Suicide

I left without saying goodbye to Tang Xiyue in any form.She is the person I love the most in my life. If it weren't for her future, I really want to stay by her side for the rest of my life. Even if she gets bored by it, I will still stubbornly guard her. It's okay to play any inconspicuous role, as long as you stay by her side.

Aunt Bai also moved away with me, and she was almost obedient to me.We moved to the quiet and remote countryside and lived an isolated life, repeating the monotonous and pure life every day, and slowly everything seemed to return to peace.

Without Tang Xiyue, I became a nun with no desires and desires again.

Until now, I don't know why Tang Xiyue and I came to this point?But I don't regret it at all, my Xiyue Angel, it is you who drew love and care in my short life, without your intervention, I would be bleak.I don't regret leaving you. Compared with your colorful future, I have become insignificant. For your splendid life, even if you ask me to die immediately, I can do it, let alone just leave you.

Zhou Ting'er described Tang's situation to me on the phone. As expected, I didn't speak, so I just hung up.People who love me are always sad for me, such as Tang Xiyue.The reason why Zhou Tinger called me was because I asked her to tell me about Tang's recent situation, and she agreed.Now it seems that it is better not to know.Tang Xiyue hasn't gone to class for a month, and she is depressed every day and has a loss of appetite. All her old friends have gone to visit and inspect, but they still haven't improved.Her parents finally realized that our relationship was extraordinary, and they hurriedly asked people to inquire about me, but they found nothing.

I knew it might be a bit uncomfortable after parting, but I didn't expect it to be this serious.I wanted to see Tang Xiyue and tell her that I would never be separated again, but then I thought about it, instead of being torn apart when I was deeply in love, it would be better to break it up now, treat her better, and then I will pursue other things. Don't worry about this much on me.

Two or three years later, Zhou Tinger hardly contacted me anymore. I know that Tang Xiyue has completely forgotten me. Indeed, my decision was right at the beginning. Losing me alone, Tang gained a group of good friends. If I was stubborn at the beginning My own opinion stays with her, now we have incurred a lot of curses, I don’t want to destroy me and then destroy her, to this day, she is still my favorite and most precious person, even if we still have no chance to meet in this life, Nor will my mind change.

The last time she answered Zhou Tinger's phone call, she said that Tang Xiyue was going abroad soon, and she would not come back until three years after studying abroad.After she finished speaking, she sighed meaningfully: So many things can happen in three years!Such as marriage, such as forgetting.I said: But my thoughts will not change for 30 years, 300 years, and I will always carry that blessing and admiration without changing.After I finished speaking, I hung up the phone and prepared to never contact me.

Three days later, Aunt Bai's father passed away.We returned to Zhifan City to hold a funeral for Aunt Bai's father.Everyone seemed to know that there was another daughter in the Bai family, and they all looked surprised. Aunt Bai took my hand. We walked into the mourning hall, and we finished bowing under everyone's scrutinizing and suspicious eyes. Aunt Bai held my hand again. I knocked my head three times before slowly exiting the mourning hall.

I don’t know if it’s because I feel mixed feelings when I come back to this city, or because my eyes are dim. In the mourning hall, I saw Zhang Guangji holding a picture of Aunt Bai’s father in his hand, and staring at me in sackcloth and filial piety, but the tears on his face seemed to be overly sad. My filial son, if Aunt Bai hadn't forced me to kowtow, I might have turned around and left.

I have a lot of questions in my mind, but it is not convenient to ask questions on any occasion, and my heart is stuffy.

Aunt Bai just dragged me away, ignoring the voices talking behind me.Finally, she stopped in front of a room on the second floor. Aunt Bai restrained her panting breath, carefully arranged her clothes and hair, and then knocked on the door and entered.The room was large, but it was a bit dark. When I looked closely, I found that there was a person lying on the bed in the corner. He was already very old and looked haggard.After we turned on the light, she struggled to get up. After she sat down firmly, she reached out to the bedside table to get the reading glasses. Seeing this, Aunt Bai hurriedly took the glasses and handed them to her. She took the glasses and said: He said thank you, and then put on his glasses slowly, his dim eyes suddenly became calm and confident, and he fixedly looked at Aunt Bai.I saw Aunt Bai knelt down in front of the bed with a bang, choked up with sobs and said: Mother!Fengrou is here to see you!

It turns out that Aunt Bai's full name is Bai Fengrou, and this is the first time I know it.

The old lady seemed to ignore her daughter who was kneeling on the ground, she turned to look at me, and asked: Who are you?

Aunt Bai hurriedly said: "She is my brother's daughter, and I have a great fate with me, so I have been living with me all the time."

"Lie! Your brother didn't even get married, and there are children from there."

"You can deny that marriage, but you can't deny this child. She has endured hardship since she was a child, and has never enjoyed any care from her family. Her personality has become tough and weird. Do you have the heart to let the blood of the Zhang family be shed outside? Bullying? Mom! Can't you persuade Big Brother to treat this child better? Why are you so cruel to this child?"

The old lady's expression was a little flustered, as if she never knew that she had a granddaughter, and the way she looked at me became gentle and kind in an instant.I was completely confused, and my thoughts were in a mess. Aunt Bai called Zhang Guangji brother, so wouldn't their mother be the one in front of me—my grandma? But why did Aunt Bai choose Bai instead of Zhang?stop!stop!stop!It's a lot of trouble, I can't figure it out.

The old lady said again: If they were really descendants of my Zhang family, they would not be allowed to live on the streets.It's just that your brother never told me that she had a child with that woman, and this matter needs to be discussed in the long term.

When I heard her call Zhan Zhiling "that woman", I couldn't help being angry, and said immediately: "Who cares about going back to Zhang's house? Even if Zhang Guangji came to beg me, I wouldn't come back. Why bother?"

Aunt Bai pulled me violently, motioning me not to continue, so I stopped talking.

I pulled Aunt Bai up from the ground, and Aunt Bai bowed again and said: "My daughter is under the presidency of my mother, and I beg her to bring some happiness to this child. My daughter is not filial. I will say goodbye today. I don't know when I will see you again." Please take care of your mother!After finishing speaking, he pulled me around and left.

But I heard the old lady shouting from behind: Xiaorou!Are you going to leave forever?You never begged me, but made an exception again and again today, did you really make up your mind to stay away from me?

Auntie Bai trembled while holding my hand, and said in a trembling voice, "If my daughter hadn't been desperate, she would never have violated her oath to beg mother. She wanted to entrust this child to father. Father loves me so much, so he will definitely Treat this child well, not to mention that she is still a member of the Zhang family, but she never thought that my father would take a step earlier and my plan would fail, so she made such a plan to trouble my mother.I also hope that the mother can protect the child from harm during her lifetime. She may not be able to get the love of her brother for the rest of her life, but I hope that she can spend this life safely, and I hope that the mother will fulfill her daughter's dying wish!

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After this chapter, the plot becomes more and more complicated, the characters become more and more complex, and the feelings will change from innocent to flawed.