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"Yuan Hao, I'm back." Meng Yi nervously said to Lin Qiu who was looking back at him.

"En." Lin Chen responded to him, got up and clapped his hands and said to the neighbor uncle who was playing the erhu in the yard on the first floor, "Master, I'm going back, and I'll listen to you playing the erhu tomorrow." After speaking, he extended his hand to Meng Yi.

Meng Yi smiled, stepped forward to hold his hand, led him upstairs and opened the door to go home.

This old house was left by Grandpa Meng Yi.It has been done in advance for many years, and when Meng Yi's family moved to this city, grandpa bought it for them to live in.It's just that Meng's mother disliked the old house, and later bought a commercial house again and moved out.Now they are all determined to start from scratch, so Meng Yi brought him here and called Lin Yi Yuanhao.

That night, Lin Quan turned over and fell into the river, but was rescued by Meng Yi who arrived in time.He dragged it back and wanted to throw it into the river, and he kept saying the ring, Lin Qian of the ring.Because his wound needs urgent treatment.

Lin Chen didn't want to go to the hospital because he hated the hospital. Like the first time they met, Meng Yi helped him treat the wound in his pet hospital.

During the treatment of the wound, Lin Chi just lay motionless on the operating table.

"Are you alright?"

"I have something to do."

"There is nothing in this world that cannot be solved, and there is no need to solve it by suicide."

"But I don't want to be Lin Chen anymore. Is there any other way to solve it besides committing suicide?"

Meng Yi looked at him, "Why don't you want to be Lin Qian anymore?"

Lin Chen closed his eyes and wept, "Because it hurts to be Lin Chen."

Lin Chi was a failure as a son, a failure as a brother, especially as a lover, he failed even more.When he thought of Ning Fei, his heart felt like a knife. Ning Fei didn't want him anymore. He had hatred, but he didn't want to hate Ning Fei, so he wanted to lose Lin Chen's identity.

"Then you..." Meng Yi put down the scissors and asked him, "Then are you willing to become Yuan?"

"Are you talking about brother Yuanhao?" Lin Kai opened his eyes, looked at the dazzling operating light, and remembered their farewell in the hospital when they were seven years old.

"Remember, my name is Yuan Hao. I am fifteen this year. I can play the violin. I love sweet-scented osmanthus cake. Don't forget me."

"Okay, I'll remember. My name is Lin Qiu. I'm seven years old. I can't play the piano. I love pudding."

Assuming that the one who died was Lin Chen and the one who survived was Yuan, okay.Don't you still owe him one?I owe my good brother Yuan a dream.It was agreed to take his part to walk the road to the future, but it was a pity that he didn't go well, it was regarded as compensation, and he had to live in his place.

Lin Chi looked at the operating light and murmured, "My name is Yuan Hao. I am fifteen this year. I can play the violin. I love sweet-scented osmanthus cake."

Meng Yi opened the door and came in, gave "Yuan Hao" a box of newly bought sweet-scented osmanthus cakes, and watched him sit on the sofa and pick up a small bite to eat.

After that day, he took Lin Qiu back to this old house and lived in peace for a month.It's just that Lin Chen loves to go downstairs and listen to the retired old man sitting in the yard playing the erhu. He has no other hobbies, and he eats and sleeps quietly.

"When are we leaving?"

"Yuan Hao" finished eating a slice of sweet-scented osmanthus cake and looked up at Meng Yi who was in a daze.

"Ah?" Meng Yi came back to his senses. A week ago, he and "Yuanhao" proposed to go to the countryside. Meng Yi found a job and went to a pig farm in the countryside to help see the pigs for delivery.He asked "Yuan Hao" if he would like to go with him, and "Yuan Hao" nodded.So this week, Meng Yi has been tidying up the house, packing his luggage, and buying some daily necessities. The countryside is no better than the city, and the pig farm is some distance away from the town, so I have to prepare more at once, just in case. needs.This time he planned to sell the old house and never come back again.

But he was not sure, not sure whether "Yuan Hao" could live in the countryside with him all the time.

So Meng Yi asked him again, "Are you really ready to go to the countryside with me? It's very remote and far away, and it's hard to come back after you go."

"Yuan Hao" paused, nodded slowly, and looked up at the thing Meng Yi was holding in his hand, "You bought it again?"

"Ah? Hmm." Meng Yi unnaturally moved his hands behind his back.

"Stop buying rosin. You won't be able to play the violin in the country."

Only then will Meng Yi truly realize that he is not "Yuan Hao".Frustrated, he put the rosin on the table.

The phone rang, and it was Yin Jin calling.

"Hey, Brother Meng." Yin Jin has been in a hurry this month. The hospital itself is very busy, and Lin Yi has not been found, so he hasn't contacted Meng Yi very much this month. Yi suddenly wanted to go to the countryside, so he hurriedly called, "Why are you going to the countryside suddenly?"

Meng Yi picked up the phone and glanced at the person sitting on the sofa, clutching his phone and planning to go to the balcony to talk.The door was knocked suddenly again, and it was the uncle downstairs who came up.

"I'll go!"

"Yuan Hao" volunteered to open the door, and talked kindly with the downstairs uncle who came up.

"Who is with you?" Yin Jin heard a somewhat familiar voice, and asked Meng Yi, "Who was talking just now?"

"No. The neighbor next door came over." Meng Yi glanced at "Yuan Hao", who was standing at the door chatting happily with the uncle, clutching his phone and avoiding the balcony, "You don't need to say more, I know you can't take care of yourself, here My reputation is not good, I can’t find any job, maybe going to the countryside is the best choice, and that job is also suitable for my major.”

"Hello, didn't you just say that you have a lot of rosin in your house?"

"Yeah." Yuan Hao nodded, he just said in passing when he was listening to the uncle playing the erhu downstairs, Meng Yi would buy rosin every time he went out to buy things, but neither of them needed it, "Yes, I have a lot of rosin here."

"Then give it to grandpa. My erhu is out of tune."

"Okay."

"Yuan Hao" answered with a smile, and the uncle was happy when he saw his smile, and stretched out his hand to shave his face, "Your baby looks like your name, so you can agree on what to do."

"Hey~" "Yuan Hao" touched his shaved face with a smile, turned around and took the piece of rosin on the living room table, and took a piece of osmanthus cake for the uncle, "Grandpa, I I invite you to eat sweet-scented osmanthus cake. Here, this piece of rosin is new, never used.”

The uncle took the sweet-scented osmanthus cake and rosin, touched the forehead of "Yuan Hao", "Thank you, Xiao Hao."

"Goodbye, Grandpa."

After being praised, "Yuan Hao" was in a good mood and sent off the uncle downstairs. Meng Yi also returned to the living room after making the phone call. Seeing that something was missing on the table, he became anxious and searched everywhere.

"Yuan Hao" asked him, "What are you looking for? Shall I find it for you?"

"Where's the rosin? Where's the rosin I put here just now?"

"I gave it to the uncle downstairs, he said he is an erhu..."

"How can you give rosin to others at will?!" Meng Yi shouted at him angrily, and "Yuan Hao" shrank his shoulders in fright. He heard Meng Yi accuse himself, "That's the rosin I bought for Yuan Hao!"

"But I'm Yuan, okay?"

Meng Yi was also taken aback when these words came out, he sat on the sofa and covered his eyes tiredly, "I want to be alone for a while."

No one answered, Meng Yi heard the door being opened, followed by footsteps running out, Meng Yi opened his eyes and stood up, looked at the open door and shouted, "Lin Qiu, come back!"

With this yell, the footsteps sounded like they were running faster. Realizing that he had yelled wrong, Meng Yi changed his voice and yelled, "Yuanhao, come back!"

"Another one is going away from me." Yin Jin looked at the phone she just hung up and sighed.Lin Chen is gone, and now Meng Yi is going to work in the countryside, and there are fewer and fewer people around him.This is something Yin Jin is afraid of, it will remind him of the feeling of his brother leaving.

When he got out of the elevator, he saw Ning Fei being thrown out.

"go away!"

The blood pressure measuring machine that Ning Fei bought was thrown out together with him.Lin Mu yelled in the room, "I don't need your stuff, get out!"

The person you want to see can't be seen, but the person you hate keeps dangling in front of your eyes.Ning Fei came to the door every now and then, and every time he came to the door, the result was like this.Although Yin Jin hated him, but not to the extent that Lin Mu did, they still hummed and said a few words calmly, after all, they all missed Lin Qiao together.

"Why do you think you should." Yin Jin stepped forward to help him pick up the things.

"It was you who said last time that Mother Lin's blood pressure has been unstable recently."

"I don't mean that, I mean why do you come to ask for scolding?"

Ning Fei lowered his head, "Lin Chi is not here, I have an obligation to help him take care of his family."

It's been a month, but they still haven't been able to find Lin Chi.Yin Jin held the measuring instrument and asked him, "Is there still no news?"

Ning Fei shook his head.

Yin Jin sighed and changed the subject, "I feel like you've been very busy recently, you've been visiting so frequently, don't you have a schedule recently? Where are you going later?"

As soon as he said that Ning Fei had no schedule, Brother Miao called. Ning Fei hung up the phone and told Yin Jin, "I'll go to the tattoo shop to get my color done later."

Ning Fei got a tattoo on her chest, and it was time to make up the color.

"Oh." Yin Jin perfunctorily knocked on the door.Different from his attitude towards Ning Fei, Lin Mu treated Yin Jin very friendly. When he opened the door and saw him, he immediately welcomed him in, "How is it? Is there any news about our Mu Mu?"

"Auntie, don't worry, your blood pressure is a little high recently, the most important thing is to keep a good mood."

"Mumu is gone, how can I keep my mood?"

There was crying again from the door, Ning Fei's heart twitched when he heard it, he was not worried about Lin Chen's safety, but there was no news for more than a month.Ning Fei started to suffer from insomnia again, but he no longer fell asleep with alcohol, he wanted to stay awake all the time and didn't want to miss any news.

"Forget it. Anyway, the machine has been sent in."

Borrowing Yin Jin's help, the blood pressure measuring instrument that he specially bought finally entered the Lin family's door.

The tattoo artist sent a reminder, Ning Fei had no choice but to leave the Lin family.When I was driving to the tattoo shop, I took a detour to the shop that I just sold to have a look.

The store that he had his eyes on before was finally sold by him.This store was later renovated into a gold and silver jewelry store. The past few years have been bad, and this year the store was sold out again. Ning Fei took the opportunity to sell it down, and it was left there without any renovation work. He was waiting, waiting for Lin Chi to come back and discuss it together.

The car was parked on the side of the road, and Ning Fei sat in the car and looked at the store under his plate for a long time, and finally saw that the traffic police were coming, so he turned the steering wheel and planned to leave.When he just drove out of a street and found a new musical instrument store opened on this street, Ning Fei couldn't help but take a second look, which was the brake.He seems to have seen a person who looks like Lin Qiu push the door and enter the musical instrument store.

The car just parked on the side of the road carelessly, Ning Fei got out of the car without hesitation, no matter whether it was true or not, as long as there was a little resemblance, he would check it out.

"Boss, do you have rosin for sale here?"

"Yuanhao, you don't need to buy rosin." Meng Yi hurriedly chased after him, pulling him away. "Yuan Hao" slumped back, twisted his wrist, and said stubbornly, "No, I have to buy a piece of rosin to compensate you."

"Forget it, there is no need to buy rosin, let's go."

"Yuan Hao" suddenly became emotional, "No, no. I want to buy rosin, I want to buy rosin!"

Meng Yi compromised, "Okay, okay. Buy, buy. Don't get emotional."

Ning Fei opened the door and came in and saw Meng Yi grabbing Lin Yi's wrist, seemingly entangled with him, he roared angrily, "Let him go!"

Both Meng Yi and "Yuan Hao" were startled. Before they could react, Ning Fei hit Meng Yi on the nose with his fist. Meng Yi's nose bleeds on the spot, and the frightened boss screamed and called the police.

"Beat someone, beat someone."

"Lin Qiao, let's go!" Ning Fei dragged Lin Qiao away without saying a word.Meng Yi covered his nose and just yelled at them, "Yuanhao, don't go."

"Yuan Hao" turned his head to look worriedly at Meng Yi who was knocked to the ground.

Ning Fei pulled Lin Chen back and hugged him tightly as soon as he entered the door, "It's my fault, I'm sorry for you, Lin Chen, don't leave anymore."

Lin Qiu was a little panicked by his hug too tightly, and twisted his body to escape, struggling for a long time to no avail, sighed deeply, "You made a mistake, I'm not Lin Qiu."

"How could it be?" Ning Fei let go of him, grabbed his arm and carefully looked at the person in front of him, "You are Lin Qiu."

Lin Chi looked at him expressionlessly, "No, I'm not Lin Chi, I'm Yuan Hao."

"What?" Ning Fei grabbed his hand and lowered it, "What did you say?"

"Open the door! Open the door!"

It was Meng Yi who came after him.

"Brother Meng, get out of the way, I'll come." Yin Jin followed, "Ning Fei, open the door!"

"Meng Yi?" Lin Quan didn't care about Ning Fei who was in shock when he heard Meng Yi's voice, turned his head and opened the door, "Meng Yi!"

When Lin Chen opened the door, the first person he saw was not Meng Yi but Yin Jin, the two looked at each other, Meng Yi stepped in and pulled Lin Qiao past him, "Yuanhao, I'm here."

Only then did Lin Yi show a smile, "Meng Yi, let's go quickly."

"Okay, let's go, we'll go right away."

Meng Yi wanted to take him away immediately, but someone stopped them, not Ning Fei but Yin Jin.

Yin Jin looked at them with tears in his eyes, he asked Meng Yi, "What did you call him just now?"

Lin Chen turned his head to look at Meng Yi, waiting for his answer.

Meng Yi lowered his head, "Xiaojin happened suddenly. He needs someone to take care of him now."

"Have you been together this month?"

No one answered, it was the default.

Yin Jin's tears fell, it was rare to see him cry, Meng Yi was also very surprised.

"How can you call him Yuan Hao!" Yin Jin broke down and shouted, "You clearly know what this name means, how can you call him Yuan Hao!"

"Xiaojin, I..." Before Meng Yi finished speaking, Ning Fei, who had been in the room for a long time, rushed out and punched Meng Yi again. This time Ning Fei didn't give up easily. He rode up and punched Meng Yi in the face, "You said you've been together this month? Did you touch him?!"

"Stop!" Lin Chen rushed forward and grabbed Ning Fei's shoulder to make him stop hitting Meng Yi, "Don't hit him!"

Ning Fei didn't listen, his eyes were red with anger, and he punched down unceremoniously.

"That's enough for Ning Fei!" Yin Jin also came over to persuade the fight, he set up Ning Fei, "Calm down, please!"

Ning Fei roared angrily, "How can you tell me to calm down! He hid Lin Qian for a month, and he didn't know what he did to him during this month, how can you tell me to calm down!"

"Brother Meng is not such a person!"

"Why isn't he! He has made Lin Chen a different person!"

"It's not because of you!" Meng Yi, whose nose was bruised and swollen from the beating, sat up and stared at Ning Fei, "It's because of you that he became what he is now. I saved him."

"What?" Ning Fei's forehead twitched and he lowered his fist.

"I was going to kill you that night. You covered up Boss Xue and killed my father. I originally planned to seek revenge from you. I almost stabbed you. But he suddenly appeared to replace you I blocked this, but I don’t know what happened afterwards, I was just worried about his injury, so I waited outside the villa. When he arrived, he was about to jump into the river for a ring, and I rescued him. , he told me that he doesn't want to be Lin Qian anymore!"

Hearing Meng Yi's confession, Yin Jin was startled. He didn't know when his brother Meng had changed. Yin Jin looked at Meng Yi in disbelief. In order to confirm that the person in front of him was indeed Meng Yi, he Called Meng Yi, "Brother Meng?"

Meng Yi just lowered his head.

Ning Fei remembered that Shui Xin had told him that Lin Chen had come to him that night at the party, "I didn't cover up Boss Xue, he was the one who leaned on Ning's face. I don't even know what Boss Xue is doing! Ning Yan..."

When Ning Yan was mentioned, Ning Fei stopped suddenly.Indulging Boss Xue, Meng Yi who wanted to kill him, and Fang Qiang who died in vain, all the causes and consequences were brought to him by Ning Yan and arranged by him.But it was Lin Chi who could bear all this for himself.

Ning Fei looked at Lin Qiu, who just squatted beside Meng Yi.

The elevator at the end of the corridor rang, and before the elevator door was fully opened, an eager female voice came, "Mu Mu? Is Mu Mu back?"

Lin Chi got up in a panic when he heard that, he didn't care about the chaotic scene outside, and rushed into the house as if fleeing, and closed the door.All the people were separated from the door.

"Mu Mu! Mu Mu!" Lin Mu took a step back, and could only pat the door and shout into the inside, "Open the door, I am mother."

Leng Ming put his arms around Lin Mu's shoulders, "Lin Qiu, open the door and come out."

Meng Yi lying on the ground looked at his eager parents and told them the truth, "He doesn't want to see you."

Both Lin Mu and Leng Ming looked at Meng Yi with expressions of disbelief.

"Dissociative dissociative disorder. He doesn't think he is Lin Qian. Although he remembers everything about Lin Qian, he doesn't admit it."

"What does it mean?"

Meng Yi told them in a deep voice, "He is sick, maybe he doesn't want to get better in this life."

"How could this be?" Lin Mu took a step back weakly, as if all the bones in his body had been ripped out, and it was Leng Ming who supported her.Lin Mu put aside Leng Ming, saw Ning Fei who was standing silently, rushed up and beat him, "It's all your fault, it's all your fault!" Lin Mu cried, "Why did you make my Mu Mu like this? ?”

"Lin Mu." Leng Ming called her, and stepped forward to stop her from losing her mind, "Don't..."

Lin Mu stopped before he could stop him. Everyone looked at Ning Fei who was kneeling in front of Lin Mu in shock. It wasn't Lin Mu who beat him to the knees, but Ning Fei himself.

"I will live longer than you!" Ning Fei just knelt in front of Lin Mu, shouting full of anger.

"What?" Lin Mu clutched his chest anxiously, wishing he could slap him again.

Ning Fei raised his head to look at her, and said decisively, "I am young and in good health. You will grow old and get sick. I will definitely live longer than you. I will also live longer than Lin Chu. If he lives to be 70 years old, then I will live to be 71 years old, if he lives to be 80 years old, then I will live to be 81 years old! So please entrust him to me, and I will take care of him for the rest of his life." Ning Fei glanced in the direction of the door after speaking, just in time Facing the face peeking out from the crack in the door, Ning Fei looked at Lin Qiao who was hiding behind the door, "I will take good care of him and do my filial piety to you in his own right, so please give me this chance. "

If it wasn't for the inappropriate atmosphere, Yin Jin would have laughed when she heard it. How could anyone ask for such a request? Although Lin Chen needs someone to take care of him, it is a fact that Lin Mu and Leng Ming are not as good physically and mentally as they used to be after these years of wasting. Needless to say.Sure enough, Ning Fei was not likable from the beginning to the end.

But speaking of this, it seemed inappropriate for him and Meng Yi to be present.Yin Jin pulled Meng Yi up and planned to take him away first.When Meng Yi got up, he still struggled and was unwilling to leave.

"Brother Meng, I have something to tell you about my brother."

After hearing this, Meng Yi allowed Yin Jin to take him away.

Lin Quan, who hid in the door and saw Meng Yi leaving, was a little anxious, but because Lin Mu and Leng Ming were outside the door, he couldn't come out to catch up with Meng Yi.Only continue to hide outside the door to peek.

"You! You! You!" Lin Mu pointed at Ning Fei's trembling hand, she was very angry.

Ning Fei walked up to her on his knees and grabbed Lin Mu's trembling hand, "I will definitely treat him well, and I will definitely serve you in your old age. Please, let me take care of him."

Lin Mu unceremoniously shook off Ning Fei's hand, Ning Fei was dejected.

"it is good!"

Ning Fei looked up in surprise, he thought that Lin Mu's attitude just now was rejecting him.

"Don't be too happy, I can let you take care of Lin Qian. But I have conditions!"

Lin Mu glanced at Leng Ming, who lowered his eyes and had no objection.Lin Mu also thought twice before agreeing. Ning Fei's words were blunt and harsh, but the fact is that, what he said was indeed true. Lin Chen's mental state was unstable, and she and Leng Ming didn't know how long she and Leng Ming could take care of him. , There is still an old man in the family who needs them to take care of them. Lin Yao has to take care of the family business. After thinking about it, he really needs such a person to take care of Lin Yao for the rest of his life.

Seeing that Leng Ming had no objection, Lin Mu continued, "Lin Chen can be taken care of by you, but you can never touch him again!"

Ning Fei frowned and gritted her teeth, but didn't speak.The atmosphere suddenly froze.

Lin Chen hid behind the door and propped his chin, watching the play without concern for himself, "How do you think he will answer?" He didn't know who he was asking.

"it is good!"

After a while the silence was broken, Ning Fei looked at Lin Qiao who was hiding behind the door and watched the play, and replied firmly, "Okay, I promise you, take care of him and never touch him."

Yin Jin, who took the same elevator with Meng Yi, was silent all the time. Meng Yi couldn't bear it anymore, and asked him first, "What do you want to tell me?"

Yin Jin glanced at him, "Let's go to the hospital to treat your wound first."

Meng Yi shook his head, "I want to know about Yuan Hao first."

The elevator reached the first floor and opened the door. Seeing Meng Yi's obsession, Yin Jin sighed, "Okay, let's find a place to sit down and talk about it."

Meng Yi chased him out of the elevator and stopped him, "No! I want to know now! Tell me!"

Yin Jin shook off Meng Yi, and turned to look at him angrily, "Brother Meng, why did you become like this?!"

Meng Yi avoided Yin Jin's gaze with a guilty conscience, "What have I become?"

"Don't you know yourself?" Yin Jin wished to find a mirror to look at Meng Yi's face, so that he could take a good look at his current appearance, "You used to be upright and kind! Why? Why do you want to change yourself?" This is what it is now! Why are you punishing yourself like this?!"

"You know, Xiao Jin." Meng Yi looked up at him, "Didn't you blame me? It was my grandfather who didn't reach out to save Yuan Hao, which caused you to lose your complete family. In fact, Yuan Hao has always been there. Blame me, that's why he didn't want me to see him. Because of guilt, I was afraid to see him when he was sick."

"I don't blame you! Brother doesn't blame you either!"

Meng Yi chuckled, "How is that possible."

"I'm a doctor myself now, don't I know that my brother's old disease relapsed back then is really hopeless?!"

"I know you are a good person, so you don't need to persuade me like this. Yuan Hao must have hated our family and me before he died. Otherwise, why would he..."

"No!" Yin Jin grabbed Meng Yi's arm excitedly and shook him vigorously, "Brother Meng, I beg you not to live in guilt! Brother, he didn't blame you! He didn't want you to see him sick, He likes you! So I want to keep myself in your impression as before. He doesn't blame you, he likes you!"

Mentioning his elder brother, Yin Jin could no longer restrain his emotions, he grabbed Meng Yi's hand and gradually squatted down, crying, "So I beg you, don't let others replace elder brother to do such a sad thing. My brother is the best, he can play the violin, he is unique. Brother Meng, please, don't spoil yourself, don't spoil your brother."

Meng Yi was stunned, as if he had suddenly lost his ability to speak, unable to pronounce, just listening to Yin Jin who was squatting in front of him talking about the past and Yuan Hao who he didn't know.

"My brother said that practicing the violin every day is very boring, but you are listening, so he will continue. His favorite season is autumn, because at that time he will go to your house to find you, and he can watch the newly blooming osmanthus with you. He likes it You, he likes you very much, and has always liked you. Before his death, my brother wrote down his last wish and asked me not to say it. He said he didn't want his death to become a hurdle in your heart, so he asked me to keep it a secret. "

After a long time, Meng Yi finally smiled, smiling happily, tears streaming down his face, "It turns out that my first love was not wishful thinking."

After many years, the first love that I buried deep in my heart finally received a belated response, but I only heard it from someone else.

With tears in his eyes, Meng Yi looked at Yin Jin who was squatting in front of him, and leaned down to hug him, "I'm sorry, Xiao Jin. I'm sorry, Yuan Hao."