Rebirth of the Lost Me

His legs were sprayed with medicine and bandages wrapped around them. Yang Qing let Zhang Rin do whatever he wanted like a puppet. In the end, Zhang Rin opened the curtains and the sun shone in immediately, as if it could take away all the haze. .

When Zhang Rin just left, he went to a nearby small supermarket. He didn't know what Yang Qing liked to eat, but he was worried that Yang Qing was alone in the hotel, so he didn't choose carefully, so he took some food and went to the hotel Walk.

Tear open the package of the bagged bread, Zhang Rin handed the small bread to Yang Qing, but Yang Qing didn't look at it, just turned his head slightly, as if he didn't want to eat it, he didn't like to eat this kind of thing anymore, he swallowed it dry I can't go down, so even if I'm hungry, I don't want to eat these.

Zhang Rin stuffed the bread into his mouth at once, opened a box of biscuits again, and opened a box of milk by the way. This time Yang Qing took the milk, but he didn't want to take the biscuits at all. He hadn't eaten for a long time, and now he swallowed. The milk felt uncomfortable in his throat, so he took a sip and held it in his hand, looking sideways out of the window.

"I also bought instant noodles, if I want to eat, I will make them!"

"You don't have to worry about me, I can make it myself if I want to eat."

Yang Qing leaned against the head of the bed with his legs straight on the bed. Zhang Rin's words made him inexplicably think of what Wang Yi said before, as if he really couldn't live without others, couldn't take care of himself, couldn't live , but Wang Yi knew this clearly, why did he lie to him again?

"Yang Qing! You really..."

Yang Qing didn't want to eat, and Zhang Rin couldn't eat any more, so he put the biscuits aside, and looked at Yang Qing distressedly, but the words were so-so, he didn't dare to continue talking, just looked at him for a while.What he wants to ask is does Yang Qing really like that man that much?I like to make myself like this.But how did he ask these words? It was hard for him to get the chance to stay here. In the three years of high school, he thought countless times, if he hadn't used such extreme methods to possess him back then, would they still have a chance? , or a few years ago in junior high school, he didn't go to Hainan to go to school, would Yang Qing like him, I thought about it countless times, regretted it countless times, and couldn't return to the beginning.

"Do you want to go out for a walk in the afternoon? There are still many tourist attractions in Chongqing."

Yang Qing didn't know why he kept paying attention to his mobile phone. He knew that Wang Yi couldn't make a call, but he blamed him for not changing the number to call. He was also worried that if Wang Yi really called, how could he refuse, so they separated for a few days. I miss him so much.He thought that if Wang Yi was in front of him, he would definitely not be able to continue to refuse like now. Wang Yi, this person, stepped into his heart in just a few days. Now that several years have passed, he is deeply connected with him His life is intertwined, and it is not possible to separate simply by breaking up.

"Yang Qing?"

"Give me a cigarette."

What can Zhang Rin say, he himself smokes, although he knows that smoking is bad, he doesn't feel it when he smokes, but when he sees Yang Qing smoking, he feels bad, but he also knows that it is impossible to give Yang Qing to quit smoking now, His current mood is still more suitable to follow him, so he lit the cigarette and watched him smoke, for fear that he would not think about self-harm again.

"Go out in the afternoon, it's going to be moldy."

I haven't left the hotel for a few days, and I haven't taken care of myself for a few days. Yang Qing has some stubble on his chin, but he doesn't have the heart to take care of it. Zhang Rin is a little upset seeing his decadent appearance, but he also knows There is no rush, take your time, one day Yang Qing will be able to return to the past, and he happens to have time to accompany him, and he has also been admitted to a school in Nanjing. Although Nanjing University of Information Engineering is not as good as Southeast University, it is in Nanjing after all. He still has at least four years left.

"Has your admission letter arrived? If it arrives, go back and go to Nanjing early."

The air conditioner was turned on in the room, and Yang Qing felt a little cold due to the cold wind, but he didn't bother to move, so he folded his arms. He didn't answer Zhang Rin's words, as if subconsciously, he still hoped that Wang Yi would come to him.

"Yang Qing, what are you thinking?"

"I was wondering why you were able to sit still for so long. You were able to force me that year, but now I want it, but you are reserved."

"I'm sorry that time, I regretted it very much later, Yang Qing, you are separated from him now, then give me a chance, I don't ask for anything else, as long as you open your heart and let me slowly walk into your heart, that's fine. Don't say anything, I believe you. It has been more than five years since I first told you that I like you. If I could not like you, I would have let go. Let me stay by your side and slowly heal Are you hurt in your heart?"

"I'm not hurt. If you really want to stay, I can't drive you away, but I'm not yours. Even if you say you like me, that's your business. The way I live in the future is also mine. You don't care about me. You are at most an automatic sex to me, the premise is that you sleep with me, if you don't want to, there are plenty of people who are willing."

"Yang Qing..."

Yang Qing looked at Zhang Rin's uncomfortable look, and felt very happy for no reason. He didn't know what was wrong, how could he say such words that hurt his self-esteem, but he was uncomfortable now, and Zhang Rin kept saying that he liked him, so let's talk to him. Let him suffer together.

"Are you regretting it? It's still too late to go now. You don't need to waste time on someone like me."

Zhang Rin was silent, then he looked at Yang Qing, didn't move for a while, finally took a long breath, leaned forward and hugged him, it was not the first time to hug him, but Zhang Rin felt that this body was very strange, it seemed thin a lot.Yang Qing is the person he has liked since he was an ignorant teenager. Let him let go. Watching him lose weight, Zhang Rin really can’t do it. He thinks, let’s do this first, and he will get better after a while of.

"Yang Qing, no matter what you say, I will never let you go. You said you had a boyfriend before, but when that man left you, you made yourself like this. I have to stay by your side to be able to Don't worry. Let's take it slowly, tell me whatever you think in your heart, and it will get better."

Yang Qing just thought it was ridiculous. Before he met Wang Yi, he also thought that he had lost the ability to like people. He gave Wang Yi a chance. He bet the whole person on it. He lost nothing. He had nothing to do. Give it to Zhang Rin again, he will never get better.

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Recently, I have been really overwhelmed by the dissertation. I don't want to write or do anything. I just want to finish the dissertation quickly. If this continues, I feel like it will be useless.Let's leave the article in advance, I really can't write it down.