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After Qiu Cen left for a long time, the two people who sat and stood in the living room did not speak.

Li Tian still maintained his lazy sitting posture leaning on the sofa, staring at a scratch on the floor, waiting silently for Li Xiaodan to speak.

The left and right are what she sees, there is nothing to say.

After an unknown amount of time, Li Xiaodan's body moved, as if he suddenly woke up from a dream.

She quietly observed Li Tian's expression, and after a while she pulled out a smile that was uglier than crying, and said awkwardly: "I came back to have dinner with you...I've been too busy recently, I don't have time Come to see you..."

"Okay," Li Tian interrupted her, seeing that she didn't mention what happened just now, but was surprised, "Don't you ask me anything?"

He looked very relaxed on his face, as if he had just casually drank a saliva of water when he was hit by someone, his thin lips were slightly pursed, and there was no abnormality in his expression.

Only he himself knows that he can't even stand up straight now.

Li Xiaodan's back stiffened, and he was stunned for a long time, as if making excuses for Li Tian, ​​he said in a slightly awkward tone: "Boys, it's normal to fight around, but I didn't know you knew that little bastard Qiu Cen so well. ..”

"That's it." Li Tian said.

Afraid she wouldn't understand, he repeated it again, "It's just what you think."

Anyway, sooner or later she will know, why not tell her directly today, so that she can stop thinking about it.

It also reassures him.

"..."

Li Xiaodan stared at him carefully, as if he wanted to see flaws in his face, but after looking for a long time, he didn't find anything suspicious.

Still indifferent.

The difference is that the clear eyes are still shining with light.

She never saw it.

Li Xiaodan fell silent, lowered his head, his long hair slid down his shoulders, covering his face.

From Li Tian's point of view, a shadow shrouded her face, and she seemed to be shaking a little.

It seems difficult to accept such a result.

After a long time, Li Xiaodan raised his head, his eyes were red, and the tears were still swirling in his eyes, refusing to fall out.

She almost choked up and said, "Li Tian, ​​what are you doing..."

"Why are you doing this..."

How can you do this.

How can... like men.

In Li Xiaodan's impression, Li Tian was a very quiet child from childhood to adulthood.He is not willing to share his thoughts and worries with others, so in Li Xiaodan's view, he is indifferent to many things.Therefore, even if she wanted to love her younger brother, she couldn't do it.He could only tell his brother that he didn't need anything and didn't need her care.After her father left, she seldom really paid attention to Li Tian's inner thoughts, and even stayed away from him, only maintaining the superficial sibling relationship.Now that the two have finally settled their suspicions, she wants to make up for the missing part of the family relationship in his heart, but Li Tian...

This made her feel very guilty.

It was his own indifference and indifference that made Li Tian more and more out of track and went on a path that went against the common sense of the world.

If it were someone else, and the two boys were together, although she didn't understand, she was still willing to be a polite bystander or bless them.

But Li Tian can't.

Her brother can't.

She carries family, affection and work and career on her back.

She is Li Tian's only elder, inheriting her father's and mother's wishes, and trying to make Li Tian a vigorous and relaxed person like ordinary young people.

a...normal person

Go to school, work, get married and have children, and live happily ever after.

But now...

The tears in her eyes reached their limit and finally overflowed, flowing down her delicately made-up cheeks.

She was still standing there, crying so ugly.

"Tiantian...can we not be like this?" She wiped her tears casually, leaving skin of different colors after wiping off the makeup on her face. She bent her mouth with difficulty, pleading in her eyes, "I I know a lot of pretty girls, there must be one you like... If you want to fall in love, can I introduce you?"

Seeing that Li Tian didn't speak, she randomly thought that he was thinking about it, and said persistently: "It's okay, if you don't like it, we can change it, there is always something you like..."

"Do not."

Li Tian interrupted her suddenly, "I just told you about it."

The implication is that I have notified you, so don't say any more, your thoughts will not affect my decision at all, and it is useless to say more.

Seeing that he refused to compromise, Li Xiaodan knew that it was useless for him to persuade him at this time, so he wiped his face hard, found out his purpose of coming here from the corner, fell silent, and made an ugly smile.

"Forget it, let's talk about this later, let's have a meal together? Do you want to eat out or at home?"

Regarding her change of attitude, Li Tian just glanced at her indifferently, seeing her not-so-beautiful disappointment, and remained indifferent.

He replied, "Eat at home."

He can't get out at all now.

After finishing the sentence, I added another sentence: "You do it. Anything is fine, I can eat it."

Li Xiaodan's cooking is notoriously unpalatable.

It was also because he didn't want to be abused by her that Li Tian learned to cook by himself.

But today, he was really not in a good mood, and his body was also not feeling well. If Li Xiaodan was not still here, he would probably go directly to bed and sleep covered with a quilt after Qiu Cen left.

Li Xiaodan really can't do anything.

He clumsily cooked two bowls of vermicelli that would not taste good no matter how they were cooked, and sat face to face with Li Tian at the dining table, silently eating.

She raised her head countless times but hesitated to speak, and of course Li Tian also noticed it.

But his position will not change, and Li Xiaodan can't influence him.

He is stubborn and paranoid, and it took a lot of determination to get closer to Qiu Cen, waiting for redemption.

He doesn't want to give up easily.

Even if it's not for saving himself, but simply staying with Qiu Cen, he is at ease.

He will firmly grasp this hard-won light.

Fortunately, Li Xiaodan couldn't stay any longer after dinner. Also, she likes lively and eccentric people so much, it was her limit to be able to stay by Li Tian's side for so long without making any noise.

How could it be possible to endure his indifference all the time?

After Li Tian took her out and closed the door, he thought silently in his heart.

The way Li Xiaodan turned his head three times when he left, and the disappointment in his similar eyes, all seemed to be written with the word "sad".

But Li Tian will not look back.

It will not give Li Xiaodan a signal that he can become "normal".

Qiu Cen arrived at a coffee shop according to the time and place Zhong Xin posted on his WeChat.

According to Zhong Xin, not far from this coffee shop is her cousin's studio.

He entered the coffee shop, counted to the agreed third table by the window and sat down, refused the request of the waiter who followed him to order now, and planned to wait for someone to come and order together.

It didn't take long, he sat and chatted with Li Tian on wechat, and the person came.

He didn't tell Li Tian what he was doing here today, one was not sure if this person could help, and the other was because he was afraid that Li Tian would think blindly.

The books he read during this period let him know that he should maintain Li Tian's healthy mentality, guide him to have a positive attitude towards life, and not make him feel pressured.So he told Li Tian that he couldn't go back due to extra classes, but he actually came here to meet someone.

According to the work photos of her cousin that Zhong Xin sent him, Qiu Cen could recognize that the person in front of him who walked towards him as soon as he entered the coffee shop was Chen Kanglin.

Sure enough, the man came over, stood in front of his desk, and extended a hand to him in a gentlemanly manner.

"Hello, I'm Chen Kanglin, and you are Qiu Cen."

Qiu Cen reached out to shake his hand politely, nodded and smiled: "I am Qiu Cen."

Chen Kanglin's appearance is Zhou Zheng. Although he can't see anything good-looking and handsome, it makes people feel comfortable at a glance.

It feels like spring breeze.

In Qiu Cen's mind, one of the few evaluations of the psychiatrist is that he is approachable and a gentleman is polite.

Including Dr. Li who provided psychological counseling for Li Tian.

Chen Kanglin pulled out the chair and sat down opposite Qiu Cen, feeling guilty for being late, and explained that the delay was due to a temporary patient.

In fact, less than 5 minutes had passed since the time they agreed upon, Qiu Cen waved his hand indifferently and said, "It's okay, I just arrived too."

He raised his hand to call for the waiter, handed the menu to Chen Kanglin, he took it bluntly, ordered a glass of iced Americano, and then handed the menu back.

Qiu Cen smiled, took it and gave it to the waiter, casually saying the same as him.

Because they didn't know each other well, the two of them chatted casually without getting down to business.

Chen Kanglin bent the corner of his mouth, looked at him thoughtfully, and asked without hesitation: "Are you Xinxin's boyfriend?"

Qiu Cen was taken aback by his question, and burst out laughing, "I'm not, we're just friends."

"Friend" Chen Kanglin looked a little disappointed, "So you are not her new boyfriend."

Qiu Cen shrugged noncommittally.

Chen Kanglin: "Then have you met her boyfriend? Is he quite honest? Otherwise, no one can bear her young lady's temper."

Unexpectedly, this young man who seemed very calm still had such gossip thoughts, Qiu Cen was a little surprised, but he was too embarrassed to say anything else in front of his cousin, so he just smiled and replied: "I haven't done that yet." I've seen it before, she didn't even tell me that you were a top student majoring in psychology, or that she met her by chance."

"You can't be called a top student," Chen Kanglin smiled modestly, "It's not bad, it can only solve some small problems."

"Well, it looks like it's well hidden." Qiu Cen said.

The eyes of the two met, as if they knew each other's thoughts in an instant, and their tempers and personalities were completely in line with their appetites, so they laughed.

The age difference between the two was not that big, and they chatted smoothly. This shortened the distance between them, and the atmosphere became better.

After a long time, Chen Kanglin straightened his face and stared intently into Qiu Cen's eyes, but his tone sounded like he was discussing "today's weather is fine" and said: "You look fine, you don't look sick, so come here Are you looking for me for someone else? Tell me."

"... "

Qiu Cen's eyes darkened, and he couldn't help but be attracted by his eyes that seemed to know everything, and looked over firmly.

After a long time, he cleared his throat and said slowly, "It's a friend of mine..."

The two cups of coffee on the table were drained without knowing it, and they were taken for refills, and I didn't know how much was poured back and forth.

It was still cold and bleak outside the glass window. Dead branches hung on the branches or fell to the ground and were chased by pedestrians and vehicles, but for the two people in the warm coffee shop, they seemed insignificant.

Qiu Cen didn't know how many times when he put down the glass, the unilateral talk came to an end.

He looked out of the window quietly, without moving his gaze, and said, "That's the way it is."

"Hmm..." Chen Kanglin tapped his fingers on the table, thought for a while, and said, "You must have a good relationship with your friend."

Qiu Cen withdrew his gaze and glanced at him lightly.

"Don't look at me like that, you have said so many details, you must have been by your friend's side when he was ill, and..." Chen Kanglin approached him, and said softly, "Your eyes can't fool me."

Qiu Cen was stunned for a moment, but said nothing.

He actually wanted to ask, is his performance really so obvious? It's written all over his face.

But obviously, he won't ask.

Chen Kanglin didn't pay attention to his changes, but frowned slightly, and said carefully: "Because I haven't seen your friend in person, so I can only guess from your description that he may suffer from mania and mild...depression .”

“…can these two psychological problems occur in the same person”

Because he was fully prepared psychologically, Qiu Cen didn't feel that it was too difficult to accept, but instead asked a question that he didn't understand.

"Well, it's possible in theory," Chen Kanglin nodded, "It's very common for a person to suffer from many different mental illnesses at the same time."

"As for your friend's illness, it may be called manic depression, or bipolar disorder for short. It is usually caused by too much pressure in life or drug abuse, family environment, genetics of relatives, etc. When the patient gets sick, he will be extremely helpless. Loss of interest in life and work, accompanied by high body temperature, respiratory disturbances, or visual hallucinations..."

Chen Kanglin saw that Qiu Cen's face turned pale every time he said a word, so he realized that what he said was probably similar to his friend's symptoms, so he quickly changed his words and comforted him: "But your friend is very young, listen to what you said It seems that the condition is not very serious, so don't worry too much, the patient and his family can still be cured if they work together."