You who cannot be touched in memory

"This matter... can only be observed slowly, and we dare not confirm it. I am really sorry, Mr. Lu."

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"Qixuan, what's going on? Why did Gu Lingxi suddenly..."

"The doctor said that the necrotic cerebral cortex in Ling Xi's brain showed signs of activity...his memory, maybe..."

"What? Isn't that a good thing? Why are you still pulling your face?"

"...You ask the doctor yourself."

"Ah? Hey... I think you've been confused by Gu Lingxi's incident? It's already at this time, how can you still sit here in a daze, buddy? That boy Yi Hanmin is now leading the dragon The people sent by Jingzhi are waiting downstairs! Is this how you plan to meet them? Besides, if Gu Lingxi’s memory can be recovered, we don’t have to take this risky move! The one who handed it over to!"

"Keep your voice down, Ji Ming. Ling Xi is sleeping..."

"I know! You go outside with me right now and explain clearly!"

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When I woke up, I found myself lying in a dark room with no windows, only a dim light from a small wall lamp.

How am I here?

I looked around, trying to figure out where I was.

so cold......

An extremely cold air came from the concrete floor, attacking my skin.I stood up straight from the ground and looked at my body carefully.

One, two, three...

There were bites and scratches all over my body, as well as large bruises.

...That's right.

... How could I have forgotten?What those people did to me... how could I forget?

Hehe... With this happening, Qixuan will definitely not even look at me anymore.Besides, the reason why I fell into this situation was because I ran out without authorization after arguing with him... Afterwards, I foolishly went to help someone who asked for directions... What are you kidding—— —

Qixuan should still be angry with me now, right?

Even if I can get out from here, he probably won't let me go back.

My sister won't accept me either...

At home too...

Ha ha... What kind of home is there? After the death of parents, the house was sold by relatives...

.........

Will they come again in a while?those people……

...would it be all over again, all of that?

I don't want to.

Never again.

Thinking this way, I carefully observed the iron-like surroundings of this small room.

Ah... found it.

I saw a square iron rod inlaid on the cement stone wall, which was supposed to be used as a support to place things.But it has been abandoned for a long time now, it is covered with rust, and a thick layer of dust has accumulated.

Well... that's it.

I stood up unsteadily, my head was tearing apart from the continuous injection of drugs for several days.But that doesn't affect what I'm going to do next.

I walked to the corner of the square part of the iron rod, exhausted all my strength, and "bang" - the protruding sharp corner of the iron rod was deeply embedded in my head, and the blood instantly blurred my eyes.

I'm sorry... Qixuan, although I have done many things wrong, at least this one is right now.

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Memories flooded my brain like a flood.

what……

So this is ah……

All of a sudden, I remembered a lot of fragments, the dark room without windows, the iron rod, and Qixuan...

I suddenly realized who Mr. Lu was.

Mr. Lu is Qixuan, and in my memory, it seems that he will never be touched.Qixuan will not accept me anymore, Qixuan hates me...because I have been...

It hurts... My head hurts... There seems to be a hoarse devil in my head, laughing ferociously at me all the time.

So sad……

When I opened my eyes, Mr. Lu... No, it was Qixuan, sitting beside my bed.

When he saw me wake up, he gave me a gentle smile.

Why is he smiling at me?

Shouldn't he hate me?

"What's the matter, Ling Xi? Is something uncomfortable? Why are you sweating so much..."

Suddenly I started to understand what he was saying...

He is worried about me.

There must be something wrong, why is he so nice to me?

"Ling Xi, what's wrong with you? Can you hear me?"

He asked me anxiously, but my face was full of confusion.No, this is different from what I remember, he should hate me, I should have died, I should have died.

He reached out to touch my forehead, his movements were very light, as if he was afraid of hurting me.

"Ling Xi, do you remember something? Can you tell me..."

tell you?Hehe... That's why I don't want to tell you... Qixuan.I'm so dirty... I don't deserve what you did to me.Why do you still appear in front of me, why do you still treat me so well?

Before I knew it, tears flowed from my eyes.

"Ling Xi...don't cry, don't cry...do you remember anything bad? It's okay, don't be afraid...with me here, don't be afraid."

He comforted me tirelessly, but the more he said that, the more I couldn't hold back the tears that gushed out of me.

It shouldn't be like this... No, everything is wrong!I shouldn't appear here, I'm obviously the last thing Qixuan wants to see...

"It's okay...it's okay...don't cry, Ling Xi won't cry..."

Qixuan picked me up and stroked my back to comfort me, but I shivered uncontrollably.Qixuan hugged me even tighter, so that it was difficult for me to breathe, but he was still unwilling to let go.

Finally, I gradually calmed down, Qixuan sat on the side of the bed and let me lie in his arms.

so warm...

"Ah... ah..."

I tried to call his name, but all I could do was 'ahah', and for some reason my tongue was a little uncontrollable.I tried hard to lift the tip of my tongue out of my mouth, but suddenly found that there was only a short piece of my tongue left.

what……

I remembered, at that time, they used a knife to cut a big hole in my tongue and sprinkled white powder in it.

Am I already... can't talk anymore?

Noticing this fact, I subconsciously avoided Qi Xuan's sight.

"Ling Xi..."

"What's wrong? Why are you keeping your head down? Isn't it..." Qi Xuan was stunned when he said this, and suddenly a drop of hot tears fell on my face.

"I'm sorry... Ling Xi, it's my fault for letting you leave such memories... It's all my fault. If I didn't quarrel with you that day, you would be fine. I'm sorry... Can you forgive me? You Look at me..." His voice was almost pleading, which made me even more overwhelmed.

how come?

How could he think so?

He must not know about those things, right?No one must have told him...

Thinking of this, I suddenly felt dizzy, what's wrong?

My eyelids began to droop uncontrollably, and I slowly closed my eyes, falling into chaos.