eleven

During the whole holiday, Eleven seemed to be possessed by the god of sleep. No matter how many hours he slept at night, he was still sleepy during the day. Even if he woke up at 12 o’clock, he would be sleepy again around 3 o’clock in the afternoon. When he was not sleepy, he would go to the kitchen to cook Eat something, and spend the rest of the time playing the guitar. The first string was broken and he couldn't play it. When he reached the high note, he pressed the fingerboard and plucked in the air, playing one song after another, but he didn't sing.

After taking leave, he went to and from get off work regularly every day, and the situation eased a little. He no longer felt drowsy every day, but he was a little mentally unwell. Fortunately, his work was not affected, and he was sent on a business trip again in the second week.This time I flew farther and went to the east, which is a city near the sea. The branch there is newly established, but the market is very wide, and a lot of projects have been taken over. A few years ago, the company had already sent a group of people to stay permanently. , Eleven is just going to help this time.

I have been busy for a whole week, and I also worked overtime collectively until 9:[-] on Friday, but the progress is good, and there are finally some beautiful things to fill in the work log.The project was promoted smoothly and everyone was in a good mood. After overtime work, the project supervisor took the lead to have a routine dinner, which was also regarded as a send-off on the [-]th.

Because the return ticket for the eleventh day was on Saturday night, everyone ate a barbecue to their heart's content, and it didn't end until around 1 o'clock in the morning.Unlike in Shuangcheng, the colleagues here do not have the habit of drinking, and a group of people spent more than 3 hours purely on food.Of course, Eleven was also full of food. After returning to the hotel and taking a shower, he changed his clothes and went out, taking a walk along the road to digest his food.But it was winter after all, and at his speed, the food was not digested for a while, and his hands and feet were cold, so he stamped his feet on the spot twice, retracted his hands into his sleeves and started trotting with his arms swinging. The blood flow speed up in just 10 minutes , and finally regained control of his fingers, he grabbed the air and moved the next ten fingers, and ran for another 10 minutes until his head was steaming before stopping. When it was late, I was ready to go home.

Not long after walking back, I ran into a young couple. I saw him running forward as if seeing a savior, and asked if I could borrow my mobile phone to look at the map. Maybe I was a little wary of watching Eleven, and the girl was busy. They explained that they wanted to go to the beach to watch the sunrise, but because it was a temporary idea, the girl didn’t charge her phone before leaving the hotel, and the boy simply forgot to bring it out, so there was still a distance to walk after getting out of the car , but halfway through the navigation, the phone turned off automatically, and said that they were definitely not liars. In order to convince Eleven that the girl was ready to take out her ID card, Eleven saw that they looked like they had just entered college, and their faces were still With childishness, she stopped her, took out her mobile phone, called out the map and handed it to them. The girl subconsciously wanted to use her mobile phone to take a picture of the map. When the button turned off, she reacted and took a picture of her own head. Eleven laughed, knowing that the girl definitely didn't know the way, and went to see her boyfriend, but the boyfriend was even more confused, so he realized that these two were probably Ma Daha, who couldn't remember the map .

Eleven looked up at the sky. There were one or two stars, like blinking dolls. On a sudden whim, he took his phone back and told two people that he also wanted to see the sunrise, and that the three of them could go together.The couple's excitement was immediately palpable, and they agreed happily. On the way, they also took the initiative to introduce the so-called unfamous couple's sanctuary to Eleven, saying that it was originally an ordinary public beach because the location was very suitable for watching the sunrise. Big enough, it was changed into a tourist attraction in June, because the main purpose is to promote the city, so the ticket is only a symbolic charge of 6 yuan, which means that it is a pair, and a small wooden house is built in the venue. It was prepared for people who came to wait for the sunrise in the middle of the night in winter, for fear of freezing them, but the room is not big, so you can only get a seat if you go early, or you have to bring your own tent, the girl said proudly They searched the strategy for a long time before they found this place. Not many people know about it, so it will definitely not become a sea of ​​people. They will definitely be able to enter the cabin at this point.

Halfway through, Eleven remembered that there was a big brother walking in front of him before he passed by, so he asked the young couple why they didn't look for that person.In the end, the boy felt embarrassed and said that the eldest brother was too fierce, so they didn't dare to ask.Eleven laughed, he only saw the back of his eldest brother, he didn't know what he looked like in front of him, after laughing, he realized that he hadn't laughed like this for a long time, he felt very relaxed, and suddenly felt that he had done a good job today .

When they arrived at the place, they found that there was no person on night shift at the gate. The attractions were set up in line with the habits of young people. They could enter directly by scanning the QR code at the entrance. After lamenting the advanced and boldness of this approach on Eleven, they realized that the young couple His phone was dead, so he scanned it three times.After entering, the girl wanted to give him money, but Eleven didn't want it, and said that it would be auspicious to put a 6 on it. The girl and his boyfriend looked at each other, and finally turned over two fruit candies in the bag for Eleven.Eleven didn’t refuse, so I ate one after peeling it off. It had a sweet and sour taste, and said to the two with a smile, I wish you happiness. Both of them laughed embarrassedly. The girl had a sweet mouth, and said thank you , Said that your girlfriend must like you very much.Eleven shook his head, smiled without saying a word, thinking that it's nice to be young, and suddenly realized that the envy he didn't have for Long Whale before turned out to be a stranger.

He pointed to the room in front of him and asked if they were going there. The girl turned her head to look, and when she saw it, she gave a small cheer and went to the front to lead the way. Under the feet, the light of the flashlight appeared very faint in the dark night, and the footsteps of the three people had a sense of presence, and the sound of waves coming from a distance unexpectedly had a special meaning.

The setting of the wooden house is also very distinctive. There are about ten old-fashioned reclining chairs with cushions next to each other. When they entered, there were already 4 people inside. They put the four chairs together, and each of them closed their eyes. Rest, it should be two couples I know. When they heard the sound of the door opening, they opened their eyes and closed them again. Eleven and the young couple nodded and found a chair to lie down.

After walking such a long distance, Eleven was also sleepy. Before falling asleep, he thought vaguely that this was the first time he was sleepy so late in this period of time. According to the previous situation, he should be going to bed in the middle of overtime work. It was right to die, maybe it was because he arrived in a strange city, maybe it was because he was concentrating on the project, he was in good condition this whole week, but today he was exceptionally normal, and he was still in such a place.

Eleven was woken up by shaking. When he opened his eyes, he still couldn't react, but the pain in his neck woke him up immediately. The reclining chair is not a bed after all, and his spine will still feel uncomfortable after sleeping like this for hours.Eleven held his neck and moved it slightly, and heard the girl telling him that the sun was about to rise.Eleven covered his mouth and yawned, took out another candy, peeled off the candy wrapper and put it in his mouth, and followed them out. His taste buds were stimulated, and his drowsiness dissipated a lot. When he went out, he was blown by the cold wind outside , almost all the sleepy bugs ran away.Several couples were holding hands to find a suitable place. Eleven put his coat and hat on his head and found a seat to sit down, put his hands in his pockets, listened to the sound of waves crashing on the shore in the distance, and waited quietly. The rising of the sun.

When the first ray of light appeared on the distant horizon, Eleven's heart suddenly jumped up, as if infected by the vitality of life, beating powerfully.He found that he hadn't been affected by the natural landscape like this for many years. When the sun jumped out of the sea, the couples next to him were cheering softly. Eleven turned his head to look at their With a smile on his face, his heart suddenly became calm like water.It’s okay to say it’s a sudden enlightenment, but he suddenly understood that his poor state during this period was probably due to his disillusionment, maybe his feelings for Yu Xun were just an illusion built on the fate seven years ago, and Yu Xun probably forgot his heart on the person who left him with scars, but they are all trying to convince themselves that people can live in the present.The difference is that Yu Xun can still look forward to that person's return, and he will never have the chance to rewrite the night seven years ago.

As the sun shines wider and wider, the sea surface is gradually illuminated. Eleven squinted at the sparkling waves on the sea surface, and a short animation that I saw a long time ago called "Good Morning" appeared in my mind. It was about a girl. Although the process from the alarm clock ringing to waking up completely lasted only a short one minute, Eleven was very impressed by it, and now he knows why, the separated image is like himself, the difference from the film is that , he's not waking up or getting up, he's leaving another self in the past, turning himself in two, abandoned in the past eleven and never growing up since then, the other That is to say, the current Eleven has been desperately moving forward, trying to get rid of the non-existent pursuers. The two selves are getting more and more separated, and the feeling of tearing is becoming more and more obvious. Although he has been hypnotizing himself, he has not given up. What happened, but in the dream, I always met that little eleven who was crying again and again.Meeting Yu Xun was probably the first time he felt overlapping, so maybe what he was obsessed with was not Yu Xun's vague help to him, but the feeling of owning himself completely.

The rising sun has magical powers and brought him great peace. He knows that everyone has a time when someone leaves, and perhaps it is destined that there are more such times in his life. He should not pin his hopes on others. His own self should be brought back by himself.

While the lovers were still immersed in the emotion of the sunrise, Eleven quietly got up and left. Although he had only slept for a few hours, his mind was clearer than ever before, his body was not heavy at all, and he even felt a little light. Then he walked along the road for several bus stops before taking a taxi back to the hotel. He fell asleep until 12 o'clock. After waking up, his muscles were a little sore, but he felt a sense of solidity that he hadn't felt in a long time. The peace in his heart completely overwhelmed his body Discomfort suppressed.After checking out, he left his luggage at the front desk of the hotel, searched a top-ranked restaurant with his mobile phone, had a "one-person" lunch, and walked around again, buying some small things and food for Changjing and The supervisor took them back, and when it was almost time, they went back to the hotel to pick up their luggage and went straight to the airport.

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Things in the world are like this, incalculable and elusive.When he saw the caller ID, Eleven had a very strange feeling. He didn't expect Yu Xun to call him again, and he invited him to dinner, and the strange feeling became even stronger when he hung up the phone.

At 7 o'clock in the evening, Tian Po Thai restaurant.

Eleven stepped on the click again, this time he didn't see Yu Xun's back, just passed the screen at the door, he saw Yu Xun waving to him on his seat, exactly the same as in that short month, ten He was a little dazed at first, he collected himself, walked over and said hello to Yu Xun: "Long time no see."

Yu Xun smiled: "Sit down first."

Eleven pulled out a chair and sat opposite him, glanced at the patterned tablecloth before speaking again: "To be honest, I didn't expect that."

Yu Xun knew what he said, and a little apology appeared on his face: "Eleven."

Eleven shook his head: "I was really just surprised, nothing else."

Yu Xun suddenly sat up a little bit, and called his name again: "Eleven."

Eleven also looked directly into his eyes, and when Yu Xun said on the phone that the time and place had been set, he guessed that Yu Xun must have something to say, and he had to admit that he was curious.

Yu Xun picked up a small bag from the chair beside him and handed it over: "This is the string I promised you to buy."

Eleven didn't reach out his hand, a little puzzled, not understanding what Yu Xun wanted to do.

Seeing that he didn't pick it up, Yu Xun put the bag on his right hand and pondered for a while: "Maybe you don't want to hear it, but I still want to say something first, I'm sorry."

eleven:"……"

Yu Xun suddenly started to tell a story: "I met someone when I was 28 years old." At this point, his Adam's apple twitched before he continued, "He is my first love. We have been together for nearly ten years. Time, he broke up with me in the tenth year... It's a very common story... He, married."

Eleven listened quietly, without interrupting him, but silently calculated in his heart, Yu Xun is 35 years old this year, if he is 18 years old, then he has known his first love for half the time.

"My behavior is also very common, which is what you can expect, which is more annoying... If I have to say, I exhausted all my enthusiasm in the first ten years with him. Another year exhausted all my attachments..."

Yu Xun didn't mention any details. He described his life for more than ten years in just a few words. Eleven knew that this was the misfortune of their entire group. People who encountered this kind of thing said that five or six times out of ten may be rare. It's just that he didn't understand why Yu Xun wanted to tell him this. After all, he couldn't be explaining to him the reason why he couldn't fall in love with him. Yu Xun would be such a jerk.

"You are so smart, you probably guessed it. He came to me years ago... He said that he felt that he was bound by his family and lost himself. At that time, he was very depressed and even said that he wanted a divorce. talk."

Eleven didn't want to hear it anymore. He didn't need to listen to other people's love stories. He was even a little angry when he heard about other people's prodigal son turning back. He didn't know what Yu Xun meant.Fortunately, the waiter brought the pot at this time, and the seafood platter and vegetables were also put on the table. Thinking that Yu Xun had specially chosen his favorite Thai-style hot pot, Eleven calmed down a little.

The waiter has been standing by the side waiting for the food to be served, Yu Xun raised his eyes and told them to go first, he can handle it by himself, the waiter bowed and left, the topic was interrupted, and for a moment he didn't know how to continue, looked at Yu Xun on Eleven With a glance, he handed him a sauce dish: "And then."

"Thank you," Yu Xun took it and put it aside, looked at Eleven with a smile, then held back, "Then I repeated it again, and took him to a town I've been to before, during the Spring Festival."

Eleven lowered his eyelids and smiled slightly, thinking of his shameful Spring Festival.

Yu Xun was silent for a while before speaking again, his voice became a little lower: "But after staying there for so many days, I discovered one thing...it doesn't take effort to love someone you really love. When you try hard to love someone, it means you don't love him."

Eleven's hands trembled a little, he knew he was really angry: "Did you call me out just to tell me this?"

Yu Xun didn't understand where Eleven's anger came from: "Huh?"

Eleven turned his head to the side and calmed down for a moment: "I thought you were not such a person."

Yu Xun didn't understand the situation: "Eleven?" Immediately realizing that Eleven might have misunderstood, he pulled Eleven's arm, "I mean, I found that time has really passed for a long, long time, and he Together I need to think before I can act... I can never love him like I used to."

Eleven was stunned for a moment, and when he realized it, his face was embarrassed: "...I'm sorry."

Yu Xun called him, knowing that Eleven raised his head and looked at him: "Eleven, I'm the one who should say I'm sorry, I just want to tell you all this... I always feel that I owe you an explanation, and I always hope for a formal I apologize to you, sorry."

Eleven was stunned, and didn't know how to react for a moment. He had clearly thought through when he saw the sunrise at the beach, but now his mind was still in a mess. He froze for a long time, until a burst of Sting: "Hiss!"

"Are you okay?" It turned out that the pot boiled, and the soup splashed out, and Yu Xun finally realized it, and hurriedly brought the plate over and put the seafood in it little by little.

Seeing his rolled up cuffs and slender fingers holding chopsticks, Eleven suddenly became clear. When Yu Xun put down the plate, he adjusted his tone, trying to speak more relaxedly: "Then let me ask this time."

Yu Xun: "?"

Eleven cleared his throat: "...Would you like to try it with me?"

Yu Xun obviously didn't expect it, with a look of astonishment on his face: "I thought," he scratched the back of his neck before he could make the sentence clear, "I thought we would just be ordinary friends."

Eleven looked at him and asked, "Then are you willing?"

Yu Xun looked into his eyes for a while, then nodded: "Of course."

Eleven pursed his lips and lowered his head to laugh. He finally knew what that strange feeling was when he answered the phone, it was a turning point.