Self-illness

As soon as Chen Yiche drove out of the gate of the community, he saw Kou Guaiguai, who was smoking and walking leisurely by the side of the road. She was wearing a thin, loose, light blue youth jacket, and her hair was fluttering in the wind with the smoke. Under the street lights, it looks very charming.

When Chen Yi drove close to Kou Guaiguai's side, he honked his horn and shouted at the people outside the window: "I'll take you back."

Kou obediently still went straight, opened the car door and got in: "I was wondering whether I should take a taxi. It's not cheap to go back to my house."

"That's true." Chen Yi agreed, and asked by the way: "Do you support yourself by singing in bars?"

"Almost." Kou obediently took out another cigarette, and raised it at Chen Yi: "Can you smoke here?"

"casual."

In comparison, Chen Yi would somewhat mind the smell of cigarettes in the car, but out of politeness, he chose to let Kou obediently take care of himself.

The house was chosen by Chen Changdong in his early years. The surrounding environment is not bad, quiet, with little traffic, but the location is still a bit out of the way. It is a purely residential area. After driving out of the living area, except for the occasional passing car, it is rare to see a person.

Kou Kuaiguai seems to have a special liking for cars, and every time he sees one, he mumbles the model and price in a low voice.

"How do you know so much about cars?"

"I want to buy it." Kou obediently spit out a big smoke ring outside the window: "It would be nice to have a car."

"How is it?"

"When you're upset, you step on the gas pedal and want to run as far as you want, and keep driving all the time, taking yourself to a strange place." Kou obediently finished smoking a cigarette in a blink of an eye and was about to light a second one.

Chen Yi couldn't bear it any longer: "Don't smoke too much, the smell is strong."

Kou Kuaiguai shrugged his shoulders more consciously, "That's fine."

"Isn't it possible to leave the city by train, car, or bus without a car?" Chen Yi didn't quite agree with Kou Guaiguai's theory, at least she had a car but never thought of driving to far and strange places.

Kou played with the unlit cigarette obediently: "That's different. I can run when I have a car, and I control where to turn, where to stop, and where to turn around."

"Then buy."

"You think, keeping a car requires floats, and buying a car requires money, okay?" Kou obediently sighed: "Now I can't even afford a motorcycle."

That's right, I've been playing for the past few years, so how can I have savings to buy a car?Chen Yi smiled: "If you ever want to go far away, I can lend you my car and tell me how it feels in return after driving back."

"Deal." Kou obediently agreed a little casually, as if he didn't take it seriously.

A red car passed by in the opposite lane, and Kou Kuaiguai deliberately turned his head to take a look: "This model is quite old, but I like old-style cars with personality. It just doesn't suit this era, and it consumes fuel to drive." , and it’s not easy to maintain.”

Chen Yi didn't notice the car that Kou obediently said: "I also like older things."

"But your room is full of new guys, very fashionable, but I don't see any nostalgia in you."

"It's in my heart." Chen Yi didn't take it seriously: "Do I have to buy an old desk, a clock, and hang it to show my feelings?"

"Isn't it all like this?" Kou whistled obediently: "Why don't you play music?"

Chen Yiteng took out a whole dozen CDs from the rearview mirror holder: "But you may really not like it."

"It's all in foreign languages, classical music, and Kunqu opera?" Kou obediently smiled and said, "It seems that the taste of psychiatrists is not something ordinary people like us can understand."

For Chen Yi, Kou's obedient performance was already expected, but Li Nuowen was still amused by her CDs.

"That's enough. That Kunqu opera was an old lady who couldn't help but cry every time she heard it. Then during the treatment period, she found that she couldn't understand what was being sung, and she loved listening to it. She couldn't stop crying when she heard it. I can be depressed all month. I bought it and listened to it."

Kou obediently's curiosity was aroused: "Did you find out the reason later?"

"As far as we know, she probably heard Kunqu Opera during a period of emotional fluctuations. She didn't pay attention to it at the time, but when she gets older, certain fragments of people's memory will rewind, and it is easy to transfer to the time when she hears it. state and heart, so the impact is relatively large.”

Kou obediently lit up the cigarette again unconsciously: "Is it cured?"

"No, she refused to say what memory it was about. Later, during her depression, her body failed and she suffered from cerebral palsy. Now she is lying at home. We tried, and even during the period of cerebral palsy, she still shed tears when playing Kunqu Opera .”

I don't know why, but after finishing the speech, I felt that the inside of the car became much colder. As soon as Chen turned up the window, the smell of smoke rings from Kou's obedient mouth suddenly became thick and slightly choking.

"Why did you start smoking again? Have you ever thought about why you smoke?"

"At first I thought it was cool, but later I felt dependent, and gradually it became a habit I couldn't get rid of." Kou obediently stared at the cigarette in his fingertips, and the burning place gave off a warm light, which was especially prominent in the dark : "In the end, it became a natural existence. Smoking will let your hands know what you are doing and what you are doing, and it is not easy to panic and be distracted."

"Do you panic easily?"

"Sometimes." Kou obediently looked behind him: "Has that old red car been with us for a long time?"

With the light of the rearview mirror, Chen Yi indeed saw an old red car following behind: "Is it the one you just mentioned?"

"Yes."

The car behind seemed to be able to hear the conversation between the two. Taking advantage of this moment, it suddenly accelerated and followed, and lowered the window glass.When Chen Yi saw that beautiful smiling face, he felt like breaking out in a cold sweat: "Why do I feel that meeting her will always be a lot of trouble?"

"That's right, she's the case you deserve to study carefully." Kou obediently shouted at the person opposite: "When will you buy such a broken car?"

"I just bought it, do you like it?"

"I like it, if you get tired of it, give it to me."

Chen Yi was dizzy from the two people shouting at each other: "Let's find a place to stop."

Two cars parked in the empty suburb one after the other.

Kou guaiguai couldn't wait to see Xu Mi's car, trotting all the way, excited like a child, and said loudly to Xu Mi: "I really love you, so that we can drive to the mountains to spend the night in the future gone."

Chen was not very interested in the car, but the smell of cigarettes in the car was a bit heavy, and he wanted to get down for a long time to breathe.

Xu Mi waved his hand to Chen Yi: "Doctor Chen, what a coincidence."

"Indeed." Kou Kuaiguai seemed to smell something strange, rolled his eyes and glanced back and forth between the two: "Aha, you two seem to know each other very well."

"That's right." Xu Mi lowered his head and approached Kou Guaiguai: "We are colleagues."

Kou Guaiguai almost cried out: "Really, when did you also study medicine?"

"Although I work in the canteen of the hospital and she is in the office, she is also in the same hospital, isn't she considered a colleague?" No matter what the scene is, Xu Mi speaks in a leisurely manner, calm and elegant, but in Chen At first, I just feel that such a woman is really scary, and she can't even understand what she is thinking.

Kou obediently said: "You don't think you have a crush on her, and you purposely ran to the hospital where she is?"

"Why, jealous?" Xu Mi didn't explain, but stared at Chen Yi as if watching a show.

Kou waved his hand obediently: "If I were jealous for you, I would have become a rare old vinegar jar in 100 years. Turning around, she saw a lot of things piled up in the back seat of the car: "What are you stuffing here? "

"Moving."

"Why did you move suddenly?"

"I'm tired of living there, it's better to change the scenery." Xu Mi said to Chen Yi: "Dr. Chen may be able to commute to get off work together in the future, and live near you."

Chen Yi stood leaning against the car door with his arms folded, feeling that the weather was suddenly cold: "How do you know where I live?"

"I know your license plate. It's the same community, but different units."

If it's the same building, it's okay, thinking about Xu Mi's attitude of 1 whys, Chen has always felt chills all over his body: "That's it."

You must know the car, otherwise you can chase it all the way?But Chen Yi still didn't understand: "You moved so many things, why are you chasing my car again?"

"I didn't know you were here obediently. I just wanted to see where you were going to play."

"Follow me?" Xu Mi's answer also made Chen Yijing not know how to respond: "Just because of curiosity?"

Kou Guaiguai finally sat in the red car and said with a smile: "Doctor Chen, is strong curiosity a kind of mental illness?"

"It's a stalker." Chen Yi was a little annoyed, but her professional habits have determined that her tone of voice is neutral when she speaks, not too blunt, and there is a trace of tolerance in it: "Okay, you Now that you know I'm going to send Kou home obediently, what are you going to do?"

"Of course Kou wants to go back with me." As if he had expected everything, Xu Mi smiled naturally and said, "Then the doctor is going back to his home."

"Hey, you actually called me by my full name." Kou obediently opened Xu Mi's car door, got into the passenger driver, but complained to Chen Yi, "Do you always call people by their full names?"

"I'm more used to being called by my full name."

"It's called that for patients." Kou Kuaiguai felt a little resentful: "You can call me Guaiguai, or Kou, but Kou Guaiguai doesn't sound nice at all."

As a result, the red car was tuned in front of his eyes, and left in the dust. Chen Yidao was left alone on the empty road, surrounded by the dark jungle except for the slightly yellowed street lights.

Sighing, she also returned to her car and turned the steering wheel. There was still a faint smell of smoke in the car, but it didn't seem that bad. She raised the glass to keep the smell longer. At the same time, I also have a little self-blame for this inexplicable behavior.

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