On the wedding show before the divorce

After Chu's mother left, Chu Nian fell into depression, like a vortex, no matter how hard she tried, she couldn't stay away, and was drawn into the abyss forever.

She was lying on the bed with her back to the outside world, the curtains were drawn tightly, and she did not move.

This seemed to be her life, gloomy and obscure, there should have been no light at all.

Experiences from childhood to adulthood emerge in my mind one by one...

Even Ruan Youran, who was the only one who could give her a smile, she ignored. Chu Nian thought many times, how happy Ruan Youran would be if she didn't exist in this world. There is no need to bear so much since childhood.

People, once underestimated, it is too difficult to get out.

She feels sorry for herself.

She resented the injustice of heaven.

She felt that she should not exist in this world.

Ruan Youran stood at the door and looked at it many times. She sighed softly. When school was over in the afternoon, she went to pick up Zhengzhi. She saw Zhengzhi walking out sullenly as before, and the little girl with braids beside her was still dancing. Bouncing around, "Uprightness, uprightness, you are so smart, can you teach me how to build that toy?"

Zheng Zhi frowned, "Idiot."

The little girl was surprised: "Yes, my parents said the same thing, how did you know?"

Upright:……

This picture seems familiar.

It reminded her of her and Chu Nian when she was a child.

On the way home, Zheng Zheng looked at Ruan Youran and asked, "Mummy, are you unhappy?"

At a young age, Zheng Zhi's eyes seem to be able to see through people's hearts.

Ruan Youran wanted to smile, but her smile was a bit bitter: "Mom isn't in good health recently, honestly, you want to help Mommy get better soon, okay?"

Zheng Zhi nodded: "I know."

She looked down at the ugly bear that grandma gave her, and added: "It's like mom helping mommy out."

In a word.

This sentence almost forced Ruan Youran to tears.

What is the reason?

At this moment, even Ruan Youran wanted to ask God.

They are kind, simple, and just in love.

Why go through all kinds of tribulations?

Chu Qing and Ruan Qiu cooked dinner at home and waited for Ruan Youran and the child to come back. Ruan Qiu was very silent. In fact, she had never been able to accept Chu's mother donating her heart, but when she was young, as a subordinate, she I have worked with Chu Ma for many years, and I know how stubborn this woman is. As long as she makes a decision, she will not be changed.What's more, there is no better plan now.

Chu Qing's thoughts were on Nian Nian. She couldn't do this now. There was only one month left, so she had to adjust her mood and state as soon as possible.

Chu Qing also went in and persuaded Nian Nian a few words, Chu Nian seemed to have heard it, but she seemed not to hear it, her eyes were empty, as if she had no soul, which made people very scared.

But what could Chu Qing criticize?

From childhood to adulthood, Niannian has experienced too much, and these things are listed one by one on her shoulders. If it is an ordinary person, she would have collapsed long ago.

Ruan Youran didn't force Chu Nian, every day, when she cooked the meal, she brought it in and fed it to Chu Nian spoonful by spoonful.

At first, Chu Nian remained motionless, until Ruan Youran looked at her pleadingly again: "Don't be like this, Nian Nian, I beg you, please?"

The numb heart still hurts because of Ruan Youran's eyes and sad voice, Chu Nian opened his mouth and mechanically swallowed mouthfuls.

Once a person loses energy, the whole person will walk on the verge of collapse.

During this period of time, Chu Nian was not in the state, and she rarely responded even when Zheng Zheng came to call her mother. Chu Qing and Ruan Qiu thought about it, and now Chu Nian seemed to have entered a dead end, as if she was a critically ill patient. The antidote is leisurely.

The second elder took the child back home and tried to make room for the two of them.

But it was of no use.

Chu Nian just lay down. She lay down for four or five days, and Ruan Youran came in every day to move her legs and feet. This was something she learned from a teacher specially for Nian Nian's recovery after surgery. She didn't expect to use it now.

Ruan Youran left very early every morning. She went to the temple to pray for Chu Nian, and she would tell Chu Nian when she left, but Chu Nian did not respond after hearing this.

Sighing, closing the door, Ruan Youran went out.

Day after day.

Soon, a week passed, and the next day was Zhengzhi's third birthday.

In the morning, Ruan Youran sat on a chair and looked at Chu Nian, holding her chin with both hands: "Nian Nian, tomorrow is Zheng Zheng's birthday."

Because of not seeing the sun, Chu Nian's face turned gray in just one week.

It felt awful.

Chu Nian didn't speak, but Ruan Youran burst into tears, she looked at Chu Nian: "Do you have to do this?"

It's not what she wants.

It's just that Chu Nian is in too much pain, and she doesn't know how to relieve it.

Ruan Youran looked into her eyes with tears in her eyes, "Do you remember what you promised me when you got married?"

——Regardless of life or death, regardless of poverty, regardless of disease, never give up.

Ruan Youran gritted her teeth: "You have let me down once, do you want a second time?"

Chu Nian's tears finally flowed down the corners of her eyes. She looked at Ruan Youran with helpless and weak eyes.

Ruan Youran grabbed her hand and put it on her chest: "It hurts here."

She wasn't alone in pain.

Compared to Chu Nian, Ruan Youran was in more pain.

Seeing her lover sink, but there is nothing she can do, she doesn't know how to go on with her life.

After all, she was reluctant to force Chu Nian, so Ruan Youran kissed her forehead and left.

Time passed by every minute and every second...

Chu Nian's mind was full of Ruan Youran's words.

——You have let me down once, do you want a second time?

At that time, there was too much pain, and she was alone abroad with integrity, and she didn't know how to get through it.

She once made a wish to the gods, if... she could get Ruan Youran's forgiveness and have her for another day, she would give anything.

But now?

She was forgiven, had her again, and a deep love accompanied her.

Why... All these difficulties are pressing on her again.

Chu Nian staggered to her feet, not getting out of bed for a long time, her steps were a little unsteady, and she walked to the dark window.

She took a deep breath, and Chu Nian forcefully opened the curtains.

Bright sunlight streams in.

On the window, there is a painting of the Peggy family standing upright on a small bench.

Three little chubby pigs are holding hands, they are wearing sunflower petals, laughing happily together, and the dazzling sun is shining above their heads.

that moment.

Chu Nian slowly sat on the ground, her body curled up into a ball, crying with her head in her arms.

Why?

Why? ? ?

She doesn't want to be like this... she doesn't want to...

Ruan Qiu came over at one o'clock in the afternoon. She was surprised to see Chu Nian got up and sitting alone in the living room in a daze.

"Nian Nian, have you eaten yet?"

Chu Nian looked at Ruan Qiu, her complexion was very bad and haggard, but she was willing to speak: "No."

Ruan Qiu nodded, since Chu Nian and Ruan Youran were together again, she has been cooking almost every day.

Today, Chu Qing stayed with the child at home. She came to see and was worried about Chu Nian, and Ruan Youran called her to tell her that she must come over and take care of her.

She gave Chu Nian a face.

She lay for several days, and must have been very weak, and needed to be replenished.

Tomato Beef Noodles, Ruan Qiu cooked the beef full of fragrance, the sweet and sour tomato soup soaked in it, and then sprinkled with chopped green onion and coriander.

A large bowl full was placed in front of Chu Nian. Chu Nian picked up the chopsticks and started to eat the noodles without hesitation.

Ruan Qiu was very satisfied, she took a small bench, ate an apple with a smile and looked at Chu Nian on the opposite side.

One bite, one bite, very fragrant, and the soup is very thick.

For some reason, Chu Nian's eye circles turned red, and she unintentionally raised her head to look at Ruan Qiu. Ruan Qiu's temples, which had always been well-maintained, became gray at some point. During this time, the two elders focused on their children and On her granddaughter, she has little time for smugness.

Chu Nian bit her lip, her nose astringent: "Mom."

"Hey!" Ruan Qiu answered quickly, as long as Chu Nian wants it now, she will do her best to help.

Chu Nian took a bite of the noodles, and there were ripples in the noodle soup: "I'm sorry..."

Because she is alone, how many people run around for her.

At the age of the two elders, they were supposed to take care of her and take care of the sun, but now they gave up too much to take care of her and their children.

Since she came back, they didn't have a harsh word, but accepted it tolerantly.

Help their family reunite step by step.

What is she capable of...

Ruan Qiu was stunned, she looked at Chu Nian, and after a while, she smiled: "Silly child, shouldn't parents pay for their children?"

Chu Nian lowered her head, "Mom, I want to visit Youran."

Nature is good.

Ruan Qiu also wanted to see Ruan Youran. This child has been following a demon recently, running to the monastery every day. He probably really wants to be a monk.

The journey is a bit far, and it takes about an hour to arrive. Lingguang Temple is in the mountains, and it is very beautiful to be surrounded by mountains and rivers.

After getting out of the car, Ruan Qiu stretched out his arms, "Hey, it's been a long time."

Chu Nian looked at her.

Ruan Qiu explained with a smile: "Back then, your mother and I had a lot of tossing. At that time, our relationship felt like a ball of wool, entangled and knotted, and we couldn't untie it." She sighed: "When When there is no sunshine in life and no hope in life, many people choose to rely on the spiritual world, otherwise... they will go crazy."

Chu Nian pursed her lips, and she looked at the morning sun in the distance.

At this moment, she really wanted to hug Ruan Youran.

That man loves her so much.

Loved so much that she swallowed all the pain and sorrow silently, and never had the heart to criticize her.

Master Huiguo was also surprised when she saw Ruan Qiu, she smiled slightly: "You are here."

The tone was like speaking to a child.

Ruan Qiu was very respectful, she clasped her hands together: "Haha, yes, it's been a long time, Master, you are still so energetic."

Practitioners are different. I haven't seen him for a long time, but Master Huiguo's eyes are still so bright. She fiddled with the Buddhist beads with one hand and asked, "Are you here to look for Youran?"

Both nodded.

Master Huiguo nodded, she got up and took the two of them out, "She's gone to worship."

worship?

Ruan Qiu was taken aback, and looked at Master Huiguo in disbelief, Chu Nian was puzzled, and his eyes were full of doubts.

Master Huiguo explained: "She came to me a few days ago and asked me what is the most pious blessing? That child is very anxious and her tone is very urgent. Don't you know?"

She looked at Ruan Qiu, Ruan Qiu was silent, of course she knew.

Master Huiguo glanced at Chu Nian, "Once a person is out of control, it is easy to go to the doctor indiscriminately."

She took the two of them to the forest path in the backyard, and pointed: "Many monks can't stand the pilgrimage here from the main hall in Dongtou. She has persisted for several days."

Chu Nian felt very distressed.

Ruan Qiu thought for a while and asked: "You mean to go to the doctor when you are sick means—"

Master Huiguo looked at Ruan Qiu and replied seriously: "She came to ask me if there is any way to continue her life. She is willing to exchange her life for Chu Nian's."

——She is willing to exchange her life for Chu Nian's

Chu Nian burst into tears, her figure was unstable, and she managed to hold on to the tree next to her.

——Nian Nian, don't be like this, okay...

——Chu Nian, Chu Nian, what should I do with you?

In the distance, there was an ethereal bell, accompanied by the sound of the Buddha's chant, a group of worshipers came slowly, Ruan Youran walked first, she was very serious and pious, and did not see Ruan Qiu and Chu Nian in front of her .

On the mountain road of more than ten kilometers, she just walked over with three steps, one bow and one head. At that time, Master Huiguo asked her to wear knee pads on her legs, but she did not agree.

Now as long as Chu Nian is good, she agrees even if she is asked to go over mountains and mountains.

She has no choice.

Really no more.

I can only pray with the most devout and devout prayers.

Her trousers were covered with mud, and the knees were torn, exposing the bright red flesh inside. Every time she walked, and every time she kowtowed, the mud and sand would be rolled up and embedded in the flesh and blood.

Cruel pain.

Ruan Youran's legs were even shaking, but she gritted her teeth and persisted, doing every movement extremely standard, muttering words in her mouth.

When the vast and magnificent bell of the temple rang, when a ray of sunlight in the setting sun shone on her body, and when her sweat dripped down her forehead, Ruan Youran raised her head and saw Chu Nian.

The four eyes look at each other.

Chu Nian burst into tears.

Ruan Youran was a little taken aback at first, but soon, a bright smile that Chu Nian was all too familiar with bloomed on her face.

she knows.

Her wish came true.

The author has something to say: Ye Zi read the message in the middle of the night yesterday, and a baby wrote: Ye Zi, don't hold me, let go.

God, what kind of tiger and wolf words are these...

Anyone want to watch the second update today?You have not been active recently.