Nowhere to be found, only the heart of a young man

In fact, I have a lot to say to Holly.

I want to thank him, thank him for appearing, thank him for everything he brought me, thank him for supporting me like a force in my heart, and make me no longer lonely.

A lot of words, I have never said to him.But I always feel that he can understand even if I don't say it.It's like the first time we met in the barber shop, we didn't have a conversation, but we can still cherish each other.

But I still owe him.All my disguises in front of people made me realize that I owed his calmness.

I thought I could be as indifferent as I appeared to be.But now, the rumors of the plague among the people have betrayed me.Without knowing it, they tore off my disguise and smashed down the walls of my heart.Let me learn to let go of everything, accept myself, and meet my truest self sincerely.

So, after thinking about it, I resolutely chose to meet him.

At three o'clock in the afternoon on Saturday, I arrived at the place mentioned on the note.

The reservoir mentioned by Holly refers to the Oxbridge Reservoir not too far from our school.Come out of the school gate, turn right, go straight along a not too wide road, walk along the steep slope for half an hour, and you will arrive.

The school has always issued repeated orders to prohibit students from going to the reservoir to play.Because for children with poor water skills, there is always the danger of drowning after falling into the water.

However, the boys are bold, and the boring student life can't satisfy their curiosity about the outside world, so they occasionally go there secretly to play together when they are not in class.A few brave girls will also pull their partners together, gather somewhere after lunch, and carefully go to Oxbridge Reservoir to find out what happened.

What's interesting is that people who have been there will put on a casual look after returning, just like a thief who has dug up a secret treasure secretly, and will become relieved and detached after he gets his wish.

Fang Fang and I also went there quietly with other girls, and unexpectedly found that the reservoir that the classmates had passed on by word of mouth was indeed a good place.

The lush vegetation, the rippling blue waves, and the occasional birds flying over, catch up with a sunny day, making it hard to feel bad.

The three of us happily walked along the shore under the scorching sun in the afternoon, sat down on the gray concrete steps, stared at the vast water surface, stared blankly for a while, and then walked back to school obediently Class begins.

Today, the beauty in front of me is still there.But I never thought that when I came here again, I would feel uneasy.

Hurley came earlier than me, and he could be seen standing alone on the shore from a long distance away, holding the small stones he picked up, and splashing into the lake.

Seeing me approaching, he stopped the game he was using to pass the loneliness.The expression is not surprised, but pleased.

He subconsciously stretched out a hand to me, seeing that I was looking at him suspiciously, he had to retract his hand cautiously.

I wanted to open my mouth to say something, but found that today seems to be different from our past.The mouth seems to be stuck by something, and it will be tongue-tied, not knowing what to do.

My reaction made Holly in front of me a little at a loss.

"You, you came here, did you tell your family?"

The boy was the first to break the silence with an ordinary question.

"I, I, didn't say I came here, I just said I went out to meet a classmate, and I made an appointment with my classmate."

This is my hesitant answer.

"Oh."

Holly replied with one word in a daze.

"You said 'oh,' so how should I answer?"

I pretended to be a little sullen.

He smiled embarrassedly and looked at me stupidly, and I smiled too.

After laughing enough, the two of us simply sat on the concrete steps.

At three o'clock in the afternoon in this late autumn, the sun is not too much, and the time is not too fast.In Niuqiao Reservoir, the clear and blue water sparkles in the caress of the breeze.We stopped talking, just sat quietly and felt all the beauty in front of us.

"The autumn wind curls up, the waves of Dongting come under the leaves, the white weeds come and look forward, and the evening opens with good times."

I recalled the poems written by Qu Yuan in "Nine Songs Mrs. Xiang" that I had read earlier.The words written by Qu Yuan can echo the situation in front of him.Different from the stereotyped words learned in class, this time I was able to appreciate the poet's unspeakable longing and melancholy, and suddenly felt the author's heartfelt and unfettered expression.

Holly stared intently into the distance.

I looked up at the boy beside me against the sunlight. I didn't know what he was thinking, and I didn't know why he called me here.

Looking around us, the sky is high and the clouds are clear, the water and the sky are the same color, so pleasant that I forget the troubles of the world.Now, in this place, I suddenly found that the words in my belly turned into a gust of breeze and drifted away.

"Yuan has zhi, Li has orchids, thinking about the young master, I dare not speak. Desolate, looking far away, watching the flowing water, and gurgling."

Suddenly, the verses that came to mind made me suddenly understand why he asked me to come here.

With red eyes, I let the tears fall.

Even if he has thousands of words, I can understand them without opening my mouth.For a moment, I was willing to abandon everything around me and stay here with him until the sea is dry and the rocks are rotten, and the sky is old.

"Lin Nian, do you know? It's been a long time, today is the happiest and most secure moment I have ever lived. Yes, it is the happiest and most secure moment."

He Li had a satisfied expression on his face. The way he looked forward to Ai Ai made me understand that what he said came from the bottom of his heart.

"I am very happy."

Here is my answer.

Sitting quietly like this, until half an hour later, he suddenly stood up.

"It's too cold on the stone steps. It's not good for the girl to sit for a long time. How about I take you back?"

I looked up and stood up immediately.

"I will send you back."

He stared at me.

"Ok."

So we both turned around one after another, descended the steps, left Niuqiao Reservoir, and walked silently towards home.Accompanied by the hustle and bustle of traffic in the city, it disappeared into the bustling crowd.

Time always flies by.After leaving Niuqiao Reservoir, winter came quietly.

The green in the campus has disappeared, and the playground is full of grass and weeds.

There is no longer the happy time of chasing and fighting, running and laughing, and there is no longer whispering in the corridors and aisles. We are locked in the airtight classroom all day long, listening to the teacher's teachings, chasing and copying various notes, With patience, I tried my best to solve various problems.

In the last month, complete sets of test papers will always appear endlessly, and complicated tests will always exist in cycles.

Interestingly, my restless heart calmed down instead.

I can learn to ignore those awkward eyes and ugly words, and treat my studies tirelessly, and no longer live up to perfunctory.

Just like a traveler who has gone through hardships and wind and rain all the way, after a great understanding, I finally learned to completely let go of the exhaustion like a burden on myself, and accept my unexpected feelings.Without the fetters, only the relief after release is left, so I can return to the state of focused learning again.

Naturally, my changes cannot escape the eyes of my parents, and they still choose to keep their mouths shut.

Fang Fang was surprised by my change.She was surprised that He Li and I spent so much time studying hard that we seldom talked to each other.While puzzled, he held back his voice and stopped asking the bottom line.Sometimes, she looked at me like she was looking at a reborn person, full of emotion and admiration.However, when she had time to spare, she still had a pleasant chat with me.

"Mumble, you've been in such a good state recently, you're so good that I'm almost jealous."

Facing her ridicule, I broke my face and smiled.

"You know, murmur? The way you look reminds me of something. I've seen it before."

"What do you remember?"

"That little female leopard on the playground!"

I grinned, and laughed out loud.

"Mumble!"

Fang Fang stopped me suddenly, and said to me calmly and sincerely,

"You will come first. Believe me, just like that time in the playground. As your friend, I will always be proud and proud of your good grades!"

I was stunned, never thought that Fang Fang would say such words to me, and when I came back to my senses, my heart was full of emotions.

Just a few months may not be too long on the road of life, but I am changing, and she has always been with me all the way.

We both laughed together and cried together.Strictly guard each other's secrets together, and trust each other unconditionally.Face each other's difficulties together, and try to support each other with your meager strength.

We are fulfilling the promise of "hand in hand and growing together" with each other.Always firmly believe that no matter how great the friendship is, the original intention is to warm the other party's heart.

"Thank you Fang Fang. You are my best friend and always will be!"

I hugged her shoulders emotionally.

Fang Fang is happy.

"I'm my best friend, so what is Holly?"

Fang Fang winked at me mischievously.

I bowed my head and smiled, and didn't answer her, but answered myself silently in my heart:

"He is the best gift God bestowed on me when I was going forward bravely on the lonely and hesitant road of youth."