eleven

The first time Yu Xun met Eleven was at Dianxian Bar, where he was a frequent visitor.Since breaking up with Bai Xiao, he has become more and more loose in his private life. He often flirts with him when he finds it pleasing to the eye, and takes him away when he flirts with him. At that time, he just fell in love with the lead singer in the bar band. He had been chasing after him for a week that day, and when he was confident, he went up to confess his love with a rose. As a result, he just kissed the other side when he saw Eleven sitting on the stage and starting to play the guitar. From his perspective, he could only see Eleven's side face, but just like that, he already knew how this look tasted to him.They were all playing here. He thought that Eleven must understand the rules. Before taking the lead singer away, he went to the bar for a walk. Sure enough, the bartender handed him a coaster with his name and phone number on it. When he saw the name Eleven At the time, he thought that this was an old hand who didn't leave his real name, and he couldn't help feeling relieved that it was easy for everyone to deal with old hands.

On the second day, Eleven was really relaxed on the bed, but when he finally went to kiss the scar on his right hand, Yu Xun became indifferent again. Although the matter between him and Bai Xiao had passed for a long time, if someone interested in asking It is also possible to know some news. There were some young children before. I don’t know where I heard some exaggerated love stories. They started to point out his life under the banner of saving his fallen heart. He is already tired of it. Such people.He thought that Eleven was the same as those people, so his interest suddenly faded, and he thought to himself that there would be no second time.

Bai Xiao is his first love, and he has been chasing him from straight to the corner. From the age of 28, they have known each other for ten years, and they have been together for nine years. Their relationship has always been stable. Ten cows can't pull back things or decisions. At the beginning, he also suffered so much to chase him, so he also naively thought that according to Bai Xiao's character, as long as he decides to be with him, he will be with him for the rest of his life. won't leave him.However, no matter how distinct their personalities are, they can’t resist the social disapproval. When they reach a certain age, groups like them are bound to be pressured from all sides. 28 years old is considered a threshold, and his parents have long accepted his sexual orientation. But Bai Xiao is different. Both parents of the Bai family are teachers. One teaches elementary school and the other teaches junior high school. I developed it, and after graduating from university, I also took the civil service examination according to the arrangement of my family.A few years ago, Bai Xiao could use the excuse of work to procrastinate, but once he passed the hurdle of 28, his parents became strong for some reason, blind date photos and dating phone calls came like snowflakes , for Bai Xiao, apart from following the requirements of his parents, the only way to solve this problem is to come out. Bai Xiao is destined to be unable to hold on. When he broke up, Yu Xun even cried and begged him not to, but there was still no way , Bai Xiao did not dare to disobey his parents, and finally gave in.

Yu Xun just watched him go on blind dates, date, and get married. In the first year, he couldn't bear it at all, and he didn't miss every opportunity to find Bai Xiao. At the beginning, there was pain and struggle in Bai Xiao's eyes, and his whole body He was so thin that he was out of shape, Yu Xun felt sorry for him, and no longer forced him to make a choice, just let him meet him often, he planned to live like this for the rest of his life.But everything began to change after the child was born. Gradually, Bai Xiao would refuse his request for a meeting, or agree and fly away, and later, he simply refused to answer Yu Xun's phone call.After Yu Xun bombarded him with phone calls and text messages, he directly asked Yu Xun out and talked a lot, starting with his childhood ideals and talking about his future life plans. This child, he has already felt sorry for the child's mother, and he doesn't want to ruin a child's life, so he has made up his mind not to associate with Yu Xun anymore, and told Yu Xun not to come to him again.

Yu Xun was very wronged, he hated Bai Xiao's character in this matter, could he be the one who can be let down.Although Bai Xiao's eyes were full of determination, he still disagreed. He didn't believe that a ten-year relationship could be so easily said no. When he was going to find Bai Xiao's parents, Bai Xiao was ruthless. He snatched Yu Xun's wine bottle and wanted to smash his own head, saying that he was the one who was sorry for Yu Xun in this life, and he was willing to taste it with his life, but Yu Xun would never You can go to his parents, wife and daughter. Yu Xun was frightened stupid, but his first reaction was to immediately reach out to block it. The scar on the back of his hand was left at that time.

Since then, he never went to see Bai Xiao again, and he didn't even inquire about the news. After closing himself for a long time, he became what the game life is like today. At the beginning, he really wanted to revenge Bai Xiao. Laughter made him feel guilty and distressed, but after a long time, he also gave up after finding that Bai Xiao was unmoved, but he didn't change this casual habit, but it was no longer for tossing, he was just tired of feelings , I don’t want to do such a tiring thing anymore, it’s very dangerous to devote all my heart to a relationship and one person, and there’s nothing wrong with taking it easy.

The second time I met Eleven was not a special day, he just passed a KFC on his way from get off work.In the past, Bai Xiao's family was strictly controlled, and he was never allowed to eat these junk foods. It is said that the more you suppress, the more you will rebound. Instead, Bai Xiao developed a complex for fried food. I still take him to eat once or twice on his birthday.And he really just glanced at it that day, and saw Bai Xiao and his wife and daughter sitting by the window happily eating chicken legs. He could see that the smile on Bai Xiao's face was real, he could tell , After all, they have been together for ten years.And looking at that scene of happiness, Yu Xun knew that no matter how precious ten years were, he would not be able to exchange them for a marriage certificate, nor would he be able to give birth to a child for Bai Xiao.

It was also at that time that he suddenly realized that he was the one who had been having a bad life all this time. All he had done was self-torture, and Bai Xiao had already come out.He parked the car opposite and watched the three of them leave after eating and started smoking in the car.When Eleven knocked on the window, he couldn't remember who it was for a moment. After Eleven introduced himself again, he suddenly felt that the number Eleven was ironic. A real person came.At that time, I just thought it didn't matter. Anyway, he couldn't change it. It would be better to continue to rot. Since Eleven offered to send it to his door, why did he bother to refuse.

After Eleven cried, he became uninterested and even a little irritable, and his words were sharp and piercing, so Eleven was kicked out of the car by him.When he saw Eleven's thin back and standing alone at the intersection to take a taxi, he suddenly remembered the 18-year-old when he saw him for the first time with a white smile, carrying a khaki schoolbag tremblingly waiting for the bus under the street light, While trembling, he didn't forget to recite the words brokenly, far away from the crowd. He was probably attracted by his tall stature and lonely appearance, so he slowly approached and finally moved his heart.

No wonder all the young people want to save him. He is really getting worse and worse as he lives, and even loses his basic demeanor. There is sudden love, but there is no sudden disappearance, it is all consumed.

It was he himself who changed Bai Xiao from loving him to not loving him. He shouldn't blame others, so he still put out the cigarette and sent him back to Eleven.

It was half right to say that he "didn't find a partner" on Christmas Day. Although he had restrained himself a lot during that time, his previous "bad habits" were hard to get back. At Christmas, he saw a group talking about casual activities and wanted to come. Take a look, but not with the clear purpose of the past, he only intends to drink a glass of casual special Christmas wine.

In the end, I saw Eleven, and the special Christmas wine was extremely popular, and he got the second glass of wine early because he paid an extra tip to the bartender and jumped in line.

Maybe it was just chatting with a friend. At that time, Eleven seemed very relaxed, and the way he spoke made him realize that his impression of Eleven seemed wrong. Eleven was not a veteran, nor did he listen to the "love story" The novice who came to rescue him, but he couldn't understand what made Eleven's eyes look so sincere, and the words he said were very convincing.

Eleven was still very enthusiastic that night. After the end, he saw Eleven putting his hands on his belly to look at the moon in the sky. It has a sacred meaning.Maybe he was tired of playing in the world and wanted to use this as a breakthrough to change, maybe as Eleven said, it was all the fault of the moon.Anyway, he opened his mouth and asked Eleven if he would like to try it with him. In fact, he was also asking himself, Yu Xun, would you like to give it a try.

He is very glad that he chose Eleven as the beginning of the change. Eleven is really good. He can feel the relaxation from the inside out after every meeting. Maybe it is because of the complete release of the body. For his enthusiasm and nostalgia, the heart will of course relax in an environment surrounded by love but not oppressive.He thought he liked eleven. If he really got ten points, at least four points would be given to eleven.But he is no longer a young man in his early twenties. It is very difficult for him to give his best and devote himself like before. Besides, he is also afraid. The so-called powerlessness probably means this. More, May take time to complete.It's just that he can't say such things in front of Eleven, and he can tell after getting along for a long time that under Eleven's calm appearance is a soul that is prone to nervousness and fear. The more frank he is, the more trembling he is, as if a A hair can be crushed to death, so he said that he is not a big villain, at least the villain can afford it.

When he asked Eleven what gift he wanted, he really wanted to treat Eleven better. Giving gifts is a good way to get closer, and it is also a hint to himself that he is working hard and a new life can start .After he promised to give the guitar strings, he kept it in his heart, and he planned to find a friend who knew musical instruments to inquire about it.

It's just that things in the world will never change according to people's hearts, so he thought that what he needs most between Shi Shi and him is time, and the time was taken away. From the next day, a big order in the company suddenly went wrong. At the end of the year, if something goes wrong, no one will have a good year. He basically accompanied his subordinates to run between the client company's manufacturers. When Bai Xiao came to him, he was very busy.But maybe he was driven by something, but he still made time to chat with Bai Xiao, relax, and comfort him. When Bai Xiao said that he felt that his family had become a burden and wanted to escape, he could not deny the excitement in his heart and joy, but what followed was guilt and apology for Eleven. Eleven did nothing wrong from the beginning to the end. His decision to treat Eleven well is not fake. Although the affection he gave was only 4 The score is also a sincere 4 points.Maybe it was because Bai Xiao had been in his heart for too long, and finally he chose to break up with Eleven.

After the company's affairs were settled smoothly, he left Ercheng with a white smile during the Spring Festival, and ran to a small town in the southwest. Bai Xiao saw that Gingko chose to go in autumn. The town was not a famous tourist attraction, and there were not many people in winter. On the first day there was only one farmhouse that was still doing business.But the longer Yu Xun stayed in the town, the more he discovered a fact—they had been separated for too long, and each of them had already been changed by time.Before he came to the town, he always thought that as long as he was with Bai Xiao, he would be able to return to his old self, but he found that he couldn't.

He can no longer take care of Bai Xiao meticulously like in the past, and he can no longer feel Bai Xiao's subtle emotions. There is no longer the intimacy of the past.He knew that Bai Xiao was the same, but he didn't know how Bai Xiao explained it to his family. He never called or texted him along the way, but Bai Xiao took time every day to make video calls to his daughter and return to the market. When buying souvenirs here, they are basically things that children like.Maybe both of them found out that something was wrong with each other. Although they tried their best to cooperate and restrain themselves, they couldn't keep up with each other. Finally, when Bai Xiao's wife called to say that their daughter was sick, they couldn't keep up anymore. After continuing to pretend, he helped Bai Xiao book an early return ticket and sent him to the airport. Before entering the security check, Bai Xiao finally cried, and Yu Xun's eyes were moist, but they didn't speak, they just hugged tightly After a while, no one apologized, because they all knew that this was the real end, and their relationship finally had a formal closing ceremony, and from then on, all they had was nostalgia for the past.

Yu Xun stayed in the town until it was time for vacation. In the remaining days, he wandered around the town alone, walking along the small road and ginkgo road many times. Tranquility, the only thing that comes to mind is wanting to meet Eleven. He really thought about trying seriously with Eleven. He owes Eleven an explanation. The three words "sorry" so flimsy are against Eleven disrespect.So after returning, he went to a friend who was familiar with musical instruments to inquire, and bought the guitar strings that he had agreed on earlier.