Suicide

About a week later, Tang Xiyue told me that she was ready and could go back to China the next day, and I also replied that I could leave at any time here, as long as we met at the airport tomorrow.

I'm still hesitating whether to tell the boss about me and Tang Xiyue. If they really can't accept it, I can move out. If they can accept it and I choose to hide it, will they think I'm a hypocrite in the end? Dare to love but not dare to be.I finally decided to have an open and honest talk with them.

I went back to the dormitory after class ended in the afternoon, and after about an hour, they all came back one after another.I sat on the chair, sweating a little from nervousness.Seeing that they were busy with each other, they didn't have time to say hello to me.

"Boss? I tested her mood timidly."

"Hmm! What's the matter?" She turned her head and smiled, waiting for my answer.

"I'm going back to China tomorrow to deal with some housework. I may not be back until later. Can I ask you to help me fill in some things I don't understand?"

"What housework? Is it important? How soon will you be back?"

Looking at the concerned expression of the boss, I suddenly felt that I should confess everything instead of worrying about their attitude stupidly.

I stood up and straightened my figure and said in a serious tone: I am in love, do you mind?

They all stared at me with strange eyes, but Meng Yan broke the deadlock, "It's love! What's the big deal, it's worth making a fuss about." She rolled her eyes at me mischievously, the boss pushed her, smiled and said: As long as you're happy, I'll bring you a staff officer to help you, let's see if it's okay?Don't turn around and bully you.

"You've seen her, do you think she and I are a perfect match?" I asked pleadingly, waiting for their answer with a look of frustration.

"The one from Cambridge?"

I nodded.

Zhang Ning, who had been silent all this time, suddenly asked, "That woman? Tang Xiyue?"

I squeezed out a bitter smile, "She is the first person in the world who treats me well, and she is also my only love. Before I saw you, I have been separated from her for three years. Many previous problems cannot be resolved easily. The problem caused me to leave her. When we meet again, we want to grow old together.”

You are my rare friends, I would rather you hate me than choose to lie to others.If I have your blessings, it will be my luck; if you are too annoying, I will move out when I come back, and I won't embarrass you.I didn't exhale another breath, not a word, and waited for the imminent execution or release.

The boss's originally brisk voice suddenly became hoarse, and he said teasingly: I hoped to take care of you for a few more years, but now it's good, someone is willing to suffer this, and it's too late to be happy!

Zhang Ning, Meng Yan, you guys?I still begged with a bitter face.

"That girl is pretty, she seems to be very nice to you, last time you fainted, and you ran faster than a thief holding you! If you like that, you can do whatever you want!" Meng Yan joked with a smile.

Zhang Ning, how about you?

Zhang Ning said calmly: "I feel that she is a little indifferent. Will you be too boring together? What's the attitude of her family? Don't fall in love with the wrong person!"

"She was quite friendly before, maybe because she has experienced a lot, so she seems more mature. As for her family, take it easy, I just need to trust her. If I don't love her, my life will be worse than death." Are you satisfied with the answer?Zhang Ning, I am seriously answering your question.

"What about your family?"

I will explain these to you when I come back. It is a long story and it is not convenient to talk about it today.

Thank you for your understanding, otherwise, I really don't know what to do, I love Tang Xiyue and you, and I would be heartbroken if I abandon anyone.

"Really?"

Um!real!I went up and hugged the boss, and kissed her on the lips.I'm in such a good mood, I feel a little blocked if I don't kiss, but after the kiss, I regret it.The boss looked at me blankly, I stuck out my tongue and said: Sorry, I didn't mean it.

Zhang Ning and Meng Yan were also a little confused, I took advantage of the situation and walked over, kissed both of them on the cheeks, and returned to the original place.

Meng Yan yelled again: "Why is it the lips that kiss the boss, and the faces that kiss both of us!"

I said, then you come up, and I will marry you.

Unexpectedly, the two of them really came up, so I had no choice but to bite the corners of their mouths.It turns out that as long as that person is not Tang Xiyue, I will not change my expression and my heart will not beat.

"You are in a good mood today, so you can get a few kisses from you. After that, there will be no such advantages." They all smiled.

I also smiled.Turning back and weeping.

Tomorrow I will leave school to find out if I am Xu Rouying, I have to bring Zhan Zhiling's suicide note, so that people don't think I am crazy.I wiped the tears on my face with my sleeve. The boss handed me a tissue and said sarcastically, "When did you become so casual? Use your clothes to wipe your nose!"

"I didn't!" I said almost guilty.

"What is that for?" asked the boss.

I can't tell the truth that I just wiped my tears, so I silently took the tissue.

The next day, I went home with Tang Xiyue at the London airport.We both feel a little heavy, and there are a lot of things that make me uneasy. The first is whether I can meet the real Xu Rouying, and the second is if Zhou Tinger’s mother is really Xu Rouying, how should I face her?How should I treat Xu Rouying?Think of her as Zhan Zhiling?Do you regard Zhou Tinger as a younger sister?What a contradiction!Tang Xiyue seemed to be in a bad mood, and her face was a little stiff. I held her hand and forced a smile to convey my bravery to her. Her other hand covered the hand we held together, and slowly Comforting my pretended strength.

"Xiaoyu! If I didn't take you to meet my parents this time, would you think I don't love you?"

"You always have your own ideas, and I listen to you."

"Thank you for understanding me. You are not suitable to visit my parents at the moment. They misunderstood you deeply three years ago. I don't want you to be wronged."

"I know, don't worry, I won't care about these."

The next day, the flight arrived in Zhifan City. We stayed in the hotel for one night. During this time, Tang Xiyue contacted Zhou Tinger and told us the purpose of our trip. Zhou Tinger was silent on the phone for a long time, and then let out a long sigh of helplessness. What should come will always come.

The closer it is to dawn, the more troublesome all kinds of thoughts are, and the people who are pestered are restless.So the next day I got up with a haggard face. After washing up, Tang Xiyue saw that I was really ugly, so she put on a neutral makeup to make me look more energetic.I jokingly said: "Later, if it's really Xu Rouying, in case my legs are weak, you have to support me."

"Well, I will always stand by your side." Tang Xiyue said firmly.

Inexplicably, I felt my heart warm and my nose sore.

Zhou Tinger did not tell her mother the real purpose of our visit, so that when we arrived at her house, her mother was still lying in bed. It was already noon, and an adult was still lying in bed, either lazy or sick.

Zhou Tinger went to tell her that some classmates were coming to play, and after asking her to come down to eat together, it took a long time to see her go downstairs slowly, with loose clothes and hair scattered everywhere, the whole person looked very decadent, very Unkempt and absent-minded, how could he be Zhan Zhiling's girlfriend like a fairy.

She didn't even look us in the eye, she just went into the bathroom, which is really unreasonable.Zhou Tinger helplessly spread her hands, expressing that she was used to it.

When she came out of the bathroom, we were already sitting at the dining table waiting.Seeing her serious and unsmiling appearance, she looks a bit like her.I hurriedly took the photo and compared it. I was shocked by the comparison. My heart was in my throat. The real person and the photo are not the same. It seems that time has not killed her, and her eyebrows and eyes are still frozen In the good state of the past, her demeanor is as cold as the one in the photo, different from Zhan Zhiling's.I hurriedly got up tremblingly and bowed. "Aunt?"

Only then did she raise her eyelids to look at me, her eyes changed from indifference to joy, as if her tears flowed down in just an instant.She walked up to me slowly, held my shoulders with both hands, shook me, and murmured in her mouth: "You are back at last, but I am old, Ling, I thought I would never see you again It’s your turn, where did you go? What kind of suffering did you suffer? You’re so thin! I’m really hopeless, I can’t do anything, I’ve made you look like this, and I’m hiding far away! Hate, I hate myself so much, don't forgive me, don't..."

In fact, looking carefully, Tang Xiyue is just like my mother Zhan Zhiling. I was a little dazed about her face before.However, Xu Rouying only took one look at me, and she was sure that I was Zhan Zhiling, and it seemed that I was really the one I loved.

I sighed, and pushed Xu Rouying away, "You're mistaken, I'm not Zhan Zhiling, but her daughter, I found you according to my mother's will to fulfill her last wish."

Xu Rouying was a little dumbfounded, and it took me a while to reply, "A will? Why? Say it again!"

"Yes, my mother has indeed passed away. It happened 13 years ago, so I don't need to mention it. My mother hoped to entrust me to you before she was alive, but I didn't expect it to happen. I just met today. I hope you don't have to be too sad, This is exactly my mother's wish, you want to start your own life, be happy, and don't get stuck in the mud of the past." I finally finished these words with a sigh of relief.

She came over and hugged me again, tears streaming down my neck and sliding down my back, still warm.I slowly patted her on the back to comfort her, and forced back many accumulated questions.Now is not the time.

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After finishing this part, I will only write novels that reflect reality