implication

Standing in front of the big iron gate of his house, Lin Chi looked at Ning Fei's back reflected under the blue-black sky, and suddenly felt a little bit reluctant, so he opened his mouth and called out Ning Fei's name, "Ning Fei."

Ning Fei stopped in his tracks, originally he had no intention of turning back, fearing that he would be too reluctant, but he turned back anyway, looking back at Lin Qiao who was next to the black iron gate.

Lin Chi lowered his head under his stare, Xiaopang clenched his fists tightly, and even the expression of determination on his bulging face was cute.Lin Chen lowered his head and walked to Ning Fei, "I'll see you off."

"Are...are you reluctant to part with me?" Ning Fei asked him.

"Yeah!" Lin Qian nodded.

Ning Fei looked at Lin Qiao who was standing beside her with his head bowed, and really wanted to reach out to touch his head, but just as he stretched out his hand, it stopped. His mood was subtle and contradictory. It was the same color as the sky that was about to brighten, half blue and not black. .

"Lin Chi, sometimes you are frank and embarrassing."

Your frankness makes me feel ashamed of liking you.

Lin Chi still lowered his head, "Because I'm very dull, the only thing I can do is to be frank."

Ning Fei turned her head and sighed, and continued to walk forward, saying, "You are really slow."

Lin Chi pursed his lips and followed Ning Fei forward, he thought that Ning Fei was saying that he was not good at learning the piano, and Ning Fei always called himself a little idiot when playing the piano.Sometimes Lin Chen would get discouraged by his calls, propping his chin and complaining to himself, "Maybe I'm really stupid." At this time, Ning Fei would stretch out his hand to face his forehead and hit a chestnut.When Lin Chen covered his forehead and complained, he clearly saw that Ning Fei opened his mouth silently to scold him for being an idiot, but in the end Ning Fei didn't say the word that Lin Chen heard most often.Sometimes Lin Chen also finds it difficult to understand Ning Fei's behavior.

Lin Chi was two steps behind Ning Fei with his thoughts on his mind. Ning Fei slowed down. When Lin Chi came to his senses and realized that he was lagging behind, he quickly walked up and posted Ning Fei. He looked at Ning Fei's nonchalant face, " But I was so frank with you. I had no friends at school, and the teachers and classmates in the piano class made fun of me. I was only so frank and persistent with you. At the beginning, you rejected me many times. I don’t know why, but I still want to be near you."

Hearing what he said, Ning Fei didn't hide her smile.Lin Chi saw Ning Fei's hidden smile, because Ning Fei's cheeks showed dimples.Lin Chi looked at his side face and thought, Ning Fei's side face is much better looking than his front face, because he can't see his thick and slanting eyebrows, plus the dimples that can be seen when he smiles. His face is more approachable.Lin Chi stared blankly at Ning Fei's profile, and laughed along with Ning Fei.

Ning Fei saw Lin Qiao looking at him and smiling, and didn't bother to hide the corners of his mouth anymore. He smiled generously, and guided Lin Qiao with words while smiling, "Then have you ever thought about why you want to stay close to me?"

"Huh?" Lin Qiao closed his smile, tilted his head and looked at Ning Fei, his toes hit the ground, and he staggered. Ning Fei quickly grabbed him with his quick eyesight, staring straight at Lin Qiao's confused eyes and asked, "Have you thought about it?"

Lin Qiao leaned over only because Ning Fei's arms supported him so he didn't fall to the ground.He still tilted his head, this time Ning Fei was facing him directly, and was so close that the tip of his nose was only a finger away.Ning Fei didn't frown, and it was only then that Lin Chen realized that Ning Fei didn't look very fierce like this. It's really strange, why is Ning Fei looking different from usual now?

Lin Qiu was a little puzzled, and when his gaze shifted from Ning Fei's eyebrows to his eyes, Lin Qiu vaguely understood why Ning Fei wasn't as fierce as he used to look, because Ning Fei's eyes were very Gentle, Lin Chi took a closer look, and saw that Ning Fei had himself in his eyes.

"Because you're like a star." Looking at Ning Fei's face, Lin Chen replied earnestly, "Father said that the stars are far away but they are very bright in the dark night. They are obviously thousands of light-years away, but when people look up at the stars I still wonder what is on the stars. So I build rockets, spaceships, and satellites. This is human instinct, and I have the instinct to explore distant and strange, shining stars.”

Lin Chi saw that Ning Fei's eyes darkened, and he couldn't see himself clearly reflected in Ning Fei's eyes.Lin Chi at that time, apart from being ignorant at a young age, was also slower than ordinary people.He doesn't know what liking is, he only knows roughly what worship means.So Lin Chen thinks that he admires Ning Fei, because he is smart and talented, and he has things that he doesn't have.

It is the instinct to explore the distant shining stars.

Disappointed, Ning Fei pulled Lin Qiao up, took two steps forward with a sullen head, and then laughed out loud at himself.Lin Chi stood firm, turned around and continued to follow Ning Fei, when he heard Ning Feiqi sneer twice.He didn't want Ning Fei to smile like that, he wanted Ning Fei to smile like that day on the stage in the hospital auditorium, with crooked eyebrows and cute smile.So Lin Qiu secretly made up his mind that in the future, he must make Ning Fei smile like that day to his heart's content.

"Ning Fei!"

Ning Fei heard Lin Chen calling him from behind, he stopped laughing but didn't look back.

"Ning Fei, you will definitely be a star, a very dazzling star!"

Ning Fei looked down at the new pair of shoes she was wearing, "Is it because I still have Yuan Hao's part? So it must be dazzling?"

"No. Because I believe you can!"

Before Ning Fei could reply, he heard the horn of a car at the intersection ahead.The car horn that sounded in the early morning was so harsh that both Lin Qian and Ning Fei were taken aback.The two looked up at the same time to see the car honking its horn at the intersection ahead.

Lin Chi saw a very beautiful woman leaning out from the sunroof of the car, her face was as ostentatious as her behavior, the woman brazenly raised her voice in the deserted street, "Ning Fei, where have you been? I've been looking for you all night! Get in the car and follow me! Everything has been moved!"

After the woman finished shouting and the echoes from the street stopped, Lin Chi realized that this beautiful woman was Ning Fei's mother.Lin Yue is really too slow, even slow to understand such obvious things, just because he doesn't want to accept the fact that Ning Fei is about to leave.But if he refuses to accept it, the reality is always cruel. When his brain just accepted that the woman is Ning Fei's mother, Lin Chen heard Ning Fei say, "I'm leaving." Then Ning Fei went to the car without looking back. car to go.

Lin Chen didn't seem to have digested the facts in front of him well, and Ning Fei's plain "I'm leaving." It was like an egg choked in his throat, and the yolk was too hard to swallow.After finally swallowing it, the stomach could not digest it for a long time.The current Lin Chi had the expression of being choked by an egg, but he was choked by a breath.

When the pent-up breath in his chest was finally let down by Lin Quan, the car parked at the intersection also started.Lin Chi heard the sound of the car engine, and raised his head numbly. The engine was roaring loudly, and the exhaust smelled like spraying on his face. Ning Fei's figure was no longer on the street, and he seemed to have gotten into the car.Lin Chen's throat twitched twice, as if trying desperately to swallow an egg stuck in his throat.When the car drove up, Lin Chi also started to run.

Before getting into the car, Ning Fei glanced back at Lin Qu, who was standing still, "Lin..." He originally wanted to call Lin Qu, and wanted to take advantage of the last chance to say something to Lin Qu, but after Kekou opened his mouth, Ning Fei Feicai realized that he didn't know what to say to the emotionally insensitive Lin Chen.So Ning Fei gave up, gave up the last chance and went directly into the car.

The car's engine started, and Ning Fei sat on the passenger seat with his arms crossed, but his eyes were only on the rearview mirror on the door. He saw that Lin Qiao was still standing there blankly, without any reaction.This made Ning Fei a little disappointed. He originally thought that maybe Lin Chen still had something to say to him, that they would meet again in the future, and asked him to play the piano and sing.But he just stood there blankly looking at Lin Qiu.

The car started to move, Ning Fei closed his eyes resignedly, and stopped looking at the rearview mirror.The moment he closed his eyes, he didn't know if it was his own illusion. He seemed to hear Lin Chi's voice calling him.His mother's driving skills are really not very good. I don't know where this car borrowed a manual transmission. His mother seems to have engaged the wrong gear, which made the engine make an uncoordinated sound. Ning Fei, who closed her eyes, just thought she was It must have been an auditory hallucination, after all, he just saw Lin Qian in the rearview mirror watching him get into the car and still standing there indifferently.

"Ning Fei—"

Ning Fei opened his eyes, he was sure that it was Lin Chi who called him again this time, because the tone of Lin Chi's voice had been split.Ning Fei looked in the rearview mirror, and saw that Lin Chi was struggling to run after the car.

"Stop! Stop!"

"What car to park!" The fucking voice sounded angry, "You didn't come back all night, and now the time has been delayed!"

Ning Fei had no choice but to lean out half of his body from the car window and responded loudly to Lin Chi, "Lin Chi, stop chasing him!"

Lin Qiao saw Ning Fei leaning forward with a smile and continued chasing him, but Ning Fei's movement of leaning out encouraged him. Lin Chen covered the wound on his stomach, his forehead was covered with fine sweat, "Ning Fei, listen to me, you must ..."

Ning Fei felt that the car was going faster. He looked back at his mother who was stepping on the gas pedal unceremoniously, and then looked at Lin Qu who was chasing the car. It was the first time in his not-so-long life that his eyes were wet, because he saw that Lin Chen couldn't run anymore, and he was worried that the wound on Lin Chen's stomach would open, "Lin Chen, I beg you. Don't chase after me." !"

Ning Fei's tears fell when Lin Chen was tired and stopped because he couldn't catch up with the car.He saw that Lin Chi was getting farther and farther away from him, and Lin Chi in his sight became smaller and smaller.He watched Lin Chen bend over and support his knees as if he was panting, Ning Fei's tears rolled down his face unknowingly.

Lin Chen bent down and supported his knees, not panting for breath but recharging his strength.When he felt that he had gathered enough energy and looked up to see Ning Fei's car driving away, he straightened up and raised his head to the sky and shouted with all his strength, "Ning Fei, you must work harder—"

"You must go on - go on - go on - go on - go on - go on..."

When the echo faded away, Ning Fei could no longer see Lin Chi's figure.But he was still obsessively half leaning out of the car window, with tears streaming down his face, Ning Fei sniffed and said softly to the deserted street, "Well, I will definitely work hard."

For many years since then, Ning Fei has been cheering on because of Lin Qiu's words. No matter how bad life is for him, he still repeats Lin Qiu's words countless times in his mind, "You have to work hard."

He just relied on these words for many years, during the years when his mother led him to hide in Tibet.In order to receive living expenses every month, his mother took Ning Fei to move around from time to time. As long as Ning Fei was still there, his mother could receive a fixed amount of money every month.Not too much money, not too little, just the level at which normal people can live a well-off life.It’s just that the fucking gambling addiction is getting worse and worse, so heavy that the money sent every month can no longer afford usury. Ning Fei goes to the restaurant to wash and wipe the dishes after school every day, goes to the nightclub to sell alcohol in the middle of the night, and goes to the hotel to change the sheets in the early morning , still can't support the lives of the two of them.

But I would rather not complain. I didn’t complain when I rubbed my hands after washing the dishes in winter. I didn’t complain when I coaxed guests to buy wine in the middle of the night and laughed with me. I didn’t complain when I changed the disgusting sheets in the hotel in the morning.Because he would breathe out of chilblains on his hands, retch while leaning against the wall in the nightclub, and beat his waist in the stairwell of the hotel, he would think of Lin Qiu's words, take a deep breath and repeat, "Ning Fei, you have to work hard!" .”

Just this sentence will make Ning Fei smile, lean his head against the wall and exhale, pat his shoulders and grit his teeth to live a life like this.

But there will always be a day when the fuel consumption is dry and you can't move.

In the summer of that year, Ning Fei finally got his wish and was admitted to the university. When he got the admission letter from the Conservatory of Music, Ning Fei touched the gilded words on it excitedly, thinking of Lin Qiao's round face when he smiled, "Lin Qiao , I will go back to find you soon."

It was also in that year that Ning Fei's mother finally realized that she couldn't afford to repay the growing gambling debts, and also understood that after Ning Fei went to college, no one would be able to afford the living expenses, so she took the initiative to contact Ning Fei's Dad, I asked for a sum of money and planned to send Ning Fei back.

That day was Ning Fei's last payday, and after receiving the last salary, Ning Fei decided not to work anymore, not cleaning in love hotels, not selling alcohol in nightclubs.He has to prepare to go to school with peace of mind, devote himself to music with peace of mind, let the ordinary campus life wash away the miasma that life has given him over the years, and then meet that simple Lin Chen as a refreshing student.

After arranging new supplies for the messy room in the early morning, Ning Fei took a special shower. After tidying up each room, there was an indescribable rotten smell on his body.Normally, he wouldn't care, but this was the last day, so Ning Fei took a shower to wash off the smell.

When he came out of the hotel, the boss patted him on the shoulder, "The salary is still punched in. Go to school and work hard."

Ning Fei smiled like the sun just rising, turned her head and said to the boss with certainty, "I will work hard."

"It's been so many years since I've been here, and it's the first time I see you smiling so happily. Also, it's exciting to think about leaving here to go to school."

Ning Fei smiled without saying a word, lifted the backpack on his shoulder and walked home, the home was in the dark basement two streets ahead.After hiding in Tibet for these years, coupled with the occasional debt collection by usury, Ning Fei has already forgotten what it is like to live on the ground.Falling asleep and waking up on the cold floor every day.

When walking into the cold basement, Ning Fei was still smiling, not because she got rid of the busy part-time job, not because the boss said to go to another place to study, but because Ning Fei felt that she could finally go to Lin Chen, He has grown up, received the admission notice, and finally the time has come to find Lin Chen.

On the way back, Ning Fei kept thinking, what does Lin Qiu look like now?Are you still as chubby as when you were a child?If I get fatter when I grow up, I may not be as cute as I looked when I was young.But Lin Chen's face is white and tender and feels good to the touch. If he is still a fat man, Ning Fei feels that he will not dislike him.

"So big fat Lin Chu, I hope you won't be as dull as when you were a child when you grow up." Ning Fei looked at the sky and said to himself with a smile.

"Student, classmate. I'm from Xinxing Entertainment Company. You have a very good appearance, are you interested in entering the showbiz?" A person who appeared out of nowhere stopped Ning Fei and handed him a business card, "What do you think?" Are you interested in acting? It just so happens that a director I know has started filming a new film, so I think you will be able to audition."

"Sorry, I can't act."

"It doesn't matter. You have such a good appearance, you can definitely fascinate a lot of little girls. Or, do you have any other specialties?"

"Sorry, I don't have time. I have to pack up and get ready for school."

The people who came followed Ning Fei all the way reluctantly, "Are you a college student? Which school and what major?"

Ning Fei got annoyed by him and replied impatiently, "It's from the Conservatory of Music."

"Ah, then I can package you as an idol singer. It's just that this is more expensive than being an actor. Recording songs, releasing songs, and image packaging are all very expensive. Do you think your family can help you enter the circle?"

Ning Fei laughed at himself, and pointed to the semi-subterranean apartment on the side of the road, "Look, I live in this kind of place, can my family support it?" After finishing speaking, he went down the steps and returned to the house where the sunlight could not even enter, "Mom, I'm back."

Ning Fei opened the door and was stunned. There was nothing in the room and it had been emptied.He has seen this kind of situation many times, every time his mother moves very clean without leaving any traces, but this time is different, this time his mother left him behind.The bag on Ning Fei's shoulder fell to the ground, and he stared blankly at the empty room, wanted to laugh a few times but only sighed in the end.In the end, he was still abandoned by her, on this day of adulthood.

The originally narrow room was suddenly emptied and looked a little empty, which made Ning Fei's sigh very desolate.Ning Fei sat down cross-legged on the ground, stretched out his arms and hugged his shoulders tightly, he was too tired, he was still working three jobs last night, he didn't have time to feel sad right now, he just wanted to take a rest first.

The sky failed as people wished, Ning Fei just wanted to close his eyes but suddenly opened them.He anxiously got up and lifted the raised floor in the corner, where he hid his bank card, which was the money he saved to pay his tuition through part-time jobs.As if he had expected it a long time ago, Ning Fei saw the scattered pieces of paper under the floor, it was a mess that was too busy to clean up in a hurry to move, and it was a worthless thing that was thrown away.

The hand holding the floor drooped decadently, and God didn't give him a chance to breathe.The door was kicked open with a "bang", and several fierce and familiar faces appeared in front of my eyes, "Oh, the move is pretty clean. Your mother is a gopher, right?"

"What are you doing here? You've seen it too. It's so clean that I don't have the money to pay it back." Ning Fei's voice sounded weak.

The visitor leisurely picked his ears, and casually threw the envelope in front of Ning Fei, "Your mother said you can afford it. She owes you the debt."

"What?!" Ning Fei stopped being surprised, and quickly picked up the envelope on the floor, which was a letter from his mother, "Ning Fei, call your father. He will take care of you."

Looking at the short line, Ning Fei finally laughed out loud, "So you are merciless and even took away my tuition fees? Do you think I'm as vile and self-respecting as you are?!"

"Stop talking nonsense, huh~" The strong man who came to ask for debts blew on the little finger that had been pulled out of his ear, and then clenched his fist tightly, his joints were squeezed loudly, as if he was threatening, "Look at the meaning of this letter, your father Quite rich? That’s right, I heard that I’m about to go to the Conservatory of Music. There are no poor kids in that school. Call your rich dad to help your mom pay off the debt with interest.”

"Thinking well!" Ning Fei stood up from the ground and shouted without showing any weakness, "You want me to have no self-esteem like her? Think beautifully!"

The strong man turned his head to the side when Ning Fei yelled at him. He didn't act aggressively, but just smiled at the younger brother behind him, "Yo, it looks like he's practicing bel canto. He's full of confidence."

Ning Fei ignored their ridicule and turned back to pack his luggage. At this moment, the strong man in black who took the lead in laughing at him rushed up and grabbed his collar tightly, "Can self-esteem be eaten? Boy, let me tell you, you If you don’t help your mother pay off the money, I’ll take you to the underground market right now. At any rate, you look healthy and dug out your heart, liver, spleen, lungs and kidneys and sold them to pay off the debt.”

"Humph." Ning Fei laughed dryly, "Try it. Didn't you find out who my dad is from? Otherwise, just because of this short two-line letter from my mom, you can let her go?" "

"It's not easy to fool. The head is quite smart."

"Excuse me……"

The stalemate in the house is broken by an imprudent stranger.Ning Fei frowned and looked at the person who came in, it was the person who stopped him on the road and claimed to be a scout.Ning Fei didn't know how this person became a scout. The atmosphere in the room was so bad that he could tell at a glance, but he came forward rashly and handed his business card to the person who was holding his collar.

"Excuse me, are you the father of this child? Hello, I'm from Xinxing Entertainment Company. Your child looks good. I heard that he entered the music academy this year? I wonder if he is interested in entering the entertainment industry?"

"Entertainment circle?" The person holding Ning Fei's collar glanced sideways at Ning Fei, and said with a smile, "This is a way, don't you want to be self-respecting? Then enter the entertainment circle, go in and get money, and then pay back for your mother." money."

Speaking of self-esteem, Ning Fei looked down at the scout who was grinning at her.This reminded him of Lin Chi, the Lin Chi who told himself to work hard, the Lin Chi who said he would become a dazzling new star.Ning Fei thought, maybe this is the only way for him to go to Lin Qiao. He can't ask the Ning family for help, and he doesn't want to be burdened with debts. He straightened his back and said to Lin Chi, Lin Chi, I'm back, and then told him that he actually liked him all the time.

Ning Fei was shaken, "But I don't have money." His truthful telling did not repel the pursuers, because the man who grabbed his collar snorted twice, and said quite generously, "I have money." Ah. Didn’t your mother borrow all the money she gambled from me? It’s the old rule, nine times out and thirteen times out.”

Ning Fei was released, and he looked at the contract document handed over, the black and white words blurred in front of his eyes.There was only one voice echoing in his heart, you have to go back to see Lin Chen generously, you have to hold your head high and tell him your heart.The voice that kept ringing in his head brought his years of obsession into an inescapable spell.Ning Fei lost his judgment and looked up at all the people standing in front of him. Everyone said to him, let's sign.The voice in my heart also echoed, you don't want to be self-respecting, maybe you can pay off those debts by yourself after entering the showbiz, and you don't have to bow your knees and reach out to the Ning family.

Ning Fei took the pen and signed his name.