Heart Medicine

In the blink of an eye, it was late December, and another wave of cold air hit the south, and the temperature dropped below zero.In the south without heating, once it gets cold, even the northerners can't stand it.The visitor was a guest, and besides, Xu Mingyan came to see him specially, so Song Liusheng led him to the house.

Xu Mingyan looked at Song Liusheng's new residence. Although the place he rented was small, it was at least simple and tidy.Song Liusheng turned on the air conditioner, and after a while, the room became warmer.

Now that Grandma Song was sick and hospitalized, Xu Mingyan had some things to say that were difficult to say in front of the old man, but when he got to Song Liusheng, he stopped beating around the bush and straight to the point.

"Liu Sheng, is it convenient for you to take off your clothes? I want to see your two arms."

Song Liusheng was stunned for a moment, but he had always trusted Dr. Xu, so he took off his padded jacket.Then he also rolled up the sleeves of his sweater, revealing two slender and fair arms.

However, the originally smooth and delicate skin was covered with red scratches at this moment.

When Xu Mingyan saw it, he immediately frowned. He remembered the scene when he first came into contact with Song Liusheng, a patient.

"You also have hallucinations at night, do you have auditory hallucinations?"

Song Liu gave a soft "hmm".

Xu Mingyan sighed helplessly. Song Liusheng's mental state had clearly stabilized in Xia Tian, ​​but he didn't expect it to deteriorate to such an extent now.

Those drugs that were stopped before, such as chlorpromazine, haloperidol and risperidone, etc., it seems that Song Liusheng will start taking them again now.

Xu Mingyan has been in contact with Song Liusheng for a long time. During the conversations with him, Xu Mingyan also learned about Song Liusheng's family situation and some of his personal experiences.

His father died young, and Song Liusheng was raised by his mother, but his mother also suffered from mental illness and was prone to restlessness, depression and madness. Later, she went completely crazy and committed suicide with regret.

"Liu Sheng, do you hate her?" Xu Mingyan asked.

Song Liusheng directly confessed: "I hated it, but..."

After all, it was his mother who gave birth to him and raised him, and in the end she also became a crazy and poor woman.Song Liusheng once complained and hated, but after his mother died, that hatred gradually faded away.

However, the woman's influence on him was deeply rooted.

When Song Liusheng was a child, he always dressed up as a girl. As long as he wore skirts obediently and danced well, his mother would praise her for her beauty almost every day, and also taught him how to make up and choose various dresses, shoes and socks.

Over the years, Mother Song's words and deeds have naturally affected the child subtly.

After she died, Song Liusheng, who lost her parents, began to seek comfort and a sense of security by wearing dresses.He also gradually became dependent on it, subconsciously fell in love with wearing women's clothing, and it became a habit when he was sick.

But in the past few days, Song Liusheng suffered from insomnia every night, and felt cold and painful when he fell ill. Just wearing skirts could no longer comfort him, and he no longer wore them.

So another "granddaughter" of Grandma Song hasn't appeared for a long time.

One day, Grandma Song asked about it: "Shengsheng, why doesn't my beautiful granddaughter come to see me at night? Where is she going?"

Song Liusheng's expression was complicated: "Grandma, do you want to see another Shengsheng?"

Hearing this, Grandma Song narrowed her eyes with a smile, and she stretched out her hand to touch Song Liusheng's cheek: "I think so! But as long as it is the voice of our family, whether it is you or a beautiful granddaughter, they are all my good grandsons, and grandma likes them all." If the other voice is tired, just take a break, anyway, I know, you will not go far, and you will definitely come back to see me."

Her speaking speed was very slow, and her voice was old and feeble, but her ears were full of warmth, which made Song Liusheng hold grandma's hand tightly.

Grandma is the only relative he has left in the world. Out of selfishness, he hopes that grandma can live longer, even a hundred years old, so that she can always be with him.

Two days after Xu Mingyan arrived in this city, Sheng Hui also followed.Xu Mingyan was cold and indifferent, and didn't have a good look at him: "Why are you here?"

"Of course I miss you...ahem!" Sheng Hui quickly changed his tune, "I miss you and Liu Sheng, especially Liu Sheng."

As he said that, Sheng Hui looked at Song Liusheng, whom he hadn't seen for a long time, and patted him: "Liusheng, you sent a message and left in a hurry, but Dr. Xu and I were in a hurry, and we have been wandering around since then. Inquire about your news, find a way to find you, for fear that something will happen to you."

"I'm sorry, Dr. Sheng, for making you and Dr. Xu worry about me."

"It's okay, I'm relieved to see you today."

Later, from Xu Mingyan's mouth, Sheng Hui learned that Song Liusheng's condition had worsened.

Xu Mingyan also said that apart from Grandma Song and their two acquaintances, Song Liusheng has almost no communication with others, and has completely closed his heart.

Song Liusheng also quit his previous part-time job, because in his current state, he couldn’t work normally at all. He became less daring to meet strangers, afraid to make eye contact with them, as long as he stayed in unfamiliar places, Song Liusheng It will be awkward and uncomfortable.

And once he saw a sharp weapon, Song Liusheng also had the urge to pick it up and scratch himself.

Sheng Hui sighed: "Liu Sheng, has he shrunk into the shell again?"

"Well, it's probably because I was stimulated by something before I found him. Liu Sheng is now in a kind of closed self-protection."

Seeing that it was almost Christmas, Sheng Hui suggested that Song Liusheng should go out with the two of them for activities. In this way, Song Liusheng could get in touch with more people. Otherwise, it would be impossible for him to keep hiding like this.

Xu Mingyan nodded, thinking it made sense, and then went to persuade Song Liusheng.

On the night before Christmas, on the night of Christmas Eve, there are many lively activities on the square of the commercial street.Sheng Hui and Xu Mingyan were dressed in Santa's clothes. They were wearing red clothes, red trousers, hats on their heads, and holding big bags full of gifts in their hands, ready to give free gifts to the children who came and went.

Song Liusheng followed behind the two, also dressed as Santa Claus.It had been a long time since he stayed in such a bustling and noisy place, but since he promised Xu Mingyan and to make the children happy, Song Liusheng mustered up the courage to come here.

He wasn't as nervous as he imagined, it might be that the outfit gave him a disguise, making him temporarily forget that he was Song Liusheng.

Looking at the innocent and lovely faces, Song Liusheng gradually relaxed, and kept giving out apples, candies and chocolates to the children, and then he gradually walked away in the direction of the crowd.

Seeing this, Xu Mingyan was a little worried, and was about to follow, but was stopped by Sheng Hui.

"Yanyan, Liusheng is not a three-year-old child, you are afraid that he will get lost! We should give him a little free space and let him face and contact other people alone."

Xu Mingyan nodded, then suddenly realized: "What did you call me just now?"

"Uh, it's nothing." Sheng Hui scratched his head, "It's just 'yanyan', I used to call it that way, I'm used to it."

"The past was the past, and the present is the present, Sheng Hui, I've said it many times, don't call me that again, I have nothing to do with you long ago."

After finishing speaking, Xu Mingyan turned his back and walked aside, while Sheng Hui let out a long sigh.

Song Liusheng gradually walked out of the square and reached the side of the road.He saw a little boy, about four or five years old, held in his mother's arms.

Song Liusheng gave him two lollipops, but the little boy shook his head, stretched out his hand and grabbed Song Liusheng's white beard sticking to his chin.

"No candy! I... I want Grandpa's beard and hat."

Children are innocent, but sometimes they are also very naughty.His mother shook her head at him immediately after hearing this: "Xuanxuan, don't make trouble, Santa Claus is kind enough to give you candy, you can't bully him."

"It's okay." Song Liusheng smiled lightly, but he simply took off his hat and put it on the little boy's head. He also tore off his own white beard and let the child play with it in his hands.

"These words he likes are also given to him."

"Thank you, thank you!" The woman thanked repeatedly, "Young man, you are so kind!"

Song Liusheng smiled.

After Song Liusheng watched the mother and son leave, after a while, there was a gust of night wind, and small snowflakes suddenly floated in the sky.

The city ushered in the first snow in winter, and people walking on the road stopped for a while, looking up at the sky.The beautiful snowflakes were crystal clear, suddenly like a child, Song Liusheng spread out his palms to catch them, but the snowflakes fell into his palms and disappeared quickly.

"Song Liusheng!"

Suddenly, Song Liusheng seemed to hear someone calling him.

"Song Liusheng!"

"Song Liusheng, Liusheng, Shengsheng!"

I don't know who is calling over and over again, the voice is getting louder and clearer.

Song Liusheng moved his ears, and seemed to recognize the owner of the voice.He hurriedly looked around, looking for the source of the sound, then raised his head suddenly, and found a figure on the overpass not far away.

Snow Flower brought a gift, and he actually saw You Jingxing? !

"Song Liusheng, just stand there, don't move!" You Jingxing, who was standing on the bridge, shouted loudly, ignoring the surprised eyes of the people around him.

"Wait for me, I'll be there right away!"

While waving his hands, he ran towards Song Liusheng.

Song Liusheng couldn't believe it for a moment, thinking it was his hallucination and auditory hallucination, so he stayed where he was.

It wasn't until You Jingxing flew towards him and hugged him tightly, that Song Liusheng came back to his senses, so he wasn't dreaming.

You Jingxing's body temperature, rapid panting, and violent heartbeat are all so real.