don't force me

Lin Tingan sat back on the stand after running the event, while Du Xuan was still taking pictures of other people in the field.Taking advantage of the gap between the competition, Du Xuan looked back at the photos just now. Lin Tingan in the camera was flamboyant and reckless, and his arrogance almost overflowed the camera.

Du Xuan showed a smile, he just liked to see him like this. The depressed Lin Ting'an half a year ago made him uncomfortable, but today's Lin Ting'an made Du Xuan feel proud.

Du Xuan turned around and looked towards the stands, just in time to meet Lin Tingan's eyes, Lin Tingan tugged at the corner of his mouth, scratched his hair and turned his eyes away, his face turned red.

Du Xuan shouted: "Lin Tingan!"

"What?" Lin Tingan stood up from the stands, went to the guardrail and bent down, asking with curved eyebrows, "What's wrong?"

In fact, Du Xuan was fine, but seeing Lin Tingan looking away was a little upset, so she subconsciously yelled.After shouting, I didn't know what to say, so I had to say: "Give me a bottle of water, I'm thirsty."

Lin Tingan said "Oh" and went back and took a bottle of water and handed it to Du Xuan, "Come up and rest for a while, it's hot and you're running [-] meters, why are you guarding?"

"Okay." Du Xuan closed the camera.

Lin Tingan stretched out his hand: "Quick, I'll pull you up."

Du Xuan reached out and grabbed Lin Tingan's hand, one foot had already kicked on the wall.A voice shouted: "No. [-] middle school students, don't turn over the stands!"

Lin Tingan's eyes widened: "Huh?"

Du Xuan was still holding Lin Tingan's hand, looking up at Lin Tingan, facing the noon sun, looking at Lin Tingan's hair and bright eyes, he couldn't help laughing, the more he laughed, the happier he was, the more he laughed, the more he couldn't stop Stop and laugh out loud.

Lin Tingan let go of his hand in embarrassment, and muttered, "Why do I get caught every time?"

Du Xuan said, "I'll go around."

Lin Tingan stretched out his hand: "Give me the camera first, I've been carrying it all morning."

Du Xuan took off the camera and handed it to Lin Tingan, and quickly ran along the edge of the stands to the entrance. When he walked around the gate of the stands, he saw a cold drink seller bought a bottle of iced pulsation.

Du Xuan ran back to the stands, and Lin Tingan was pouring a bottle of mineral water on his head, his head was covered with glistening drops of water under the sun.

"Don't catch a cold." Du Xuan grabbed a towel and wiped it, "Anyway, it's October." He passed Pulse over.

"It's noon, I won't catch a cold." Lin Tingan shook his head from side to side in Du Xuan's hand, unscrewed the bottle cap and took a sip, "Hey, it tastes like lime, Zheng Ziyan has never bought it right. He always buys the lychee flavor."

"You have a lot of things to do." Lin Tingan said dazedly when Du Xuan wiped Sanqi 21 vigorously and took off the towel, "I was dizzy by you."

"Take a break." Sitting next to Lin Tingan, Du Xuan said, "There are still more than three hours before the next game."

Lin Tingan looked at the field and said, "Old Hu should be happy, everyone ran well."

"Yes."

"Du Xuan, show me the photo with the camera, do you make me look good?" Lin Tingan reached for the camera on the other side of Du Xuan's body, almost crawling across Du Xuan's lap.

Du Xuan put one hand in front of Lin Tingan, and patted him with the other: "Don't look, my camera is almost out of battery, how can I take pictures in the afternoon? I'll make a copy for you when I go back tonight."

Lin Tingan withdrew his hand muttering, Du Xuan heaved a sigh of relief, otherwise he really didn't know how to explain that two-thirds of the photos in the camera were Lin Tingan's photos.

The two looked at the venue and chatted slowly, the topic was erratic, Lin Tingan spoke more and more slowly, and kept nodding.Du Xuan asked, "Sleepy?"

"A little bit." Lin Tingan rubbed his eyes, "I'm so excited, I woke up at six o'clock this morning."

"Close your eyes and sleep for a while." Du Xuan said, "Let's go to the back row, can you lean against..."

"Okay." Lin Tingan closed his eyes, leaned directly on Du Xuan's body.

Du Xuan froze for a moment, then turned her body to make Lin Tingan lean more comfortably.Then put a towel on Lin Tingan's head to block the glare of the sun.

The venue was chaotic, the athletes and referees were shouting, the audience in the stands were chatting and laughing, and the colorful flags not far away were fluttering in the wind.But in this chaos, Du Xuan unexpectedly felt very quiet.This tranquility comes from the heart, quiet and leisurely, the long and steady breathing of the boy next to the ear makes the sun even softer.

Du Xuan thought, this time is really bad, what should I do?

In the afternoon, Lin Tingan opened his eyes on Du Xuan in bewilderment, and saw Du Xuan's hand on his knee at a glance.It was a pair of hands playing the piano, with slender fingers and cleanly manicured nails.Lin Tingan watched for a long time before realizing that he was leaning on someone else.

He sat up straight and rubbed his eyes: "Maybe your hands are numb."

"It's okay." Du Xuan shook her head, "You're still sound asleep, I'm really afraid that you're going to nest your neck."

Lin Tingan turned his shoulders and neck: "It's okay, it's fine. Just watch, I'll run 400 for you in a while, and you'll win for sure."

Du Xuan pushed him: "You take a break, I have to hurry down, or I won't be able to take pictures."

Lin Tingan looked up at Du Xuan who stood up and asked, "Keep the battery on, you want to shoot me running 400."

"Don't worry." Du Xuan turned her head and said.

Lin Tingan looked up and saw the blue sky and white clouds in autumn, and the colorful flags flying around. Du Xuan stood there quietly, all his eyes were on himself.Lin Tingan felt that his figure could fill Du Xuan's pupils.

Lin Tingan's heart sank, and he let nature take its course...I'm afraid it's not too good.

Before firing the gun at 400 meters, Lin Tingan ran over to find Du Xuan, "What if I can't make it into the top five?"

"Huh?" Du Xuan laughed, "Haven't you been coaxing all the time, full of confidence, why are you being cowardly again now?"

"It's not cowardly, it's just asking, what if?"

"Just in case, if there is no ranking, go and memorize all of "The List of Teachers", "The Story of Yueyang Tower", "The Story of the Drunken Man's Pavilion" and "Zou Ji satirizes the king of Qi and accepts advice" before next Wednesday."

"Oh my god," Lin Tingan screamed, and ran to the starting line, "I want to run into the top five even if I die."

Du Xuan stood near the finish line and raised the camera:

Shooting, starting, speeding up, cornering, following, speeding up again, cornering...

Du Xuan held his breath and watched Lin Tingan rushing over from the viewfinder, sixth.

"Come on!" Du Xuan threw away the camera, put his palms around his mouth, no matter whether Lin Tingan could hear it or not, he yelled loudly, "Come on, Lin Tingan, go ahead and overtake him!"

Lin Tingan's calves were thin and powerful, and there were faint muscle lines when he kicked the ground with every step. Du Xuan stared at those legs, hoping that they could run faster and take longer strides.

"Come on! Let's go!" Du Xuan waved vigorously and shouted loudly, attracting the attention of other school reporters around.

But Du Xuan didn't care, Lin Tingan was sprinting, biting No.5 tightly, and on the final straight, he finally tied No.5.Du Xuan breathed a sigh of relief, Lin Tingan's sprint is much better than the mid-range, as long as he catches up, he can overtake.Sure enough, Lin Tingan rushed to No.5 soon, and before Du Xuan had time to cheer, he actually accelerated his speed again.

I really want to win.

Du Xuan was too nervous to shout, but just stared at Lin Tingan's back, watching him run faster and faster, and caught up with No.20 in the last 5 meters.

"Fourth!" Du Xuan shouted, "Fourth!"

Standing on the stand, Hu Kun said with a smile, "Stop shouting, Du Xuan, you have lost all face in the No. [-] Middle School. You are not number one when you come fourth."

Du Xuan turned her head to look at Hu Kun, Hu Kun smiled until the wrinkles in the corners of his eyes appeared.

On the way back, Lin Tingan and Du Xuan sat together, chattering and showing off their 400-meter sprint skills the whole time.

"Did you see it? I ended up surpassing two people in a row."

"When I started running, I felt that I could win, and I was very sure."

"Well, if I run another 30 meters, I can get the bronze medal."

"I'm awesome, awesome, awesome. This is how my master is."

……

Du Xuan just listened silently and didn't refute, just smiled and let this kid be poor, he didn't even bother to ask what "banza" meant, it was nothing more than "beautiful".

Let him go wild for a while, he deserves it.

Hu Kun sat at the front of the bus and stood up to make a summary. Since the game was very good this time, the smile on his face never faded.

Hu Kun said: "This year's schedule is over, and the mid-term exam will be next week. It's about time for you brats to read books. Don't let people point to the back of your spine and say 'body special student'."

There was a burst of hissing in the carriage, and someone said disdainfully, "Is Ti Tesheng wearing his shoes?"

Then everyone burst into laughter.

Du Xuan glanced at Lin Tingan, who sat in the last row and shouted, "Song Yang, Song Yang, the first place in the midterm exam scares them to death."

Song Yang, who specializes in high jump, turned around and said, "Why don't you take the test? Aren't you the third year of junior high school? Come on, take the test at the Normal University and open the eyes of those people."

Lin Ting'an jumped up and said, "Why don't you take the entrance examination of the Normal University? You might as well go directly to the Normal University."

There was a lot of noise in the carriage, but Du Xuan's heart was cast with a shadow.

Hu Kun suppressed everyone's voices and said, "Lin Ting'an, don't jump around, just look at the car and you will toss about it. You are in the third year of junior high school, do you know it?"

"Yes." Lin Tingan said, "Hey, why are you talking about me? I'm not a junior in junior high school."

Another person smiled and said, "But you are the only one who dares to take the first place in the class in mathematics. We are all scumbags, and we broke up with mathematics since the second year of junior high school."

Another person said: "Hey, Lin Tingan, isn't your Chinese also number one? The kind that counts backwards?"

"Hahahaha." Everyone was laughing.

Du Xuan couldn't help but went through the review progress of the third year of junior high school in her head, worrying that she had finished reviewing the classical Chinese, the words, and half of the basic knowledge...

These are the points that Lin Tingan must get.

Du Xuan pestered Lin Ting'an and said, "Teacher Hu is right, after the competition you have to read quietly."

Lin Tingan scratched his head: "Oh..."

Du Xuan: "It's time for the second monthly exam."

Lin Ting'an: "Don't be so nervous, I'm a good person."

Du Xuan pinched Lin Tingan's neck and dangled: "You are stupid, the special students in the high school entrance examination are just a drop in score. How much do you think it can drop based on the status of our school's high school? Twenty points at most is great, you Can you pass the exam?"

"It's still a year, don't worry."

"Where is there another year? It's already October, and it's seven months at a time."

"Du Xuan..." Lin Tingan said in a long voice, "Please, I just finished the championship today, can't you let me take a breath? Don't worry, I can pass the exam."

"You look so proud, how can you take the exam..." Du Xuan suddenly stopped talking, froze for a while, then slowly let go, and stared at Lin Tingan with an ugly expression.

"Ah? What?" Lin Tingan asked, "What are you going to say?"

Du Xuan's face was as pale as a ghost, and he shook his head: "It's okay, you... ran pretty well today."

Lin Tingan said triumphantly, "You have to treat me to something delicious to celebrate."

That night, Du Xuan tossed and turned and couldn't fall asleep. He sat on the bed and thought silently: the words he said during the day were so familiar, so familiar that they used to give him nightmares every night.He wished he could go deaf to avoid hearing that.But today, why did these words come out of my mouth so naturally.

"Du Xuan, you have to work hard, you are the one who is going to be admitted to the Normal University."

"Du Xuan, there is no time, you have to hurry up."

"Du Xuan, pay attention to your math, you need to improve your score."

……

Du Xuan covered her ears, desperately trying to block out that voice.Ask yourself in the dark:

Will I become the kind of person I hate the most?Chattering, assertive, and extreme, like my mother.

Isn't this kind of self disgusting, is it true that one day Lin Ting'an will be tired of listening to these things, and will avoid him too?

As if I would rather curl up in the penumbra with a high fever than go home.

and also……

Why do you feel so worried when you hear Hu Kun say "midterm exam".

Why did he say these unpleasant things on Lin Tingan's happiest day.

Why did you say to your mother, "Lin Tingan will be admitted to 985 and 211 one day"?Is it just to protect a friend and refute mom's prejudice?

But my mother once said that Sun Rui is a fool and does not seek to make progress, but she is just smiling.

Sun Rui said: "It's been so many years, I haven't seen you say which girl is better."

……

In the dead of night, Du Xuan hugged his knees and curled up at the foot of the bed, gritted his teeth, and cruelly and resolutely peeled off a layer of skin. He asked himself bloody:

Why is he all in the viewfinder, why is he hugged, why does he feel that the world is quiet when he falls asleep by himself.

Why do you treat him well, why do you always want to be with him? It can't be because of that pot of ribs soup, right?

It was still for the warm and soft bed on the day of fever.

Or he stubbornly said, "Du Xuan, you are No.1."

All kinds of thoughts came flooding in, making Du Xuan unable to sort them out, and could only bear these huge shocks passively.For a long time, the emotions that had been suppressed intentionally or unintentionally by him quietly surfaced in this chaos.He has to admit that for more than a year, Lin Ting'an has been in his life all the time. This boy has affected all his joys and anger, and he even tried to plan his future path in vain!

It's horrific.

Du Xuan shook his head, feeling that he was simply unreasonable.

He asked himself: Du Xuan, in fact, you have long realized that this is not the so-called 'brothers and brothers respect', right?

He also asked himself: Du Xuan, do you finally dare to admit it now?

He even asked himself: Du Xuan, do you know the consequences of this?

There were no answers to all the questions, his mind went blank, he could only feel a sharp pain, icy cold, the pain made him trembling and wanting to scream.But he didn't dare to scream, or even breathe, for fear of disturbing his mother by making the slightest sound.He shrank into a ball and stabbed himself again:

If Lin Tingan found out, what would you do?

Just when Du Xuan was at a loss, the mid-term exam and the third-month exam came one after another.Sitting in the examination room, Du Xuan was full of thoughts that he hadn't had time to summarize the key points for Lin Ting'an, hadn't changed his composition, and hadn't helped him to silence the chemical equation again... So in the first big exam of high school , Du Xuan took the No.15 exam.

Zhou Man stretched out his hand with a sullen face: "Mobile phone."

Du Xuan handed over the mobile phone without saying a word, secretly relieved, he really thinks it is a good thing not to have a mobile phone.

"Have you figured out what to do?" Zhou Man asked

Du Xuan said, "This time I'm not good at math, so I'll enroll in a math class."

Zhou Man said: "Report physics as well. Anyway, you have always been weak in these two subjects. There is no harm in getting started early."

Du Xuan nodded, and started class from the second week, and Lin Tingan started the monthly exam this week, all the homework that was missed before was clearly reflected on the test paper in this monthly exam, Lin Tingan directly fell to the 26th place in the class.

"I'll go, Lin Tingan, can you do it?" Zheng Ziyan said holding Lin Tingan's grades, "Why are you so poor in math?"

"I don't know." Lin Tingan said dejectedly, "I'm still confused."

"You can't do this," Zheng Ziyan said, "Old Peng will definitely look for you later."

Lin Tingan sighed: "He has already looked for me, and he said he wants to look for my parents."

"Didn't you ask Du Xuan to review for you this time?" Yang Lemeng said, "Why are you so poor in Chinese?"

Lin Ting settled down: "I... haven't seen him this week."

"How is it possible, you two are upstairs and downstairs."

Lin Tingan said, "Really."

He was a little dazed, and the feeling of "parting" that he had been struggling with before came back again.It turned out that it was exactly as he had imagined, junior high school and high school were completely two worlds, if he hadn't deliberately searched for it, he would not have been able to meet Du Xuan for a whole week.

Lin Tingan stood up awkwardly and walked away.

Zheng Ziyan yelled from behind: "Why are you going?"

Lin Tingan ignored him and ran directly to the high school building.The senior high school is doing evening self-study at the moment, and the corridor is quiet. Lin Tingan stood in front of the first-grade bulletin board on the first floor and read each word three times, unexpectedly, there was no Du Xuan's name on the list.

how can that be?

Lin Tingan walked to the classroom of Class One, Senior One, and saw Du Xuan through the glass of the back door.

There was a paper on the table, and Du Xuan was holding a pen in his hand, lying on the table with a tired face, his eyes were closed, and his eyes were blue.Lin Tingan's heart twitched, and he deeply felt an indescribable emotion.

Not sad, not parting, not worried,

perhaps……

I feel bad.