don't force me

Sometimes, when you deliberately want to avoid a person, you can't avoid it no matter what.Lin Tingan suddenly found that Du Xuan was everywhere: Du Xuan presided over the flag-raising ceremony on Monday, Du Xuan was the anchor of the school radio station on Wednesday, and Du Xuan was the speaker on the weekly news summary of the school TV station on Friday...Lin Tingan felt that the entire campus was full of Du Xuan's voice and The figure made it impossible for him to avoid it.

Even in the last physical education class, I could see Du Xuan going to the laboratory with a chemistry book.

He lay on the table and wailed: "It's already the third grade of junior high school, what radio are you listening to, who can turn it off?"

A girl in the class yelled: "What's the matter, what's the matter, listen to the radio!"

Another girl giggled: "It doesn't matter whether you listen to the radio or not, it's who broadcasts it that matters, right?"

Then the two girls laughed together.

Lin Tingan was instantly furious, he really wanted to rush over and say to those two: "You stay away from Du Xuan, nympho!"

He lay down on the table resentfully, buried his face in his arms, and recited classical Chinese in his heart, trying to resist Du Xuan's voice.But deep in the memory, another chuckle suddenly sounded: "Forget, forget, forget, forget what, I don't have flesh and bones here."

"My day!" Lin Ting stood up abruptly, and strode out of the classroom.

"Why are you going?" Zheng Ziyan asked.

"Toilet." Lin Tingan left a word and fled in despair.

However, the toilet is not a soundproof room after all. Standing in the corridor, Lin Tingan felt that Du Xuan surrounded him from all directions, leaving him nowhere to escape.In the whole campus, I am afraid that only the soundproof music classroom can save him from all this, but the music classroom is full of Du Xuan playing the piano.

Lin Tingan stood in the corridor blankly, thinking, should I drop out of school?

Finally, the bell for the afternoon inspection rang, and Du Xuan's pleasant voice said on the radio: "This is the end of this broadcast, thank you for listening." Lin Tingan was relieved and at the same time a little disappointed. Here, I feel that I must be, over!Egg!up!

Facts have proved that Lin Tingan's prediction of himself is occasionally correct, and he is indeed finished this time.

At the end of November, after getting the results of the third monthly exam, the Lin family finally exploded.

In winter, the doors and windows of every household are tightly closed, but because it is an old building, the sound insulation effect is not so good. Standing in the corridor filled with cold wind, Du Xuan could vaguely hear the voice coming from Lin's house.

Aunt Ma was angry and was scolding Lin Tingan loudly, but Lin Tingan didn't say a word. Uncle Lin seemed to be angry too, instead of protecting his son, he scolded Lin Tingan along with Aunt Ma.

That's right, Lin Tingan's test scores were really outrageous. There were 270 people in the whole grade, and he dared to take the test of [-]. This score is not to mention the third middle school, and he can't pass the general district key points.

What the hell happened to him?

Du Xuan was so worried that he couldn't help knocking on the door and going in. He grabbed Lin Tingan's shoulder and asked, "What's wrong with you? Don't you want to take the third middle school exam? Do you know what you're doing?"

But he clenched his fists tightly, twisted his heart and turned around to go up to the third floor. Every step he took, he felt pain in his internal organs.

That night, Du Xuan failed to finish her homework for the first time ever.

During the physical education class the next day, Du Xuan saw Ma Jing coming out of the junior high school building, and was hesitant whether to go up to ask about the situation or to grit his teeth and get through this time, making longing become a habit.

Before he could think it over, Ma Jing saw him.Du Xuan felt relieved and walked towards Ma Jing.

"Xiaoxuan." Ma Jing couldn't hide the sadness in her eyes, and asked casually, "Where are you going for physical education class?"

"Well," Du Xuan nodded and asked hesitantly, "Auntie is here to find Lin Ting'an?"

"Where is it? Parents have been invited." Ma Jing sighed, "Xiaoxuan, what do you think is wrong? Why is Xiaoan suddenly so poor? He was quite good in the monthly exam in September. At that time, the teacher said that his grades were inappropriate. Special students have no problem in the third middle school exam, no matter how hard you work, special students may be able to pass the test... You said it's only been three months, why is it so bad?"

Du Xuan asked, "Can he hurry up when he goes home?"

"He locked himself in the room as soon as he came home. His father and I thought he was studying hard, and he was quite happy, but who knows..." Ma Jing paused and said, "Xiao An's teacher said that Xiao An arrived one day. Wan lost his mind and suspected that he was in a relationship, Xiaoxuan, you know Xiaoan the best, do you know that?"

Du Xuan looked at Ma Jing, he heard every word Ma Jing said, but disappeared in a blink of an eye.There are only six words in his mind, "Xiao An is in love"!

He is in love!

Du Xuan was caught off guard by a single sentence and was thrown onto the icy and snowy Baizhang cliff. His bones ached from the cold, and his liver and gallbladder burst from fright.In October, the teenager who fell asleep peacefully on his body was already in love. His heart was filled with a girl, and there was no room for his studies and himself, so his grades would plummet, so he never I never looked for myself, so... After the phone was confiscated, the radiator didn't ring again.

He doesn't need me anymore.

Du Xuan didn't know whether she was lost, disappointed, or desperate.He just stood there numbly, looking at Ma Jing's eyes and brows full of sorrow.

"Do you know, Xiaoxuan? Who did he talk to?"

"I..." Du Xuan forced herself to speak with difficulty, "I don't know."

"Xiaoxuan," Ma Jing paused, "What do you think of the Huisi training you attended? I have to report him."

Du Xuan blinked: "If his heart is not there, it's useless for you to report to class."

"That's right," Ma Jing sighed, "What should I do? In fact, I suspected that he was in a relationship before, and I even talked to him specifically, but Xiaoan said that he didn't, so I believed it. Now it seems that he is still in a relationship. In love."

Ma Jing said again: "Xiaoxuan, can you persuade him? We as parents usually can't ask about this kind of thing. You have the best relationship with him. Just treat him as a brother who cares about his younger brother. Can you ask my aunt ask?"

Du Xuan wanted to shake her head subconsciously, but Ma Jing said: "Xiao An admires you the most, what you say may be more effective than what Auntie said."

Du Xuan nodded unexpectedly.

Du Xuan went to the junior high school building to block people after school, and when they were almost finished, they blocked the dejected Lin Tingan.

Lin Tingan drooped his head, and was grabbed by someone within two steps. When he raised his head to see who the person in front of him was, he was so frightened that his soul flew away.

"Du, Du, Du Xuan." Lin Tingan stammered, and instantly felt his heart beating rapidly, pounding against his ribs, causing chest pain.In the cold November wind, his whole body was burning hot, and his scalp was damp with a layer of cold sweat.He almost used all his willpower to control himself to run without running.

"I have something to ask you." Du Xuan looked at Lin Tingan's ugly face, feeling a little unhappy.Is it so annoying to see me?How long has it been? It's only been a month. Are you too lazy to talk to me anymore?

"You ask." Lin Tingan's eyes rolled around, but he didn't dare to put them on Du Xuan's face. He was really worried that he would not be able to hold back, and said the word "like" as soon as his mouth bald.In fact, these two words were on the edge of his lips, and he could squeeze them out.

"We..." Du Xuan paused, "Can we change to another place? You're not cold."

Lin Tingan is a southerner. The city he lives in is like spring and full of flowers all the year round. He starts to cry when the temperature is below ten degrees. It is the evening at the end of November in the north.

"Classroom?" Lin Ting'an asked. He wanted to make a quick decision, so it would be best to say it at the door of the building. After he finished speaking, he clapped his hands and went back to each house to find his own mother... Oh, we live together, your mother is really annoying.

"Shall we go to Penumbra?" Du Xuan asked, "I'll treat you to something delicious."

When Du Xuan asked this question, he was cautious, even with a hint of pleading.Lin Ting'an threw away his helmet and armor and was defeated. He wanted to kneel down to Du Xuan, so he nodded in agreement without thinking. After nodding, he wanted to slap himself hard.

The willpower is too weak, how can I look like a member of the Communist Youth League!

The lights in "Penumbra" are still soft, and the soothing music accompanied by the aroma of desserts makes Lin Tingan restless.

This is, about, will, the rhythm, rhythm, okay.

Lin Tingan's mind was thinking wildly uncontrollably:

It's a date, even if it's a date.

The date should be my treat. If I knew it, I wouldn’t have eaten KFC secretly yesterday. Is there enough money in the bag now?

What if money is not enough?How about sending Zheng Ziyan a wechat and asking him to transfer some money over?

Hey, it seems that Zheng Ziyan doesn't have much money

……

Just when Lin Tingan was thinking wildly, Du Xuan took the menu and wanted to hand it to Lin Tingan to let him order it himself, but after trying several times, he couldn't talk to him calmly, so he had to follow the principle of "I am older than him, he listens to me." What should be done” mentality, arbitrarily ordered milk tea and sandwiches for him.

Ding Zimu came to take the menu, and left without asking a word. After a while, drinks and food were brought. Lin Tingan likes sweet drinks, and Du Xuan likes lighter drinks. He specially made two different glasses. of.

Du Xuan took the things, turned his eyes to see Ding Zimu raised his head and said thank you softly.

It was only at this moment that Lin Tingan dared to look up at Du Xuan quickly.Du Xuan seemed to have lost weight, and he was not as energetic as before. Even though the third year of junior high school was so difficult and bitter, he was never so haggard.The first year of high school was very hard. He is in the student union and the school band. I heard that a chess and card club will be established and let him be the president. The director of the radio station is going to be in the third year of high school. Du Xuan should take over...

Lin Tingan felt particularly guilty, because he had to bother Du Xuan with his messes, so why couldn't he save him some trouble?

Du Xuan turned his head, Lin Tingan quickly lowered his head, leaving Du Xuan with only the tip of his nose, half of his forehead, and a black top of his head.

Lin Tingan, who bowed his head in front of him, made Du Xuan feel distressed. He still liked to see Lin Tingan who was so poor all day long.

"Lin Ting'an," Du Xuan decided to make a quick decision, because the surging emotions in his heart had almost destroyed all his willpower, "What happened to your monthly exam?"

"I... didn't pass the exam."

"I can see it. I want to ask you why you didn't pass the exam."

"The review...is not in place."

This kind of answer is nonsense. Du Xuan endured it for a while and asked, "What's the matter with you? What's on your mind? Can you tell me?"

Hearing the word "mind", Lin Ting'an turned pale with fright, his whole body was dumbfounded, he looked up at Du Xuan stiffly, his face turned pale layer by layer, his wide eyes were full of panic.

Lin Tingan's "guilty" expression was too obvious, so obvious that Du Xuan couldn't pretend not to see it.Du Xuan clearly felt that something in his heart quickly collapsed into a pile of ashes.The whole body was falling, he took two deep breaths, but he still couldn't stand up, so he could only sit with his shoulders hunched.

This... Is there anything else I need to ask?

Du Xuan closed her eyes and thought to herself mockingly: Isn't this very good?Can't I give up on myself?For Lin Tingan, isn't this kind of youth the most complete?

So, Du Xuan stabbed himself hard with a smile, and he asked, "Who do you like?"

Lin Tingan slowly widened his eyes, and the huge stone on his chest made him unable to breathe?He clenched his fists and pressed on his knees to prevent himself from uttering the word "you" uncontrollably. He swayed slightly, but he couldn't calm down. Fear and excitement swept him at the same time. He felt I was thrown into a different dimension, and my whole body was torn apart.

Holding the cup of milk tea, Du Xuan lowered her eyes to stare at the cup, and forced herself to speak: "Accordingly, I shouldn't care about this matter, but your grades have dropped too much recently, I think I should remind you."

Lin Tingan didn't listen to a word, his heart was beating so fast that he was about to jump out of Tianling Gai.

Lin Tingan's silence was "acceptance" in Du Xuan's view. Du Xuan thought he would be sad and desperate, but he didn't expect that the first emotion that came to him was "anger".

You are actually in love!

How dare you like someone else!

Du Xuan was on fire in his heart, he gritted his molars and asked, "Do you still want to go to No. [-] Middle School?"

Hearing this sentence, Lin Tingan nodded, "Yes."

"Your grade...is a bit difficult."

"Ah."

"There is still half a month until the key school entrance examination, you...you have to pay attention."

"Ah."

"If you can't stand in the city's ranking, you will be very passive in the back."

"Ah."

"The mock exam questions later will test your foundation, so prepare well."

"it is good."

"What on earth are you thinking?" Du Xuan frowned, and from Lin Tingan's "hmmhhh" attitude, he could feel that Lin Tingan was avoiding this question. This kind of avoidance made him unable to suppress the anger in his heart, "Now is the time?" It's urgent."

Du Xuan raised his voice slightly, and Lin Tingan sat up straight in shock. He stared at the sandwich on the table and said, "I, I, I will study hard."

"Study hard requires an attitude," Du Xuan swallowed a breath, and slowed down her tone, "I really hope you can pass the exam. Do you still want to go to No. [-] Middle School?"

Lin Tingan hesitated for a moment and said, "I don't know."

He really didn't know that Du Xuan was the biggest temptation to him in No. [-] Middle School, and the biggest trouble for him was also because of Du Xuan. It was quite a happy thing; sometimes he thought that he could not forget him until he was seen, so he should leave No. [-] Middle School. This kind of conflict made it difficult for him to sleep.

Lin Tingan's "I don't know" completely defeated Du Xuan.He thought, Lin Ting'an must want to chase that girl to another school, Sun Rui said that "cross-school love" is too painful, who doesn't want to spend time with the person they like day and night?

He's going, he's going, he's going...

Du Xuan clenched the cup tightly, feeling that this conversation could not proceed at all, he drank the milk tea in the cup in one go, said hastily: "Then you can do it yourself." Then grabbed his schoolbag, stood up and left before he erupted.

Lin Tingan's mind buzzed, it was completely subconscious, and then he stood up and rushed out the door.

"Du Xuan." Lin Tingan grabbed Du Xuan's arm at the door of the shop.

"Let go." Du Xuan frowned, eager to shake off Lin Tingan's hand.

"No." Lin Tingan didn't know what he was going to do, and subconsciously felt that he couldn't let go. He was full of things to say to Du Xuan, but he didn't know where to start.

"What are you pulling me for?" Du Xuan asked angrily. He felt that he could not bear it anymore. If he looked at the boy more and said a word to him, the sentence "I like you" would be blurted out.

God, it was the first time he wanted to hit someone so much, and it was his favorite person.

"I..." Lin Tingan bit the tip of his tongue fiercely, ordering himself to swallow the word "like", but he didn't know what else to say to Du Xuan except "like".

"Lin Ting'an," Du Xuan took a deep breath and said, "In short, you can just think about your own affairs clearly. If you want to go to the third middle school, you have to work harder. If you don't want to go to the third middle school, you can take the entrance exam to the Normal University , Second Middle School, Fifth Middle School, and Seventh Middle School all have to work harder. If you don't want to take the exam...you can do whatever you want."

"I'm not..." Lin Ting'an was driven crazy by the string of "one, two, three, four, five, six, seven". Is this going to go up the mountain to fight tigers?I don't want "one two three four five six seven", I just want to talk to you.

"Let go." Du Xuan reached out to break Lin Tingan's hand, Lin Tingan subconsciously clenched his fist, crossed his left forearm to block Du Xuan, and directly pressed him against the outer wall of "Penumbra".

Du Xuan looked at Lin Tingan's clenched fist and laughed angrily: "What are you doing?"

"I……"

"Want to fight?"

"Do not."

"You think you can beat me?"

"No." A layer of sweat broke out on Lin Tingan's forehead, his eyes began to turn red, and every word he uttered was filled with irrepressible impulse.

"Lin Ting'an," Du Xuan finally yelled angrily, "You know that you are in the third grade of junior high school? I don't want to say those things to you. I don't want you to think that I am the kind of person who only forces people to study like my mother. But you are in the third year of junior high school, you want to take the high school entrance examination, and you have your own future. I beg you to be more considerate, and I beg you Lin Tingan, you must be too ambitious!"

"It's not big!" Lin Tingan couldn't hold back after being yelled at by Du Xuan. His rationality was all flying, and his tongue was completely out of control. His breath sprayed on Du Xuan's face, he put the fist of his left hand close to Du Xuan, shaking it slightly, Lin Tingan also roared, "It's not big, my heart is just that big, that big!"

Du Xuan stared at the fist and shouted, "So what!"

"My dear Du Xuan," Lin Ting'an finally went crazy, he roared, "You are 1.8 meters fucking."