eleven

Seven years ago, just after my 7th birthday, I moved with my mother to live in my father's house. Originally, my father's wife had died in the first year, but my father had to wait a year to get a good reputation. I got the certificate with my mother, and at the same time, in order not to let others gossip, I declared that I must treat Eleven as my own son. Eleven has changed from an illegitimate child to an adopted son, but that makes no difference to him, anyway, he is nothing special to his biological father Since he was a child, every time he came here, he just had a meal with them. What he knew about his father was that the sentence "Being good will please father" was said by his mother, and he translated it himself. After a while, he understood that Cheng Qin's father was the benefactor who "will not cry if he behaves well as his own mother", so he didn't care about his status in the Qi family at all.

But some people care, Qi Yang is 10 years older than Eleven, so Qi Yang should have known about it when his father started looking for his mother. He probably blamed his mother and Eleven for Mrs. Qi's death, so When they moved in, he didn't show up at all. He only came back after the first month because of a business trip. He gave gifts to his mother and Shiyi when they met for the first time, and bought a coat without a label for his mother. The handmade jacket is very expensive because the designer doesn’t often take orders. I hope she will keep it safe. I bought a guitar song album with a new inner core for Eleven. My mother happily accepted the gift. Once at a party with the ladies, she was humiliated. When someone asked her what she was wearing, she read to them the name Qi Yang made up, and the ladies all laughed and said they had never heard such a thing. The name, and which designer would use this kind of fabric to make clothes? The wives are all formal wives. I am very happy to see a high-ranking fake wife like my real mother make a fool of herself.

My mother made a fool of herself, knowing that she had been tricked, she cried to her father when she got home, and her father's method of consolation was the same as before, giving her money on the card and letting her go abroad to buy as much as she liked.He was a little luckier than his own mother. He was the only one in the room when he put the dishes. When two overlapping men appeared in the picture, he knocked over the teacup on the desk and left the tea all over the keyboard. From then on, Eleven knew that Qi Yang was not easy to mess with.

But the tree wants to be quiet but the wind keeps on. He never took the initiative to provoke Qi Yang, and even avoided him as much as possible. The day like a nightmare still came.During the Spring Festival, my father originally planned to go abroad with the whole family to celebrate the New Year, but Qi Yang said very calmly that it was enough for the couple to enjoy the long-lost world of two. Parents are gratified—the eldest son has finally matured, and ecstatic—the stepson is finally willing to let Shi Yi get into business.Eleven has no objection, and he didn't have much interest at first. In previous years, his mother played cards and went shopping as usual. Most of the time, he stayed by himself or went to Chang Jing's house, so Qi Yang pulled him to show his It doesn't matter, anyway, the parents are so happy because they like "a harmonious family" and lost their judgment. He knows very well that Qi Yang's words are all lies. At noon on the 27th, Qi Yang went out after kissing his parents. On November [-], he called Changjing and made an appointment to go to his house the next day. In the afternoon, he went shopping outside to buy them New Year’s gifts. In the evening, he simply collected After unloading his luggage, he went to sleep very early. He didn’t close the doors and windows because all the houses here were underfloor heating, so he didn’t wake up until Qi Yang was on top of him. He suddenly woke up from the dream of being buried by a landslide. When he woke up, his heart rate was very high. He looked at the shadow in front of him in the dark and couldn't speak for a long time. When he finally could speak, Qi Yang had already started to tear his clothes. He didn't know what he wanted to do at first, and it was the first time Called his elder brother, asked him if he was drinking too much and admitted the wrong person, let him be more sober, unexpectedly, Qi Yang sneered, raised his head and grabbed his hair and said, "Why didn't your mother teach you the skills of seducing people?" The strong smell of wine was different, his eyes were fierce, and in an instant, the cold from the top of his head to the soles of his feet, his brain went blank.

The next day Eleven woke up in his own bed, with a needle buried in his right hand, his whole body looked like he had been run over by a car, and his head felt like two big pendulums were smashing back and forth, although his memory was blurred , but the unbearable pain reminded him that what happened the night before was not a nightmare, it was all real.The liquid flowed into the body little by little along the transparent thin tube, and he began to tremble uncontrollably, and chaotic thoughts and pictures appeared in his mind, but Qi Yang looked at him viciously and said that it was all The words he deserved, he opened his mouth wide and closed his eyes, he thought he was shouting, but in fact he didn't make any sound, teardrops slipped down from the corners of his eyes, in the shape of despair.

He tried to cover his ears, but couldn't move.

There may be a nanny to deliver the meal on the way, but he is so burned that he doesn’t know whether it is real or a hallucination, because he remembers that the nanny went back to his hometown the day before yesterday, and occasionally he opened his eyes to see the dinner plate next to the bed.Eleven fell asleep intermittently until night. He was awakened by the sound of the engine. The knowledge that Qi Yang was back made him wake up immediately. He got up from the bed without knowing where the strength came from, and quickly pulled out the needle in his hand. , walked around the room twice in his slippers, gritted his teeth, opened the window, jumped down, and ran along the path to the street at the back door of the community. At that time, Eleven had only one thought in his mind, he wanted to run, run The farther the better.

After running for two streets, Eleven was exhausted. He knelt under the street lamp and gasped for breath. He realized that he was only wearing pajamas. One was missing, and there were two clotted blood stains on the back of his hand where the needle was pulled out. It might be the reason why he was running, and the blood clotted into a strange shape.Eleven was too cold, he wanted to stand up and go to the supermarket to call Changjing, this was the only way he could think of at the moment, but running had exhausted all his strength, he couldn't stand up at all, his head hurt Severe pain.When he heard the sound of brakes and footsteps, he trembled like a sieve, thinking it was Qi Yang. He didn't dare to look up until a completely different sound came from above his head, and he didn't hear what the other party said clearly.

Are you ok?

The simple four words made Eleven's whole body limp. When he was about to fall, he was helped by the man. He also heard a hiss of pain. When the man helped him to sit in the car He just saw that the person's right little finger was also bleeding, which happened to be parallel to a shallow scar next to it. He looked back at the street lamp, and he didn't know who wrapped a piece of wire around the lamppost. This person might have been scratched. When he arrived, Eleven raised his right hand inexplicably, stared at the coagulated blood for a while, fell back on the backrest and closed his eyes, the car was very warm, and he was drowsy.

Before he passed out completely, Eleven heard some low voices, thinking maybe that person was talking to him, but he just remembered to repeat a sentence, I am not going to the hospital.

It was the morning of the 29th when Eleven woke up from his stupor again. He found himself in the hotel, still wearing the tattered clothes from before. The man with the scar on his hand had disappeared. He was in a trance for a long time and only thought of one thing. Call Long Whale.

Although Changjing felt baffled, he came to the hotel to pick him up as he said. When he opened the door, he looked at Eleven and Changjing was stunned for a long time. When he came to his senses, he pushed Eleven to the bed and sat down to ask him. What’s the matter, Eleven told Chang Jing intermittently, the more Chang Jing listened, his eyes widened, and finally asked him with tears in his eyes if he wanted to call the police or find his mother, but Eleven stopped him, begging him not to tell anyone, He was afraid, but he was afraid that he couldn't say anything, just afraid.Long Whale might also be frightened, and after promising him, he hugged him and cried. After crying for eleven, Long Whale finally dared to cry. Tears flowed down like a creek, as if he hoped to use his tears to wash away the fear and helplessness of that night. Like despair all washed away.

Chang Jing went outside to buy clothes and medicine for him, and brought him home with him, because the wound was not exposed outside, Chang Jing's mother thought Shi Shi had a simple fever, and asked him to go to Chang Jing's room to have a good time. After rest, I went to the kitchen to make porridge and soup by myself.At night, Long Whale came to help him apply the medicine bit by bit.Later, Eleven occasionally thought that he and Changjing had such a good relationship but they couldn't call each other, maybe it was because of the overly frank statement at that time, but he didn't regret it at all. In his heart, Changjing would always be his brother, forever.

He spent the entire Spring Festival at Changjing's house, and he left when he had to go back to Qi's house. Changjing overprotectively accompanied him to the door before going back. He turned around precisely when he reached the door, and didn't go in as if he was angry. Greeting to anyone inside, he looked at the back of the long whale and felt a little bit of strength in his body.

Eleven didn’t know how his own father and mother knew about this, but soon after he came back, he found that Qi Yang had disappeared. Later, when he listened to their chats, he learned that Qi Yang had been sent to a branch in Southeast Asia for a year and a half He couldn't come back, and the attitude of his parents towards him became intriguing, as if he suddenly realized that he was his own, but Eleven didn't feel any comfort or happiness. The meaning conveyed by such an "friendly" attitude There is only one, and I will not mention it.

In the third year of high school, Eleven made a boyfriend. Maybe it was a peaceful life after two years, or maybe it was the illusion that love created for him, making him think that the pain was over and he could move forward and live a new life until During the summer vacation, he and his boyfriend came out after watching a movie and met Qi Yang who was standing at the door with his arms folded and smiling at him, only to realize that the terrifying shadow had never been far away, it was just a good disguise.

As he expected, Qi Yang announced his sexual orientation to his parents. Eleven thought that Qi Yang knew about his sexual orientation two years ago before deliberately treating him like that, and wondered if he had never been "reported" Qi Yang's strategy to threaten himself at any time, only then did he realize that including the CD he gave him when they met for the first time, it was just Qi Yang's perverted habit. endure for so long.

Of course, the parents were mad with anger. After a few days of stalemate, they told Eleven bluntly that if they couldn't change it, they would sever ties with him.What did my mother think about Eleven? I can guess a little bit. Money, status, and inheritance are nothing more than a combination of these words. It’s just that my father’s reaction made him feel very strange. The perverted things that Qi Yang has done in the past two years He has also seen a lot, and he has also seen how his own father is going around, how he can bear Qi Yang's perverted play, and he doesn't care if his younger brother is attacked, but he just made a boyfriend and the situation escalated up.Later he found out that the dead wife had been sick for so many years, and his father didn't know where his love roots had been planted. He thought it was the reason why he found a mistress, and he had always felt guilty for the dead wife, so Qi Yang The pervert likes to turn a blind eye and turn a blind eye. Being assigned was the first time his father did not tolerate him. Qi Yang probably knew where the border was at that time. Before going to Southeast Asia, he promised his father that he would play less in the future. Said that in a few years, he would get married and have a son in peace, his father was overjoyed, thinking that the eldest son had finally returned to the right path.And Eleven didn't understand his thoughts at all, and he came out straight out of the closet when he was exposed. The nature was different, and of course his father couldn't bear it. Perhaps in their eyes, the succession of the family and face were more important than anything else, and Eleven just happened. If he committed both, he still refused to give in, and even touched his own father's rebellious scales.

Of course, they became strangers in the end because of Eleven’s never-cooperative attitude. After being cut off from their living expenses for a semester as a threat in the freshman year, Eleven rejected all the olive branches they offered after that, and made it clear every time they refused. His own attitude of being together to the end, after Qi Yang got married, his father gradually stopped caring about him, saying that he had never given birth to this son, and he didn't feel too sad when he heard his mother repeat this sentence on Shishi.He was just an "adopted son" in the first place, and it didn't make any difference whether he was born or not.And his mother told him this sentence was nothing more than to persuade him to "be good".Denying a person's existing status, refusing to admit the fact that he exists as a homosexual, how different the attitudes of the mother and father can be.