Unique memory

After the Wei family went abroad, Jiang's mother went to the rental house to take care of Xu Jia, leaving Jiang's father, Duoduo and a dog at home.

His wife and grandson were not at home. Jiang's father's life was to walk the dog early, at noon, and at night. After walking for two days, he simply picked up a few sets of clothes and took a ride to the rental house.

The mock exam was about to take place again. Although Xu Jia didn't feel too much pressure, he still bought a lot of mock exams to do, because he was afraid that once he was free, he would be unable to stop thinking about being with Wei Lingyang. During the days together, I miss every bit of how the two get along.

When we are two, those pasts are sweet sugar, when we are alone, those pasts are painful wounds.

After finishing the two test papers, he put down his pen, moved his stiff neck, and stretched his hand to the back to pinch it, but stopped just as he touched the skin.

"Is your neck tired? I told you not to think about doing the questions every day. Come here and let me pinch it for you."

Wei Lingyang's voice sounded in his head without warning. Xu Jia remembered that when the two of them finished the questions, as soon as he moved his neck, his hand would reach out and cover his neck to help knead it. In such a scene, his expression was unavoidably a little dazed.

Slowly retracting his hand, Xu Jia looked at the calendar on the desktop, starting from the 1st, and drawing a circle for each passing day. Others thought he was remembering the coming days of the college entrance examination, but it was not.

He was remembering the day when Wei Lingyang left.

从3月6号到现在4月18号，卫凌阳已经离开了43天。

It was only ten days since he went to City B, and Wei Lingyang was clingy. Now he has been away for more than a month, and he doesn't know how he is doing.

Xu Jia never asked, and he didn't dare to ask, even when Wei Lingyang called back when he returned home on weekends, he didn't dare to answer, for fear that he would find out if he heard some news about him.

Xu Jia didn't know how the days when Wei Lingyang was away, he couldn't see or hear, in fact, he didn't even figure out how he got here, he paralyzed himself with studying every day, and kept doing questions Don't dare to stop for a moment while doing the test paper.

However, even so, Wei Lingyang's shadow cannot be erased for him. There are traces of Wei Lingyang's life in every part of this house.

There are his pens on the desktop, his exercise books in the drawers, his slippers by the bed, his clothes in the closet, his basketball in the corner, and his towels in the bathroom. Except for his people, there are none of these things. take away.

It's just that there is only one person missing, but the room seems to have expanded countless times. Xu Jia remembered that he had agreed with Wei Lingyang to go to many places, but in the end he couldn't go anywhere.

Sitting on the chair for a while, Xu Jia drew a circle on today's date with a red pen, got up and planned to go out to get a glass of water, but when she turned around, she found that Duoduo, who was lying at her feet, had arrived in the room at some time over there in the corner.

Duoduo lay there, laying on Wei Lingyang's basketball with its two front paws, with its chin resting on the basketball, looking listless.

In the past, when Wei Lingyang was around, the two of them would bring Duoduo to play. At that time, Duoduo was still young, and Wei Lingyang made him stand on the basketball for fun, and the little guy was played around by him.

In a blink of an eye, the little golden retriever turned into a big golden retriever, the basketball could no longer stand on it, and the person who tricked him into standing on it was gone.

Walking up to Duoduo and squatting down, Xu Jia reached out and touched his head, and asked softly, "You miss him too, don't you?"

"Woo—" Duoduo yelled, raised his nose and rubbed against his hand.

"I miss him very much too." Xu Jia patted his head and said to himself, "You've only been with him for two years and you're so reluctant, but I've been with him for eight years. For 18 years, he has occupied the most important days of my life."

"Wow?" Duoduo tilted his head and looked at him.

"You won't understand even if you tell me." Xu Jia smiled.

Duoduo couldn't understand what he meant, but could feel his sadness, let go of the basketball, walked to his feet, surrounded him with his body, and licked the back of his hand with his tongue.

"Good boy." Xu Jia patted it on the head, stood up, and just took two steps, his eyes suddenly went dark, his body shook, and he quickly supported the wardrobe beside him to stabilize his body.

The dizziness came fast and hard, Xu Jia stood there with her eyes closed for a long while before she recovered, and walked out of the room slowly.

Jiang's father and Jiang's mother had already fallen asleep, and Xu Jia returned to the room after pouring the water.

The alarm clock on the desktop had already indicated that it was past eleven o'clock in the evening, but he still didn't feel sleepy at this time, so he just continued to do the questions, and didn't put down his pen until one o'clock in the morning, and went to bed to lie down.

...

Seeing that the college entrance examination is getting closer and closer, Jiang's mother changed ways to supplement Xu Jia's body with ingredients. Jiang Yan also sent a lot of nutritional supplements from City B, trying to make him supplement nutrition, but these seemed to have no effect In just one month, Xu Jia lost more than a dozen catties, even her chin pointed out, and she still has a tendency to lose weight.

The good grandson is getting thinner day by day, Mother Jiang is heartbroken, especially after seeing the news in the news that a high school senior in a certain school couldn't bear the pressure of the college entrance examination and jumped off the building, she was even more worried, afraid that Xu Jia would give herself too much The pressure, and Jiang's father took turns to solve it, saying that it is fine to perform as usual, don't put pressure on yourself, and you will be where you are in the exam.

Seeing the two elders worrying about him, Xu Jia felt warm in his heart. He comforted them in turn, saying that he had no problem, but that he was too busy studying and had a bad appetite, and he would recover after the exam.

However, on the day the mock exam ended, he passed out in the classroom.

The exam is over in the morning, and in the afternoon, Lao Cao arranges for everyone to carry out cultural and sports learning activities in the classroom to relax properly.

When he was speaking, Xu Jia was lying on the table without raising his head from the beginning to the end. At first he thought that Xu Jia was just too tired from the exam and needed to take a break, so he didn't care until he finished speaking and asked everyone to gather in the playground , Xu Jia was still lying on the table, and he felt something was wrong, walked to Xu Jia's table and yelled twice, only to find that he didn't respond before he knew that he passed out, and rushed to the hospital.

Xu Jia was dizzy, and it was already late at night when he woke up. He opened his eyes, saw the white ceiling, and was briefly absent-minded. He didn't realize where he was, and looked around, and found that Jiang Yan was sitting on the sidelines reading a book , Leng Leng, unconsciously called out: "Mom?"

Hearing his voice, Jiang Yan raised her head, saw that he was awake, and said pleasantly, "Are you awake?" Then she put down the book in her hand and walked over, "Is there anything uncomfortable?"

Xu Jia's head was still a little dizzy, seeing her worried face, she shook her head lightly: "No, why are you here?"

"You fainted in the classroom, your grandma called me, and I rushed back." Jiang Yan explained that she bought a plane ticket and rushed over when she heard Xu Jia fainted today.

"I made you worry." Xu Jia apologized. The flight from City B to City H took more than 3 hours. She probably rushed over as soon as she heard the news.

"Just wake up."

Jiang Yan went to the table next to him and poured him a glass of warm water, helped him up, and told him, "Be careful, you just got an injection today."

Xu Jia looked at the back of his hand and found that it was still covered with adhesive tape. He only remembered that he had a severe headache this afternoon and felt a little weak.

"The doctor said that you have a fever, and lack of sleep will cause you to faint due to fatigue." Jiang Yan waited for him to drink a glass of water before asking, "Why do you lack sleep? Can't you sleep at night? Is it too stressful? "

"It's okay, it's just that I'm a little tired from studying, so don't worry." Xu Jia said, and didn't mention that he couldn't sleep well these days. "Grandma and the others, are you scared?"

"Your grandma cried a lot in the afternoon, and I asked grandpa to take her back to rest." Jiang Yan said, looking at him fixedly, "Jiajia, do you have something to hide from me?"

"No." Xu Jia avoided her eyes.

"You have." Jiang Yan said with certainty, "You are my son. I can tell that you have something on your mind. Your grades have always been stable, and your condition was very good before. How come you are under so much pressure all of a sudden?"

Xu Jia was silent, he didn't know how to tell her the truth.

Seeing this, Jiang Yan sighed: "You have been like this since you were a child. You are bored with everything in your heart. You don't want to talk about it, and I won't force you. I just want to tell you that there are many people who care about you around you. Don't worry about anything. Carry it yourself."

——If there is something, we will solve it together and bear it together, so don't be bored by yourself.

Xu Jia remembered that Wei Lingyang also said the same thing when he said to break up, but he didn't say it at that time, because it was useless to say it, and it's the same now, even if he said it, no one can help him.

Seeing that he didn't want to talk more, Jiang Yan didn't force him. She checked the time and found that it was already past three o'clock in the morning, and Xu Jia didn't have enough sleep, so she said, "Go to sleep first, and get your spirits back up. What's the matter?" tomorrow……"

"Mom." Xu Jia called her suddenly, looked up at her and asked, "Did you love Dad when you married him?"

Jiang Yan was stunned for a moment, she didn't expect him to ask this suddenly: "Why do you ask so suddenly?"

"Did you love him?" Xu Jia asked again stubbornly, wanting to get an answer.

"Of course." Although Jiang Yan didn't understand what he meant, she still answered. Although she and Xu Zhenglin divorced, she was indeed in love back then.

She briefly talked about her experience with Xu Zhenglin in college, and mentioned that when she graduated, she ignored her parents' objections and decided to follow Xu Zhenglin to work in the south, and Xu Zhenglin insisted on marrying her regardless of Xu's mother's objections.

Xu Jia listened to her words, thinking that her parents were much braver than herself, and she didn't even have the courage to ask for it.

"Since you were with each other under pressure at the time, why did you separate later?" He asked again.

"When I was young, I thought that being in love was everything, and that being with one person was my whole life." Jiang Yan smiled, and there was some indescribable bitterness in her smile, "It's just life, which always meets people's expectations. Grind away the feelings and feelings, and the rest is not worth mentioning."

I thought that with one person, it was a lifetime.

Xu Jia is not like this.

He also naively thought that he and Wei Lingyang could live forever, privately imagined the life of the two when they grew up, and even imagined how they would sit in the yard and count the fallen leaves when they were old together. I have traced my life again, and every footprint has the shadow of Wei Lingyang.

However, as Jiang Yan said, life can always smooth out people's expectations. No matter how good you think, in the end, you don't even dare to reach out to hug Wei Lingyang for the last time, and you even have to hide when you go to the airport to meet him Zang, even knowing that he was waiting for him, he didn't dare to come forward and say "I'll wait for you."

Tears fell unpreparedly, Xu Jiazheng looked at Jiang Yan, the great pain in his eyes made Jiang Yan startled, he quickly reached out to wipe the tears on his face, and asked while wiping: "Why are you crying? Did my mother say something wrong? What?"

Xu Jia turned her head and wiped her face with the back of her hand: "No, I just..."

just what?I just thought of Wei Lingyang.

Just thinking of him makes me cry.