don't force me

Lin Tingan quickly left the back door of the classroom, and when he reached the end of the corridor, he looked at the bulletin board again, and there was really no Du Xuan's name.

Lin Tingan remembered that Du Xuan accompanied him to the city championship on the weekend before the midterm exam.He didn't have to go, but he went to the Moral Education Office to ask for a certificate, and took a weekend to bask in the sun on the runway with him.If, that weekend, he can read a book at home, will his name be on the announcement list?And that summer vacation, Sun Rui was playing with his parents in Europe, Wen Yao was in Japan, and even Zheng Ziyan took the time to go to the three eastern provinces for a summer vacation, but Du Xuan stayed in the room with him for another round of junior high school. Always review.

Du Xuan said, "Don't worry, I'm here."

Du Xuan also said: "I am a 24-hour personal butler service on call."

And he really pushed all those things to Du Xuan.

Lin Tingan started to run, and when he crossed the playground, he turned onto the running track.He likes to run on the track, his mind can be very empty, and he can think about many things.He was thinking about a question over and over on the endless track. This question once troubled him. It once made him panic and called Du Xuan down in the middle of the night. It also made him confused and ran to ask Zheng Ziyan.Now, he doesn't want to ask anyone, he just wants to strip away all false whitewashing, and ask himself nakedly:

Lin Tingan, do you like Du Xuan?

Once this question appeared in his heart without any concealment, Lin Tingan felt like falling to the ground with a crash.Worrying about gains and losses all the time, worrying about joy and sorrow, all about whether that person is good or not, whether he is happy or not.That's why I'm nervous about his grades, worried about whether he has dinner, and worried about whether he has a girlfriend...I'll find every opportunity to stay with him, let him come back from military training and wait for me after school, let him Only when I accompany myself to the game can I fall asleep safely leaning against him and see the whole world in his eyes.

Lin Tingan ran faster and faster, and the people on the track began to automatically and consciously give way to him. He didn't care whether the bell next to his ear was the bell for late study or after school, and he didn't care whether the chemistry teacher asked him to write by hand. He could only run at full speed. , let my heart calm down, and think about the boy who was so tired that he could fall asleep doing the papers.

I don't know how many laps he ran, Lin Tingan only knew that his legs were getting heavier and heavier, and his lungs were getting more and more painful. Suddenly, a hand grabbed him, and he staggered and finally stopped.

"What are you doing?" Sun Rui asked strangely, "Didn't the track and field team stop training?"

Lin Tingan looked at him panting, unable to speak for a while.

"Your teacher punished you to run laps?" Sun Rui asked again, "English? Run a lap with one word?"

Lin Tingan was too out of breath to speak, just shook his head.

Sun Rui spread his hands to express his difficulty in understanding, then took out a few papers from his schoolbag and stuffed them to Lin Tingan: "Here, here you are."

Lin Tingan realized what it was the moment he reached out to pick it up, and he clenched his fist suddenly, not daring to reach out to touch it.

"Take it," Sun Rui handed it forward again, "Hurry up, I have something to do and I have to leave soon."

Lin Ting'an took the papers blindfolded, but he still didn't dare to open them and only stared at Sun Rui.

"Du Xuan asked me to give it to you." Sun Rui put the schoolbag back on his back again, "He asked you to figure this out. You didn't do well in chemistry this time."

"He..." Lin Tingan just opened his mouth to say a word, but found that his voice was hoarse and almost unable to speak.He quickly swallowed forcefully, moistened his throat better than nothing, and asked with a voice, "How did you know my chemistry grade?"

"How would I know." Sun Rui frowned, "But if he wants to know something, he can always find a way."

"Where is Du Xuan?"

"I went to class. He recently signed up for remedial classes in mathematics and physics." Sun Rui sighed, "This time the two subjects were too poor. I think it's lucky that his mother didn't beat him but confiscated his mobile phone."

"How...worse?"

"Failed." Sun Rui suddenly smiled, "To be honest, this is the first time I saw him fail a subject, and I want to post a Moments to commemorate it."

Lin Tingan was silent, he didn't know what to say, or he felt that he should say something to Du Xuan instead of Sun Rui.

Sun Rui waved his hand: "Okay, I'm leaving. If you're okay, go back and do your homework. I think Du Xuan will beat you up if you fail the exam next time."

Lin Tingan watched Sun Rui's figure walk out of the playground, and then slowly opened the papers in his hand. There were five papers in total. Using network structure analysis, he summarized the chemical knowledge list of the entire junior high school stage.Blue words are used for experiments, black words are used for chemical formulas, green words are used for properties and characteristics, and mutual reactions are marked with red arrows.Each knowledge point is marked with purple characters, and some classic examples are marked with fluorescent colors...

There are five sheets of B4 paper, written densely but clearly and neatly. Du Xuan's beautiful handwriting is pleasing to the eye.And that colorful paper, he had seen it on Du Xuan's desk half an hour ago.

Lin Tingan sat down on the runway while clutching the papers.

The evening sun was warm and bright, and Lin Tingan's emotions could not be hidden under the sun. He could clearly feel the worry about gains and losses because of Du Xuan's promotion, the kind of happiness that was calm and at ease because he was by his side, The kind of warmth that is stable and steady because he is "on call", that kind of emotion that...you have to run to watch him release the rankings across the playground, and worry about whether he can win the championship and whether he can get a grand slam, which is called "" like".

"I like him." Lin Tingan said in a low voice, then buried his face in his knees and cried, "What should I do, I like a boy; but how nice, the person I like is Du Xuan."

From that day on, Lin Tingan deliberately avoided every opportunity to meet Du Xuan, and in a small campus, the two never met again.

One day at lunch, Zheng Ziyan suddenly said, "I haven't seen Du Xuan for a long time."

Yang Lemeng said, "Didn't he also preside over the flag-raising ceremony on Monday?"

"I mean, I haven't seen him in private for a long time." Zheng Ziyan touched Lin Tingan's elbow, "He hasn't eaten with us recently."

Lin Tingan rolled his eyes: "Why should I have dinner with you? Can you have dinner?"

"Hey, why don't you just ask me how you talk." Zheng Ziyan said dissatisfiedly, "Besides, he has a very good relationship with you, and he even helps you make up lessons."

Lin Tingan snorted and said nothing.

Yang Lemeng said: "But Lin Ting'an, you've been really obsessed with studying recently, are you waiting for the next monthly exam to enlarge your recruits?"

Lin Tingan bowed his head and pawed at the rice grains. Only he knew that when he was writing and drawing at the table every day, he actually didn't have much to learn. He even felt that he was almost unable to understand mathematics.

Zheng Ziyan said: "Didn't you go to find Du Xuan recently? Let him sort it out for you. I think the Chinese knowledge point he got last time is really good."

Lin Tingan snorted, but didn't answer, he couldn't hide from Du Xuan now, how could he go to him?

But Du Xuan never came to look for her...

Lin Tingan stopped the chopsticks in his hand, and thought silently, why Du Xuan never came to see him, and whether he was tired of this kind of voluntary tutoring work, and he must have dragged him down after all.

Thinking of this, Lin Tingan felt a throbbing pain in his heart, he swallowed two mouthfuls of food hastily, trying to swallow that feeling together.

Yang Lemeng picked up a piece of stewed beef and handed it to Zheng Ziyan. Zheng Ziyan glanced at it and found that no one was paying attention, so he ate it on Yang Lemeng's chopsticks. Yang Lemeng blushed and said, "I hate it."

Lin Tingan asked out of nowhere: "Zheng Ziyan, how did you catch up with Yang Lemeng?"

"Ah?" Zheng Ziyan was stunned with a mouthful of meat in his mouth.Yang Lemeng slapped Lin Tingan: "You should be free, eat quickly and don't ask nonsense."

"Did you confess to her?" Lin Tingan asked stubbornly.

"Oh, Lin Ting'an, you're going crazy today." Yang Lemeng hit Lin Ting'an again, quite hard.

"How did you confess?" Lin Tingan still asked.

Zheng Ziyan said: "What's the confession? We had dinner that day, and there was Du Xuan, Sun Rui and Sun Rui's girlfriend, and then you insisted that we are a couple, so you broke it?"

"That day?" Lin Tingan thought for a while, it seems that Sun Rui said something else that day... By the way, he also said "Congratulations to you two", me and Du Xuan.

Lin Tingan shook his head, thinking that the word "Du Xuan" was like a pacemaker, just mentioning it would make the heart beat.

Zheng Ziyan asked: "Who are you going to confess to? Why do you think you're in love now?"

"No." Lin Tingan said, "I... just asked casually, um, you guys eat first, I'm going back." After finishing speaking, he packed up the dinner plate and ran away in a hurry.

Across the huge cafeteria, Du Xuan watched Lin Tingan leave the cafeteria alone from behind a big pillar.This kid has lost weight. I don’t know how his chemistry review is going, and I don’t know if he has practiced composition recently. In addition, his vocabulary is not good. His current grades will not pass the third middle school at all. If he can’t pass the third middle school... …

Du Xuan gritted her teeth fiercely, preventing herself from continuing to think.

You can't be the kind of person you hate the most; you can't let Lin Tingan know that you are "that kind of person".

Du Xuan stared at the half piece of fish that had been pulled and rotten in the bowl, not knowing how to get rid of this situation.

Sun Rui took out his mobile phone under the table, glanced at it, and asked, "Do you have time on Sunday?"

"What?"

"Go out and play." Sun Rui squeezed his eyes, "Wen Yao made an appointment with her classmates."

"Who?" Du Xuan frowned.

"Where did I know you," Sun Rui said, "but Wen Yao said she was pretty."

"Don't go."

"Tsk." Sun Rui sighed, "Du Xuan, I really admire you, are you planning to drag yourself down as an idiot?"

"Aren't you stupid when you're in love? I think you're so stupid now."

"Hey, you really don't know. Didn't I see that you are in a bad mood recently?" Sun Rui asked curiously, "What's wrong with you?"

Du Xuan glared at him: "How can you be in a good mood if you pass the exam?"

Sun Rui snorted: "Don't talk if you don't like it, I don't even bother to listen to your nonsense."

Du Xuan was silent for a while and said, "I... am really in a bad mood."

Sun Rui wiped his mouth: "Du Xuan, actually, I've always wanted to ask you a question, but I was afraid you would hit me."

Du Xuan reluctantly twitched the corner of her mouth: "Ask."

"You promise not to hit anyone?"

Du Xuan took a deep look at him and asked back, "You promise that you won't turn against me after you get the answer?"

Sun Rui was stunned for a while: "Fuck! Why do I think I don't need to ask?"

"Then don't ask."

Sun Rui chewed two mouthfuls of vegetables, and finally couldn't help but ask: "What if... I fell out with you?"

Du Xuan glanced at him, and said lightly: "Turn it over, who can stop it?"

"Haven't you thought about...changing your mind in order to keep me?"

Du Xuan sneered, "You're so funny."

"You really hurt people." Sun Rui muttered, "I was wondering, how can you be so calm, you look at your face 'for granted'."

"I like someone and I don't commit crimes, why can't I be calm, why can't I take it for granted?" Du Xuan asked rhetorically.

Sun Rui raised his hands in a gesture of surrender: "I am convinced. But to be honest, I personally don't care much. I just think your mother's place will be more terrifying."

Du Xuan shook her head: "How could my mother know, and I have no plans to do anything."

"No plan?" Sun Rui leaned over, "Hey, what do you mean, don't you plan to tell him?"

"I'm crazy!" Du Xuan's eyes widened, "Okay, why should I tell him this? He's in the third year of middle school, what an important year, do you want to ruin him? Besides, this is the same... that , what will he think, what if he feels disgusting? Friends don’t have to do it, maybe even neighbors don’t have to do it.”

Sun Rui blinked: "No, wait a minute, I didn't turn around a bit. You mean, he...isn't he?"

"nonsense."

"You're just talking nonsense," Sun Rui said, "I always feel that he treats you... ah, that too."

Du Xuan didn't even bother to talk to him.

"Really," Sun Rui said, "Let me give you an example, that is, you didn't do well in the exam in the third month of junior high school. You see that he is anxious, and he is happier than you when you pass the exam."

"think too much."

"Why don't you try? Anyway, I'm very happy that Wen Yao did better than me in the exam."

Du Xuan glanced at him and knocked on the table: "Hurry up and eat, go back and do your homework after eating."

Although Sun Rui said so, he has always been good at making up brains, so Du Xuan didn't take it to heart. Taking a step back, even if what Sun Rui said was true, Du Xuan didn't intend to "try".In Du Xuan's heart, Lin Ting'an should finish high school freely and happily, go to a university he likes, graduate smoothly, find a girlfriend who is as lively as him, and spend his life quietly, without "quietness" "Okay", it's fine to spend your whole life enthusiastically.

As for myself... the life path that Du Xuan planned for herself is full of tough battles. I have to fight against high school mathematics and physics, high school senior year, and the pressure from my parents. Whether it is the Central Finance or the Medical University, I need to pay a lot. Du Xuan didn't dare to involve Lin Ting'an.

After all, during the summer vacation, my mother also said, "The body special student will bring you down." If she knew... Du Xuan sneered, maybe her mother would tear down the building with her bare hands.

That's fine, I'm in high school, you're in junior high school; when you need me, knock on the radiator and I'll show up, when you don't need me, I'll hide away.