On the wedding show before the divorce

——Found the source of my heart!

Ruan Youran was trembling with joy, Chu Nian also smiled, but her eyes were a bit tangled.

Ruan Youran was so happy, she didn't pay much attention to Chu Nian, even when she went to hold her hand, her palm was hot.

After getting into the car, Ruan Youran was holding the steering wheel, she sat tremblingly in the driver's seat, she didn't know what happened, her hands and feet were shaking.

In her life, she has experienced many joys.

But never once.

Chu Nian looked distressed, she held Ruan Youran's hand: "Let me do it."

It's dangerous for her to drive like this.

Ruan Youran nodded, she turned to look at Chu Nian, and suddenly hugged her in her arms, "Don't be afraid...don't be afraid..."

Warm tears rolled down the corners of her eyes, how could Ruan Youran not understand Chu Nian.

Chu Nian bit her lip and wept.

With the heart source, she is naturally happy, but she will never forget the scene of lilo's operation on her hand with a very low success rate.

If she doesn't change her mind... She continues to persevere and maintain it, and maybe she can spend more time with Ruan Youran and integrity.

But what if she can't get off the operating table...

She could no longer hear or see Ruan Youran's gentle smile and tender voice, let alone hug her upright and soft body, and hear her call "Mom" in a childish voice.

Ruan Youran hugged Chu Nian vigorously: "You promised me that we will be together forever, eh?!"

Chu Nian choked up and nodded, whenever she retreated cowardly, Ruan Youran was her courage.

When the two returned home, the light in the living room was on, and Ruan Qiu and Chu Qing were sitting there waiting for them to come back.

When Ruan Youran came in holding Nian Nian's hand, her eyes were still red, she stared at Chu Qing, Chu Qing smiled slightly, but there seemed to be something else in the smile: "You're back, did you have fun?"

Ruan Qiu was also sitting beside her, she was silent, as if she was thinking about something.

Ruan Youran and Chu Nian are both sensitive people, they looked at their mother, Ruan Youran thought for a while, she said to Chu Nian, "Go and see integrity first."

Chu Nian nodded, she entered the room.

When the door was closed and Ruan Youran was sitting opposite the two mothers, Ruan Qiu spoke slowly: "Tomorrow I will send someone to pick up Lilo, after all she knows Chu Qing's body best. Also, from now on, Nian Nian needs a good adjustment, all for the surgery."

Ruan Youran nodded, she stared straight at her mother.

Ruan Qiu turned her head away, not looking at her.

Ruan Youran went to see Chu Qing again, Chu Qing was silent for a moment, and she said softly, "Qijian, the source of this heart is thinking about my mother."

A bolt from the blue is a word.

Ruan Youran sat on the sofa, her body was stiff, and she felt that her blood was no longer flowing.

Chu Qing's hand was worriedly placed on Ruan Youran's. When she just came back, her blood was boiling because of excitement. Now, she seemed to be thrown into the bottomless abyss all at once.

Chu Qing's tone was also sad: "She came to see me... her attitude is very decisive, her illness is very bad, terminal cancer... I also asked many friends, and I also read her diagnosis report..."

Ruan Youran stared straight.

That's it... How can Chu Nian accept this? ? ?

She had always felt that her life was gloomy, and she finally saw a little light in life, which turned out to be the heart of her biological mother.

She lived, but Mother Chu died.

Didn't this also kill her?

Ruan Youran shook her head: "No... we... we can wait... we can wait..."

Chu Qing looked into her eyes: "How long do you think Nian Nian can wait?"

Ruan Youran's tears fell, emotional: "That can't be like this?! She will die of pain!"

Ruan Qiu and Chu Qing stopped talking, and it was difficult for them to accept this result.

Ruan Youran was crying and trembling all over. She rubbed her head vigorously with both hands, and curled up into a ball: "Why... why... why on earth... think about what she did wrong... why did she have to bear all this..."

At night, when Ruan Youran calmed down and entered the room, Chu Nian had already fallen asleep with Zheng Zhi in his arms.

Zheng Zhi is very cute, with his little feet resting on his mother's body, and the corners of his mouth are still drooling.

I heard from my grandma that she performed well in the kindergarten, and now she doesn't pretend to be crazy and stupid. Her IQ surpassed that of the children, and she immediately became the prettiest kid in the kindergarten.

Ruan Youran looked at Chu Nian, her complexion improved a bit after being raised by herself, she put her hands on Zheng Zhi's body, and there was still a sweet smile on the corner of her mouth.

Ruan Youran's nose was sore, she walked over, kissed two foreheads, one big and one small, and went to the living room by herself.

No lights on.

Just like those years when Chu Nian left.

She opened a can of cold beer and took a sip, her irritated mouth numb.

Lighting a cigarette, she silently looked at the only shining moon and stars outside the window.

Is it because of a different mood?

When Mingming and Chu Nian were admiring the moon on the top of the mountain, she still felt that all the beauty was unrealistic.

But now... She actually felt that even the moonlight had become sad.

She sat like this until the sun and the moon alternated, and the sky was bright.

When her legs were numb and she could hardly move, Ruan Youran took a deep breath and made a decision.

Chu Nian has been busy since she woke up, Zhengzheng is going to the kindergarten, she has to feed her, and then watched her carry a small schoolbag on her back, originally she wanted to send Zhengzhi to the kindergarten, but Ruan Youran stopped her.

Ruan Youran's face was pale: "Nian Nian, I have something to tell you."

Chu Nian hesitated for a moment, then looked at her face: "You haven't slept all night?"

Ruan Youran didn't speak, and the whole person was once again shrouded in depression.

Zheng Zhi is very obedient, she looked at Mommy, then at Mommy, and laid out the books: "Goodbye."

Grandma was already waiting for her at the door.

Ruan Qiu and Chu Qing looked at the two of them in silence. In fact, they wanted to keep this matter from Chu Nian, and Chu's mother also had the same idea.

But Ruan Youran disagreed, she had been concealed before, and knew that this deception, even if it was well-intentioned, would leave multiple scars in people's hearts.

Besides, if you really want to hide it, can you hide it?

How clever is Chu Nian? Before accepting the donation, she will definitely visit the other party's family.

How to hide?

Just hide this, what about the clues in the future? ? ?

They are mother and daughter, connected by blood, she will know after all.

The damage at that time must be tens of millions of times that of the present.

The child was sent away, and Chu Nian sat quietly opposite Ruan Youran. She looked at Ruan Youran's face and felt a pain in her heart: "Is there something wrong with your heart? Youran, don't be sad, I can accept it no matter what it is." ..."

The more this happened, the more sad Ruan Youran became, and her tears fell down.

Chu Nian walked over, she hugged Ruan Youran and kissed her forehead: "Okay, I've experienced the worst..."

Are you afraid of these?

God was unfair to her.

Injustice is not fair.

She has experienced the most painful love-hate parting in life, what else can she have?

Ruan Youran took a deep breath, clenched her hands into fists, as if she had gathered all her strength, "Nian Nian, my heart is fucked."

Chu Nian froze for a moment, she looked at Ruan Youran: "What did you say?"

I know it will hurt.

But Ruan Youran still looked into her eyes and said, "The heart belongs to your mother."

silence……

Chu Nian seemed to hear it, but also seemed not to hear it. After a while, her tears slowly fell.

Ruan Youran wanted to hug her, but Chu Nian struggled to break free: "I don't want...I don't want to be like this...Youran...I don't want..."

No wonder.

No wonder my mother hadn't seen her for so long, she suddenly appeared to tell her that she was seriously ill, and transferred all the property under her name to her.

No wonder, she spent a lot of effort to find a lot of people to find her but couldn't find it.

Ruan Youran was also crying, she hugged Chu Nian: "Nian Nian..."

Chu Nian cried and trembled all over, "She...how could she do this...I am alive, but she is dead...I..."

Her life, from childhood to adulthood, has been unblessed.

She went through a lot of pain.

Ruan Youran always said that when she was young, Chu Nian had the feeling of an old man in her eyes, as if she had seen through everything in this world and had nothing to worry about.

She was sad, in pain, and even in pain...

However, she never thought of trading her mother's life for her own.

Chu Nian's reaction was very intense, she struggled for a moment, her body was already weak, and her eyes darkened before she fainted.

Ruan Youran was terrified, and hurried to press her, and stuffed the Suxiao Jiuxin Pill into her mouth.

Chu Qing and Ruan Qiu rushed back immediately, and Chu Qing also brought an authoritative doctor. The doctor was an old man with a white beard. He gave Chu Nian an infusion and sighed: "This baby's health is too bad. gone."

Everyone is silent.

Other than that, I really don't know what else to say.

Ruan Youran sat on the side and silently accompanied her.

Now, Chu Nian's heart is fragile, and she feels that her heart is full of holes as if it has experienced rain, snow, wind and frost.

After the infusion, Chu Nian woke up leisurely, she just lay there without speaking or making a sound, the tears in the corners of her eyes fell into the pillow cover.

Ruan Youran felt distressed, but there was nothing to comfort her.

In the afternoon, the doorbell rang, and Ruan Youran knew that her mother had sent someone to pick up Lilo and thought it was her, so she hurriedly got up to open the door, and when she saw the person in front of her, she was stunned.

"mom……"

Chu's mother stood at the door, her face was ashen as a serious illness, but her eyes were fine, she looked at Ruan Youran and smiled slightly: "Youran, Mom, come and see Niannian."

Ruan Youran looked at her, and tears fell for some reason.

Chu's mother saw it and stroked her hair: "It's already thirty, not a child anymore, why are you still crying?"

When she was a child, she quarreled with Chu Nian, although she always put on airs, but sometimes Chu Nian ignored her, and Ruan Youran would wipe her nose downstairs, and Chu's mother saw her embarrassed appearance several times.

Mentioning this, Ruan Youran burst into tears again.

Memories can kill.

She is like this, let alone Chu Nian.

Chu Ma came in, she was holding an insulated box in her hand, and looked around: "Where is Nian Nian?"

As soon as the words were finished, the bedroom door was pulled open vigorously, and Chu Nian ran out barefoot, with disheveled hair and tears in the corners of her eyes, staring blankly at her mother.

Except for the pale complexion.

Chu Ma was exactly the same as in memory.

Chu Nian stared blankly, not moving at all, and Chu Ma also looked at her, her eyes full of reluctance.

looked at each other for a while.

Chu's mother waved her hand: "You are the same child. You don't wear shoes. Are you not afraid of catching cold? Come here, mom made your favorite vegetarian assorted and preserved egg porridge."

Chu Nian's tears flowed down in a row, Ruan Youran took the slippers for her to wear, Chu Nian walked to her mother, and she immediately hugged Chu's mother.

Chu Ma hugged her back. This strong woman, at this moment, finally shed tears.

her whole life.

Is a failure.

Now, for the sake of my daughter, this is the only thing I can do.

Even such a hug, before this, the mother and daughter rarely had it.

Chu Nian was like a helpless child, crying thoroughly in her arms, Chu's mother stopped crying, she put her arms around Chu Nian: "Okay, don't get excited, eh? Come and taste Mom's handicraft."

Chu Ma didn't have many opportunities to cook for Chu Nian before.

It was more when she was a child, but as Chu Nian grew up, Chu Ma's business became busy, and she was busy, so naturally she didn't have much time to spend with Nian Nian.She wanted to find an aunt or something, but Chu Nian refused. Nian Nian was not used to having outsiders at home.

At that time, on birthdays, apart from looking at Ruan Youran, Chu Nian's biggest wish was to eat a meal cooked by his mother.

Now, after so many years, she finally ate it.

Chu Nian ate with tears in his eyes, every mouthful was the taste of his mother, the taste of home.

In her memory, the home did not give her much warmth.

But no matter how cold it was, it was still her home.

If my mother is really gone...she really has no home in this world...

Chu Nian was halfway through eating when the doorbell rang again. Ruan Youran paused, looked at Chu's mother, and Chu's mother looked at her: "Go and open the door, it's my appointment."

Both Chu Nian and Ruan Youran thought it was some kind of doctor, but when they opened the door, Ruan Youran looked a little strange, "Dad..."

It's Dad Chu.

Ruan Youran couldn't remember how long she hadn't seen him.

Father Chu has aged a lot. Ruan Youran heard that after he cheated and divorced, the mistress he found did not have a good family life. Later, because they could not have children together all year round, the two divorced again. Father Chu also once He wants to get back with Chu's mother, but the current Chu's mother is not what it used to be. She sits down and has countless assets, and she has an outstanding temperament.

Chu Nian was also taken aback when he saw his father.

"You are here, come and sit."

Chu Ma's tone was as usual, as if she was talking to an old friend she hadn't seen for a long time.

Father Chu is much older. When he was young, he had slender limbs, a tall man, and was chased by many women wearing glasses.

But now, after all, it is the wind and frost that cannot withstand the years.

Father Chu walked over with red eyes, it seemed that he already knew about it.

Chu Ma sat there and said calmly, "I called you here to explain something, so as not to cause unnecessary trouble in the future."

Father Chu bit his lip.

There is endless regret and self-blame in his heart.

It was him who made an originally happy family fall apart, it was him who made his wife and children come to this point after all.

He asked many doctors, and the doctors told her that most patients with liver cancer like to sulk, and they keep everything in their hearts and don't talk about it...

Back then, Chu's mother divorced him, and even after knowing that he had someone else's news, she just cried silently.

Then she packed her bags and left without saying anything.

When she took Niannian away again, she looked at Dad Chu with cold eyes like a stranger.

Chu Nian sat there with cold hands and feet.

Chu Ma raised her eyes and looked at the father and daughter: "First of all, I do have advanced liver cancer, and all of you don't need to question this."

There were mixed feelings in everyone's mind when she said this.

Chu's mother looked at Chu's father: "I want to donate my heart to my daughter, and it's not because of any reason to be angry with you. You don't deserve it, let alone worth it."

Father Chu's tears flowed down: "But...if you are alive...if you are alive, there is still a glimmer of hope after all."

This is what Chu Nian wanted to say. There are many miracles in this world. Isn't it true that there are many people who have been issued a critical illness notice and are planning to go back to prepare for their funeral?

"I don't believe in miracles." Chu Ma's voice was very cold, "What's more, miracles are not prepared for people like me."

Miracles should be left to those who love and are bathed in love in their hearts.

Like a daughter.

Chu's father was full of remorse: "Don't be like this, give me another chance, okay, I—"

"There's no need to say these words." Chu's mother started, her love was decisive, and her hatred was equally sloppy: "I tell you, Wen Bin, from the day you abandoned our mother and daughter, I have long wanted to live. I just want to let go of my grievances and my daughter in this world."

She looked at Chu Nian.

Known daughter Moruomu.

She knows what her daughter has been lacking in her heart, and what she has built after so many years of hard work.

After Nian Nian has it, she doesn't have to work so hard when her body recovers.

Chu's mother looked at Chu Nian and her eyes became gentle: "Nian Nian, don't be sad, mother is a dead-hearted person, she didn't care about this body for a long time, if..." She looked at Ruan Youran, with the same tenderness: "My heart is on you. If I can see you and Youran living a happy and happy life, then my life will not be in vain after all."

Chu Nian burst into tears, she covered her mouth and shook her head desperately.

Chu Ma walked over, she took Chu Nian into her arms, and gently kissed her hair: "Nian Nian, good boy, Mom has never begged for anything in her life, now, Mom please. If If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't be able to support the present."

There is no cure for a heart-dead person.

mom……

Chu Nian cried and trembled into a ball.

Father Chu lowered his head, tears streaming down his face.

Ruan Youran leaned against the wall, weeping silently.

"Okay, that's it, I'm leaving." Chu Ma wiped away her tears and smiled slightly, and Chu Nian grabbed her: "Where are you going?"

Chu's mother looked at her: "Nian Nian, Mom can't last too long, I still have a month for you, this month, you and Youran should have a good and happy life, as for mother——heh." Faintly: "You also know that I am a strong person, and I don't want anyone to see my weakness and pain before I die."

Chu Nian bit his lip tightly, almost bleeding.

Chu Ma looked at Chu Nian seriously, her gaze was as slow as trying to portray everything about her in her mind.

Hug for the last time.

Mother Chu hugged her daughter and whispered softly in her ear, "Nian Nian, I love you."

Chu Nian let out a sobbing sound.

Chu Ma said again, "I'm sorry."

I love you, I'm sorry, how many people's life is wasted in these two sentences.

The author has something to say: the eyes that write are moist.