I water the flowers of the kaolin

My name is Fang Jiyun, and I suspect that Li Zangfeng is not just a closet.

Generally speaking, I will not take the initiative to associate gays with transvestites/letter circles/gender cognitive impairment. After all, some straight men and straight women also play this set, and some are not even so serious, just for fun, to attract look.So you can’t guess your sexuality just by seeing women’s clothing, just like you can’t think of thighs when you see calves, and you can’t think of armpit hair when you see short sleeves. We have to analyze specific situations.

His current ambiguous attitude is obviously avoiding something.

Could it be that he suppressed the desire in his heart and something went wrong, so when he felt uncomfortable, he would quietly put on women's clothing?

This is actually... not difficult to understand.

From his compulsive clean-up behavior, it can be seen that this Duelist has a slight perfectionism. He strictly abides by his own rules and regulations, and is easy to fall into rigidity and rigidity, unable to properly handle the emotions in his heart.

In other words, it is easy to go astray.

Then will he be like some people I met in my previous life, standing on tiptoe with embroidered shoes in the dead of night, holding the hem of a small skirt, and singing a song about the glory of a fake mother, long live a different dress?

It's nothing to be a fake mother, and it's nothing to wear different clothes. What you want to wear is ultimately a person's own choice.

But if the person who chooses this path is Li Zangfeng, I have to figure it out.

When I really embarked on the road of love, I realized that I didn't know enough about him, as if he didn't know the barrage in my heart. We still have a lot to learn.

If I don't ask him, he is a handsome mist, waiting for me to explore the way and solve the mystery.

Li Zangfeng, ah no, it was Mrs. Xu who immediately stopped what she was doing. I looked at him as if he was looking at fog, and he looked at me like looking at flowers. He could see it from every angle.

"If you want to ask anything, you can ask now."

I couldn't help but said: "Can you take off the disguise first? It's really hard for me to talk to you now."

The old lady Xu was silent for a moment, then turned around and went into the changing room, and when she came out after a while, he was Li Zangfeng again.

Only then did I breathe a sigh of relief, and decided to take advantage of my audacity to die.

"Why are you so proficient in women's clothing? Do you have previous experience in this area?"

Li Zangfeng said: "You have finally asked."

I was more comfortable: "Are you expecting me to ask?"

Li Zangfeng shook his head and denied, "I didn't deliberately hide this, so I kept thinking, when will you ask me?"

"I ask you to answer?"

"Why not?" Li Zangfeng passed the sharp eyes, "Could it be that you think this is something worth covering up?"

No no no dare.

Li Zangfeng could see the twinkle in my eyes, so he pressed my shoulder, and turned my gaze back gently and steadily.

"You should know that I killed people in the early years, and many of them were villains whose whereabouts were uncertain."

His eyes were burning, and I could only nod like a chicken: "I know that."

Li Zangfeng said again: "Sometimes in order to collect intelligence and prevent the target from slipping away, I have to take some extraordinary measures."

For example, hiding in the toilet and leaping at a critical moment?

Li Zangfeng added: "For example, I can pretend to be an old man, a disabled person, a woman, anyone who is not similar to me. It's just that I have to work hard before acting."

So you really have experience! ?

He continued: "I admit that these methods are not bright, and I am not proud of them, but there is no need to deliberately cover up anything. If you ask, I will answer. If you have a grudge in your heart, I can tell you get more."

I kind of understand why you can hide in the toilet.

For a person who can even take women's clothing for granted, hiding in the toilet is like a test question for a college student to take an elementary school exam.

I said: "So you said you can teach me, just because you have experience and know more than me?"

Li Zangfeng said seriously: "If you don't want me to intervene, you can try it yourself. There is a first time for everything. After passing the hurdle in your heart, you will get used to it sooner or later."

... are you used to it?

My mentality is entangled at a small level, and our progress cannot keep up with our spiritual needs. On the one hand, I really want to press his head to pour out all the water in his head. On the other hand, I really want to Obediently let him help me dress up.

Before that I asked him: "Are you enjoying the process?"

Li Zangfeng thought for a while and said, "I don't know how to enjoy tricks."

Ah, this is good, the option of womanizerism is ruled out.

Just when I felt relieved, Li Zangfeng suddenly poured a bucket of cold water on me.

"If I enjoy it, I will only enjoy the moment when I slash the knife across the other party's throat after all the hard work."

When he said this, the corner of his lips couldn't help but lift up, as if he was recalling a moment when all the hardships came to an end.

"As for the previous methods, they are just tests for me. The harder the test, the happier I will be when I succeed, so I don't hate them, nor enjoy them. They are just hurdles I want to climb over."

...I forgot who you are.

Li Zangfeng is still Li Zangfeng after all.When he saw me, he was a duelist, and when he looked at me, he paid attention to fairness and ceremony, but when he turned around, he couldn't see me, and when he saw other people who deserved to be killed, he was just Li Zangfeng.

Adu likes to die, because of his usual mental numbness, he loves the thrill of wandering on the edge of life and death, but Li Zangfeng is different, he is good at killing, enjoys killing, and even worships killing.

He longs for other people's blood in his bones, and the killing spirit in his heart is flourishing every day. There is not much difference between him and Lao Qi in essence, even if he is wearing women's clothing and hiding in the toilet, even if he is in the most embarrassing and disobedient state. At any moment, he can make a fatal blow.

Because for him, the goal of killing is more important than anything else.

As for the process and means?But it's just a little more difficult.

Li Zangfeng saw that my complexion was getting darker and darker, and I tended to get darker, so he asked, "You don't agree with what I said?"

It's not that I don't agree, it's just that there is a soft thorn in my heart, reminding me how far we are from you.

I shook my head and pressed down, and said with a slight smile: "I don't think these methods are against morality. The damned people have to die anyway. Anyway, when you meet an opponent, you will put down your methods and pay attention to justice. Why should I worry about you?"

Li Zangfeng didn't speak, just approached slowly, took a step and stopped, watched my reaction and counted the number of steps. When he got the closest, he couldn't get any closer. He could see my eyes dodging, as if he had concluded that there was a ghost in my heart.

"You're lying again."

This is seen again?

I seem to have forgotten a lot of things today. First, I forgot that he is Li Zangfeng, and second, I forgot how much he likes me.

Care as much as you like.If there is a person who is carefully pondering my expression and my words every moment, then my three tricks will always be understood.

When I was exposed, I decided to be cute and pass the test.

My hands go out of the sleeves first, caressing his forehead, close to his eyes, I try my best to exude a cute and harmless aura.It's a pity that if a person wants to be cute on purpose, the result is often unsatisfactory.Li Zangfeng didn't resist, didn't run away, but there was no disturbance, he just let my fingertips approach the most vulnerable and spiritual part of his body, I knew what he meant, he was used to me, and he saw through me.

So I said, "Your eyes are so poisonous, I really want to cover them up sometimes."

Li Zangfeng said, "You have already covered it."

"Cover what?"

"After I met you, the simpler things became more difficult for me to see clearly, like a leaf blocking my eyes, I couldn't see Mount Tai. It has already been covered, why do you need to take action?"

I paused slightly, the fingers resting between his brows and eyes were supposed to do something bad, but now they couldn't.

Li Zangfeng's eyes are the same as his person's, both simple and not simple, clear and transparent, not stained at all, but resolute and hot enough to penetrate the skin.Even if you cover your eyes with your hands, he can still see through your soul in the dark, even if you want to hide it.

Then stop hiding.

I calmed down and said calmly: "I accept my murderous nature, just because it is inevitable. I release it at will, and I can treat it as a game when the time is right. It's just that no matter how I move forward , I am all me, it is difficult for me to be A'Du, and it is also difficult for me to be you."

Li Zangfeng asked doubtfully, "Who do you think I am?"

I said, "You like duels, but I don't. You like to kill people, but I don't like it as much as you do. You like to keep improving. I just want to kill the people who should be killed and do what I should do."

I think he should have known about the fact that our three views are not compatible.

Li Zangfeng said: "I already know this."

I smiled and said, "But I also know that you walk faster than me on the road of killing people. I walk slowly, and I also like to stop to look at the scenery and think about life. Maybe one day, you will think that I am too thoughtful. If it's too complicated, you'll think I'm behind you."

Maybe he only knows now that our realms are different.

How long can Yangchun Baixue and Xialiba people go, and whether two people with different realms of three views can blend together? There are examples in history, but I just dare not think about it.

Li Zangfeng looked at me for a long time, and finally understood what I wanted to say.

"Are you afraid that I will abandon you?"

I smiled casually, and I thought it might be a bit cruel to match my next words.

"I don't know, I've been thinking about it for a long time and I can't think of it... Would you?"

If he kills a master, he will improve by one point, and if he kills a few masters, he will level up rapidly.At his speed, I'm afraid that one day his realm will be too high, and he won't be able to accommodate other emotions besides martial arts and killing. I will not be a partner to him, but an obstacle.

In Gu Long's language, he is not Ximen Chuuxue, and I am not afraid of copying Ye Gucheng's fate, I am only afraid of copying Sun Xiuqing's fate.

Li Zangfeng seemed to be calm, but his breath changed a few degrees. I couldn't see this subtle change before, but now I can see it clearly.

Li Zangfeng lowered his head, covered his expression and said, "If one day I go too far and you stay where you are..."

"Will you leave me?"

"I'll wait for you to catch up."

Li Zangfeng raised his head and slammed these words on my chest forcefully.

"If anyone in this world can catch up with me, it's only you."

I thought for a while: "What if I can't catch up?"

Li Zangfeng gritted his teeth and said, "Then I will wait too."

"Wait forever?"

"My patience is not developed in a day. I can wait for a long time. I won't wait for you until you leave me, abandon me, and betray me."

Usually it was him who stayed there, but now it was my heart that was in shock, it was me who was speechless for a long time, and it was me who kept staring at him.

His words were spoken by others, it was a glib lie.If he said it, he was serious and cooperating with the eloquence.His sincerity led the tongue, making him omnipotent, but I was only moved and shocked, and then I remembered, this is his style.

This is the Li Zangfeng I have always encountered.

A smile crept to my lips, and this time it wasn't cruel, but rather strangely philosophical.

"Sooner or later, you will see how different I am from you. What I think in my heart is very different from what you think in my heart. Will you be disappointed then? Will you feel that you have found the wrong person?"

If you, a brain-filling monster, saw my real brain hole, would you be scared to death or killed by lightning?

Li Zangfeng only gave me a strange look, and said: "If I want to find someone exactly like me, I will marry a mirror as my wife."

I immediately tasted his good intentions and his profound meaning.

This is swearing in a tactful way, you are a little mentally retarded!

He actually learned to be tactful and tactful, and he also learned not to scold me face to face!How difficult!He actually has an EQ! !

Li Zangfeng said: "What else do you want to say?"

I said, "No, please help me."

"What help?"

I pointed to the pile of false breasts, wigs and gouache and said, "Help me change into women's clothes."

Li Zangfeng asked in surprise, "Aren't you afraid?"

I smiled: "I'm very scared, but I'm not so scared when you are in front of me."

Maybe one day, I will throw my vulgarity, my superficiality, my cowardice, and other images that do not meet his expectations, all in front of him, making him surprised and silent.Or maybe he will correct my vulgarity, despise my superficiality, and hate my cowardice.

But I also learned to be fearless in the process, and shared my inner barrage with him.

Because I remembered who he was again.

Also because I just learned a little bit today.

Even if the three perspectives are different, the realms are inconsistent, and the things he thinks about are very different, he will still like me, cherish me, and never abandon me.

He also said he would wait for me where he was.

And I don't intend to keep him waiting too long.

When I thought of this, I suddenly retracted a hand into his sleeve. I took his hand and quickly ran into the small and closed changing room. After that, I stared at him for a long time, until he became hairy. I didn't understand, so I smiled and kissed his right cheek.

Li Zangfeng was stunned, but calmly wrapped his arms around my neck, and asked, "What's wrong?"

I smiled and first showed him my vulgarity.

"I'm greedy for your body, what do you say?"