Rebirth of the Lost Me

not enough!Not enough at all!

After leaving the village that night and being fucked by someone, Yang Qing seems to have returned to the craziest time in his previous life, trying to divert his attention with physical pleasure, not thinking about being deceived by Wang Yi, and already having sex with Wang Yi In fact, it is not difficult to find a few comrades in the urban area of ​​Chongqing, but I have been sleeping with different men for a few days, and it is still not enough. The body is satisfied, but the emptiness in the heart seems to be unsatisfactory no matter what. He thought, is he going back to his previous self again?Obviously, these past few years have been very happy, but why should this happiness be based on others?

In the small standard room, the time is stretched infinitely long, every day seems to have unlimited time to think about those things, Yang Qing bought cigarettes, he who has never smoked in two lifetimes, lit up cigarettes frantically these two days, The day before yesterday, Yan accidentally landed on his leg, and was pulled back to reality by the severe pain. It seemed that he had no time to think about Wang Yi and his future when he was in pain, so he had one more leg after another. round scars.

Whenever Yang Qing saw those injuries, he couldn't help regretting, but next time, he would still press the cigarette butt on his leg with his own hands. Yang Qing felt that he seemed to be rotten from the heart, slowly from the inside Outside, he didn't want to see anyone, even if Wang Yi appeared in front of him now, he didn't see him, he just wanted to stay like this.

Wang Yi's phone number has been blacklisted, and he doesn't know if Wang Yi has called him, but the words have already been spoken, even if he is alive now, ghost or ghost, he will not call him again. Go find Wang Yi.It’s just that my heart hurts, it’s not like the pain of being rejected by Zhang Rin in the last life, it’s the throbbing when I was young, there’s not a bit of sincerity in it, this time, he really loves, so he will never allow Wang Yi’s deception .

Speaking of which, Zhang Rin has called him several times in the past few days, all of which were trivial matters, purely for nothing to say, he perfunctory every time, unwilling to entangle with that person, when he took a bath and sat on the bed , Yang Qing looked at the wound on his leg in horror, which was done by himself. He thought, if Zhang Rin provokes him again, he will drag him to hell with him!

Didn't Zhang Rin say he likes him?If this is him, does he still like it?

Coincidentally, Zhang Rin seemed to call at this fixed point every day. Yang Qing was very hungry and drank some water. The cold water suddenly slipped into his throat, which caused uncomfortable hiccups. Then he liked to light a cigarette sexually. Holding it in my hand without inhaling, listening to the voice on the other side, I suddenly hesitated to make a decision.

"Yang Qing, where are you? I'm bored at home, why don't I go find you?"

"You really want to come to me?"

"Is there still a holiday? Anyway, I'm fine, and I just want to travel."

"I am in Chongqing……"

The smoke burned out, and it only caused Yang Qing to frown slightly, and finally told where it was. Yang Qing couldn't hear what Zhang Rin said later. He only knew that the person opposite was still talking, and seemed a little excited. The rest he knew nothing about.

In fact, it only takes more than three hours to drive from Yushi to Chongqing, so when Yang Qing opened the door the next day and saw Zhang Rin outside, he didn't know that Zhang Rin was stunned by his current appearance.Deep sunken eye sockets, dark circles, the whole person reveals two words, decadence, everything, all of which show that he is not doing well. Zhang Rin remembers that he was fine the last time he saw him. It's only been two months!

"What's wrong with you? Where's your boyfriend?"

"He got married and had kids."

Yang Qing walked in and couldn't help but lit a cigarette. Zhang Rin endured it for a long time before he snatched it from him.Yang Qing held the cigarette in his hand and played with it, but didn't put it in his mouth, so Zhang Rin couldn't grasp it so tightly.

"You look like this because you separated from him?"

Yang Qing really couldn't say no, he really did this because he separated from Wang Yi, but he was a bit unwilling to admit it like this, so he looked forward and didn't look at Zhang Rin.

"What's so good about him? It's worth it? Yang Qing, look at me, you know what I think about you, I can treat you a hundred times and a thousand times better, and I also know that I can't keep up with his status in your heart, but Now you are separated, can you give me a chance to treat you well, please don't be like this?"

"Do you want to sleep with me?"

"Yang Qing, I'm serious with you!"

"I'm serious too. In this bed, I've slept with four people. I change people every day. If you don't want to, I'm going to ask someone else. Please leave. I can't sleep with anyone else when you are here." .”

"Yang Qing, why do you..."

"How did I become like this? Hehe, Zhang Rin, I've always been like this, so, do you still like it?"

Zhang Rin had never seen anyone who could cry like Yang Qing. He obviously didn't make any sound, and the tears flowed out as if he didn't want money, and they seemed to hit him drop by drop.

"Don't go to someone else."

"That depends on whether you can satisfy me."

Undressing in front of a man would not embarrass him, but after showing the shocking scars on his legs, Zhang Rin finally became restless. He strode up to Yang Qing and squatted down to look at the scars, then slowly raised his head .

"How did you do it here?"

"This one?"

Yang Qing didn't care at all, and went to get another cigarette to light up. As soon as he lit it, he looked at Zhang Rin with a half-smile.

"That's it!"

"Are you crazy?"

Zhang Rin grabbed his hand in an instant. It was an expression that cared more about his body than Yang Qing. He didn't understand why he hadn't seen him for two months, why he was only separated from a man, and Yang Qing had changed so much?

And Yang Qing didn't feel much when he saw Zhang Rin because he was nervous, but when he saw someone suffering because of him, he felt a burst of joy in his heart.He slowly pulled his hands away, put the cigarette out in the ashtray, and then went to look at the wound on his leg. It was a dense patch of burns, the original shape could no longer be seen, some were scabbed, and some were still bleeding pus. It looked very scary.Then Yang Qing saw Zhang Rin got up and walked towards the door. Yang Qing was disappointed for a while. It seemed that Zhang Rin was leaving too, but Zhang Rin stopped at the door. His backpack was placed at the door. Picking up the bag, walked in front of Yang Qing, took out the wet towel from the bag, then half-kneeled in front of him, and gently cleaned the wound with the wet towel.

"I'll go out and buy you some medicine and some food by the way. What do you want to eat?"

With the sound of closing the door, the room became empty again. Yang Qing knew better than anyone that he had no feelings for Zhang Rin at all. However, the moment Zhang Rin turned around just now, he was so moved that he almost cried. Later, Yang Qing Thinking, maybe he doesn't love Wang Yi that much, it's just because Wang Yi treats him well that he gets into it more and more. Now that it's another person, he can also accept his kindness.