looking away

【Look】

look, don't say

taste you never tasted

what about bitterness

look, whatever

things you haven't experienced

How to talk about understanding

look, don't want

your unaware life

Why ponder

look, don't do

savor your happiness

why sink

72. T talk

Seeing the two came back, everyone present was slightly embarrassed.Little T, who had just fought against Xiao Fan, deliberately pulled the chair a little further away.Xiao Fan pretended not to see, and sat opposite Punk T with Liu Tong.

"Please, move your feet." Liu Tong stared at Punk T's eyes and said with a smile.

"Yo, it's quite polite." Punk T said with a sneer while shaking his legs on the table.

"That's natural, this is my self-cultivation." Liu Tong said slowly.

Punk T snorted.

Liu Tong raised his glass and drank it dry, staring at Punk T suddenly asked: "Are you tired?"

"What?" Punk T didn't understand what Liu Tong meant.

"Aren't you tired of pretending to be B like this?" Liu Tong explained.

When the older Ts sitting around heard Liu Tong's question, they were taken aback for a moment, and then laughed out loud.

Punk T withdrew his legs abruptly and stood up abruptly.In an instant, his whole body tensed up like a jackal whose fur had exploded.

Seeing this, Liu Tong smiled, and said in a very lazy tone: "Did something step on the tail? The movements are very flexible. Come on, relax, sit and talk without back pain, you should sit. Also, this foot Well, you still have to lift it. But, my sister reminds you, you have to be slow when you take it down again. I just heard a 'bang' sound, did it knock somewhere? Tsk~~tsk tsk, It hurts so much. Sigh, it’s hard for you. How can a person pretending to be B cry out for pain? Poor, pitiful. My sister advises you, be careful in the future. Don't be disabled by yourself anymore, otherwise, the road to pretending to be B... will be even more difficult in the future."

There were uncontrollable low laughs around.

"You're looking for faults, right?" Punk T stepped in front of Liu Tong in a few steps, and Xiao Fan immediately got up and stood between the two.

"KAO, you fucking get out of the way." Xiao Fan raised his eyebrows and didn't move. "You're fucking deaf, I don't bother to talk to you, you bastard."

Xiao Fan smiled and before the other party could react, he raised his hand and grabbed Punk T by the collar.

"Fourth!" The elder T hurriedly stopped him.Xie Qiu also stepped forward and grabbed Xiao Fan's arm: "Old Fan, calm down, let go."

Xiao Fan glanced at Xie Qiu, and the moment he let go, he pushed forward, almost throwing Punk T to the ground.

From the beginning to the end, Liu Tong didn't even turn his head. He drank the wine leisurely and continued slowly: "Although the guests who come from afar are guests, there is still a saying: the guest does what the owner does. So, I don't care if you come from afar." Where are you from, no matter where you have been, let alone what background you have. No matter who, come here! Here! You have to abide by our rules here. You can only chirp and stab in the back, hum, then you can’t complain We're welcome!"

Punk T still had a disdainful expression on his face, but he didn't speak any more.

Liu Tong looked up at everyone, raised his glass and smiled and said, "Why are you all staring blankly, drink it! Everyone who came to the bar today is considered to have picked it up. There are drinks, programs to watch, and fun to listen to. What a bargain." Old Xie, old Xie, come here, I suggest that you can raise the price today and charge an additional performance fee." Liu Tong put his arms around Lao Xie's shoulder, pointed at everyone and continued: "Good wine, good scenery, good shows, the fun can't be wasted."

Everyone, you look at me, I look at you and don't speak.Lao Xie also smiled awkwardly and didn't answer.

Liu Tong stood up slowly, walked around behind everyone, and patted the shoulders of a few acquaintances while walking. Everyone seemed to have made an appointment, and they didn't look back at Liu Tong.Liu Tong sighed, stopped behind the two older T's, and continued, "Oh, what age is she, and she's still making a kid happy. She's blind, and you cooperate blindly, isn't that cheating her! "

After a pause, Liu Tong continued: "Actually, I quite understand this little girl. I was young, I pretended to be a B, and I also deliberately defined my identity as a T. But gradually, I discovered a problem, This childish behavior has made me less and less a woman, and those girls who love me, the one they love is not the real "me". What they love is the one that has been modified, packaged, and pretended to be I'm like a man. And once I'm timid, tired, scared, anxious...they will show the expression of 'how could this be?'. Hehe, that is to say, I'm just theirs That one, the live, fully automatic dildo that's both safe and exciting!"

"Pfft~~~" Many people laughed out loud, and the atmosphere relaxed.

Liu Tong returned to his seat, glanced at Xiao Fan, took a sip of wine and continued: "We not only need women to appreciate the strength, courage and fortitude we have in our bones, but we also need women who can tolerate our shortcomings and take care of us. I like our shortcomings." Liu Tong stroked Xiao Fan's temples. "Only when the woman you love loves you as a woman, can you really gain love."

Liu Tong glanced back at Punk T: "Girl, you are still young, do you not understand well? Sister advises you, take a good look in the mirror, don't be blind for nothing if you look handsome. To be a human being, you must be so Be confident. It’s useless to hang chains on your body by piercing holes in your ears. No matter how you pretend to be a man, you are just a fake. Les who really likes women doesn’t like you, a woman who is interested in you, hehe Hmph, don't blame my sister for being black-mouthed, it's just that I'm tired of playing and looking for some excitement."

"You," Punk T was about to attack again. Liu Tong waved her hand and said, "Listen if you understand. If you don't understand, remember first. Sooner or later you will understand."

Xiao Fan listened to Liu Tong's words and said in his heart: Thanks to her thinking so clearly now, she can still say things in a way. I don't know who it is. I think I chased him for so long.

Lao Xie leaned next to Xiao Fan, and pouted at the other two who came from TW: "Look at how seriously they listen. Hehe, I guess, these two are also confused by that fool." , This time, I also relieved my hatred."

Xiao Fan glanced at it and said with a smile: "You are still thinking about asking them to tell everyone, who knows that my silly daughter-in-law will overwhelm the host."

"Hey, who's to say it's not. Besides, Liu Tong's words can really stimulate some people's nerves, and beat those self-righteous Ts."

Liu Tong lit a cigarette and said: "TT, TP, PP, HP... are all nonsense. I only love women. Gentleness and courage are just differences in personality. Where did they come from? So many definitions?"

"Hey, I see, you talk so much, you just cover your face." Someone watched Xiao Fan and Liu Tong booing.

Liu Tong smiled and said: "You are right or wrong. Yes, I did come up with these reasons because I was with her. Is the reason right? Think about it yourself. What is wrong is that you think I Is it necessary to cover my face? When I was young and pretended to be B, I practiced a good ability to be shameless. What's more, I have left behind people who are 30 to 40. I dare not go to the street with bare buttocks. What else is there that is worth letting me cover my face!"

Everyone burst into laughter.

Liu Tong looked at Xiao Fan and said softly: "I only care about her now, and I only hope that she can live a comfortable and happy life without fear."

73. Bitterness

In the middle of everyone's noisy and joking, the guest who came from TW at some time had already left.Before leaving, the older T and Xie Qiu said: "If everyone can have such a calm, natural, and mature understanding, then fair social rights will not be far away."

On the way home, Xiao Fan kept thinking about Liu Tong's words: I just hope that I can be free from fear, feel comfortable and happy... While being moved, Xiao Fan always felt that there was something wrong with this sentence.

Back home, Xiao Fan squeezed a glass of orange juice for Liu Tong.Seeing her tired look leaning on the sofa, she turned around and took another basin of hot water, put Liu Tong's feet in the basin, and massaged her gently.

"Liu Tong, have you met Zhang Luyun?"

"Who?"

"Doctor Zhang."

"Oh, see you."

Xiao Fan looked up at Liu Tong, and saw that her eyes were slightly closed, but her eyelashes trembled slightly. "I met him on a blind date when I went home not long ago. After meeting twice, I kept in touch. I told him that it was impossible, but he still insisted on being friends first..."

Liu Tong sat up, put his arms around Xiao Fan's head and hugged it to his chest.Turning his face to Xiao Fan's forehead, he rubbed it lightly: "Shh! Good boy, I'm tired, so I won't talk anymore. Okay?"

Xiao Fan replied in a low voice: "I'm not sure."

Liu Tong held up Xiao Fan's face, stared into her eyes and said: "Xiao Fan, remember what I told you. You can do nothing for your family. Also, you have to believe that no matter when, I know you I understand you and believe you!"

The corners of Xiao Fan's eyes were instantly filled with tears, before Liu Tong kissed them.The salty and astringent taste lingered in Liu Tong's lips, and it didn't go away for a long time.

Xie Qiu has been so busy in the past two days that he has not touched the ground. He rearranged and added furniture at home, asked friends to find contacts to contact the school to find classes, and coordinated with his ex-husband’s family to pick up the children after they left... and these are just things that everyone can do. As you can see, Lao Xie is secretly planning to sell the bar, and then open a student cafeteria and study room near his home.She thought that this would not only give Lin Lin a relatively normal living environment, but also give her more time to take care of her children.Lao Xie made up his mind this time, he must seize the tail of Lin Lin's childhood and accompany him to spend the most sensitive and precious youthful time in his growing years.She knows that the past can never be made up for, but if there is time to regret and worry, it is better to go all out to seize the present.

Except for Xiao Fan and Liu Tong, Lao Xie didn't tell anyone about accepting Lin Lin, she was afraid that people would mess up her plan.

As for Gao Yu, since he came back from visiting his family, he has been depressed.Apart from going to work and going home, and never going to a bar, the two of them seemed to have a tacit understanding and never contacted again.

For several days in a row, when Gao Yu entered the house, he plunged into the room and did not speak.After Liu Tong asked many times, she realized that it was because her father's condition had worsened. In the past six months alone, the ambulance had been to the house three times.Of course, Gao Yu didn't feel sorry for this man's illness, but she felt sorry for her mother who was tortured by this man and was no longer a human being.

Going home this time, Gao Yu saw with his own eyes that when his mother was feeding the man, he deliberately vomited all over her body.Gao Yuqi's tears were in his eyes, and he clenched his fists bitterly, really wanting to kill the man.However, her mother told her that it was not worth spending her whole life for such a person.

Mom grabbed Gao Yu's hand and said angrily, "He did this on purpose. He wished we could kill him. This way he could be freed, and then he dragged us to bear the notoriety of murder and ruined Your whole life. I will never let him get what he wants, I have to let him live, I want to let him live like this. "

But life is worse than death for a man alone, and the life of Gao Yu's mother being kidnapped is not much better.Every minute and every second of a life filled with hatred and bullying is suffocating.

The day Gao Yu came home, when she entered the door, she saw her mother's eyes were as dead ashes. After a while, she seemed to just wake up, called Gao Yu, and a star suddenly ignited in the depths of her pupils.But on the afternoon of the fifth day, the man's younger brother and younger sister rushed to Gao Yu's house reeking of alcohol, clamoring for help.Gao Yu couldn't stop her, so her mother just sat on the bench and let them rummage around in a daze. Before leaving, she even took away the last three hens in the family.Gao Yu was so angry that she was crying and cursing, but her mother remained expressionless, fetching water for cooking and washing the man's face and feet as usual.

At night, her mother gave Gao Yu a passbook, telling her that it contained the money that Gao Yu had given her over the years, and she didn't spend any of it.She said: "Yu, leave early tomorrow morning, and don't come back until you are called. This day is my mother's life, not yours. Don't worry, they want to force me to death, but I can't follow their wish." .I have to live a good life, and my daughter has to live a good life, and live a happy life. We must live a good life and show them..." The mother and daughter cried all night.

Gao Yu left the next day, and she knew it was useless to stay, she had to go out to earn money, a lot of money, so that she could take her mother away from this hell.

On the way back by plane.Only then did Xie Qiu's figure reappear in Gao Yu's mind.Since leaving ZhH City, this was the first time he thought of Xie Qiu.Gao Yu couldn't help but smiled wryly and thought: Hey!Love, love, this emotion that once seemed to surpass life, turned out to be so vulnerable in the hardships of life, hehe, it is not as good as a "fart".

After listening to Gao Yu's narration, Liu Tong touched her head distressedly and said: "Don't think so much, no matter how unwilling you are, the hardships of life are there, no more, no less, and you can't avoid it. The more you fear it The more terrifying you are, the more you despise it, the smaller it is. I believe that Auntie should understand this truth better than you. Her wisdom is enough to support her through this period of time. Gao Yu, I really think that Auntie is braver than you. She knows that there is nothing wrong with it. Avoid, so you can face it calmly and bear it bravely. Therefore, you must work hard and live well. You also know that your happiness is the most expected result in the price of her bravery."

Looking at Gao Yu nodded.Liu Tong thought about it, and finally made up his mind to ask: "What do you think about the matter between you and Lao Xie?"

With tears in her eyes, Gao Yu looked up at Liu Tong and sighed softly: "Sister, I only have my mother in my mind now, and emotional matters are not important anymore. If there is fate in the future, let's talk about it."

Liu Tong nodded: "It's okay, she's also busy recently. I guess in the next few years, she won't think about relationship matters anymore. It's also good for you two, let time settle the relationship."

Gao Yu wanted to ask, what happened to Lao Xie?Why don't you think about feelings for a few years?But then I thought about it, so what if I asked, even if I knew the result, how much did it have to do with me?So, I kept my mouth shut.

74. Right or wrong

On the afternoon of the weekend, the sky was still clear just now, but suddenly the wind picked up, and it rained after a while.

Liu Tong parked the car downstairs in the company, watched the rain getting heavier and heavier, and remembered that he lent the spare umbrella in the car to a colleague last time.She didn't want to rush into the rain in such embarrassment, so she simply put down the seat, lay down and stared at the car window to let go of her thoughts.

On the car window, the raindrops condensed on the glass scattered everywhere, each guarding one area.One of the raindrops was extraordinarily plump and clean, and the watery abdomen reflected the scenery that could only be accommodated.In its microcosmic scenery, there is still a small spot of light, which ostentatiously obstructs the middle of the scenery, making people look a little uncomfortable.

At this time, an intruder suddenly slid in from above the water drop.It was so fast that people didn't have time to think about it, and it was too late to refuse. In that split second, it entered Shui Di's body.As a result, the water droplet becomes big belly, and it is difficult to control the fate that must slip away.One fell and pulled out a long waterline, and since then, it fell into the gap of the car door and never disappeared again.

Liu Tong sighed softly, he didn't know if it was because of the water drop or something else.

In the evening, Lao Xie made some small dishes at home, and invited Xiao Fan, Liu Tong and his old friend Sister Li to sit at home.She also specially made steamed sea bass to thank Xiao Fan and Liu Tong for their help.

"Old Xie, it's fine. The steamed fish is of a high level." Xiao Fan admired it sincerely.

While arranging the tableware, Sister Li said with a smile, "Where is this? Xie Qiu's cooking skills are not so good. Back then, she had participated in a cooking competition and won a gold medal."

"Really? You can't hide it. Lao Xie. I will hold a class someday and teach us." Liu Tong stretched out his chopsticks and put them together in his mouth, tasting them happily.

Xiao Fan saw it, and his heart tightened.I will take Liu Tong to see a doctor next week, which means she will start quitting.You know, these delicacies are all within the scope of the diet, and I don't know if Liu Tong can control it. Even if she can control it, Xiao Fan thought about it and suddenly felt that Liu Tong like that is very pitiful.Thinking of this, Xiao Fan picked another piece of fish for Liu Tong and put it in her bowl.

Sister Li suddenly remembered something and asked, "Xie Qiu, is Lin Lin's class settled?"

"Well, it's settled." Lao Xie said while eating: "The original school education is poor, which delays the child. After Lin Lin comes over, I don't plan to let him enter a class that is too good. I can't make the child feel inferior. That's fine. I also set him up with a one-on-one tutoring class, and cheered him up behind his back. It shouldn't be too bad."

"That's good. In fact, after entering junior high school, I don't use much knowledge from elementary school. One study habit and one calculation ability are enough." Sister Li's child is in the second year of junior high school this year. When it comes to her child's study, she can't stop talking .

After chatting for a while, Liu Tong's phone rang.She glanced at Gao Yu, then got up and went to the balcony.

"Gao Yu, I'm eating out with your sister Fan."

"Sister," Gao Yu said only one word, and the rest of the words were choked up in her throat.

Liu Tong quickly asked: "What's the matter? Don't cry, don't cry, speak slowly."

"Sister, my father is dead, he finally died."

Liu Tong didn't know how to respond.

"My mother just called to say that he had a stomach flu these two days, and my mother just gave him medicine at noon. When he came back from shopping in the afternoon, he fell to the ground and died. The doctor said he was vomiting by himself. The thing that came out was choked to death, maybe he was too uncomfortable when he choked, and ended up falling to the ground."

Liu Tong listened to Gao Yu continue talking in silence.

"Sister, when you said that when he was alive, I didn't look forward to his death for a second. Now that he is really dead, he can no longer torture my mother, but I feel inexplicably uncomfortable in my heart. You said Am I cheap, sister. I am thinking now, what is my father doing in this life, what is he trying to do? Sister, do you think he has lived?"

Liu Tong was unable to answer Gao Yu's question.Yes, what is the picture?ever lived?Can anyone clarify.

This man destroyed the only meaning of life with tyranny. It seemed that the air he breathed would be disgusting.But, so what if he died, has the world changed?For those kind people, is their life necessarily meaningful?Who can guarantee that what they do must be right, always right?

Injury, this is such a subjective word, it acts on different environments and happens to different people, and its meaning will vary widely.The misfortune brought about by the injury may be the result of the step I took at the fork in the road.Can you say that going to the left is wrong and going to the right is right?No one can make a clear statement before the matter is over.

Liu Tong suddenly felt that the words right and wrong were invented as games for children.In the adult world, there are only differences between you and me, so there is no right or wrong.Tortuous and tortuous, muddled, change the perspective, change the world, maybe, you will become him, and he will become you.

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【Look】

look, don't say

What is the taste of bitterness that you have never tasted

look, whatever

How can you understand what you haven't experienced

look, don't want

Why do you need to think about the life you don't perceive

look, don't do

Taste your happiness, why sink