cry for me

【36】

He felt that he should be reincarnated.

But he still has some very important things left undone.

So he has been floating in the world.

Afraid he would forget how to speak, he started talking to himself.

The ghost thought: The thing that left him alone in this world must be a major event that is more important than Mount Tai, such as saving the world or something.

Ok……

I can't tell that this ghost is quite a secondary.

His memory began to be confused, and he remembered a novel he hadn't finished writing during his lifetime, which was set in the Tang Dynasty.So his experience and his idea were entangled together, and the ghost started to go crazy.

On rainy days, he hid under the eaves of the commissary, squatting and talking to a stray cat.

He said that he was a great general and that he still had unfinished business.

The stray cat didn't know if it could see him, it just licked its wet paws, and after enjoying the last bit of leftovers left by the shop owner, the cat didn't stop and jumped onto the low wall next to it , I don't know where I went.

He also followed a wild dog all day.

Learn from that dog how to grin and get on all fours.

Is he still a man?

By the way, I am already dead.

So he asked himself again: Do I still have personality?

He began to try to talk to living people again. He followed a high school student for a month, and he just kept talking.This child is very good at studying, has delicate features, and is very similar to the person he remembered.

But he finally found out that this middle school student was not the one he was looking for.

The high school student couldn't see himself either.

High school students have their own lives, discussing with their classmates how to buy snacks at the canteen while the teacher is not paying attention, a few students brag together that they will be admitted to Tsinghua University and Peking University, and then they mention the beautiful school belle with a ponytail, tall and slender neck, a group of people Let's laugh together.They didn't know that there was a ghost watching them quietly.

It's scary.

But this ghost has no strange quirks, and doesn't want to bother them anymore.

He floated away again.

【37】

How come I haven't gone crazy yet.

I should be crazy.

He doesn't want to die.

He wants to live.

【38】

The recall stops here.

The ghost heard Xiao Gao calling him.

Xiao Gao: Why are you in a daze?

Ghost: I look so handsome in the mirror, I am dumbfounded.

Xiao Gao: ...Okay.

In the next few days, the middle school student still didn't leave, and stayed in their office with a stern face.

They thought they had another colleague, chatted occasionally and didn't drive him away.

One day, a thin and small girl came to their office.

Girl: You can hold funerals here, right?

Xiaoling: Yes, who are you doing it for?

The girl hesitated for a while, she was a middle school student, she had saved all her lunch money, but it was only around a hundred yuan, she was afraid that Xiao Ling and the others would laugh at her.

Girl: I, I have no money.

Xiaoling: A funeral is just a matter of expressing one's heart, why spend so much money.

Girl: Yes, yes, thank you.

The girl hesitated and took out all the wads of money in her pocket. Most of them were worth one or two yuan, and there were also a few dimes here and there.When she saw Xiaoling and the others looking at the money she took out, her face flushed instantly.

Girl: Forget it, forget it, let me think of a way.

Xiaoling held her back.

Xiaoling: Hey, don't go, tell us what's going on.

So three people and two ghosts in the office surrounded the thin girl.The girl swallowed, and began to speak intermittently.The person who died was her classmate, a boy, who was very good at study and was too quiet to talk.He is a single-parent family, and his mother worked hard to bring him up.

Girl: No, I didn't expect...

Lao Lin: What's wrong?

Girl: ...he, he jumped off the building.

The girl's expression was terrified, making one wonder if this incident had anything to do with her.

Xiao Gao: Since he committed suicide, why should you arrange a funeral for him? What about his family?

Girl: People are still in the morgue now, it can’t be like this forever.

Xiao Gao: What does that have to do with you?

The girl was a little scared when she saw Xiao Gao's expressionless face.

Xiaoling: Tell my sister why his mother is unwilling to be cremated?

Girl: His mother is a little crazy now, but I, I can understand.

The girl seems to have been opened up. When the boy first entered school, his mother was afraid that he would not be used to the food in the cafeteria, so she brought him lunch at noon every day, rain or shine.The classmates in the class laughed at him, but it was only in the category of small fights between classmates, but the situation was a little different later.

Xiao Gao: What's wrong?

There are a few gangsters in the class, the kind who smoke and drink to burn their heads, don't study hard all day long, skip class and go to Internet cafes to play games all night, and they also play with social people.

The boy has always listened to the teacher's words.

A few bad boys in the class deliberately took him to KTV to play.

He was not too kind to refuse and agreed.

But what he didn't expect was that his mother told the teacher about these hooligans because she was afraid that these hooligans would delay her children's study, and these children were punished. down.

The thinking of children in school days is very strange.

It seems that they have a natural antagonistic relationship with the world of adults.

The most obvious ones are students and teachers.

Students have their own small circles, and they like to engage in gangsterism and small gangs

I always feel that everything should be resolved within the circle, and whoever sues the teacher is a traitor.

Besides, these bad kids are the top of the food chain in the class.

No one dared to mess with them, and some even envied that they could play with adults.

These little gangsters don't have a good eye for making friends, but it's just that the little gangsters are messing around with the big gangsters, and it seems a bit of a thing in the eyes of some students.

Although this group of social dregs are marginalized in adult society.

But they can use their adult status to bully children.

It wasn't something to be admired in the first place.

But the superficial resistance and psychological yearning for the adult world is a common mentality of children.

Lao Lin: If you encounter this situation, you should tell your parents immediately!

Girl: Oh... His mother thought it was just a joke among classmates.

The girl went on to say that the boy was isolated in the class, and later the group of gangsters surrounded him in the toilet and beat him, and... the girl hesitated for a while, and the group made the boy strip naked during the self-study class Standing on the podium and reciting poems, the boy didn't want to, so a group of them went up and took off his pants.

After this incident, they suddenly heard the radio in the afternoon, saying that they were not allowed to go to the playground.

The boy committed suicide, and a large pool of blood was spilled on the track rightly.

A group of students in the class gathered around the window to watch, but she didn't.

Girl: I don't want him to die, he's a nice guy.

【39】

The middle school students have been floating around, as if they don't want to hear the girl's story.

Xiaoling comforted the girl a few more words.

Xiao Gao charged the girl ten yuan, saying that he would cover the funeral.

A few of them found that the middle school students had been depressed.

Ghost: what's wrong with you?

Middle school student: I think he's stupid, he shouldn't kill himself.

Ghost: Yes, it's good to be alive.

Middle School Student: But maybe it's easier for him to die than to live.

After saying this, the middle school student drifted to another room, and no matter how much they called him, he would not come out.

【forty】

Lao Lin said he was not feeling well after taking the medicine.

Xiao Gao, Xiao Ling and Gui decided to go to the student's home first to see the situation.

The student's family was very poor, and his mother sat blankly at the door of the house, staring into the distance, not knowing what she was looking at.

Xiao Gao: Hello.

Mother didn't speak.

The two people plus a ghost glanced at each other.

Xiaoling: What are you looking at?

Mother: I'm waiting for my son to come back.

Middle school student: He can't come back!

They didn't notice when the middle school students followed them, and the mother started to cry after hearing this.

Mother: Mom knows I'm wrong, don't hide, come out and let Mom take a good look at you.

The middle school student ignored his mother's pleading words, and just said it coldly.

Middle School Student: He's dead!

His tone was not very good, and he planned to leave after speaking.

Xiao Gao and the others could all see that the middle school student was the classmate who the girl said had committed suicide, but it was strange that the middle school student had always emphasized that the person who died was his mother, and that he killed himself.

Xiao Ling and the others were confused.

【41】

The sober state of the middle school students did not last long.

He began to believe that he was not dead yet.

And started talking nonsense.

Ghost: Your mother is not dead.

Middle school student: This is impossible!

Ghost: Then think about it, why did you kill your own mother?

Middle school student: Because, because she treats me badly.

Xiao Gao: But you were brought up by your mother after all.

Middle school student: No!She doesn't love me at all and doesn't care about me!

Several people had no choice, at this time Lao Lin whispered something.

Lao Lin: I think she loves you, but the method is wrong.

Middle school student: I was ruined by her!

Having said that, everyone felt that the middle school students didn't want to reincarnate even after the funeral.He projected his resentment against the gangsters onto his mother.

The ghost suspects that the middle school students are doing this because of memory disorders.

But things are not that simple.

The girl has been running to their office for the past few days. She said that the mother's mind is becoming more and more unclear, and it may be difficult to get her to agree to bury her child.

Girl: She puts too much pressure on him.

The girl whispered to Xiao Gao and the others that the boy's academic performance has always been very good, and he dare not be negligent, otherwise his mother will be unhappy, and she will not beat him, but she will cry and cry all the time, making the neighbors cry. They all called out and accused their sons of being unfilial.

Every time this makes the boys feel very embarrassed.

Her mother made the boys kneel down and admit their mistakes when they had had enough crying.

After the boy knelt down, the neighbors around him applauded enthusiastically.

A play of mother kindness and filial piety is considered to have been performed.

Once a girl came home from school with him, and a neighbor jokingly called him "the dutiful son".

The boy didn't say anything at the time, but since then the two of them never went home together.

Obviously they live very close to each other.

Xiao Gao: Maybe he felt ashamed.

Xiaoling expressed tactfully that she felt that the relationship between the two was very good. The girl shook her head first, and then nodded.She opened her sleeves, and there was a row of scars on her arms from being burned by cigarette butts.