Suicide

The other three roommates basically forgot about me.I don't know why I am always easily ignored by others.I have carefully studied my expression. Although I have a bit of ashes, but I don't have such a hateful smile. Why do all people isolate me?Maybe it's because I'm too silent, and I don't like being in a daze all the time!Life is here, I can do nothing.

Speaking of which, I didn't wander around the campus all the time. To be precise, I didn't have a few face-to-face encounters with those local students.Anyway, there was a man who asked me to be his girlfriend with flowers. Seeing his expression, he was a little embarrassed and shy. I know that rejecting people should not be too direct, otherwise it will cause irreparable damage. However, I have no experience in this area, so I had no choice but to squeeze out a smile and tell him in as gentle a tone as possible that I didn't want to fall in love.

He scratched his head, turned around and left without saying anything.I breathed a sigh of relief and turned around to leave.On the way back, I was still thinking that being in love has no passion and attraction for me, it doesn’t matter if I’m single or not, because no one in this world can impress me any more, and for no reason, Tang Xiyue's face, I had no choice but to shake my head to shake her back.

If you want to be cared for by others, you have to care about others first.I brought home roast duck from a Chinese restaurant to share with my roommates, and I didn't want to look so alone.Inviting them to dinner hastily might seem a little flattering, so it's better to bring something with you.

Back in the bedroom, they were all there.I asked if I wanted to eat roast duck. I bought it, but their eyes were rather strange. I raised the duck in my hand, and smiled to signal them to come and eat.Zhang Ning put down the book in her hand and came over, touched my forehead, then touched the duck meat in my hand, said "it's hot", took the meat over and beckoned the two of them to come and eat too.I took a bench and sat next to them, Meng Yan gave me a duck leg, I said I didn't take it after I ate it.The boss looked at me while eating, and the atmosphere was a bit weird, so I cleared my throat and said: Although we are all children from the same country, we all have different personalities, especially when I was a child because of the complicated family situation, which made me look a bit weird. Difficult to get along with, if everyone is willing to tolerate me, I am willing to help you where I can.

The three of them nodded in agreement and said: You are indeed a little unreasonable.

I hope you can take me with you, I was really a little cold before.

It doesn't matter!Please eat the roast duck.

I smiled and nodded!

They really took me with me in class the next day. I was a little bit conflicted, but then I thought that people live in groups and there is no reason to be alone, so I let them.When I walked into the classroom, they all sat next to me. I am still not used to being surrounded by many people, but I am willing to do so, so that I won’t stand out from the crowd, and to put it bluntly, I won’t look out of place.

I saw that man was in our class, but I remember that there was no such person in our class, he must have come to listen!I guess.I just hope I don't bump into him after class, or I won't be able to hold my head up in front of my roommates.

Things always go against our wishes.He stood in front of me after class, and I was immediately irritated, and my face changed instantly.He immediately panicked and explained that he just wanted to get to know me better.

I replied blankly: Whatever you want.He dragged Zhang Ning and the others away.

Back in the dormitory, none of the three of them came to gossip about me. It turned out that everyone grew up like this. Although they were extremely curious in their hearts, their mouths were tight.

I don't know that guy, I just want to be friends with you three, I don't have energy for others.

The three of them burst into laughter. If you didn't have the three of us, would you have the energy to take care of that man?Meng Yan asked like this.

I was a little stunned by her question and didn't know how to answer it.The boss laughed: In fact, that man is quite handsome. If you don't like him, you don't have to show a blood-splattered expression. He's quite embarrassing.

I'm not interested in love, anyone else will have this expression.

Indeed, you seem to be an ascetic person, Zhang Ning said.We will be miserable. If you are ugly, no one loves you. It's like being targeted when you first came here.

Seeing her playful look, I suddenly wanted to hug her and tell her that I would rather talk more and look more approachable than have this innocuous face, but I didn’t say Exit, so I shed tears.

This is the second time I have shed tears in front of someone I don't know well.I saw the boss push Zhang Ning, Zhang Ning came over timidly and said: Don't be sad, I don't know you don't like to hear this, I won't say it next time.

I looked at her and said, "Come here and lend me a hug?"

She groaned and put my head on her stomach, because I was sitting, she patted my back, trying to relieve my crying breath.

Xiaoyu, why is your back so thin?It felt so weird that Zhang Ning couldn't help asking.

I don't know, I was born that way, and other than my cardiorespiratory fitness is a bit weak, it doesn't affect much.

Both the boss and Xiaomeng came over and touched it. It was indeed too thin. It felt like there was only a layer of paper separating them, and they could both feel the sound of the heartbeat. The boss described it like this.I burst into tears suddenly.

How about we go out to eat?I'll pay the bill, you can eat whatever you want, I propose.Seeing that I was a little happy, they agreed.Is that Western food or Chinese food?I asked them.

Of course it's Chinese food, it tastes like home, Xiao Meng shouted.

OK, let's go to the old Chinese restaurant then!After ordering a table of dishes and drinking a little wine to go with it, I felt a little drunk, and then they carried me back to the dormitory, carried me to the bed, and covered me with a quilt.It turns out that being cared for can really be so wonderful!Is it because I am good-looking, so everyone can tolerate me more.I don't care about people, I don't know how to laugh, and I have an indifferent personality.So everyone pities me?Tang Xiyue.

When I sobered up the next day, I propped myself up on my hands and sat up. I was a little surprised at how laborious the movement seemed.The boss hurried over and said: You won't be sick, are you?I faltered and said that there should be no, maybe I am not used to drinking bars.

She stared at me with her eyes, which clearly meant: Don’t drink if you can’t drink it, but she said: I’m as thin as a feather, eat more food.I hastened to please nodded.

In fact, you don't need to be angry about what happened yesterday. It's a good thing to be confessed by others, and it's not worth it.

I don't know how, I don't like it because I can't reciprocate.I don't even know how to love someone, I don't want to owe others, I looked at her after I finished speaking.

The boss shrugged his shoulders and said with a calculating smile: That's too bad. Don't you owe me too much for the bed I hugged you in yesterday?

This is different, you are not my lover!I answered.

I am willing!The boss blurted out as if joking.

Do not make jokes!I said with a little red face.