implication

"The guest guest in this issue is a new singer who debuted for a month. Guess who it is?"

The small TV placed in the open-air stall late at night is showing the programs that little girls like to watch.The host's opening remarks were as old as this TV set, but the audience where the TV camera swept past were the screams of little girls cheering.

"Hi everyone, I'm a new singer who just debuted. I'm eighteen this year. Please take care of me."

"Hey, this young man looks really young. Should he go to school again at eighteen?" The proprietress, who was sitting leaning against the door frame while watching the TV, knocked sunflower seeds, marveled at the spirited young man on TV.

"Hurry up and serve!" The boss who came out of the kitchen with a big spoon in one hand and a plate in the other impatiently taught the TV-addicted lady boss, "You know how to watch TV all day long, so you don't do any work? The ones at the table outside, remember He still has a bottle of beer."

"I have to do some work. In the middle of the night, there are only two tables outside. I don't watch TV to pass the time, what else can I do?" The action was very rude, as if venting his anger on the plate, "Your food."

The person sitting at the table with his head bowed did not raise his head, "I still have a bottle of wine."

"Here we come!" The proprietress agreed perfunctorily, and when she entered the room to get the wine and came out, she was attracted by the TV again.The host joked about the young guy on TV, "I reported my age, height and school, why did I forget to introduce my name?"

"Ah! I'm a little nervous on the show for the first time. My name is Bai Xinran."

"Xin Ran, the speed at which you became famous is unimaginable. It seems that there is no dormant period, and you became popular as soon as you debuted. What is the opportunity for you to enter the entertainment industry?"

"Ah, I skipped class from school that day and went out to play, hey, everyone, don't imitate me. A man followed me along the way and told me that he was a scout. I thought he was a liar at first, but he followed me persistently. , I almost called the police.” On TV, the slightly jerky young man smiled and introduced the story of his being excavated.

"Hmph. Just him? He's not as good-looking as I am. It's because he's being praised behind his back for being so innocent."

Ning Fei ignored the contempt for the people on the TV at the next table.He just watched the plate of fish-flavored shredded pork in front of him gradually lose its heat, raised his head and waved to the proprietress, "My wine." The proprietress came over in a panic and put down the wine without saying sorry to Ning Fei before running back to the TV forward.Ning Fei nonchalantly picked up the chopsticks and lifted the beer lid. The beer lid bounced with considerable force and hit the ground twice before falling to the feet of the person at the next table.

Ning Fei glanced indifferently at the beer cap that bounced off, and raised his eyelids to look at the person at the next table, who was the one who sneered at the young guy on TV, and he asked Ning Fei, "Do you think I am prettier than him?" ?”

Ning Fei ignored it, raised his head and blew on the beer bottle, and Lian Mo'er drank carelessly, not caring how the wine dripped down his neck.His eyes were fixed on the person on TV who had introduced himself and lowered his head and smiled silly.The beer bottle was put down heavily, Ning Fei lowered his head and stretched out his hand, wiped the corner of his mouth with the back of his hand, and smiled foolishly.

How could I be so stupid, how could I believe someone who came out of nowhere.

Ning Fei was designed by someone, by the moneylender.Probably because he knew his identity as the illegitimate child of the Ning family, and he was not satisfied with the little interest owed by his mother. He always felt that he could still get a big sum from Ning Fei, so he investigated Ning Fei's education information and found someone to come and act with him. That scene that sent me into the entertainment circle.Now Ning Fei's debt is even heavier.

Ning Fei was played by her dreams, no one was rational in front of her dreams, she seemed to be brainwashed by pyramid schemes, she kept wanting a lot of money, and always thought that she was the lucky one to turn over.However, the facts tell you that people who believe in dreams are no different from those who enter into MLM, they are all fools and easy to deceive.Ning Fei looked at the people on TV and laughed dryly.

The chair next to me was pulled, and the person from the next table who had just talked to me came over and asked him with a very thick skin, "Buy me a beer."

"No money, go away."

"You don't look like you have no money."

Ning Fei turned her head and squinted at him, "Yes, I have a lot of money, and that money has become a debt. Do you want it?"

"Damn it, it's a bad start." The person beside him suddenly swears, and grabs the unfinished wine from Ning Fei's hand and drank it down in one gulp.Ning Fei didn't bother with him, just waited for him to drink and then left, Ning Fei wanted to be quiet.However, things turned out to be contrary to expectations. After drinking, the person talked about his misery, "I thought you were pretty good, but I thought I would not have to sell you tonight. Hehe, you know? I'm here to sell , as long as the price is right, no matter who the other party is, they have to go to sleep."

Ning Fei looked at the person beside him and sniffed his nose, and then he couldn't hide the sadness in his voice, "This is the third time that the pig's head hit me tonight. He is very rich, but you know what? He is also a pervert, and he likes to see me begging for mercy in pain. He didn’t know where he brought it tonight, and it looked like he was going to pierce my stomach. I couldn’t bear to break his head with a lamp to escape gone."

"Why are you telling me this?" Ning Fei annoyed others to talk to him the most, because he couldn't even afford to solve others in his own life.At this time, he could only think of Lin Chen, but the more he thought about Lin Chen, Ning Fei felt that his life was over, because he had no face to go back to find Lin Chen.

"My name is Shui Xin, watery water, San Jin Xin, because the fortune teller said that I lack gold. What's your name?"

"You don't need to know." Ning Fei refused so bluntly that Shui Xin withdrew her outstretched hand embarrassingly.

"I'm going to die. It's a pity that I met you before I died. I thought I would meet someone who could comfort me a little in the middle of the night, but I didn't expect to meet you, a piece of iron."

Ning Fei didn't ask Shui Xin why he was about to die, because his attention had already been attracted by the person walking over timidly.

"Does the boss have steamed buns for sale?"

"No. We are a food stall here, so where can we get steamed buns for sale? Why don't you just order any dish, and I'll make it for you."

"no, I'm fine."

"Hey, we have very good quality and cheap food here. I'll make you a big dish and you can order one."

Ning Fei looked at the man tightening his clothes, lowered his head and said in embarrassment, "I don't have any money. Originally I wanted to buy a steamed bun for [-] cents to pad my stomach."

The proprietress withdrew her enthusiasm, turned her head and continued to watch TV, as if the conversation just now had never happened.

"Alas." Ning Fei called out to him. The man who was standing and twisting his clothes looked up at Ning Fei with a red face and raised his feet in embarrassment to leave. Ning Fei stopped him and pushed the fish in front of him. Fragrant pork shreds, "I haven't eaten this before. Here it is."

Shui Xin propped her chin and glanced at Ning Fei, "Why didn't you treat me like this."

Ning Fei said without looking at him, "Didn't you drink my wine without saying hello?"

Shui Xin twitched the corner of her mouth in dissatisfaction, turned her head to look at the person who walked up to their table and sat down cheekily, and did not forget to say thank you to Ning Fei.Shui Xin looked at the man who grabbed the plate and devoured it, and saw that the clothes he was wearing had stitches on his shoulders. Shui Xin smiled and said, "It seems that night is always the time when the poor gather. Hello, my name is Shui Xin , watery water, San Jinxin, what's your name?"

"My name is Jiang Ze." After Jiang Ze finished speaking, he glanced at Ning Fei again. Shui Xin acted as an acquaintance and helped Ning Fei, "His name is Ning Fei." After speaking, he stretched out his hand to Jiang Ze, " Nice to meet you."

Jiang Ze looked at Shui Xin's hand, which was tender and slender, like a section of scallion soaked in water.Jiang Ze reached out and rubbed his pants, then carefully pinched Shui Xin's fingertips.Shui Xin smiled cheerfully, Jiang Ze looked up at him, his dark face suddenly turned black and red.Shui Xin tilted her head and looked at him, "I'll invite you to eat anything else."

"You...why invite me to dinner?"

"It's fate to be together. Besides, I'm going to die tonight."

Hearing what he said, Jiang Ze quickly withdrew his hand in shock.Seeing his timid appearance, Shui Xin gave two hearty smiles.

Before Jiang Ze could recover from Shui Xin's smile, he was abruptly pulled back to reality by the sound of tables and chairs being overturned behind him.Shui Xin broke into a smile, because the smile was too far-fetched before, so the expression of the smile collapsed so quickly now.Both Ning Fei and Jiang Ze heard Shui Xin's words, "My time of death has come."

It was because Shui Xin couldn't take it anymore, and smashed the head of the person who was supposed to serve tonight, and they came to settle accounts with him.

However, Shui Xin did not die after all.When the group of people approached arrogantly, shouting to take Shui Xin's life, Ning Fei took the beer bottle from the table and stood up, smashed one person's head, turned around and kicked another person in the stomach, and then He took the broken wine bottle and stabbed the person who was strangling Shui Xin's neck.

Shui Xin sat on the ground, gasping for breath. Although the scene was chaotic, he knew that he would not die tonight, especially when he saw Ning Fei throwing his stool at the rushing people, he turned around and told Jiang Ze, "" Take him away quickly", Shui Xin actually felt a sense of security that he had never had in his life.

Jiang Ze, who was terrified and fell to the ground, crawled up to Shui Xin, grabbed his arm and shouted, "Go!"

Shui Xin didn't respond, and Jiang Ze, feeling strange, looked up at him, and saw Shui Xin smiling obsessively at Ning Fei's back.Jiang Ze looked at Shui Xin's smile and lowered his hands. He turned his head to look at Ning Fei who was fighting alone, and felt a little bit of regret. He regretted why he was not the one who rushed up in the first place.After that, during the time when the three of them lived together, Shui Xin told Jiang Ze that it was only because you were not as carefree as Ning Fei was at that time, so you couldn't get close like him. Life.

When Shui Xin said this, she thought she understood Ning Fei very well, but later she thought that she was wrong.Because Ning Fei was concerned, but that night Ning Fei felt that the concern was too far away and he couldn't see it, so he put on a desperate posture. He thought that maybe Lin Ling would come at his funeral, and maybe the funeral would be a meeting between him and Lin Ling. The only chance to meet each other.

The day Shui Xin realized that she was wrong was an ordinary night.He normally came out of the hotel after picking up the guests, and Ning Fei, who had saved his life, became his support, taking care of his clients and taking him to the hotel.Shui Xin never spends the night with the guests, especially after Ning Fei becomes her escort.

When he came out that night, Ning Fei squatted in a remote corner drinking beer as usual.This time, Shui Xin took a long time to pick up the customers. When he came out, wine bottles were already piled up at Ning Fei's feet, and Ning Fei, who was shaking his head, seemed to be drunk.

It was rare to see Ning Fei drunk, Shui Xin held her breath and walked over lightly, wanting to surprise Ning Fei's drunken ugly appearance.It's just that as soon as he got close, he heard Ning Fei keep calling someone else's name, a name he had never heard before.Shui Xin was stunned, he looked at Ning Fei's raised face, which was covered with tears, this was the only time Shui Xin saw Ning Fei cry.Ning Fei didn't cry when her ribs were broken by loan sharks, she didn't cry when she couldn't afford to go to school, she didn't cry when her customers rudely took money and slapped her face.

But now he saw Ning Fei crying, crying very sadly, choked up, and kept repeating, "Lin Chen, what should I do? I can't go back to you in a dignified way. I can't cheer anymore .What should I do, Lin Chen? I can't refuel, Lin Chen, Lin Chen, Lin Chen..."

"Lin Chen? So your concern is called Lin Chen, isn't it?" Shui Xin looked at Ning Fei who was lying drunk and murmured Lin Chen's name. Taste, "Your tears about Lin Chen are so bitter, I guess you miss him deeply."

Ning Fei, who was drunk, didn't know how he returned to the room where he usually slept. He only knew that Jiang Ze was putting a wet towel on his forehead when he woke up.Ning Fei pushed Jiang Ze's hand away impatiently.Jiang Ze didn't mind, and still greeted him warmly, "Are you awake? Is your stomach upset? I brought food back from the restaurant where I worked. If you get hungry, eat some."

When Ning Fei got up, she happened to see Shui Xin coming out of the bathroom with a wet body.He didn't ask Shui Xin how he came back last night, he just looked up at the clock on the wall, and sent a note to Shui Xin who was drying his hair, "There is a guest at 10:30."

"Well, I know. Are you still seeing me off today?"

"Give it away. I'll give it away after I change my clothes." When Ning Fei said this, she didn't see Jiang Ze's clenched fist beside him.

Shui Xin threw away the towel hanging on his head and sat on the floor, opened the small refrigerator and took out a beer from it, and said with the corner of his mouth tilted, "You are really dedicated." When he said this, even I couldn't hear the sarcasm in his tone.

Ning Fei had just sobered up, his head was dazed, he got up and grabbed the leftover half chicken from Jiang Ze's package from the table, "I can't help it, I have to live."

Shui Xin opened the can in silence, and the beer sizzled all over his hands.Only Jiang Ze could tell that Shui Xin was jealous for no reason.

Ning Fei sent him to the hotel on time, a love hotel with a front door in the back street of a busy area.When Shui Xin came in, he didn't play with Ning Fei abnormally, but Ning Fei tried to be quiet so that he could sober himself up.While waiting by the gate, his eyes were attracted by the old man pushing the cart and selling cotton candy.

Even the cotton candy has a new idea. The cotton candy that was originally like a cloud was clubbed on a stick. Now, in order to attract children, it has become two clouds, a small cloud on top, and a big cloud on the bottom. .The one Ning Fei was looking at was two balls of white, as long as it was white and round, it reminded him of Lin Ling, and so did this cotton candy.Lin Chi in his impression was white and soft like this cotton candy.

At twelve o'clock, when Shui Xin came out of the hotel tiredly, he saw Ning Fei holding a cotton candy.Shui Xin smiled and reached out to him, "Is it for me?"

He didn't expect Ning Fei to avoid it, "If you want to eat, buy it yourself, this is mine."

Shui Xin looked at the back of Ning Fei holding the marshmallow and turned around. He clearly saw that Ning Fei smiled when he looked at the marshmallow. Pear dimple, eyebrows and eyes bent with a smile.Shui Xin said to Ning Fei's back, "So it was for him."

Jiang Ze saw Shui Xin sitting on the stairs when he came back from the night shift that day. Jiang Ze never thought that Shui Xin would be waiting for him, so he put the lunch box in his hand on Shui Xin's lap in surprise, "Your favorite condensed milk steamed buns are here. Eat it."

Shui Xin looked down at Jiang Ze's lunch box on his lap, raised his head and said expressionlessly, "I don't like condensed milk buns anymore. Jiang Ze, buy me cotton candy."

Jiang Ze didn't ask why, nor did he think about where to buy marshmallows late at night, but when he heard Shui Xin's rare request, he turned around and ran away to buy marshmallows without saying a word.

That night Jiang Ze ran all over the streets and alleys of the city, and didn't come back until early in the morning.Shui Xin sat on the stairs with her legs crossed all night, looking at the condensed milk steamed buns placed on her lap all night.Ning Fei also didn't come back, Shui Xin didn't know where Ning Fei went with the cotton candy.Like Jiang Ze, Ning Fei ran all over the streets and alleys, and finally bought back a porcelain doll similar to that of the past.A porcelain doll that looks like Lin Ling.Ning Fei knew that she would never have the face to go back to see Lin Chen, but she still couldn't bear to miss her, so she searched everywhere, and finally found a porcelain doll that was similar to the past.When Ning Fei came back in the morning and passed Shui Xin who was still sitting on the stairs, Shui Xin heard Ning Fei say, "Stop torturing Jiang Ze."

He asked Ning Fei, "What about you? Are you torturing me, or are you torturing yourself?"

Shui Xin saw that Ning Fei's figure was stiff, and seeing that he didn't speak, Shui Xin boldly asked, "Is his name Lin Qiu?"

Ning Fei's temper is very irritable, not ordinary irritable, Shui Xin has seen it before, the night Ning Fei saved himself, he saw Ning Fei plunge a beer bottle into someone's throat, the person didn't die, but I heard that a tube was tied in the throat instead of breathing.When Shui Xin asked such a question, she was actually also afraid, afraid that Ning Fei would suddenly lose her temper.

Unexpectedly, Ning Fei did not.But after that day, Ning Fei never lived with them again. Suddenly there were many different men and women around Ning Fei, and he dealt with these different men and women. life paid for.

Shui Xin understood what Ning Fei meant. After running in Jiang Ze all night, she appeared in front of her with a sweaty face holding a cotton candy, and smiled and handed the cotton candy to herself and said, "Here." At this moment, Shui Xin understood what Ning Fei meant.From then on, he made no demands on Jiang Ze, and gradually became cold towards Jiang Ze.

But Jiang Ze didn't understand. He looked at Shui Xin who turned away without saying a word, stared blankly at the cotton candy in his hand and said, "What's wrong with me?"

I don't know who created the cotton candy, the white cotton candy looks soft and really looks like a cloud.When Lin Chi passed by a cart making marshmallows, he looked at the newly made marshmallows and asked, "What's wrong with me?"

Lin Qiao was ridiculed. When the classmate was buying cotton candy on the side of the road, he watched Lin Qiao pass by and pointed at him behind his back.That day was the day when Lin Chi represented the school in the physics competition and won the prize.Although Lin Chen was a little slow since he was a child, his studies were so-so and he was partial to subjects. Thanks to the tutoring of his father, an engineer, Lin Chen's science was not bad, but the liberal arts could only be said to be a mess.

After he won the award, he smiled happily and took a photo with the school leaders. The photo was posted on the school bulletin board. It was a good thing, but who accidentally said to the photo, "chubby, like a cotton candy that just rolled out. Look The flesh piled up on his face when he smiles in the picture. It's so fat, and his breasts and butt are as fleshy as his face."

Lin Chi looked at the laughing crowd in front of the bulletin board, and walked out of the school with his head bowed and his schoolbag on his back. When he passed by a trolley making cotton candy, he glanced at the big rolling cotton candy and said, "What's wrong with me? No. Do you like me only because you are fat?"

The dull Lin Chi can't understand other people's unreasonable emotions, can't understand others' inexplicable dislike for him, and can't understand the sudden liking.He thought that people's feelings are the same as doing math problems, understand the problem and apply formulas, clarify the logic and answer the questions step by step.

However, human feelings are incomprehensible.So Lin Chen never understood, so Lin Chen was always bullied.

The first time Lin Qiao arrived home, instead of entering the door, he made a detour to the courtyard. Facing the flaming pomegranate flowers blooming in the courtyard, Lin Qiao looked down at the roots of the tree.The time capsule that he and Ning Fei put in there was buried there.He stretched out his hand to twirl a leaf and whispered, "Ning Fei, how are you doing? Have you cheered up all these years? I have always cheered up, but most of my cheers were ridiculed. Why? Why do they always do this? Laughing at me? Is it because I am fat? I think you also laughed at me because I was fat, but you are still willing to be friends with me. Until now, I still have not made new friends. So, I will wait for you to come back , waiting for you, the only friend."

All these years, Lin Chen has been waiting, sometimes he feels that Ning Fei will definitely come back, but sometimes when he thinks about the iron box buried in the ground, he feels that there is nothing in it that is worth enough to make Ning Fei come back.In addition to the inferiority complex of being ridiculed by others, Lin Chi was repeatedly in the expectation that Ning Fei would come back and the disappointment that Ning Fei would not come back.

Now, mixed expectations and disappointments mixed with inferiority complex into a bitter wine.Lin Qiao let go of the hand that was holding the leaf, looked down at his protruding belly, inferiority complex occupied his whole body, thinking of seeing Ning Fei again, Lin Qiao hated his current appearance very much.

"You're too wide."

He recalled the words that Ning Fei said unintentionally on the window sill of the hospital.Lin Chi clenched his fists and made up his mind, "I won't do this again!"

"It's really weird. The snack cabinet in Mumu's room has not been touched." Lin Mu complained to Leng Ming, "Mumu studies so hard, what should I do if I am hungry in the middle of the night?"

Leng Ming sighed and said, "It's a good thing that Mu Mu hasn't rebelled enough to talk back to his parents when he's in adolescence. He probably cares about his figure. Just leave it alone."

"Why didn't you contradict your parents? He suddenly disappeared that year. We drove out to look for it all night, but he came home dirty in the morning. I asked him where he went, but he didn't say anything. Mu Mu was born to me, and he didn't tell me anything, which made me very sad."

Leng Ming sighed, he has been unable to reach a consensus with Lin Mu in terms of educating children.Back then, Lin Mu's life was difficult, and Lin Chen stayed in the incubator for almost two months, so Lin Mu took good care of Lin Chen and cared about everything.Leng Ming shook his head and turned back to Lin Mu, "He didn't say it because he heard us quarreling. Forget it, boys always have their own concerns, so don't watch too closely."

As soon as these words came out, Lin Mu wanted to blame Leng Ming for not caring about Lin Chen again.In the room, Lin Qiao hugged the pillow and hung his head. The quarrels between his parents in recent years were all about him, so he tried his best to be obedient and not cause trouble. Mom is worried, he thinks or loses weight by himself, this situation will end, and the classmates will become friendly to him.

The obedient Lin Chen didn't lose his temper during adolescence, but relied on perseverance to lose weight.One summer passed, and Lin Chi finally lost weight. On the first day of school, he stood in front of the pomegranate tree in the yard and took a deep breath, "Ning Fei, I'm working hard. Please do the same."

The skinny Lin Chi was still a little nervous before carrying his schoolbag into the classroom.He clenched the bag strap on his shoulder and took two more deep breaths before entering the classroom.Sure enough, everyone's eyes were on Lin Qiu. They were surprised at the beginning, but within two seconds, Lin Qiu's still baby-fat face returned to its normal state.

Lin Chen stood at the door and smiled unnaturally, and there was a sudden burst of laughter in the classroom. It was the boy named Feng Lin who said on the bulletin board that Lin Chen's photo looked fat.He laughed so hard that tears came out, and he pointed at Lin Qiao while covering his stomach, "What? You're still fat and cute, but now you don't have any special features."

Followed by the echoing laughter of others.Lin Chen's feigned self-confidence still couldn't withstand the scrutiny of others. He lowered his head and returned to the usual state, and sat back in his seat amidst the laughter.Someone from behind reached out and attacked him through his armpit. Lin Chu shrunk his shoulders and dodged sideways. Feng Lin, who took the lead in laughing at him, twisted his wrist, "Oh, I lost my breasts after losing weight. Our buddies can't find anyone." It's too addictive, Lin Chen, why don't you get back fat."

On the first day of school, Lin Qiu who lost weight was still rubbed by others, and finally he had to accept others' dissatisfaction that he lost his previous hand feeling after losing weight.Lin Chi sat in the classroom with a sore nose, packed his clothes and carried his schoolbag, and the first thing he did when he got home was to go to the pomegranate tree in the yard.

He looked up at the pomegranate tree, and for the first time in the years since Ning Fei was gone, Lin Qiao cried.He hasn't cried for a long time, and when his nose is sore, he always thinks of how impatient Ning Fei was with him when he was a child.With tears in his eyes, Lin Chen raised his head and said, "Ning Fei, how are you doing? I'm not doing well, and I want you to come back. With you here, I'm not so timid."

Adolescent Lin Qiu gradually became silent, Lin Mu looked very worried, Leng Ming only advised that it was a boy's unique concern, let her not intervene in everything and cause Lin Qiu's disgust.Lin Chi studied hard, thinking that the only chance to get rid of the status quo was to be admitted to university.

After the college entrance examination, Lin Chen thought he was finally liberated.In the summer after the college entrance examination, Lin Chen didn't hold a teacher appreciation banquet, nor did he go to any of his classmates' teacher appreciation banquet. He also didn't follow Lin Mu's arrangement to go abroad for a leisurely vacation.Lin Chi just stayed at home and often looked at this pomegranate tree in the yard. In summer, the pomegranate tree bloomed with fiery red flowers. When he looked at the flowers, he thought, Ning Fei, have you ever lived a life as lively as this flower? ?

I miss you very much, I know you will be sought after with your strength.But I am afraid that you will live such a life, because I am afraid that you will forget me, forget me who is so ordinary now.Where are you doing now?Are you playing the piano and singing, or dealing with all kinds of girls who come to confess?

Thinking of this, Lin Qiu smiled, and then sighed again after laughing, "I know you won't come back. Maybe it's because I had a wonderful life and forgot about me. But I keep my promise and always remember you. I'm going to another place soon. I am going to university in my city, and I will soon get rid of the current bad life and have a new start. I thought about going to find you, but I don’t have any news from you. If you don’t come back, don’t come back, I will do it too He's an ordinary college student." Lin Qiao hesitated when he turned around, and when he glanced at the roots of the pomegranate tree from the corner of his eye, he hesitated whether to dig out the things buried under the tree.

After hesitating for a moment, Lin Qiu entered the room with a sigh.

After the school term started, Lin Chen got his wish and became an ordinary college student, but the feeling of becoming an ordinary college student did not seem to be as good as he imagined.Lin Chi, who had neglected his inner growth because of laughing and bullying in high school, finally ushered in late rebellion after becoming an ordinary college student.

He thinks all the time, what is the point of doing this?What is the point of being caught in the crowd and rushing to change classrooms?What is the point of skipping class and sleeping?What's the point of working hard in the library before an exam?What is the significance of group activities organized in class groups?

Lin Chen didn't understand or said he wasn't used to it.Lin Qiu, who was used to being alone, was very uncomfortable to integrate into the collective life.He was still the talkative Lin Chi, who would roll roll for roommates who skipped class to go on a date, helped occupy a seat in the library, and brought meals from the cafeteria to roommates who played games all day.In their casual thank you, Lin Qiu replied with a smile, "It's fine."

In this seemingly inconspicuous sound, it was Lin Chen's doubts again and again, doubting such an ordinary life.Until the end of the first semester, the roommates in the dormitory got into a fight because of conflicts, and Lin Qian, who hurriedly stepped forward to help break the fight, was pushed to the ground.The moment he fell to the ground, Lin Chi remembered the time when his forehead hit the corner of the piano, and Ning Fei's stubborn and ferocious face.

In the panic, someone helped him up, like someone from other dormitories watching the fun.Lin Chen sat by the bed and watched other people tidy up the messed-up dormitory. He didn't know who swept out a nut.Just rolling under Lin Can's feet, Lin Can bent down and picked up the hex nut on the ground, held it in his hand and looked at it carefully.

Like an inspiration, Lin Chi finally understood why he kept doubting such a college life.He was tired, he was tired of this kind of life, he was pushed down as if he was this nut that was swept away and ignored.Life is a machine that turns, and he is a tiny nut.

He thought of the way Ning Fei sang, standing on the stage and smiling at himself, with such a shining look, he thought of his longing once, no matter what way, Lin Chi wanted to use Ning Fei's good music to get close to him.

Lin Chi got up, walked out of the dormitory and out of the school.Just walking aimlessly on the street, this enlightenment was very short, it was a flash of inspiration, Lin Chi didn't have time to grab and beat his head while walking.

Then he heard the sound of the rotating shaft, which was different from usual, the jingling sound of the rotating shaft was very beautiful, as if he had heard it somewhere.Lin Chi let go of the hand that was beating his head, followed the sound and walked into a shop.He didn't know when he entered a shopping mall, probably because of the flow of people rushing him in.He entered the gift section of a bookstore selling handmade items, and among the things that led him was a music box, walnut and waxed.It was this sound that attracted him, much like the kalimba played by Ning Fei when he was crying when he came out of the hospital that night.

"Do you like it? We can customize music boxes here." The clerk told Lin Jian politely.

"Made to order?"

"Yes. What song do you want? Our master can make it for you. This music box is often ordered by couples."

Lin Chen turned his head to look, and the clerk was right, most of the people who choose songs here are couples.Lin Chi looked at the couples, and saw the sweet smiles on their faces, and he couldn't help laughing unconsciously.Unlike usual, this is a heartfelt laugh.

He picked up the music box in front of him, tightened the wind-up, and listened carefully to his ears, "It's amazing. Obviously you are also a machine, but the music you stream makes everyone's faces filled with happiness. I think I understand Now, I finally understand my future direction."

The rebellion that Lin Chen arrived late caught everyone by surprise. Before the department counselor had time to talk to Lin Chen, Lin Chen had already handed in the application form and went home.Before the winter vacation came, he used the excuse of being homesick to go back. Sitting at the dining table, Lin Qiao looked at his mother who was busy getting food for him, and his father who looked at him with tender eyes. He didn't say anything, and he didn't have the courage Tell me about quitting school.He was afraid of his mother's earnest words and his father's harsh lectures, so he just ate up the food in the bowl with a smile to make his parents feel relieved.Then in the early morning of the next day, I secretly dragged my luggage out of the house.

He didn't walk very quickly, Lin Chen still stopped before going out.He looked at the pomegranate tree in the yard, bowed his head and thought for a while, then turned around and went to the pomegranate tree, and dug out the time capsule that had been buried under the pomegranate tree for many years, "Ning Fei, how are you? I have no confidence that we will have a chance to meet again, so I am sorry that I dug out the time capsule first and took it with me."

Lin Chen picked up the tin box, saw the kite under the tin box, and touched the kite with his hand, "Brother Yuan Hao, please protect Ning Fei." He touched the kite a few more times, and his nose suddenly became sore. Because he remembered the French song that Ning Fei sang when he met Ning Fei for the first time.

"Cerf-volant Volantauvent (Kite flying in the sky) Net'arrêtepas (Please don't stop) Verslamer (Fly to the sea) Hautdanslesairs (Floating to the sky) Unenfanttevoit (A child is watching you) Voyageinsolent (While traveling) Troublesenivrants ( Intoxicating roundabout) Amoursinnocentes (pure love) Suiventtavoie (follow your track) Envolant (fly)... Etdanslatourmente (in the storm) Tesailestriomphantes (you fly high) N'oubliepasderevenir (don't forget to come back) Versmoi (back to my side)."