It turns out that I love you

Too many memories flooded his heart, and those difficult years that contained sadness appeared in his mind like a movie.

Over the past 20 years, the figures of my parents, my mother and my sister have become blurred, leaving only outlines.

Gong Xinuo supported his head with his arm resting on the armrest, he couldn't breathe due to grief and oppression, the brain carrying memory started to lack oxygen, he took a deep breath and let it out slowly, his body felt more relaxed.

The unexpected appearance of his father caught him off guard. He had already given up his mind. He never thought that father and son would meet again in this life.

Despite his resentment towards his father, in his subconscious, he still wishes he was still alive.

They are strangers who have nothing to do with each other.

He sometimes thinks of his poor mother and his short-lived sister, and while missing them, he can't help but think of his father who abandoned them.

Gong Xinuo even thought, would he regret it?Will you blame yourself?

After thinking about it, I felt that my idea was too stupid and ridiculous.

How can such a person regret it?How can you blame yourself?

When he saw his father Jing Jianye, the grievance and resentment that Gong Xinuo had suppressed in his heart for many years broke out completely. His old and thin father could not win his sympathy at all. No further entanglement with him.

Gong Xinuo didn't expect that Jing Jianye would find the villa and meet Yuan Jingkun. He was brought back by Yuan Jingkun who didn't know the inside story, which caused him to lose control of his emotions today. He didn't intend to let Yuan Jingkun know about this. Everything, whether Yuan Jingkun knew it or not, doesn't make any sense, that's already a thing of the past.

Gong Xinuo's mind was confused, and he had no idea how to deal with the matter between him and Jing Jianye.

In the bedroom, Yuan Jingkun tossed and turned, unable to fall asleep, sat up, took the watch, and the pointer stopped on the number twelve.

After dinner, coax Yuanyuan to sleep, go back to the bedroom, make the bed, and wait for Gong Xinuo to come in.

After waiting and waiting, Gong Xinuo didn't even intend to sleep.

Yuan Jingkun couldn't sit still anymore, walked lightly, came to the door of the study, put his ear on the door, heard no movement inside, and went back to the bedroom disappointed.

Yuan Jingkun didn't blame Gong Xinuo for venting all his anger on him. He didn't do it properly in the first place.Yuan Jingkun still felt a little guilty for bringing people back without discussing with Gong Xinuo and causing his displeasure.

Yuan Jingkun was also concerned about his sleeping problem. There was a sofa bed in the study to sleep on, but there was no pillow or quilt.

I don't know if Gong Xinuo will sit there all night.

Regarding the matter of Gong Xinuo and Jing Jianye, it is still incomplete to piece together what I heard. Yuan Jingkun, who couldn't sleep, guessed various versions of the story in a daze, and couldn't find out the exact answer. like.

For some reason, Yuan Jingkun always felt uneasy, and felt that Jing Jianye would not leave easily. In other words, Jing Jianye might have nowhere to go, would he still stay near the villa?

Yuan Jingkun turned over, changed his clothes, picked up the keys, not forgetting to bring his wallet and flashlight, and walked out of the villa.

The villa area is extremely quiet at night. Yuan Jingkun strolled around the villa for a few laps, but didn't see any figure. When he turned to go back, he suddenly found a shadow in the corner. Relying on the light from the flashlight, he walked bravely past.

Sure enough, it was Jing Jianye, who really stayed near the villa.The night was as cool as water, Jing Jianye wrapped his coat tightly, curled up at the outer edge of the villa garden, drowsy.

"Uncle, uncle..." Yuan Jingkun patted him on the shoulder lightly, fearing that it would scare him too much.

"Huh?" Jing Jianye opened his eyes in a daze, thinking slowly and reacting slowly. It took a long time before he recognized Yuan Jingkun, sat up straight in a panic, and explained incoherently. "I, I, I'm not...you, he..."

"Uncle, don't be nervous, I don't mean anything else. It's so late, I'll take you home." Yuan Jingkun helped him up, took off his coat, and put it on him.

"I... I... I won't go home." Jing Jianye spoke bluntly, and his embarrassment was palpable.

"Uncle, you..." Yuan Jingkun understood everything from his expression, without telling him the embarrassing truth.

Looking around, in the middle of the night, there is no way to get a taxi. The only way is to walk to the subway station.

Yuan Jingkun supported Jing Jianye, who was walking unsteadily. The two of them walked for half an hour for a 10-minute journey. , in the future to strengthen exercise, can not continue to eat lazy.

There is no better place to go for the time being, Yuan Jingkun arranged Jing Jianye to a hotel not far away. Fortunately, he was thoughtful and had a wallet with him, otherwise, Jing Jianye would definitely drink the northwest wind tonight.

After Jing Jianye settled down, Yuan Jingkun was not in a hurry to leave. He was not worried that he was living alone in the hotel, but also curious about the story between him and Gong Xinuo.

Jing Jianye did not shy away from intermittently describing the process of abandoning his wife and son 26 years ago. From his illogical words, Yuan Jingkun learned the truth back then. As for why he fell into such a desperate situation, Jing Jianye No, he was too embarrassed to ask.

"Back then, like a demon, I insisted on getting rid of their mother and son, and I couldn't wait for a moment..." Jing Jianye spoke slowly, his eyes wandered, and he raised his dry hand to wipe away the tears brought by the memories. "Now, I've been dumped by others, and I've become an old thing that no one wants... Retribution, retribution, everything is retribution!"

"Uncle, don't say that. Xinuo needs time to accept you again. Believe me, I understand him, give him a little time, and he will forgive you!" Jing Jianye's desolate tone made Yuan Jingkun's heart ache Can't bear it, comfort him. "He, he will understand your difficulties."

"Why?" Jing Jianye smiled wryly. "My reason is to love the new and dislike the old. My reason is to abandon my wife and children, and go to have fun with other women. My reason is to use despicable means to them. My reason is... to hurt them. Is it? Children, young people, you can’t make mistakes, once you make a mistake, it will ruin your whole life! Time, I can’t wait..."

Facing Jing Jianye who was deeply blaming himself, Yuan Jingkun searched his brains and couldn't think of suitable words. He took a piece of thin paper from him and looked at the cursive-like font on it, his face froze instantly.

Stomach cancer—the two words were reflected in his eyes as if they were infinitely magnified.

"If it wasn't for my short time, I wouldn't bother Chenchen's life. I know, I have no right to recognize him again, and I have no right to ask him to call me Dad... I know in my heart, no matter what I become It’s all self-inflicted and deserves it. But, I’m not reconciled. For more than 20 years, when I close my eyes, there are his mother and him. If you tell me, you may not believe it. Everyone will think, if I So much love and righteousness, how can you leave them? But, people, it’s always like this, you don’t know how to cherish when you’re by your side, and you only know your treasure when you’re lost.” Jing Jianye sighed, emphasizing his pronunciation. "Chenchen, it's my son, and I'm his father!"

Yuan Jingkun clenched the paper in his hand, showing infinite sympathy for Jing Jianye: "No, no, uncle, don't think that way, now that medicine is so advanced, there is nothing that can't be cured. Xinuo, he... ...he'll figure it out soon, sooner rather than later."

Jing Jianye suddenly held his hand, anxiously and urgently: "I, can't wait..."

Yuan Jingkun calmed Jing Jianye's surging mood, and did not leave the hotel until he had slept peacefully.

When we returned to the villa, it was already daybreak, and we were too hasty to go out, and forgot to wear a watch. Yuan Jingkun didn't know what time it was, and was afraid of disturbing Gong Xinuo and Gong Xi, who hadn't woken up yet, so he walked into the villa lightly.

Mrs. Qin came out when she heard the door knocking: "Mr. Yuan, you are back."

"Hmm." Yuan Jingkun looked inside while changing his shoes. "Where are Xinuo and Yuanyuan?"

"Oh. Mr. Gong has already taken Yuanyuan out, it's almost eight o'clock." Sister-in-law Qin took Yuan Jingkun's coat and answered him.

"Really? Then, did Xinuo ask me?" Yuan Jingkun wanted to confirm whether Gong Xinuo knew about his going out in the middle of the night.

Mrs. Qin shook her head: "That's not true. Mr. Yuan, do you have breakfast now?"

"I'm not hungry, let's talk about it later." Yuan Jingkun was a little disappointed, he didn't come home all night and didn't attract Gong Xinuo's attention.

Yuan Jingkun came to the second floor and pushed open the bedroom door. The scene inside was exactly the same as when he went out in the middle of the night. It could be seen that Gong Xinuo had never entered in the morning.

Yuan Jingkun sat down on the bed discouraged, pulled over the cold quilt, a sense of dizziness struck without warning, the hand holding the quilt unconsciously exerted some strength, and his body fell backwards, leaning against the head of the bed.

It may be due to not sleeping all night, the brain was severely hypoxic, Yuan Jingkun swung his head back and forth a few times, and the dizziness was much relieved.After tossing and tossing all night, back pain and shoulder pain, put your hands on your waist, raise your head and twist your neck to relieve fatigue.

Yuan Jingkun's movements stopped suddenly, as if remembering something, he lifted the quilt, walked to the door of the study a few steps, held the doorknob, turned it clockwise, and the door was pushed open with a snap.

Fortunately, Gong Xinuo didn't lock the study.

The study room was as clean and tidy as usual. As he expected, Gong Xinuo must have had a sleepless night and waited until dawn.

Yuan Jingkun came to the bookshelf, quickly slid his fingers across various books, his eyes lit up, and stopped on a book that Gong Xinuo didn't often read.

Yuan Jingkun pulled out the book, making too much movement, and two yellowed photos fell out of it, stacked wrongly and landed on the floor.

He bent down to pick it up, one is a group photo of a family of three, a beautiful mother, a handsome father, and a cute child; Gong Xinuo has some similarities, it should be Gong Xinuo's younger sister Jing Xi.

Yuan Jingkun stared at the family photo for a long time. Gong Xinuo's mother didn't wear makeup, her fresh, natural and beautiful face was full of smiles, and her long black hair was tied behind her head. She was a typical image of a good wife and loving mother. A peaceful and warm feeling; Gong Xinuo's father was tall and handsome, although his expression was serious, he could still see the joy in his eyes.

At first glance, Gong Xinuo looks more like his mother, but after careful observation, his facial features are more like his father.

Especially the grown-up Gong Xinuo, compared with Jing Jianye's image when he was young, he was [-]% similar.

Yuan Jingkun picked up the photo and was just about to put it back when he accidentally caught a glimpse of a line of words on the back. The font was twisted, and he knew it was written by a child at a glance:

Dad, Mom, I love you!

Yuan Jingkun touched the line of words carefully, afraid that if he used force, the handwriting that had already dried up would be ruined.He put the photo back in the book, put the book back in its place, and leaned against the shelf, thinking about it.

Yuan Jingkun fully understood Gong Xinuo's attitude towards Jing Jianye, anyone would be like this, it was very normal.

After all, it was Jing Jianye who was sorry for their mother and son, and indirectly killed his mother and sister, causing Gong Xinuo to become an orphan, sent to an orphanage, and lived alone for more than [-] years.

A conscientious and rational person would cast aside and condemn Jing Jianye's almost dehumanizing behavior, and Yuan Jingkun is no exception.No matter how he thought about it, he couldn't figure out why Jing Jianye insisted on killing their mother and son. No matter whether there was still love between him and his wife, after all, it was his wife who had lived with him for many years and bore children for him. If there is no love, there will always be love.

What's more, Gong Xinuo and Jing Xi are his own flesh and blood, even if tiger poison doesn't eat offspring, isn't he even worse than an animal?

Yuan Jingkun became angry when he was angry, angry when he was angry, and puzzled when he didn't understand, no matter what, Jing Jianye was Gong Xinuo's father.

There is still a need for basic courtesy and respect between people.

After calming down, Yuan Jingkun hoped to resolve the conflict between Gong Xinuo and Jing Jianye. He knew Gong Xinuo and believed that Gong Xinuo was definitely not a heartless, cold-blooded animal.

He is very confident about this.

Love and hate are dependent on each other, where does hate come from without love?

Sooner or later, Gong Xinuo will think it over, think it over, forgive Jing Jianye, and accept Jing Jianye.

The key to Yuan Jingkun's confidence is that he had a similar experience.At the beginning, his father took the initiative to borrow usury, which caused the family to be ruined. To be honest, it was impossible for him not to hate his father, and it was impossible for him not to resent his father.

However, facing the seriously ill father who is in a coma, the emotions in his heart are more pity, worry, and wanting to save his father's life at all costs.

Blood is connected, no matter how unpleasant things have happened, the family relationship cannot be severed.

Yuan Jingkun cleared his mind, and when he was about to leave the study, he thought of another thing - the ring that Gong Xinuo never left his hand, and the letters J&K engraved on it.

These two letters should be the initials of the Chinese pinyin of Gong Xinuo's parents' names—Jing Jianye and Kang Ailing.

This ring is a men's ring, and it should belong to Jing Jianye.

Probably after they got divorced, they were thrown away by Jing Jianye, but Gong Xinuo found them and kept them with him all the time.

All of this turned out to be his misunderstanding.

Yuan Jingkun was late for work, absent-minded at work, and his mind was full of the meeting between Jing Jianye and Gong Xinuo.

All morning, staring at the computer screen in a daze, the drawings to be revised were still the same, without any change.

"Hey!" Guo Xin threw a document from afar, and it landed on Yuan Jingkun's desk without any mistakes, and people followed him, standing in front of him. "Yuan Gong, I have a design proposal, the first draft will be handed in within three days!"

"Yeah." Yuan Jingkun didn't even read the document, and Guo Xin's words came in one ear and out the other.

"Hey, hey, talking to you, three days, hand in the first draft!" Seeing him in a daze, Guo Xin stretched out his palm and dangled in front of him.

"How many days?" Yuan Jingkun came to his senses, stared at him with wide eyes, and asked in disbelief.

"Three days!" Guo Xin raised three fingers. "The leader believes in your ability. Last time, didn't you hand in the first draft in about three or four days?"

Yuan Jingkun suppressed his anger, rolled his eyes, can what happened four years ago be compared to now?Wasn't it a tight time?

"It can't be finished!" Yuan Jingkun pushed the document away, and refused him in a bad tone.

Guo Xin was not in a hurry, took out the paper in the folder, and shook: "If you want me to say, why are you still at work, go back and be your young lady..." After all, the young mistress didn't have the nerve to say the words, Yuan Jingkun The matter with Gong Xinuo cannot be hidden from him. "...how wonderful!"

Yuan Jingkun pulled the white paper flying up and down in front of his eyes: "Okay, I got it, try to finish it!"

Guo Xin patted him on the shoulder like a leader, encouraging him: "Little devil, you can do it! Believe in yourself! By the way, I ordered tomato and egg rice for you, and it will be delivered in a while, and then do it after eating. The body is Capital of the revolution. Oh yes, less sugar and look how much I care about you!"

"If you really care about me, do it for me! Thank you!" Yuan Jingkun looked at the design proposal with a headache.

"The revolution has not yet succeeded, comrades still need to work hard! Come on!" Guo Xin smiled gloatingly and sighed pretendingly.

Yuan Jingkun leaned on the back of the chair decadently, covered his face with paper, and let out a long sigh, really tired.

Before the off-duty time, Yuan Jingkun deserted and sneaked away under the cover of Guo Xin.Arriving at the kindergarten one step ahead of time, Gong Xi hadn't finished class yet.

Yuan Jingkun waited outside, looking at his watch while looking around.

Kindergarten is about to go on winter vacation, all interest classes have been suspended, and Gong Xi leaves school on time every day.

The current situation is that Yuan Jingkun and Gong Xinuo, who gets off work early, will pick up the children.

The design institute has been very busy recently, Yuan Jingkun worked overtime almost every day, and the heavy responsibility of picking up Gong Xi fell entirely on Gong Xinuo, after all, it was more convenient for him to drive.

Yuan Jingkun saw the familiar car stop by the sidewalk from a distance, and Gong Xinuo stepped out of the car and walked towards the kindergarten.

Yuan Jingkun turned around quickly, somehow, he was a little nervous, as if he had done something shameful, and stabilized his violent heartbeat.

A group of parents waiting to pick up their children gathered in front of the kindergarten. Gong Xinuo bypassed the crowd and came to the side where there were few people.

When Yuan Jingkun turned around, he happened to meet Gong Xinuo's gaze.

Gong Xinuo was taken aback for a moment, then shifted his gaze to the door, and didn't take the initiative to talk to him.

Seeing that he was silent, Yuan Jingkun couldn't find a topic to talk about, and couldn't open his mouth.

The two stood around the crowd like strangers, until Gong Xi ran out happily, and the cold and icy atmosphere between them was slightly resolved.

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