On the wedding show before the divorce

Ruan Youran stared at Zhengzheng, looked at her small face, looked at her beautiful eyes, looked at her pitiful red lips, looked at her tears streaming down, and there was a sound similar to that in her throat. Crying, trembling all over.

Zheng Zheng also stared blankly at Ruan Youran, the kind of family affection that was thicker than water let her know that the person in front of her was the mommy that her mother said she loved her very, very much since she was a child.

And... like this...

She had seen it countless times when she looked in the mirror.

They really do.

Zhengzhi turned her head to look at Chu Nian, who also had tears on her face, she stroked Zhengzhi's hair, "Go."

Zheng Zheng slowly walked towards Ruan Youran, Ruan Youran looked at her, the tears in her eyes had blurred her vision, she felt a soft little hand hugging her leg, and called softly but firmly: "Mommy. "

Chu Qing and Ruan Qiu also came in from the door at this time.

They all cried when they saw this scene.

Ruan Youran slowly...slowly knelt down, she wanted to hug Zheng Zhi, but at that moment, her eyes darkened, and she passed out.

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When I woke up again, it was already dark. The doctor came to see Ruan Youran at home and said that Ruan Youran suffered from severe malnutrition. I made up for years of sleepless sleep.

Chu Nian stood by the door and looked at Ruan Youran from afar, she didn't dare to go in, she didn't know if she could let herself get close now.

Chu Qing touched Ruan Youran's forehead: "I have a little fever."

She looked at Ruan Qiu: "I have to give her an infusion, and going on like this is not an option."

Ruan Qiu nodded, and sighed softly. Next to him, he was leaning on the head of the bed and tilting his head to look at Ruan Youran. Ruan Qiu looked sad, and stroked her hair: "Zheng Zhi, you should go to sleep, come see me tomorrow How is Mommy?"

Staring straight at Ruan Youran's pale face, he asked softly, "Is Mommy sick too? Is it the same sickness as Mommy? I'm afraid..."

One sentence broke the hearts of everyone present.

Chu Nian couldn't bear it anymore, she stepped forward and hugged Zheng Zheng, holding her tightly: "No, Mommy will get better soon, huh?"

In the past three years, Zhengzheng and Chu Nian depended on each other for life. She has seen her mother die and come back to life countless times. Although she is not good at expressing, her little heart is always shrouded in fear.

Although she obeyed and went to bed, early the next morning, she ran to Ruan Youran's room.

Zheng Zheng was afraid that the adults would kick her out, so he just stood beside him, just like the meeting with Chu Nian, quietly building toys.

Ruan Qiu and Chu Qing came over to look at her a few times, called her a few times, but they ignored her sincerity. They knew that the child had an idea, so they couldn't bear to say anything other than a faint sigh.

Zhengzheng secretly watched Ruan Youran several times. When she was eating, she whispered to her mother, "Mom, Mommy is so beautiful."

Chu Nian smiled, a bit sadly.

Ruan Qiu didn't want to make the atmosphere too stiff, she teased Zheng Zhi: "Does she look like grandma?"

Zhengzhi usually doesn't care about people except Chu Nian, but at this time, she reacted very quickly: "It's not like, Mommy is young and has good skin!"

Ruan Qiu: ……………

The only one who dared to put a knife in the heart of an old man like Mr. Ruan was her precious granddaughter.

Ruan Youran woke up in the middle of the night. She was sober and could hear the people around her talking, but her body still seemed to be bound by something and she couldn't move, and she didn't want to move either.

She is so tired.

Now she doesn't want to hear anything, doesn't want to think about anything.

Everyone knows that she doesn't force her when she needs time, and basically doesn't bother her except for being upright and delivering food every day.

Ruan Youran was asleep most of the time, she didn't even look at Zhengzheng, sometimes Zhengzheng came over by the foot of the bed and tiptoed to see if she was awake, she would close her eyes and cover her head under the quilt, Let the tears wet the sheets.

On the way, Ruan Qiu personally communicated with Niu Dao, talked about the basic situation of the family, and very domineeringly asked Niu Dao to make up the conditions at will, and she could agree.

Although Sawyer didn't say anything to Director Niu, Director Niu also felt that something was wrong, she smiled: "Don't be in a hurry, I can wait for a while."

wait a minute...

Yes, everyone is waiting.

Wait for Ruan Youran, wait for her to come out.

Chu Nian has some insomnia, she can't sleep at night, and there are always many thoughts tossing and turning in her mind.

Later, Ruan Qiu had a deep talk with her.

Although Ruan Qiu is naughty on weekdays, when Chu Nian married in, she bickered with the cheap every day, and now she fights with integrity every day, but everyone knows that she is the head of the family, with irresistible authority and strength.

"Your mother and I won't blame you for the matter between you and the cheap. I can't tell you about the relationship. Just Nian Nian, are you willing to be cheap? Are you willing to be upright? If you continue like this...even one There is no chance of redemption. For you now, survival is the greatest hope."

——To live is the greatest hope.

Yes.

In those years, when leaving Ruan Youran, Chu Nian was able to create a miracle to give birth and survive, to watch Zhengzheng receive treatment again and again, and to come back from hell again and again, isn't it all because of hope?She wants to cheer herself up, anyway, it's much better than before, isn't it?In his lifetime, Chu Nian finally saw their mother and daughter together.

Fourth morning.

Ruan Youran got up, she got up very early, before dawn, and got up alone when everyone was still asleep.

She dressed quietly, and after lying on the bed for so many days, her limbs seemed to have degenerated, and she had no strength.

After washing up, before leaving, Ruan Youran looked down at the upright toys on the ground and was silent for a moment, forcing back the tears in her eyes, she went out.

Going out early like this was only possible when I was busy filming or sending Chu Nian to the airport. At that time, Ruan Youran and Chu Nian got together less often, although Chu Nian had said many times to let her sleep well You can go by yourself, but Ruan Youran just doesn't care.

She wanted to cling to Chu Nian and cherish every minute and every second they had together, even if they didn't speak, even if it was a short hug in the car, she was content.

now……

Ruan Youran was at a loss, she didn't know what she should do now and what she wanted.

She walked all the way up the mountain, and when she reached the gate of Lingguang Temple, Master Huiguo stood there with his palms folded, looked at her and smiled slightly: "Amitabha."

Ruan Youran also wanted to laugh, but before she had time, hot tears fell down first.

Master Huiguo looked at her, didn't say much, and took her to worship in the temple.

Ruan Youran followed her mother to temples when she was young, and Master Huiguo once said that she had a predestined relationship with Buddha.Later, when she got older, she would come over when she had troubles that she couldn't solve.Standing in the middle of the temple, she looked at the vast wishes and the devout believers coming and going. At that moment, her heart was quiet.

The power of faith sometimes makes a person strong.

Standing on the top of the smoky mountain, Ruan Youran slowly told Master Huiguo about the experiences of these years. Master Huiguo listened silently, without any intention, and moved the beads one by one in his hand.

After Ruan Youran finished speaking, Master Huiguo looked up at her and asked a question.

"Youran, do you still love her?"

It was just this sentence that made Ruan Youran stunned. She thought...Master Huiguo would ask many questions about her mood, or directly enlighten her, just like others.

But, neither.

But she asked Ruan Youran something that Ruan Youran couldn't answer.

Master Huiguo waited for a while, and she looked at Ruan Youran with a slight smile: "People in the world are always entangled in love and hatred, but they don't know that everything will eventually return to the clouds. Life is just like a fleeting moment, and it will eventually turn into bones and dust. In this life, no matter how close a lover is, in the next life, they may just be strangers."

Ruan Youran felt as if her chest was blocked by something.

She and Chu Nian once knelt in front of the Buddha and swore that they would be together for life after life, and there was no doubt that they would love each other for life after life.

Master Huiguo looked into her eyes: "In this world, apart from life and death, everything is trivial. You can promise her life and death, why can't you forgive me? I can't give you the answer you want, but it's all in your heart .”

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When she left, Ruan Youran didn't know what mood she was in. When she returned home, only Chu Nian woke up. She was cooking, and when she heard the sound, she walked quickly to the door.

Eye to eye.

Ruan Youran looked at Chu Nian, and Chu Nian also looked at her.

At that moment, time stood still.

The two just looked at each other, neither of them said anything.

In the past, the young man's spirit was gone, and the eyes of the two were full of exhaustion, pain, and entanglement... Ruan Youran wanted to go back to the past in the vicissitudes of life, and she wanted to ask Chu Nian, if time never passed, let her make a new decision, would she Will you leave?

"Mom... drink water..."

In the next room, Zheng Zheng's milky voice interrupted their staring.

Ruan Youran turned her head and walked into the room. Chu Nian took a deep breath and restrained her emotions: "Here we come."

Today Ruan Qiu and Chu Qing had work and couldn't come, Chu Nian accompanied Zhengzheng to eat, Zhengzheng was very obedient, unlike children of the same age who needed to be fed, she ate spoonful by spoonful seriously.

When Chu Nian was tidying up the dishes absently, she was holding the bowl of porridge upright: "Mom, I dreamed that Mommy woke up last night, and she hugged me and kissed me. She kissed me sweetly. I am so happy." happy."

Chu Nian's body froze.

Zheng Zhi smiled, as if she was still immersed in that dream, she stopped talking, and walked towards Ruan Youran's room with her calf in her hand while holding the bowl.

She is used to going in with food every day.

I am also used to such silent company.

Today's weather is fine, and she was sitting on the ground next to Ruan Youran's bed. She lowered her head to build a toy for a while, and felt the sunlight coming in from the window. She looked up and looked in a good mood, and couldn't help humming a little song: "My baby, baby, I will give you a little sweetness, so that you can sleep well tonight... La la la la, my baby, when you are tired, someone will accompany you..."

This is the song that Chu Nian always held her in his arms and sang repeatedly when Zhengzheng was suffering from the pain of treatment and couldn't sleep at night. Now, although Zhengzheng sings it by herself, I think of yesterday's dream and think that she finally has two I am a mother, and I am happy.

The more you sing, the happier you are.

Standing upright, she moved to the head of the bed and tried to climb up on her little feet.

Lifting off Ruan Youran's quilt, she got straight into Ruan Youran's arms, looked at Ruan Youran who had her eyes closed tightly, and kissed her forehead with her pink cherry mouth.

Ruan Youran didn't move.

She didn't care about integrity, she was used to it, she still sang songs, but this time, she put her small arms around Ruan Youran and patted her: "My baby, baby, I'll give you a little sweetness!" , let you sleep well tonight..."

In the past three years, she and Chu Nian have lived together in this way.

There are many times when my mother is in so much pain that she weeps silently with a photo of her and Mommy.

Zhengzhi ran over to coax her like this.

At the beginning, although Zheng Zhi wanted to get close to Ruan Youran, but after all, the child was timid and she didn't dare. In the past few days, she stayed with Ruan Youran, and as she became more familiar with her, she became more and more relaxed.

Zheng Zheng smiled and sang repeatedly while clapping.

——My baby, baby, give you a little sweetness, so that you can sleep well tonight...

I do not know how long it has been.

Outside the window, a ray of warm sunlight fell on the quilt, and a line of tears slowly fell from the corner of Ruan Youran's eyes, and an arm stretched out from the mouth of the quilt.

Zhengzheng was stunned for a moment, she stared blankly at the hand, and soon, she was hugged into his arms.

Immediately afterwards, the sweet kiss in Zhengzhi's dream finally landed on her forehead.

...and all of a sudden...the dream came true.