Suicide

Ever since I showed my heart to Tang Xiyue, I have been in a happy mood all the time. Even Meng Yan and the others found it a little unbelievable, especially when they saw me grinning and showing a sincere smile, they even expressed that they couldn't stand me. So down to earth!I am noncommittal.

Tang Xiyue and I can't meet often because we are in different schools, so we mostly send messages or chat via video.I was also afraid of being discovered by my roommates, so I always found time to contact each other when everyone was away.Gradually, I couldn't stand this kind of interaction, so I told Tang Xiyue what was on my mind.I said that I want to find a place that is convenient for Tang Xiyue and me, so that we live together, so that we can avoid the pain of lovesickness, and secondly, we can talk about love openly, and there is no need to hide it .Tang Xiyue didn't refuse or agree. I thought she might not have enough money to pay the rent, so I hurriedly said: Don't worry, I have enough money to buy a house here.

She said slowly: "Apart from our parents, there is no need to hide other irrelevant people. You can honestly tell them that I am your lover. If they feel disgusted, it is okay to move out again." Not too late."

I only loved my mother at first, but when she died, Aunt Bai was the only one I could rely on. After Aunt Bai died, I only had Tang Xiyue. Tang Xiyue still has to live in the crowd, so she can't be separated from the crowd.I was dumbfounded thinking in my heart.

Zhang Xiaoyu!Zhang Xiaoyu!Tang Xiyue shouted angrily on the screen, you are not allowed to leave me again!

I rolled her eyes and blamed her: Can you stop thinking too much?

"I didn't think too much about it. It was this thoughtful expression that you left three years ago. Did you hear that, I won't allow you to leave me!"

"Then why didn't you agree to live together?"

"I will graduate from graduate school soon. I will prepare various topics, write a thesis, and come out to earn money to support you. At that time, we will buy a house in the most peaceful place in London, build our love nest, and move my laboratory Go there, when you are tired of me, I will do experiments, and the income will be able to feed us both! Do you think it is okay?"

"Listen to this, you should be good at school, why don't you continue your master's and doctoral studies?"

"My mentor also mentioned to me that before I see you again, I plan to continue reading. After all, I don't hate this way of life, and my parents expect me to do so. But it's different now, I see I'm looking at you, you are my plan A, and all plan B can only stand aside. Do you think I am a little emotional when I say this? But I just want to be with you as soon as possible and give you a family like Warm, I will take you to see all the beautiful scenery and give you an unprecedented sense of security. Master and Ph. Can protect you! So you don’t have to worry about anything and hide, you know? Fool, I want us to be together forever and never separate again!”

"I know, as you wish, we will never be separated until the end of time." I said with tears in my eyes.

"Tell me, since I met you, my tears have been flowing non-stop. It is obviously touching, and it will flow down uncontrollably. But you, you seem to be very strong, and you are always unsmiling. Compared with You have made too many changes for me in the past! Thank you! Yue’er! Really, without you, I might still be the monster who was heartless and lustless before! I..."

"Don't say that about yourself, you are fine now, just the way I like it, you are soft and weak, you can tell me everything, and you are much more cheerful. You are my dream lover. I always wanted you to be happy back then. , all these have come true! You see, God treats us kindly, as long as we have a little more time, we can live together and fly together. Don't keep thinking about other messy thoughts, don't think about leaving me. Xiaoyu! Believe me, okay?"

"I believe in you!" In my lifetime, there is someone who makes me trust her more than myself, love her more than myself, I am so happy!So satisfying!

Xiaoyu!I have one thing to tell you about Zhou Tinger.are you listening?

I nodded and thought to myself: Could it be that Zhou Tinger told Yueer about what I asked her to do?My heart suddenly pounded.

"Do you know who was responsible for the fact that we were gay back then? We might have just wanted to be good friends at the time, but we were torn apart abruptly."

"It's Zhou Tinger?" I asked cautiously.

"Well! After you left, I was in a very painful mood. Seeing that I was depressed, she told me that everything about you was a rumor made by her, but she was not groundless, because she found your story when she was helping the teacher organize our files. In the column of family relations, it was found that it says 'father is unknown, mother has been imprisoned in a mental hospital for maintaining an improper relationship with a same-sex friend.

I scolded her, saying that we are not in that relationship.

She also scolded me as an idiot, saying that you love me so much that you don't even care about everything, and you are willing to go to the countryside to live in seclusion in this life for my fame, but I am still willing to degenerate, passive, and let me down Mind.

I asked her why she knew so clearly, and she told me what you asked them to do before you left.I thought about it, and it seems that what you did was right. I have no money, no ability, but only a good skin and a heart that loves you. Sooner or later, I have to say goodbye. Why don't you work harder while you are young? , Maybe we will meet again in the future, and I can still shelter you from the wind and rain, and we will be together forever.

I sighed and said, "Don't blame Zhou Ting'er, she is also doing it for our own good."

"I know, but as long as I think of her slandering your reputation like that, I feel uncomfortable, so I naturally avoided her."

She came to me and said that she wanted to save my friendship. After all, our friends for many years are no better than Zhang Xiaoyu. I didn't say anything, I just wanted to be silent, I just wanted to work harder, and I can protect you when I see you again one day.

But she said her mother Seo Yoo Young is also gay,

He has no love for her father at all, and has never hugged her even once after giving birth to her. He always looks cold, but his father still loves her very much.Zhou Tinger went to her room to look through her private messages and found out that she had a girlfriend, but she had to break up due to family pressure.Zhou Tinger was taught by her father because of this matter, so she became even more indifferent to Zhou Tinger.

No wonder Zhou Tinger always looked a bit bored when she looked at me, there was a reason for that.Her family relationship is so complicated, it comes from her mother, no wonder she tried every means to separate me and Tang Xiyue, because she predicted that we would not be able to get together, and ended up ruining another family instead.

But I always feel that something is wrong, Xu Rouying!Xu Rouying!I muttered involuntarily, the name was so familiar, but I couldn't remember it for a while.

"What's wrong? Xiaoyu, is there something wrong?" Tang Xiyue asked anxiously on the other side of the screen.

"It's okay! I just think the name Xu Rouying is very familiar, as if I've seen it somewhere."

It's normal, in the vast world, there are too many people with the same name and surname.Don't think too big.

"Oh! I remembered, my mother's former lover was named Xu Rouying! Could it be such a coincidence? I still have her photo, which my mother attached to the suicide note, so that I can find news about Xu Rouying in the future."

To tell the truth, my mother objected to my going out with my comrades. She clearly stated in her suicide note that I should not get entangled with any woman, otherwise I would dream of getting Zhang Guangji's protection in the future.This is true. If that person is not Tang Xiyue, I will listen to them. After all, the price Zhan Zhiling paid is too high. I don't want to gamble my life like this, but that person is Tang Xiyue. What is the future? I don't care about it, as long as we are in the same boat through thick and thin.

"If you want to confirm, we can go back to China together. If yes, you can fulfill your mother's wish; if not, I can also apologize to Zhou Tinger by the way. How many years have passed since I came to this foreign country , I have never contacted them again. I don’t know how everyone is doing? And my parents, I don’t contact the elders very much, so I just gave them a surprise. Okay?”

"Thank you for being so considerate."

"Okay, I'll go back together after I finish my work in a few days."

"I'm waiting for you!"