Miss First Love [A Gentleman's Dignity]

According to the survey report of the Japanese Ministry of Health, Labor and Welfare, there are more than 120 million mother-child families in Japan.The so-called mother-child family refers to a family in which children under the age of 20 live with their mothers instead of their fathers.Among the more than 120 million families, divorced families accounted for about 80%, families with dead fathers accounted for about 12%, and the remaining less than 7% were families with unmarried mothers like Kim Eun-hee.

Counting the year-end bonus, Kim Eun-hee’s annual salary is more than 390 million yen. Among Japanese professional women, her income is in the top 20% of the elite level. Even compared with the per capita income of all Japanese professionals, she is considered a high earner.

However, judging from the income of the entire family, her income is far below the average family income. Even with the generous benefits that a mother-child family can receive from the government, she can only be counted as a "difficult life" family.

Raising a child by one person has to take care of the family budget, housework and work, and it is not enough to split a person into three parts.Fortunately, since high school, Kim Eun-hee has developed a good ability to use 24 hours as 48 hours-her pocketbook.

Her work starts at 8:30 in the morning and theoretically ends at 17:30 in the afternoon.But in the technology-based society she works in, where there are more men than women, it has become an unspoken rule for everyone to consciously work overtime if they want to keep their jobs and status.

From 12:30 to 1:30 noon is the lunch break, which is basically only enough to have a leisurely lunch, and a walk on the road is considered a rest and relaxation.

After school starts, the school will provide lunch, and Colin will eat it at school; in the summer, winter and spring breaks, she will prepare Colin's lunch box in the morning.But today, firstly, the family has no food reserves, and it is difficult for a smart woman to cook without rice; secondly, Jin Daozhen is new here, and she always wants to do her best as a landlord.So despite the tight schedule, she rushed home after the lunch break started.

As soon as he walked into the porch, Enxi felt that the atmosphere at home today was very unusual. Both Colin and Jin Daozhen stood at the door and put on a welcome guard of honor, each smiling more enthusiastically and flatteringly.

There is one more person in the family, and it seems that everyone is a little uncomfortable.She has been hovering fiercely between rationality and sensibility; Colin seems to be trying to stand out in the newly born competition mechanism and compete for attention; and Jin Daozhen may be lowered by the sudden acquisition of an immature son. IQ or EQ, then His fiery and focused gaze made him look like a cute dog eagerly begging for his master's praise.

She wants to dream about something, it seems that she is really a little abnormal.

Jin Enxi asked: "Why are you looking at me like this, did you send me a text message to ask me to come back with something?" He gestured to get his mobile phone to check.

Jin Daozhen was the first to react: "No. You are so busy with work, I didn't expect you to come back at noon. Fortunately, I prepared a little more lunch."

"You prepared lunch?!" Jin Enxi was particularly surprised.

Colin finally interjected: "Don't expect too much, he just bought an instant donburi at the supermarket, the only work for lunch preparation is to turn on the microwave, put the donburi in, turn off the microwave, set the time, ding—done. "

"That way there are one, two, three, four, four steps." Jin Daozhen was once again upset with this son who had been trying to drag him down.

You can have dinner as soon as you get home, and it seems that you can return to work on time in the afternoon, Jin Enxi thought so.The whole family had their own joys and had lunch together at the dining table.

Colin told Enxi that he went to the supermarket with Danny to buy in the morning, and also bought her favorite salmon.Jin Daozhen quickly added that he paid the money and brought back the things. Colin said that Kim Do-jin couldn't even speak Japanese, and it was Danny who was in charge of communication.

Jin Enxi watched the father and son quarreling with interest, and asked Colin what plans he had for the afternoon after they ceased fighting. Colin replied: "You and Kazuma will come to see me in the afternoon, mainly to discuss the leadership arrangements for the next semester and the preparations for the opening ceremony."

Colin is already a fifth grade student, and the elementary school students in his area go to school in groups, led by senior seniors.Since the beginning of school in April this year, Colin and his classmates Yu Yamamoto and Kazuma Maeda have been responsible for leading the team.

Every morning at [-]:[-] a.m., I line up in the community square to count the number of people. If anyone fails to arrive on time, I will come to ask.Along the way, I kept my eyes open and listened to all directions, lest someone would fall behind or encounter difficulties.Two of the three of them took the lead, and one was in the back. They kept their faces cold and selfless throughout the whole process, and they did have a bit of the majesty of seniors.

Jin Daozhen silently wrote down what Colin said, still wondering what was going on in his mind, when he saw Enxi packed up the tableware and was about to go to work.

He quickly put on his coat and said that he would send Enxi off.The two told Colin to rest at home at noon, and when the classmates came over, remember to entertain them with snacks and water, and then left the house one after another.

Although it is autumn, the leaves of the sycamore trees on both sides of the road are still green.The sky is blue and clear, vast and boundless; the white clouds in the sky are rolling and stretching, clear and comfortable.

Jin Eunxi is wearing a beige dress, with a bag on his right shoulder, holding both hands on the belt; Jin Daozhen is wearing a blue-gray short-sleeved T-shirt, gray casual trousers, with his hands in his trouser pockets, walking on the left side of Eunxi.

It was noon, there were almost no pedestrians on the road, and it was extremely quiet. The two walked slowly, neither of them talking.

After walking for a while, Jin Daozhen said: "Although we only got together for one morning, as you said last night, Colin is really a smart kid, he can speak well, is very logical, and... quite filial." It's not him, Jin Daozhen properly embellished his words a little bit.

Jin Daozhen preliminarily analyzed the information he had learned, and he was no longer as confident as before.So he was in a hurry to gain favor with all kinds of things. As a mother, Jin Eunxi's favor was to bear the brunt of praising her son unconditionally.

Jin Enxi smiled: "Well, but sometimes it's a little naughty, because it's like me."

Kim Do-jin said, "Maybe it looks like me." Kim Eun-hee glanced at him, then looked forward again.

Jin Daozhen continued: "I know it's a little late to say, but you really have to teach your children well. To be honest, I still don't know what I should do, how to be a father. So, on the one hand, I admire you very much. You have arranged everything in order; on the one hand, I feel very sorry that this long period of time has been left to you alone."

Jin Eunxi looked at Jin Daozhen gradually, and she found that she could understand his subtle expressions and understand his subtext as before, and she felt that Jin Daozhen felt sincerely guilty for not fulfilling his father's responsibility, At the same time, I feel anxious and uneasy about this change of identity.

Jin Enxi didn't want to see Jin Daozhen like this.She chose to give birth to Colin and spend her youth raising him because of the love in her heart.

This love originally originated from her love for Jin Daozhen, but it has long been separated and turned into pure love for her son.She never wanted to cause trouble or misfortune to anyone because of her choice.

She explained to Jin Daozhen: "You really don't have to think that way at all. Ah, Colin must have said something to you. He is just too sensible, and always thinks that my mother is very hard. He doesn't know how much taking care of him has given me. Fun and motivation."

"If you say that I have had a hard time these years, it is definitely not because of Colin, and it is not your fault. It should be my unavoidable hard work as an engineering girl studying abroad. You are also an engineering student, so you should be very clear about the difficulties of engineering girls. Situation. I'm just working hard for my dream."

Kim Eun-hee looked at Kim Do-jin's disapproving expression, and continued: "People always think very seriously about things they haven't seen before. Do you know that there are more than 120 million single-mother families in Japan? Everyone lives like this, and they live happily. I never worked hard because of Colin, and I don't expect you to work hard because of him."

"Our situation is similar to that of those divorced families. If you want Colin, you can come and see him, or you can take him back to Korea to stay with you for a few days. We still live as before, and it won't have any impact."

The two walked into the tram station, Jin Daozhen has not responded, Jin Enxi bought a tram ticket.She thinks that she has said all she should say, and she has fully expressed her position, and Jin Daozhen may still need time to think and accept.

Kim Eun-hee was about to get into the station to take the car, when he suddenly heard Kim Do-jin who had been silent all this time say, "Live like before, it won't have any impact, can you do it?"

Can it be done?Jin Enxi has thought about this question many times in private.Why can't it be done? Before Jin Daozhen knew Colin's existence, she lived like this, controlling her thoughts about him every day.

When I am eating, I will suddenly think of him; when I am walking in the park, I will suddenly think of him; when I watch a movie, I will suddenly think of him; when I see Colin who looks more and more like him, I will miss him more and more.

Thousands of times, she thought about what her life would be like if she had told Jin Daozhen at the beginning, whether she would become happier, or would it be... Every time her conclusion was that this cannot be assumed.

Every decision people make is the best choice he can make at the moment.In other words, it was the choice that would make him the happiest.So the decision she made at the beginning was already the choice that would make her the happiest.She kept Colin, and this was her greatest happiness.

And now that Jin Daozhen knows about Colin's existence, how will things be different?After all, they have been separated for ten years, and time has passed.Even if she still has to work hard to forget her feelings in the future, that is something that should be borne by her and has nothing to do with Jin Daozhen.She would rather in Jin Daozhen's consciousness, she is just his first love, not someone's mother.

There was the whistling of the tram, the footsteps of the crowd, the beeping of the ticket gates, and all kinds of voices in her heart that she couldn't ignore. Jin Enxi still said without changing his face: "Yes, I can do it." , you should do the same."

"If I say, I can't do it; if I say, I hope you can live with me, what will you do?" Jin Daozhen replied.

Jin Eunxi's nonchalant mask shattered inch by inch with every word he said.

Another tram came into the station, Jin Enxi's expression was a little flustered, and his heart was even more messed up.There was so much noise in the station that she couldn't think at all.She just instinctively wanted to leave Jin Daozhen's sight and find a quiet place to think carefully.

She said: "The tram is coming, I'm going to be late, I'll leave first, we'll talk later." She hurriedly checked the ticket and passed the turnstile.

Jin Daozhen called her to stop: "Wait a minute, I will go with you."

Jin Enxi turned around and replied to him: "No, you haven't bought a ticket yet. And you can't speak Japanese. After you get there, it will be troublesome for you to come back alone. I'll go first, you can go back."

Jin Daozhen could only watch as Jin Enxi fled unwillingly, and when the tram on which Jin Enxi was riding left, he also walked back.

Passing by a bookstore on the way home, Jin Daozhen went in and bought a copy of "Practical Japanese Conversation".Jin Daozhen held the spine of the book firmly, and silently thought in his heart that all his mistakes in coming to Japan were due to not being able to speak Japanese.Mastering a foreign language is an urgent task!

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