looking away

【Punishment of Missing】

The beginning of love can't describe the inevitable consequences

The erosion of longing, punishing the self that was indulged

Thinking, can't wait, can't wait!

In the dream, is it real or fake?

When I wake up, the bitterness is even bitterer!

33. High rain

After boarding the plane and sitting down, Liu Tong closed his eyes.She didn't sleep for two days, and now she felt sleepy.

After an unknown amount of time, Liu Tong was awakened by the discomfort in his stomach.She put on her seat belt and wanted to go to the bathroom, but seeing that there were people in the bathroom, she had to sit back on her seat.At this time, the abdominal pain became more and more obvious, and beads of sweat had already oozed from her forehead.Liu Tongxin couldn't tell, it must have been because of the cool air blown by the air conditioner when he fell asleep just now, and the enteritis came to him again.

Enteritis has become a frequent visitor to Liu Tong since his physical condition began to decline.When it was mild, she would have diarrhea and feel uncomfortable for two days, but when it was severe, she would face instant dehydration, pain to blurred consciousness, and even a brief loss of consciousness.What she never expected was that she suffered from an old illness on the plane.

While thinking about something bad, the pain is getting stronger and stronger.At this time, Liu Tong's face was already pale, and the sweat on his forehead dripped down his ears and temples.She leaned on the back of the front seat with her hands, and leaned her head down with her eyes closed, but the sweat between her hands and her forehead made it difficult for her to lean on.Liu Tong prayed in his heart that this pain would pass quickly.

At this moment, a concerned voice came from Liu Tong's ear: "What's wrong with you? Is there any discomfort?"

Liu Tong opened his eyes and saw a girl in the front seat turning around and looking at him.

Liu Tong responded in a very low voice: "I have enteritis, please call the stewardess for me, give me the glass of warm water and a blanket, and help me take the suitcase off the luggage rack, there is medicine in it ..."

Half an hour later, Liu Tong's sweat slowly subsided.Her consciousness gradually came to her senses.The girl in the front seat let out a long breath.

"Thank you." Liu Tong nodded gratefully.

"Enteritis can still be so scary, I thought it would be good to go to the toilet." The girl looked at Liu Tong in disbelief.

"Hehe, maybe I'm not in good health, so I acted scary. I'm fine now, thanks to you just now." Liu Tong couldn't imagine how the girl would get through this difficulty if she didn't take the initiative to ask her.

"My name is Gao Yu. How about you?"

"Liu Tong"

The girl has a lively and cheerful personality, and she chatted with Liu Tong like a bird throughout the second half of the trip.

Gao Yu is 11 years younger than Liu Tong, and she is going to ZH to find a job. She was very happy when she heard that Liu Tong would also work in ZH.Liu Tong smiled and agreed, she liked this kind and innocent little girl from the bottom of her heart.

When the plane landed, Liu Tong turned on his phone.Xiao Fan's call came in almost at the same time.

"why?"

"..."

"Liu Tong, what did I do wrong? Tell me?"

"..."

"This is not your character! Liu Tong. Are you running away? Even if we broke up, can't we explain the reason face to face? How could you treat me like this?" Xiao Fan's voice trembled in depression.

"Xiao Fan. I'm sorry. I, you, alas! You are tired, and I am tired too. We all need to rest and rest."

"...Is it irreparable?"

"Thank you for everything you gave me, Xiao Fan. I will go far away with this happy memory. And you, forget the burden I gave you, okay? Get back to the free and easy, happy you a year ago. "

"Who said I was happier a year ago than I am now? This is your wishful thinking! Why are you so arbitrary about the relationship between two people? What position do you stand in to judge whether I am happy? Liu Tong, you! How can you just be like this? Gone?" Xiao Fan yelled into the microphone.

Liu Tong silently put down the phone.Looking at Gao Yu on the opposite side, the little girl's expression at this moment was one of understanding.

"Sister Liu, are you running away from marriage?"

"Don't talk nonsense." Liu Tong dragged his suitcase towards the exit, and Gao Yu trotted along:

"Why are you talking nonsense, I heard it all. Sister Liu, you have escaped far enough. From north to south, you have left the country..."

Liu Tong continued to ignore her, and walked over to meet her colleague who came to pick her up.

The colleague took Liu Tong's suitcase, saw a strange little girl behind Liu Tong, and asked, "Sister Tong, is this?"

Liu Tong glanced back, and just about to speak, Gao Yu hurriedly pulled Liu Tong aside and said, "Sister, I think you seem to be in charge, why don't you see if your company is short of people? Don't worry, I can endure hardship, and I can do anything. As long as you give me an errand, I will definitely not embarrass you. Is that okay? Please, please, this is my first time in ZH City, and I am unfamiliar with the place, so you must not bear it Let me run around with black eyes. If I meet another bad guy or something, you won't have the heart to see me in prison. Look at me, I'm so good-looking. When I walk down the street, I'll recruit more bad guys. Ah, I met another bag thief, child trafficker..."

"Stop!" Liu Tong hurriedly stopped Gao Yu's infinite reverie, "Well, you go with me today, and you will go to my place for a few days. I just came here, so I'm not sure whether the company is short. Heaven first adapts to the environment, do you think this will work?"

Gao Yu nodded hurriedly.He happily followed Liu Tong into the car.

34. Alcoholism

Working in ZhH City, which is like summer all year round, is a huge challenge for Liu Tong's body.Because she couldn't wear dresses with low necklines, and couldn't blow on the air conditioner for a long time, she was often annoyed by the heat.Fortunately, the work she just started was so complicated that she didn't have too much energy to feel uncomfortable for a while.However, every night became very tormenting, since leaving Xiao Fan, her insomnia became more and more serious.

Gao Yu got his wish and stayed in Liu Tong's company, became a receptionist, and moved to the dormitory.But I would still come back often to help Liu Tong tidy up the room and do the laundry.After Liu Tong refused several times, she let her go.

After contacting for a long time, she gradually realized that Gao Yu is actually a very unfortunate child.Since she was a child, she had witnessed her father beating her mother again and again after drinking too much. Until the third year of junior high, when her father raised his fist again, she couldn't help but rushed forward.In order to stop her father from continuing to beat her, whose face was already covered in blood, her mother raised a coal shovel and slapped her father on the head.Since then, my father has been paralyzed.Although he could no longer raise his fist, his mother was trapped in this man's life forever, taking care of him and the whole family in humiliation amidst his verbal bullying.Gao Yu didn't go to school anymore, and started working in surrounding cities to support her family since she was 17 years old.

Two years later, one night, my mother sat beside her, stroked her head and said to her: Son, this is what Mom has been doing all her life.Mom doesn't want you to be tied up by this family too. Leave us alone, go where you love to go, do what you love to do, and start living your own life.

Gao Yu cried bitterly, and left home the next day with her luggage. She used the money she earned from part-time work to buy a plane ticket to ZhH City. Mother's old age gave her a piece of happiness.

Liu Tong knew Gao Yu's past, and was even more surprised by Gao Yu's optimism and tenacity.She never complained about the unfairness of fate, but bravely faced the challenges of life with extraordinary perseverance.Liu Tong inexplicably felt that Gao Yu was like her long-lost sister.So, I like her more and are more willing to help her.

However, during this time, Gao Yu became more and more uneasy.

Every time she went to Liu Tong's house, she would see a pile of soot and a wine bottle in the corner.Although she didn't know why Liu Tong always went to the hospital, she could be sure that in terms of Liu Tong's physical condition, drinking too much should never be done.

She persuaded Liu Tong: "Sister Tong, what's the matter with you? Are you addicted to drinking? I've never seen anything like this. You can still drink so much while living alone! Your poor physique doesn't seem to be able to withstand such hustle and bustle, right?"

Liu Tong slapped her on the head: "Little brat, when is it your turn to control me? Have you typed out all the information I gave you last time?"

Gao Yu rubbed her head, and said unhappily: "Don't change the subject! I can't watch you do this, I want to move back. I have to watch you!"

"Go away, don't make me angry! I will change the lock today."

So... Gao Yu still moved back, and the locks in the house were not changed.

While packing up her things, Gao Yu secretly laughed to herself: "The mouth of a knife is like a bean curd heart."He must know that the conditions in the dormitory are too rubbish, and he is afraid that I will be wronged.Only then did they play hard to get and give me a chance to come back.This time, I will take good care of you, watch you, and see if you still dare to torture yourself!

But when he really stayed here, Gao Yu realized that he was thinking of things simply.

Liu Tong didn't come back until midnight every day. When he entered the house, he was basically unconscious from drinking. He staggered into the bathroom, took a shower, and went to sleep in the bedroom, not even bothering to say a word to her.The next day, when Gao Yu woke up, Liu Tong had already left home.

Gao Yu rushed to the company to see that Liu Tong was focused on his work, as if everything last night had never happened.Gao Yu was very puzzled, she didn't understand what kind of material this person was made of, during the day it was like a machine filled with oil, precise and precise and kept busy without a break.At night, he was like a decadent alcoholic, decadent and sloppy, drunk and dreaming.

Gao Yu knew that Liu Tong was not happy, and the beautiful appearance at work was not her real appearance.She wants to know Liu Tong's past too much, and wants to know what happened to her?Therefore, Gao Yu decided to follow Liu Tong.She insisted on seeing, where did she go every night?

35. Bar

Lala Bar in ZhH City has been in business for nine years.In order to be able to continue to operate, the first five years have not dared to declare the positioning of the bar.Although everyone from the boss to the service staff is lesbian, the guests who greet them are indeed all kinds.After a long time, the regular customers will gradually know about it, and those who are quiet are friends who should come.

The second week after Liu Tong arrived in ZhH City, Xiaozhi left a message on WeChat and said: Sister Tong, No. 13 Qibei Road South, just like your friend opened the bar.Don't worry.

She didn't reply, she believed that Xiao Fan must have told Xiao Zhi to tell her because he was afraid of her emptiness and loneliness.Half a month later, she stepped into the gate of the bar for the first time.

"First time?" A short-haired girl wearing glasses poured Liu Tong a glass of beer.

"Yeah." Liu Tong didn't know why she came here, she didn't want to find an affair, she didn't want to have a one-night stand with anyone, and she wasn't even in the mood to talk to anyone.

"Northern?" The short-haired girl asked with a smile after watching Liu Tong drink up the wine in front of her in one gulp, and then looked at her height of nearly 1.7 meters.

"En." Liu Tong nodded the empty cup in front of him.The girl refilled another glass of wine, then turned and walked behind the bar.When he came out again, a woman with short hair and a slightly fatter figure followed behind Liu Tong.

The woman came to Liu Tong, handed him a cigarette and asked, "Hello, my name is Xie Qiu. I would like to ask, is your name Liu Tong?"

Liu Tong took the cigarette, glanced at her, and didn't answer.

"It seems you guessed right. Xiaozhi is my good brother. She called me not long ago and sent you a photo, saying that if you come, let me take good care of you. I wanted you She didn't give me the phone number, and said she didn't have to contact me if she came or not. I didn't expect that you really came today." Xie Qiu said with a smile.

"Don't take care of me, I drink my wine, you are busy with your business." Liu Tong said.

"Okay. But, why don't you leave a phone call? We often have events, so I can inform you to come and play together." Xie Qiu continued.

"No need. It's nothing to catch up with."

From then on, Liu Tong often went to the bar to sit, drink two drinks and leave without talking to anyone.It's just that recently, she's been sitting for a longer time, and drinking more and more wine every time.

At eight o'clock, Liu Tong looked at his watch and stretched his waist long. The preparations for next month's press conference have entered the final countdown.Not only was she responsible for the entire planning of the event, but she also gave an introductory speech for an hour and a half at the meeting on behalf of both parties as required by Party A.During this period of time, the gears in Liu Tong's brain were running non-stop, and she sometimes felt that the belt on the gears seemed to be getting tighter and tighter, and it might break at some point.

She calculated in her mind that her hormones had been stopped for two months. Although she intentionally avoided eating spicy food to irritate her skin, she couldn't stop drinking anyway.It's not that Liu Tong can't quit drinking, but he doesn't dare to quit drinking, and doesn't want to quit drinking.Even if he has a little free time, Xiao Fan will rush into his mind. Missing is like a monster, eroding every inch of Liu Tong's flesh and blood, wishing to devour her to death.

Liu Tong has been suffering from insomnia. When looking at the ceiling, her mind is full of Xiao Fan's shadow, her ears are full of Xiao Fan's voice, and sometimes she even smells Xiao Fan's breath.

Her self-abuse ZiWei hurts her body almost like bullying, as if this is the only way to counteract the pain in her heart; she pours endless alcohol into her stomach cup by cup, as if this is the only way to dilute the intense longing She doesn't care about herself, sometimes she only eats one meal a day, works all day and all night, sits for more than ten hours at a time, and when she gets up again, her back hurts so much that she can't stand upright for a long time.

However, no matter how she struggled, Xiao Fan stood in the middle of her mind, in a large barren space, like a blooming lily, the elegant light fragrance filled the whole mind, in the deepest part of her soul , singing the melody that seeps into the soul.

Liu Tong was afraid that he would go crazy if he continued like this.She traded drunkenness for unconscious sleep, which often only lasted four hours, but which allowed her to catch her breath.

Originally, she liked to sit in the bar for a while after get off work, watch the women's fireworks and relax, and then go home and get drunk.But after Gao Yu moved in, Liu Tong was not so comfortable. She was afraid that Gao Yu would stop her from drinking, so she simply got drunk at the bar and fell asleep when she returned home.

It was just past 9 o'clock on the clock.Liu Tong walked into the bar. Ten minutes later, Gao Yu followed behind a group of people and quietly walked into the door of your bar.

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The beginning of love can't describe the inevitable consequences

The erosion of longing, punishing the self that was indulged