Suicide

Dreams are black, as endless as the Dead Sea, and people drift on the surface of the sea all day -- helpless, enduring the sun's exposure, unable to sink into the cold seabed to escape the bright sun.so poor!Therefore, people always have to be awakened by nightmares, especially such frightening dreams.

I woke up in an empty house, dizzy and confused.The past flashed into my mind like a flash of lightning, stirring up my dusty heart for a long time and could not be calmed down.I struggled to get up in an attempt to relieve my messy thoughts, but a pair of hands pinned my shoulders. At this time, my hands were propped up on the bed below me, and I was lying on my back, so I could only push my hands in a panic. legs to free myself from the hands that were holding me.In fact, I didn't have any strength at all, I just struggled there with one breath.This way I look like a wriggling bug, which should be funny!But what happened next made me panic even more.

There was an anxious face in front of my eyes, less than two or three centimeters away from my face, accompanied by slight and deep breathing sounds, I was almost stunned, I didn’t dare to move, only heard that I was struggling too much. And the bouncing heartbeat, the burning cheeks.I have a nasty problem, that is, I automatically close my eyes to avoid embarrassment, so I closed my eyes.Tang Xiyue felt the weirdness of the atmosphere, sighed and gently put my head back on the pillow, I didn't dare to resist any more.I knew she misunderstood, so I said: Every time I am the messiest, you are by my side, but I hurt you, I'm sorry!I can't help myself, as long as I think of the past, I can't help going crazy, God knows!My heart is twisted like a knife, the past is my fatal wound, but you let me fall into it again and again, but I am not afraid, I just hurt you, it really makes me sad, I'm sorry!Yue'er, will you forgive me?Moon?I opened my eyes and looked at Tang Xiyue.

She laughed suddenly, squinted her eyes and said in a slightly intoxicated manner: You look so cute when you are angry!

Just this one sentence made me hear the sound of a stubborn heart melting away.I know that Tang Xiyue may be everything for the rest of my life.

I didn't have words to express my thoughts at the moment, so I had to wait in silence for the time to pass. Tang Xiyue just smiled as usual, and we didn't plan to say anything more.

Fortunately, Aunt Bai opened the door and came in and told us to go downstairs for dinner, and I realized that we were at my own home.I handed Tang Xiyue my hand, and she held my hand and walked downstairs with me.

After sitting down, Aunt Bai said: You have been fainting frequently recently, I am afraid that the old disease may recur, why don't you go see a doctor?It's also good for me to rest assured.

I smiled and replied: It's just a low mood, and it will never happen again in the future!After finishing speaking, he said again as if he believed in something, 'it will never happen again'.

Aunt Bai didn't force me anymore, she knew my temper well, and it's hard to change the things I've decided.

The next day arrived, and it was another cloudy and rainy day.But when Tang Xiyue and I rushed to the school with an umbrella, we received a lot of strange looks along the way. The feeling was indescribable, and it contained some elements of surprise, probably because I wondered why a single person like me had such a strange look overnight. accompanied.It was also accompanied by a strong smell of exclamation, probably aimed at Tang Xiyue, because Tang Xiyue has always been active and beating, so how could she have anything to do with a lonely monster like me.If I followed my previous behavior, I would definitely not raise my eyes to look at anyone, but because of Tang Xiyue, I actually wanted to see what other people's eyes looked like, so I just looked at those staring eyes one by one. My people, unexpectedly, when I looked at them, they dodged instead of looking at me.I was a little lost for a moment, and I remembered a sentence "When you hang your head and want to be conquered, you lose your noble charm."

Seeing that I was in a daze, Tang Xiyue tugged at the corner of my clothes and said, "I'm in the classroom."I hummed and followed her into the classroom.But I am always confused, is it that if I get it, I will lose the meaning of chasing it?If there is no meaning, human beings waste all their efforts to hunt for love, and in the end it is just to pass on the family instead of protecting love; if it is meaningful, why do people show a tasteless expression after getting it?Headache!

"What are you thinking? You look puzzled," Tang Xiyue asked me while sitting next to me.I was a little embarrassed, because I always stayed alone in my personal space to figure out some things, ignoring the existence of Tang Xiyue, so I told Tang Xiyue what I just thought.

Unexpectedly, Tang Xiyue burst out laughing. Seeing my complexion turn from red to blue, she suppressed her smile, and said in a stuttering way: Your worldly sophistication is too rough and lacking!The reason why those people dare not look at you anymore is not because you paid attention to them and they lost interest in you, but because they are a little guilty. After all, it is impolite to look at people with that kind of eyes. They are afraid!She's trying to pretend that nothing happened!Of course, there is another important reason, which is...

"What is it?" I leaned over my ears to listen.

"Your cold eyes are so beautiful that ordinary people can't resist."

I can hardly believe that Tang Xiyue would make such a joke with me, but I still pretended to be calm and said: Really?

Tang Xiyue suddenly said with a heavy face: Even I have some..., then coughed and said: Your mother must be very beautiful, otherwise how could you look so cute.I saw that her serious expression didn't look like she was joking, so I replied: You don't hate it.

I have never experienced the feeling of being surrounded by eyes. Today, I am really being watched non-stop, which makes me feel like a light on my back. I am trembling all day long, so I have to follow Tang Xiyue inseparably.Maybe it's because I don't know the range of Tang Xiyue's charm, or I underestimated my own charm. In short, she became the focus in an instant, and I felt very depressed.You know, when everyone's eyes meet, the burst of light will kill people. I really don't like being used as a chatterbox after dinner.If I was still alone, I would have no scruples, but now I am with Tang Xiyue, I have to consider her feelings and situation, hey!I really asked myself to be bound by vines.

Still, it's a sweet burden!

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