On the wedding show before the divorce

——Don't move, it's not easy for Dahua.

——Don't make a sound, it will disturb them.

……

What Dahua and Susu have been tossing about these years, and how crazy they are, Ruan Youran, who once farted and wanted to share with Chu Nian, naturally knows.

She was thinking of others, but her heart was suffering.

I have loved someone for a long time.

The fragrance of her body, her soft hair, her body temperature...

All are fatal temptations.

Ruan Youran didn't move, and Chu Nian just pressed her down. At this moment, they could hear each other's heartbeat.

Chu Nian moved closer to Ruan Youran, Ruan Youran turned her head to the side, and lowered her voice: "Don't come here."

She doesn't want to be contaminated anymore.

After the short-term happiness, there should be endless sorrow and pain, and there will be a separation that will appear at an unknown time.

Ruan Youran was scared.

In the past, she was fearless, but this time, she was really afraid of being hurt.

Chu Nian's heart seemed to be gouged out with a knife, she didn't move, but obediently lay on Ruan Youran's body, and said softly, "I miss you, I miss you so much..."

Ruan Youran's body stiffened.

Once... She and Chu Nian did not separate once because of work, sometimes they separated for several months. When they met again, Ruan Youran couldn't help but kiss her in her arms: "Do you miss me?"

Chu Nian blushed and lowered her head. Ruan Youran was satisfied to see her like this. At night, she pestered Chu Nian, and only when she was on the verge of uncontrollable collapse would she gently say the word "think", Ruan Youran would Happy like a child, overwhelmed again.

But now, she took the initiative to express her miss.

Ruan Youran felt that her still closed heart seemed to be sprinkled with cool water, and there was no joy, but heartache instead.

Dahua and Susu have great stamina, one wave after another, and all kinds of unpleasant voices can't be covered up.

Chu Nian just looked at Ruan Youran, she was very close to her, so close that there was almost no gap.

It's torment...

It was really an unbearable torment.

People who love each other always hope to be close together, whether it is spiritual or physical.

Ruan Youran was like this in the past, even if she and Chu Nian quarreled and quarreled, a hearty intimacy can resolve everything.

but……

When Chu Nian came back to find her for the first time, the two had a so-called divorce.

At that time, they were all a little absent-minded, and Chu Nian didn't even take off his clothes.

Ruan Youran also couldn't find the feeling of being in love. At that time, she knew that many things had changed.

Sex without love is just sex.

I don't know how long it took, but the two people over there were finally willing to leave, and Dahua was still cursing: "You bitch, fuck!"

Susu seemed to be putting on clothes, she smiled and said, "Don't act like you are noble, if you really don't want to, how can I hold you down with such weak strength? Didn't you just agree?"

Dahua gritted her teeth: "You just want me, don't you?"

……

The words of the two were like fists in a certain sense, hitting Ruan Youran and Chu Nian's faces one by one.

until they leave.

Ruan Youran thought that with Chu Nian's personality, she would leave immediately, but she didn't...

Chu Nian just leaned against her, quietly smelling the familiar smell on her body, without moving.

There was no other way, Ruan Youran reached out to push her, and by the way raised her hand to turn on the lights.

In the past, when she met Chu Nian, she always wanted to turn off the lights and hide in the darkness, but now, such ambiguity made her want to see the light sooner.

There was an indescribable ambiguity in the air.

Chu Nian's eyes seemed to be tinged with fire, she stared at Ruan Youran.

Ruan Youran didn't meet her eyes, as if nothing had happened, she turned and went out.

A faint sigh lingered in the room, Chu Nian was silent for a long time, and she followed her back to the banquet.

Halfway through the banquet, everyone had already reached the stage of drinking and guessing, everyone drank in confusion, Ruan Youran didn't say anything, picked up the wine glass and downed a glass.

The ice-cold wine passed through her mouth with a spicy taste, and Ruan Youran felt better, at least she became sober after being stimulated.

As soon as Chu Nian came in, she saw this scene, her face changed, she didn't speak, just sat back on the seat, and looked at her slowly.

Except liquor.

Ruan Youran also drank some beer, and she got together with everyone, laughing and having fun, punching, coming and going, just like she used to be.

Dahua was sitting next to Ruan Youran, and at the moment she looked as if nothing had happened: "Nian Nian, what's wrong with you, it seems something is wrong."

Chu Nian didn't make a sound.

Susu next to her also nodded, and looked at Ruan Youran thoughtfully: "Yeah, smiling is uglier than crying."

Bystanders are clear.

This sentence made Chu Nian want to get drunk.

At the end of the commotion, the room smelled of cigarettes and alcohol. Everyone said goodbye in twos and threes. The squad leader was so drunk that he couldn’t stand still. He was thinking of taking taxis to send those drinking back home, or taking responsibility for those who didn’t drink. .

Ruan Youran had drunk enough to lie on the table, she was really drunk this time, completely indulged, her headache was severe, her chest was also uncomfortable, and dizziness surged up one after another.

Don't know how long.

A familiar body leaned over, and a slightly cool hand stroked her forehead lightly. She was lifted up and wanted to push her away, but she had no strength left.

Chu Nian supported Ruan Youran to go out, it was getting dark, she thought about it, and put the coat on Ruan Youran casually.

A classmate saw it and said with a smile beside him.

——Oh, Nian Nian, after all these years, your relationship is still so good.

……

Chu Nian didn't respond lightly, she could feel Youran's discomfort, and just wanted to take her home quickly.

Carefully supporting Ruan Youran, Chu Nian moved the back seat to make her lie at a comfortable angle.Ruan Youran was very uncomfortable. She wanted to vomit but couldn't.

When Da Hua came out to say goodbye, she hugged Chu Nian and whispered in her ear, "Be happy, Nian Nian."

She always felt that Chu Nian was unhappy, and Jianjian was also unhappy, and it was completely different from the previous quarrel and awkwardness. Maybe, something really happened to them.

Chu Nian patted her on the back lightly: "You should be fine too."

Got into the car.

Chu Nian looked at Ruan Youran in the back row from time to time, the atmosphere was a bit dull, she turned on the music casually.

——Do you know what it feels like to miss someone, it’s like drinking a glass of cold water, and then it takes a long, long time to shed tears one by one...

This is Ruan Youran's voice.

These years, when Chu Nian left, she was so sad that she missed her so much that she was going crazy. On the verge of collapse, she had no choice but to go to the recording studio to record some songs.

wait.

She just listened in the car, and she would cry when she listened alone.

Like a stubborn self-punishment.

Even so, she didn't want to get out of that vicious circle by herself.

It's been three years...

How many days and nights, and how many tears have precipitated.

One song is over.

Tears rolled down Chu Nian's cheeks, and when he turned around, Ruan Youran in the back seat also had tears all over his face.

After getting out of the car, she unexpectedly found that Suoya was waiting there. She came to look for Ruan Youran, and waited at the door when she knew she had gone out. Ruan Qiu wanted her to go in, but she didn't go in.

Seeing Ruan Youran getting drunk and being helped down by Chu Nian, Suoya walked over and looked at her worriedly: "Rousi, what's wrong, are you okay?"

This girl really likes Ruan Youran.

Chu Nian looked at Suoya, she really loves someone, her expression and eyes can't be deceiving.

The two helped Ruan Youran into the room together, and Ruan Qiu and Chu Qing came out to greet her, Ruan Qiu sighed softly: "Drinking again?"

Chu Qing turned around: "I'm going to get some hangover soup."

In the past, Ruan Youran was particularly annoying when she drank and smoked. In her opinion, it was just an irresponsible self-evasion and a cowardly behavior. A confident little beauty like her, who is full of love and everyone loves her, even if she is One day, great pain and sorrow will come out, not to mention that she has Chu Nian by her side, so she can hug and kiss her when she is sad.

But who would have thought.

She lived what she hated.

Lying on the bed, being tossed like this, Ruan Youran felt particularly uncomfortable in her chest.

Sawyer looked at her quietly from the side. Unlike the fierceness in the previous few meetings, she was also a lot haggard. Even standing aside and looking at Ruan Youran, her eyes were a little helpless and fragile.

Chu Nian took off the shoes for Ruan Youran, and she loosened the collar of her loose coat, and went to get a hot towel to wipe her face.

rub rub...

Ruan Youran cried, tears streaming down her face like a wronged child.

Sawyer bit her lip, she stopped talking, turned around and left quickly.

Before leaving, she closed the door behind her.

Ruan Qiu chased after a few steps: "Sawyer, don't you...don't stay for something to eat?"

Sawyer's voice was very low: "Auntie, I'm here to say goodbye. I'm going back to the United States the day after tomorrow. If Rousi wakes up, please tell her."

……

Hey.

Since ancient times, the word love hurts the most.

In the room, Chu Nian also wept. She touched Ruan Youran's hair lightly with her hand, and murmured: "I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I'm sorry..."

Countless "I'm sorry", once, those things that she couldn't say can finally be said.

Ruan Youran suddenly opened her eyes, her eyes were full of confusion and fragility, as well as a trace of resentment and unwillingness.

"You are back, why did you come back?"

The murmured whispers smelled of alcohol, maybe the current Ruan Youran could only speak out what was in his heart when he was drinking.

Chu Nian looked at her and wept silently.

Ruan Youran grabbed her hand and looked into her eyes: "Do you think I'm dead? Don't you?! What happened to you, what can't you tell me, leave alone, Chu Nian!!! I'm going crazy Do you know???? I searched all the places I could. I went to find Dahua. I wished I could kneel down for her. I just wanted to know where you went???? Life or death? It's fine if you give me a word, why did you leave me alone like this..."

She burst into tears, crying so wronged that she couldn't help herself, and her body was shaking.

The temple was so painful that Ruan Youran couldn't even see Chu Nian clearly.

"What did you promise me at the beginning??? You said, what is life and death??? Chu Nian, do you know that we are married, I am your wife, you are my wife, what happened to you What can't you tell me???? You know me all these years... I..."

too dizzy.

Ruan Youran had no choice but to put her hand on her forehead, and memories flooded her. She cried, "At first... I thought you had an accident. I had a dream, I dreamed that you were covered in blood, lying alone on the operating table, and you don’t want me anymore... I was so sad, so scared, I ran over and desperately wanted to grab your bed, but I couldn’t catch it at all Live...Chu Nian, after so many years, don't you know what my love for you is??? If you are really sick, there is really something unspeakable, just tell me, I can share life and death with you Spend...even a day...even a second, as long as you don't leave, we will be together..."

Tears fell on the pillow, Ruan Youran felt that her heart was about to be torn apart, "But you didn't, you left alone... I was afraid that I would be uneasy... I even wondered if I did something wrong Yes, so you are punishing me... But even if it is wrong, you have to tell me, I will correct it... Why don't you say anything? Why don't you say anything?! I would rather die with you than A person living like this is worse than death...do you know?...you don't know...you don't know..."

Sometimes alcohol can tear away the mask that a person has worn for a long time. At this moment, Ruan Youran was completely released. She lay on the bed alone and cried loudly. She was tired from crying, and all the strength in her body seemed to be drained. She was drowsy. fell asleep.

It's ridiculous to think about it.

How much can love make a person humble and miserable?

Ruan Youran never thought that she would have such a day. Since she was a child, she always thought that she was the proud child of heaven. She has an enviable family background, a mother who loves her, and an unforgettable memory. face, with countless friends and countless adoration...

However, everyone doesn't know.

What she wants most is always only one Chu Nian, but she still can't get it.

Chu Nian shrank to the side, she lowered her head, and tears fell to the ground: "Tomorrow...you wake up, and I will tell you everything."