zhang Luyun's eyes for a full minute.Then, she shook her head slightly and turned to push the door.

But at this moment, Zhang Luyun suddenly grabbed her arm and pulled her into the stairwell.

Xiao Fan was neither happy nor understood Zhang Luyun's move: "What are you doing? If you have something to say, don't drag me."

Zhang Luyun let go, raised his hands in front of his chest, and took half a step back and said: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I made a rash in a hurry."

Xiao Fan didn't speak, looked at Zhang Luyun and waited for the next sentence.

"If I'm not wrong, you must be very angry with me now. I can feel the anger from your eyes just now." Zhang Luyun paused for a while, seeing that Xiao Fan didn't respond, he continued: "Xiao Fan, you have to trust me , I never thought of going to inquire about your privacy. What's more, I don't believe those rumors at all." Zhang Luyun stopped again, looked at Xiao Fan and hesitated, and then said: "I admit, when I first learned about these things, I have analyzed the possibility of these words, but..."

"Doctor Zhang," Xiao Fan suddenly interrupted Zhang Luyun, "What exactly do you want to say?"

"I, I mean I believe in you."

Xiao Fan smiled: "Do you think I need you to believe me?"

"Don't you need everyone's trust?" Zhang Luyun showed a surprised expression.

"It's not that I don't need everyone's trust, but you haven't come to this point yet." Xiao Fan said indifferently: "I appreciate you for taking care of my parents, and I will keep this in mind. As for other things, I still don't care. Doctor Laozhang is worried."

Just when Xiao Fan wanted to leave again, Doctor Zhang suddenly said loudly, "Wait."

"Is there anything else?" Xiao Fan said without turning his head.

"Xiao Fan, I suggest you think about it. The reason why I told you so much in advance is that uncle will not let you go easily this time. You also know his character. You haven't come back these days. He pulls me to chat with me almost every day. Of course I understand his intentions. Xiao Fan, I have principles in my life. Even my family members, I will not interfere too much in their lives. Let alone you. Me and you Of all the things I have said, some of them were sent to my mailbox, some of them were learned from other people, and some of them were told to me by my uncle. I was a little surprised and even doubted you, but yesterday I received a call from your good friend Liu Tong early in the morning, and she talked to me a lot."

Xiao Fan turned around suddenly: "She, call you."

"Yeah, don't you know? After seeing you last time, we added wechat, and sometimes we chatted. She misses your parents' health very much, and is also optimistic about our affairs."

"What did she say yesterday?" Xiao Fan's head started to hurt again.

"Actually, I didn't say anything, just thanked me for helping to greet your father. And also tell me what time you will take the plane back. By the way, I also asked about the reason for my uncle's illness..."

"You told her all?"

"I just gave a rough idea. She seemed to know something before she called. Then, she told me that you have had a hard time these few days. Oh, by the way, she also said that you have a good impression of me , said that after you come back this time, let me take good care of you..."

Xiao Fan picked up the phone with trembling hands, and rang Liu Tong's phone, but no one answered the phone after a long time. Finally, she couldn't control her emotions, she hung up the phone and cursed at the same time, and then slammed the phone on the ground. on the ground.

Zhang Luyun quietly watched Xiao Fan vent his emotions.Seeing that she seemed calmer after a while, he opened the door of the stairwell and said in a low voice, "It must be hard to accept hearing so much all of a sudden. Especially after being wronged so much, it is understandable to be angry. However, Right now, I'd better control it and go to accompany my uncle, I'll buy you a drink tonight, and then you can vent your anger."

Xiao Fan stared at a pair of blood red eyes, but he didn't know how to face this man.The distance between him and his attitude of not urging and not retreating made Xiao Fan feel like he was in a huge sponge pool, unable to stand up or lie down.

Facing the father lying on the hospital bed, Xiao Fan could neither swallow nor spit out the fishbone choked in his throat.The original ray of hope to be able to truly live has become even weaker.

"Dad, why don't you sleep for a while?" Xiao Fan returned to his father's bedside with a groomed look.

"Not tired. Have you gone to eat with Xiao Zhang?" The father smiled and looked at Zhang Luyun who came in together, "Why haven't you got off work yet?"

"Yes, there are still some things to deal with." Zhang Luyun replied.

"Although the doctor's work is a bit busy, it is valuable and meaningful. Don't be afraid of being tired while you are young, and make some achievements to judge the value." Xiao's father said, his expression became more serious.

"Yes, what uncle said is right. I will definitely work hard. Xiao Fan, you will be fine when you come back, and uncle's illness will recover faster. You two talk, I will go to work first, and I will come to see you later" Zhang Luyun smiled After hehe left the ward, only Xiao Fan and his daughter were left in the room.

Watching Zhang Luyun close the door, his father suddenly asked, "Have you known each other for more than a year?"

"Ah."

"I'm discharged from the hospital, you can get engaged."

"dad......"

Before Xiao Fan could speak, his father waved his hand resolutely: "You don't need to speak, this matter is settled." He glanced at Xiao Fan, changed a more serious tone and continued: "Xiao Fan As a person! What do you want to do? What can you do? Think carefully! The reason why people are different from animals is that they have brains and self-control, and know shame and shame. Xiao Fan, I have always held my chest up all my life I survived standing up. I didn’t embarrass my parents, and I didn’t embarrass you and your mother. Now I’m old and can’t live for a few days. I just want to ask you one thing, so that I can finally Die with your chest up and your head up. Live this life completely! Is that okay?"

In 34 years, Xiao Fan saw his father's cloudy eyes filled with tears for the first time in his 34 years of life, and she had already cried bitterly: "Dad, okay..."

The author has something to say:

Few [-], a narrow few years

What he wants is not at ease with himself

short, shallow

Conform to the rules of the world, hard to fill in the heart

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