Heart Medicine

On a snowy night, Song Liusheng didn't feel cold at all.Because he was hugged tightly by You Jingxing at this time, like a dream when he was young, romantic and beautiful, he didn't want to wake up.

But now it is not a dream, everything is real and sensible.

You Jingxing, who was running over in a hurry just now, was breathing heavily at this time, and his warm breath sprayed on Song Liusheng's cheeks and ears.Not only that, because the two were too close and their chests were touching, Song Liusheng could also feel You Jingxing's heartbeat, which was strong and powerful.

Song Liusheng was still in a daze, he hadn't seen him for nearly half a year, but You Jingxing not only appeared suddenly, but also hugged him so tightly when they met.

You Jingxing also felt a little unbelievable at this moment, his arms couldn't help tightening, as if the tighter he hugged Song Liusheng, the more he could feel Song Liusheng's existence, and he was sure that he was real.

They were originally separated by two places. This time, they traveled to the south to discuss projects. After finishing work, he wanted to inquire about Dr. Xu Mingyan Xu, so he stayed in several big cities in the south for a few days.

When he arrived in this city, it was close to Christmas, and the Christmas Eve night was relatively lively, so the tour company came out to take a look around.

Unexpectedly, across an overpass, You Jingxing saw Song Liusheng dressed as Santa Claus.Although the distance was a bit far, he was sure that that familiar figure was Song Liusheng.

"You... You Jingxing?" Song Liusheng softly called out his name.

"Well, I'm here." You Jingxing responded immediately, loosening his arms slightly, and met Song Liusheng's gaze, "I'm here, from now on, I'll always be here."

Song Liusheng blinked, facing his eager eyes, a little surprised and at a loss.

Snowflakes fell on Song Liusheng's hair, and You Jingxing reached out to stroke him, and suddenly touched his face again, and immediately felt a piece of ice cold under his palm.

So, You Jingxing quickly took off his scarf, and he moved gently, wrapping it around Song Liusheng's neck.

Song Liusheng looked down at the scarf with a strawberry pattern, his cheeks became hot immediately, he took two steps back, and distanced himself from You Jingxing by a short distance.

"You...how did you come?"

"I'm here to ask you to be responsible, to me." You Jingxing raised his eyebrows and smiled, and Song Liusheng was still familiar with the brilliant smile.

Song Liusheng recalled too many past events in an instant, especially that incident.

When he first entered the high school campus, he was once bullied by senior seniors. Song Liusheng once knelt in front of those demons, like a pitiful dog. Enter and save Song Liusheng.

Soon after, under the introduction of Song Liusheng, You Jingxing met Xu Mingyan.The two greeted each other briefly, some topics were inconvenient to talk about in front of Song Liusheng, and then they went to talk elsewhere for a while.

"Doctor Xu, I've heard of you for a long time, and I've wanted to see you for a long time."

"Don't be so polite, I'm just an ordinary person." Xu Mingyan shook his head, then raised his beautiful eyebrows, "You want to see me? It should be just a cover, the person you really want to see is Liu Sheng, right? Mr. You. "

Xu Mingyan's words and deeds always gave You Jingxing a feeling that he knew himself before, and You Jingxing asked: "Doctor Xu, did Liu Sheng mention me to you before?"

"He didn't say anything in detail. Once, he only mentioned a former high school classmate who is now his boss. When I saw you today, I guess it must be you, Mr. You."

After working in this business for a long time, Xu Mingyan became more and more sensitive and knew how to read people's hearts.Although Song Liusheng didn't reveal anything about his relationship, he knew that there was always someone hidden in Song Liusheng's heart.

He finally saw it today.

You Jingxing smiled and did not deny it, but he had never heard Song Liusheng mention this Dr. Xu, after all Song Liusheng had been concealing his illness and some of his special hobbies.

Without making any further detours, You Jingxing's attitude was sincere: "Doctor Xu, since you are Liu Sheng's psychiatrist and have been in contact with and communicating with him, can you tell me about his illness in detail?"

"Yes." Xu Mingyan nodded, and then he continued, "There are some complex groups of people in society. Among them, men who wear women's clothing may have gender identity disorders, fetishes and transvestites, etc., or they are just pure Out of love, and no mental illness, can not be simply defined.

Liu Sheng is an acquired femme fatale, his family environment, especially his mother's education from an early age, has influenced him a lot..."

Xu Mingyan said a lot to You Jingxing, and You Jingxing listened patiently.He frowned and clenched his fists from time to time, but it was not because of repulsion or disgust, but because he felt sorry for Song Liusheng's experience.

Xu Mingyan understands that You Jingxing is not the same person as him and Song Liusheng, he has a normal sexual orientation and no bad habits, he has both good character and learning since he was a child, and he grew up in a comfortable and wealthy environment.

What is commendable is that there is no trace of arrogance in You Jingxing's character, and he is willing to understand and respect different groups.His eyes are always black and bright, and his body seems to have a smell of sunshine.

Anyone wants to get close to such a beautiful and warm person, let alone Song Liusheng hiding in a dark corner with bruises all over his body?

You Jingxing soon went to the hospital to visit Grandma Song. It was the first time he met the old man. He was carrying a fruit basket and supplements. He was dressed in a well-made suit and was very polite.

In the following week, You Jingxing came over almost every day, even more frequently than Song Liusheng.He chatted with Grandma Song, often making Grandma Song happy, and kept praising You Jingxing for being handsome and caring.

It was Xu Mingyan and Sheng Hui who came to see her before, but now You Jingxing came again, Grandma Song felt that all of her grandson Song Liusheng's friends had appeared all of a sudden, after she was surprised, she was also very pleased.

However, Grandma Song, who has dementia, often couldn't tell the two doctors, Xu Mingyan and Sheng Hui, but she was very impressed with You Jingxing, and recently she kept saying "Xiao You".

"Shengsheng, Xiaoyou said, he and you have known each other since high school, are you two classmates?"

Song Liusheng gave a soft "hmm".

"Did you tell grandma about him? Once you went home to pick strawberries and said that you met your high school classmates and played basketball together. You also promised me that you would bring that friend to see you at home."

Song Liusheng was taken aback. He did mention it once at that time. He thought that the stupid grandma had forgotten it long ago, but he didn't expect her to remember it.

Grandma Song, who was leaning on the hospital bed, gradually opened her eyes. She looked out the window, and her mind drifted into the distance.

She thought of her hometown in the country, the dilapidated but warm house; the strawberry field in the backyard; and the little yellow dog that was raised at home.

Before they left, they entrusted the little yellow dog to the neighbors to take care of them. I don't know how the little guy is doing now?

After staying in the south with her grandson for almost half a year, Grandma Song gradually got used to it, but when she dreamed back at midnight, she still missed her hometown and dreamed that she returned to that old house again.

After all, it was the home she had lived in for most of her life.

"Shengsheng, I want to go home."

Before Grandma Song could finish her old words, Song Liusheng couldn't help turning his eyes red. He wanted to cry very much at this moment, and felt that he was very unfilial.

Grandma Song's condition is currently stable, her blood pressure and blood sugar have dropped a little, and she hasn't fainted for a long time. She has already passed the critical period and is now recuperating in the hospital.

In fact, Grandma Song can be discharged from the hospital and go home to recuperate.It's just that some time ago Song Liusheng sometimes worked part-time during the day and didn't have time to take care of her, so Grandma Song was hospitalized. She had doctors and nurses by her side to take care of her at all times, so Song Liusheng was more at ease.

Grandma's physical condition has improved, but Song Liusheng doesn't know when his own heart disease will be cured.

You Jingxing was not in a hurry to return to the imperial capital, but rented a house and lived next door to Song Liusheng.

So the two became neighbors again, and the balconies of the two families were also close together. Every time Song Liusheng turned his head slightly, he could see You Jingxing next door.

"You are the manager now, don't you care about the department?" Song Liusheng asked.

"I just finished an operation project, and I'm relatively free for the time being, so I asked the company for annual leave in advance."

"You...how long are you planning to stay?"

"I will stay as long as you live." You Jingxing said with a smile.

Song Liusheng was suddenly embarrassed, turned around and hurried into the room.

This afternoon, Song Liusheng curled up on the sofa alone, staring at the phone screen in a daze.In fact, he was flipping through photos of Qin Chuxun before he was alive, some photos of Qin Chuxun in women's clothing alone, and photos with him.

Before he knew it, Song Liusheng began to cry, and the corners of his eyes were wet.

At this moment, the doorbell rang, and You Jingxing knocked twice again: "Song Liusheng, are you home?"

Song Liusheng was startled, and immediately put the phone aside, got up and opened the door.

You Jingxing came to borrow something from Song Liusheng again.

He just came here not long ago, and these days he always came to visit, chat with Song Liusheng and borrow things, and today is no exception.

This time, Song Liusheng also gave him a shopping list of daily necessities.

"You can go to the nearby supermarket to buy some things. It's still very cost-effective when there are discounts. Otherwise, you can go to Taobao, go to Tmall supermarket, and I can send you links to some treasures directly."

"Well, thank you."

Seeing that Song Liusheng had thought so much for himself, You Jingxing was certainly happy, but the communication between Song Liusheng and him was not so much a friend, but more like a subordinate reporting to the leader and completing the tasks assigned by the leader.

In fact, You Jingxing borrowed things only secondarily, the key was to watch Song Liusheng, but sometimes he really couldn't make up any good reason.

At night, Song Liusheng was silently applying medicine to himself.When he had a previous attack, he cut his arms and legs with a knife, and the scars have not healed yet.

Unexpectedly, at this time, You Jingxing knocked on the door again, Song Liusheng had no choice but to hide the ointment hastily, he also put down his sleeves, and opened the door to meet You Jingxing.

Without saying a word, You Jingxing sat down with Song Liusheng as soon as he came in.Then he looked around, and after searching around, his eyes fell on the sofa, and he quickly found the ointment hidden in the crack of the sofa.

Song Liusheng was startled, he clenched his palms tightly, and couldn't help becoming nervous.

"I asked Dr. Xu, Song Liusheng, and I know everything about you."

Song Liusheng froze for a moment, then lowered his eyes and let out a faint "oh".

You Jingxing has seen his appearance in women's clothing, since he took the initiative to find him this time, then you will surely figure out other things about him sooner or later.

"In the future, I will help you with the medicine. You don't need to do it yourself, and you don't need to go to others."

You Jingxing suddenly said this, he knew that Song Liusheng still kept some things from him.

Xu Mingyan often went in and out of Song Liusheng's house these days, on the surface to chat and reminisce about the old days, but he was also taking medicine for Song Liusheng.Every time the two of them were in the same room, they still hid themselves, deliberately not letting You Jingxing know.Inexplicably, You Jingxing felt a little uncomfortable.

And Song Liusheng often looks at the phone photo album, and he is often fascinated by it, and he doesn't know whose photo he is staring at in a daze.

You Jingxing also knew about this matter, but he pretended not to see it, and never asked about it, but he couldn't help thinking about it.

After You Jingxing finished speaking, he squatted down in front of Song Liusheng, and slowly rolled up his cuffs.

When seeing those scars, You Jingxing's pupils shrank slightly, his movements became more gentle and slow, he carefully wiped and smeared, and even opened his mouth to blow gently.

Looking at You Jingxing who was carefully applying the medicine for him at this time, Song Liusheng was flattered, but at the same time he had too many questions in his heart.

He wanted to ask why Youjinghang came to him?

Why hug him and give him medicine?

What is the reason for approaching him suddenly and treating him so well?

But Song Liusheng was afraid to ask, afraid that the answer would disappoint him again.

Two nights later, after ten o'clock, You Jingxing and Xu Mingyan were still staying at Song Liusheng's house.

They made an appointment to have dinner together at Song Liusheng's house tonight. Song Liusheng's cooking skills are good, and both of them are full of praise for every dish he cooks, and they are quite satisfied.

Later, the three of them drank a few glasses of wine and chatted.Both You Jingxing and Xu Mingyan are people who have their own views and ideas. The two chatted a lot, ranging from national events, social hotspots, to personal work and life.

Xu Mingyan talked about some interesting patients he had come into contact with, as well as various real cases. You Jingxing also talked about his experience of studying abroad and some entrepreneurs he met at work.

The two chatted more and more vigorously. At first, Song Liusheng was afraid of embarrassment for the two of them. After a few words, he found that they were able to chat. Song Liusheng was listening by the side, and gradually stopped talking.

"How about we play chess? I wonder if Dr. Xu is interested?" You Jingxing raised his eyebrows and suggested with a smile.

"I know a thing or two, but since Mr. You is so interested, I'm happy to accompany you."

Time ticked by and it was almost 11:30.

Song Liusheng didn't know how to play Go. Seeing that the two of them were concentrating on the game of chess, pondering the changes on the board, no one said a word, and ignored him, so he tactfully walked aside.

The house was extremely quiet, Song Liusheng at the side didn't dare to turn on the TV, for fear of disturbing You Jingxing and Xu Mingyan.So he listened to music with headphones on, and soon began to feel sleepy and drowsy.

Gradually, he fell asleep on the sofa alone.

If the guests at home at this time were not You Jingxing and Xu Mingyan, but someone else, Song Liusheng would not be able to easily let go of his vigilance and guard, and just fell asleep like this.

Subconsciously, he still trusted these two people.

As for the other side, at the end of the round, You Jingxing and Xu Mingyan were tied again.

You Jingxing put down the chess pieces in his hand: "Doctor Xu, you were really humble just now."

Xu Mingyan smiled, and began to pack up the scattered black and white chess pieces: "Liu Sheng has fallen asleep, Mr. You, now that your goal has been achieved, I should go too."

"Thank you." You Jingxing thanked him and helped him pack the chess pieces, "Doctor Xu, it's so late now, do you want me to take you back?"

"No, I'll leave the sound to you."

Xu Mingyan patted You Jingxing's shoulder, his eyes had deep meaning, "Mr. You, don't think I didn't see it, you've been jealous for a few days, tsk tsk, the smell of vinegar in your body is really strong."

After his reminder, You Jingxing was dumbfounded and suddenly embarrassed.

Xu Mingyan laughed secretly, and refreshed his views on You Jingxing.This person is capable in the field of work, but in terms of love, he is immature, but also interesting and cute.

After Xu Mingyan left, You Jingxing hugged Song Liusheng who was asleep, and carried him all the way into the bedroom.

When Song Liusheng was alone at home, he would still suffer from insomnia at night. Even if he fell asleep, he would still have nightmares. This situation has not improved.

After Xu Mingyan's analysis, he said that Song Liusheng needs company, not only physically, but also a spiritual sustenance and harbor, so that he can rely on and gain a sense of security.

You Jingxing gently put Song Liusheng on the bed and let him sleep on his back, while he himself sat on the edge of the bed.

It was past twelve o'clock at this time, and the small bedside lamp was lit in the room, and the light was weak and soft.You Jingxing looked at Song Liusheng's face reflected in the soft light, the strange thing was that he didn't feel sleepy at all, even if he guarded Song Liusheng all night, he thought it would be fine.

Another half hour passed, and Song Liusheng's eyelids moved, obviously dreaming.The dream seemed to be getting more and more terrifying, Song Liusheng's eyelashes trembled, his lips trembled, and sweat dripped from his forehead.

Afterwards, his hands and feet also started to move wildly, and he kicked the quilt away with his feet, and his arms stretched out from the quilt again.He stretched out his arms, grabbing into the air again and again, eager to grab something.

At the same time, Song Liusheng also yelled intermittently. He called "Mom", "Grandma", and another man's name.You Jingxing vaguely heard the word "Chu Xun".

He was stunned, and suddenly there was a sour feeling in his heart.

"Jing... Jing Xing, Jing Xing, Jing Xing!"

At this moment, You Jingxing heard his own name again, calling out from Song Liusheng's mouth, which was especially pleasant to hear, but Song Liusheng struggled harder, waving his hands and feet uneasily.

You Jingxing's heart trembled, and he hurriedly held Song Liusheng's restless hand: "Well, I'm here, I've always been here."

He held onto it tightly, and at this time, he was also on the bed, holding down the swaying Song Liusheng.

Seeing that Song Liusheng finally settled down, You Jingxing heaved a sigh of relief, but he was reluctant to let go. He simply slept next to Song Liusheng, and involuntarily put his hands on Song Liusheng's waist, and hugged him.

Sensing something, Song Liusheng slowly opened his eyes.

For a moment he couldn't tell what was in the dream and what was out of the dream, because You Jingxing, whom he had been thinking about day and night, was right in front of his eyes at this moment, and a handsome face was also close at hand. If he moved closer, he could kiss You Jingxing.