On the wedding show before the divorce

Thank you Master Wan Huiguo.

Chu Nian helped Ruan Youran to the car, Ruan Youran smiled, and she wiped her sweat with one hand: "It's okay, I'm used to it, I'm not so delicate."

Chu Nian lowered her head, she bit her lip and held Ruan Youran's arm tightly.

In this world, there is a person who wants her to live more than herself.

Ruan Youran broke free, but she gave up because of her strength.

Ruan Qiu came from here. After getting in the car, she made an excuse to chat with the master who was familiar with the temple, and asked the two to wait in the car.

Chu Nian took mineral water for Ruan Youran to clean up. After all these years of illness, she has almost become half a doctor herself.

After getting into the car, she looked at the horrible wound: "Take off your pants."

Ruan Youran blushed: "What?"

Chu Nian looked at her angrily: "The injury is so serious, how can I wash it if I don't take it off?"

I'm coming.

That's the feeling of dominance.

Ruan Youran took off her trousers obediently, but there was some flesh sticking to it, even though she tried her best to restrain herself, she still breathed in pain.

When seeing the wound clearly, Chu Nian couldn't help but shed tears again.

New wounds, old wounds, covered the legs as white as jade...

The most obvious ones are at the knees, and some of the scars that have healed are bleeding again...

How painful this must be.

"Okay, it's okay." Ruan Youran kissed Chu Nian's forehead, and Chu Nian choked up, "Don't do such a stupid thing next time."

Ruan Youran smiled, "Why is it so stupid, don't you think you are well and finally not a bad bed?"

Chu Nian choked with sobs, she hugged Ruan Youran with one hand: "You are my god."

- You are my God.

From small to large.

She has walked through the haze countless times. Even if she is strong, the waves that rush in again and again make her too tired and unable to resist. It is not that she has never thought about giving up, or even thinking about drifting with the tide like this.

But every time... it was Ruan Youran, she split through the thorns, rescued her from the bottom of the valley time and time again like a warrior, even though she was bloody and exhausted, she never thought of giving up on herself.

Ruan Youran is her god.

It's all about her.

After the wound was cleaned, the fresh flesh that was pink and oozing blood was exposed, and Chu Nian couldn't help but shed tears when he saw it, "You go home... I didn't even notice it."

Ruan Youran stroked her hair.

She naturally couldn't see it, no matter how painful it was, she would grit her teeth and persist in front of Chu Nian.

Chu Nian has endured too much, and with her, she only wants to make her happy.

Chu Nian lowered his head, and gently and carefully kissed the surrounding area of ​​the scar. This is the best special medicine in the world, more effective than anything else.

Ruan Youran's face gradually turned red, and she hugged Chu Nian's waist forbearance: "Don't be here."

Although it's already in the parking lot.

But in the end it's... different.

Chu Nian's cheeks were also slightly red, and she leaned her head on Ruan Youran's shoulder.

When Ruan Qiu came back, she saw this scene and laughed. It seems that the rain has passed. To be honest, sometimes, even she has to admire her daughter’s endurance, perseverance and determination. Her temper when she was young No, even though she was obedient to Chu Qing, but if she went through all of this...she dare not think about it.

On the way back, Ruan Youran was exhausted and a little tired, so Chu Nian let her sleep on her own.

The spring breeze is blowing in, very comfortable, and the air is full of the smell of green grass.

Ruan Youran hummed softly with her eyes half closed.

— Phew, I like to just lean on your chest like this.

Phew, I like having no time and no direction.

……

The gentle humming poured into Chu Nian's broken heart like a warm current. She hugged Ruan Youran vigorously, wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes, and gently kissed her forehead.

Ruan Qiu sat in the front row feeling uncomfortable.

In her impression, Chu Nian is an extremely shy person, even if it is intimate, she will never be in front of others.Most of those who can take the initiative are daughters, but now...

Love makes a person firm.

Ruan Qiu finally saw that ray of determination in Chu Nian's eyes again.

"Let's pick up Zhengzheng from school, just in time to tell the teacher that tomorrow's birthday will not pass, so relax at home."

Ruan Qiu spoke, and the two mothers naturally nodded in response.

[-]rd birthday...

Chu Nian sighed, when she gave birth to Zhengzheng, she really didn’t dare to think too much, even when she received treatment again and again, she thought that maybe Zhengzheng was not three years old...not many, many, but the child is stronger than her , she is also stronger than she thinks, and she has come all the way.

Ruan Youran looked into her eyes: "Everything will be fine, and we will go through many, many three years with Zhengzheng...she is six years old, nine years old, 12 years old,..."

Chu Nian understood what Ruan Youran meant, and tears rolled down his face.

Ruan Youran wiped away her tears: "Nian Nian, I've often been thinking recently that maybe, for life, death is not the end. Mom... She has lived a very hard life, if it is really possible, you will take her with you. The other happy with her."

Chu Nian threw herself into Ruan Youran's arms, she didn't refuse anymore, but her tears flowed out in waves.

These three years...

Their tears were almost dry.

When will the dawn shine on you?

I don't know, I can't think about it, let alone expect extravagantly...

Kindergarten is the end of school time, and many parents who pick up their children, Ruan Qiu, the social butterfly, naturally got off the car to say hello to this one and that one.

Chu Nian didn't let Ruan Youran get out of the car, her knees were still not healed, and she could only gradually move after going home and applying medicine.

She went inside full of anticipation, and saw a bunch of children coming out in a file, her integrity was dazzling, her face was exquisite and beautiful everywhere, like a peck of jade carved in powder, what surprised Chu Nian was that she was with a little girl. The girls came out holding hands.

Chu Nian pursed her lips and looked carefully. She recognized it. Isn't that the little girl from that interview called——is it Su Xiaoyu?

Zheng Zhi still had a straight face, but there was a smile on the corner of his mouth. The little girl said something without listening, but she didn't respond.

Ruan Qiu, who was talking eloquently, also saw it, and she touched her chin.

What the hell!

what's the situation?

Chu Nian subconsciously called out: "Integrity."

Zheng Zhi withdrew his hand after hearing this, and Su Xiaoyu next to her turned her head curiously, "Wow, Zheng Zhi, is that your mother? She's so beautiful."

Zheng Zhi ignored her and walked straight to Chu Nian.

Chu Nian took her hand, and looked back at the little girl who was still staring at Zhengzheng with a funny face. She wanted to ask something, Zhengzhi frowned: "I'm hungry."

Chu Nian smiled, the child has grown up and knows how to be embarrassed.

Got into the car.

Seeing that Mommy was there, Zheng Zheng was very happy, and she sat between Ruan Youran and Chu Nian.

Ruan Youran kissed her, Chu Nian also kissed her, and grinned upright.

Ruan Youran whispered in Chu Nian's ear, "Our daughter is a bit like a cold-faced queen."

Chu Nian gave her a blank look. Now she blamed herself for not being with her child for so many days. She stroked Zhengzheng's hair: "Mom will tell the teacher later that Zhengzheng will celebrate his birthday tomorrow and won't come to kindergarten, okay?"

Ruan Youran also looked at Zhengzhi with a smile.

The two mothers thought very clearly that Zhengzhi would be as happy and excited as other children.

Who knows, Zheng Zheng looked at the two people and shook his head: "No, I can't miss class."

Ruan Youran: ...

Kindergarten has a ghost class.

She was anxiously preparing to ask with a pale face, but Chu Nian looked at Zhengzhi thoughtfully: "Is it because of that little girl?"

Zhengzheng blushed a little, she turned her head and looked out the window, "Well, I promised her, she said she would celebrate my birthday."

Chu Nian: ...

Ruan Youran: ...

Depend on.

Never thought that such a cruel reality would be placed in front of the two old mothers so quickly.

Their daughter... Is this a puppy love? ? ?This... is probably too early.

When she got home, Chu Nian smiled at Ruan Youran's sad expression, "You, you were the one who was afraid of children not getting in touch with the society, and now you are the one who has friends who are jealous."

Ruan Youran chirped bitterly: "How big is this? I thought I was ahead of my time."

Chu Nian: "What do you know, this is pure love."

What kind of pure love, the old mother really doesn't understand.

Although Zhengzheng didn't celebrate their birthday with them, early the next morning, the two mean old mothers went to take Zhengzheng out and sang a birthday song. Each of them said: "I love you" and I kissed him before sending him to kindergarten.

Zheng Zhi was also very happy, hugging the two mothers and said childishly: "I love you too."

Ruan Youran was quite satisfied at first, but when she got to school and saw Zheng Zheng showing a bright smile when she saw little friend Su, she felt sad again.

It's just... the whole body is covered by sour bubbles...

Although the main character is missing.

But the whole family still got together and cooked for integrity.

When Chu Nian was rolling out the dumpling wrappers, she suddenly became jealous. In the past, her mother loved eating dumplings the most. Now that she is seriously ill, she doesn't know where and who is by her side, how painful it is.

Ruan Youran and Ruan Qiu are making hot pot outside. They are just young, and they like to eat things like shabu-shabu.

Everyone is getting ready for the evening feast.

Chu Qing is good at baking cakes, she put the finished mold into the oven, turned around, and saw Nian Nian crying alone there.

Such a thing is painful for anyone to accept.

Chu Qing knew what she was thinking, she walked over and patted Nian Nian on the shoulder lightly.

Such a happy day, there should be no tears.

Chu Nian held back her sadness, "It's okay, Mom."

Chu Qing looked into her eyes worriedly, and in the living room, Ruan Qiu shouted loudly: "Madam, come and have a look, why can't this be fixed?"

Chu Qing passed by, the two replaced each other, and Ruan Qiu went into the kitchen to help.

Chu Nian was chopping the vegetables, and asked softly, "Mom, did Youran believe in Buddhism at a very young age?"

Ruan Qiu was washing the dishes, and her hands paused: "It doesn't count. In fact, she followed me to the temple when she was very young. At that time, she didn't understand anything. She was only a little older than Zhengzhi. When she saw the Buddha statue, she actually I also learned how to kneel with my hands folded, and was accidentally seen by Master Huiguo. She was sweeping the floor at the time. She saw You and stared at it for a long time. She smiled and said that this child is destined for Buddha. Slowly, she grew up and also I go there once in a while, more often recently.”

Chu Nian nodded.

Ruan Qiu pursed her lips and was silent for a while: "Actually, Nian Nian—"

Chu Nian looked at Ruan Qiu, and Ruan Qiu looked into her eyes: "A few days ago, Jianjian talked to me, and it still made me very sad."

Chu Nian looked at her without blinking, and Ruan Qiu said slowly, "In our hearts, we always thought she was a child who couldn't grow up, but she suddenly came and told me: "Mom, I went to buy a cemetery. If you want to buy me and Niannian, you accidentally heard that Niannian bought her and the child a long time ago."

Chu Nian's heart trembled, and she bit her lip.

At that time, Ruan Youran was really suffering, she couldn't cry, she put her hands on her chest: "When I saw the two black tombstones engraved - Ruan Youran's wife and daughter, do you know how much pain I had? "

Ruan Youran cried for a long time. Finally, she wiped away her tears and said softly: "Later, I thought about it over and over for a long time. Before, I always thought that I could take Nian Nian's illness and transfer all her pain to me. But Now I think about it...if our family is destined to endure so much grief, and one person must leave, then everything is probably for the best."

At that time, Ruan Qiu was stunned and didn't understand why she said that.

Ruan Youran burst into tears: "If you leave, maybe there is really no pain, but the one who is alive is the real pain. I love her so much and love her... How can I be willing to let her stay in this world alone, and life would be worse than death."

So, let her bear all this alone.

As Chu Nian listened, she felt her whole body go numb, and something cool slipped from her eye sockets.

There is a person who loves you to the bone and never changes.

She...does she have any reason not to live?

The author has something to say: Up to now, many of Ye Zi’s ideas have been expressed, thank you for staying, and not yelling at the protagonist because of the shortcomings of the previous stage, thank you.