Suicide

After the meal, Tang Xiyue followed her mother to clean up the dishes, and I also got up to help, but it would be more inconvenient if there were too many people, so Mother Tang asked Tang Xiyue to take me to visit Tang Xiyue's room. Tang Xiyue was a little shy He replied: My room doesn't have any nice scenery, why don't you take a look at our family's photo album?Mother!Are you okay?

Mama Tang didn't refuse or agree, the scene was a little quiet for a while, I guess Mama Tang was afraid that seeing Tang Qiling's old photos would only add to her sadness!So I suggested again: Let's go to your room to have a look!I want to see your room!I pushed Tang Xiyue and walked. Her room was on the opposite side of the living room. There was another bedroom nearby, which might belong to Tang Qiling. The door was closed.Tang Xiyue's parents' bedroom is opposite.Her family should be small and warm.

The color of Tang's room is very monotonous and pure white. There are no other fancy-looking drawings on the wall. There is only an old photo that is framed a bit avant-garde but slightly old and hangs on the white wall. The person inside should be They are a family of four, the children are still very childish, and the adults are still full of youthfulness.I dare not take a closer look at Tang Qiling's appearance, one is that I feel disrespectful, and the other is that I am afraid of being similar to me.Tang Xiyue may have seen through my thoughts, and generously introduced: He is Tang Qiling, my younger brother.Then I calmed down and took a closer look. Maybe it was because I was too young, and the outline was not very obvious. I only saw the lips slightly raised, and the eyes looked away, maybe avoiding the camera!The other three were all grinning, but Tang Qiling had a reluctance on his face, a little rebellious since he was a child, which was somewhat similar to my silence.As for Tang Xiyue, she has been beautiful since she was a child, but she is different from the ordinary vulgar beauty. When the little girl smiles, it seems that there is a pair of angel wings waving behind her, shining brightly, and it seems that she can dissolve thousands of pains and sorrows. .Maybe she is really an angel sent by God to save human beings?Tang's father and Tang's mother may be proud, if Tang Qiling can be as obedient and sensible as Tang Xiyue.But what should we do now?Tang Xiyue was also troubled by me and made a messy statement, and her qualification to study abroad was also cancelled.If one day her parents know about this, they should hate me, right?

I turned my eyes to the desk and forced myself not to think about these sad things.Tang's books were all piled up neatly, and everything in the room looked so orderly, which showed that she should be a meticulous person at ordinary times.Such a person was ruined by me, and my sense of guilt was unprecedentedly hot.A hopeless person like me is fortunate enough to know such a noble angel, and my sense of inferiority is also very strong.I don't think I can stay any longer, or my head will hurt like hell.Then she made an excuse that Aunt Bai didn't like me staying overnight, and I had to rush back. Tang Xiyue also knew Aunt Bai's temper, so she didn't try to keep her, and only said that she would go back with me.I know she saw that I was a little depressed today and worried about me, so I didn't refuse.So we briefly explained the situation to Uncle Tang and Aunt Tang, and they didn't hinder us, they just asked if they wanted to drive us off, we said we wanted to go, but we refused.I bowed deeply to them as before, said "Thank you, uncle and aunt!" and took the elevator downstairs with Tang Xiyue.There was nothing to say along the way.Finally got home!Tang Xiyue turned around and was about to leave, I couldn't stay, I knew she had lingering fears about Aunt Bai, so I said: Don't worry!And me!As he spoke, he opened the door with one hand and held Tang Xiyue with the other to prevent her from leaving.

Aunt Bai was eating in the house, and when she saw me coming back, she asked me to eat. I looked at Tang Xiyue who was timid behind me, and summoned up my courage to say, "No, I've eaten. I'm at her house. I'm afraid you will worry." I came back after eating.After speaking, I checked Aunt Bai's expression, but her expression remained unchanged, and she couldn't tell the difference between joy, anger, sorrow, and joy as usual.After I bowed to her, I took Tang Xiyue upstairs, and her voice came slowly from behind, "As long as you feel happy." I was naturally happy in my heart, better than eating candied fruit. Still happy, happier than immortality, happier than happiness.

When I came to the room, I told Tang Xiyue to sit on the bed.I rummaged through boxes and chests to find things, and soon I found that bracelet, which is a relic of Zhan Zhiling, and it is my most precious collection. Now, I want to give it to Tang Xiyue, even though it is not worth a lot, But it is by no means worthless. Judging from the color, it is still as bright as before, without the slightest dimness. The row of small diamonds on it are shining brightly. Wearing it on Tang Xiyue's snow-like hands, it must be a perfect match!This should be Zhan Zhiling's token of love, because she herself is reluctant to wear it, but often sighs at this bracelet, looking like a heartbroken person, looking extremely pitiful!

I played with this bracelet for a long time, and finally made up my mind.I held the bracelet in both hands and handed it to Tang Xiyue. Her eyes were full of surprise, fear, and hesitation, but in the end she stretched out her hand to accept it, and my heart dropped when I mentioned it in my throat.If she didn't answer, I don't know what to do, did I retract my hand with a smile?Or begging her to accept it?Fortunately, she accepted, because there is no suitable reason to reject my sincere heart.

I said to Tang Xiyue: Last time you asked me if I was gay, I didn't lie to you, I really am not.Whether it's friendship or love, it doesn't matter to me.I just want to find someone worthy of my dedication, this person is you, no one has ever touched me like this, and no one treats me sincerely like you, tolerates me and loves me, if I turn a blind eye again, wouldn’t my heart be as hard as a stone? .From now on, I am willing to listen to your words and follow your side, even though no one can change my mind, anyone or anything will try to make me leave you.If people want to narrowly define this kind of gratitude as unethical love, I am willing to bear thousands of condemnations for you.If you can't bear such a heavy love, it doesn't matter, I just watch you from a distance, you just need to live according to your wishes, if you want to get married and have children, I will bless you.As long as you are happy, I will be happy too. I am willing to share your worries and happiness with you.You don't have to feel guilty about me, you know?It was you who brought me back to life, not just life, but soul, and what I did was less than what you did for me.I am willing to be your relative, friend, lover, whatever, as long as you are happy, I don't care.

"Tang Xiyue? I'm serious."

"I know!" Tang Xiyue replied flattered, as if she couldn't believe the huge contrast between before and after.

"I know it may scare you. I don't want to wait for a second when the sky is clear. I have been thinking about what to say to you since I came out of your house. You have been in a privileged situation since you were a child. You must have never heard such clumsy words. Haven't dealt with people as low as us, haven't been attacked by gossip, unfortunately, because I and you have experienced it all."

"I sincerely hope that you can accept me, not necessarily as a friend, that is an unattainable luxury. I just ask you to sympathize with my low self-esteem and let me be a slave at your disposal, okay?"

"Look! I was so moved that I cried again!" I raised my hand and wiped away my tears. The tears were hot and burned the back of my hand a little, but I was still eagerly waiting for Tang Xiyue's answer.

She was also a little moved and confused when she heard it, and she said after she came back to her senses: How did you belittle you so lowly?You don't even know how noble you are!how beautiful!It is a great honor for me to be your friend. I don't know how much luck I have saved up to be treated sincerely by you.

"I am willing! I am willing! Be a lifelong friend, relative, or lover with you."

I put on my mother's bracelet for her, and that temperament is very much like Zhan Zhiling!

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Hope to criticize education!look at the future