love marks

Chapter 140, torture.

Regarding the birth of Yu Nuo, Fu Yu explained that three months after the incident happened four years ago, I went to the hospital in a coma and had an abortion, and about three months later, my brother and Fu Yu went to The hospital did artificial insemination, so there was a promise.

The mother has repeatedly said that she hopes to hug her grandchildren, so they have no choice but to do this.

But my mother is not stupid, wouldn't she wonder why my brother is about to run away, why he hasn't had a girlfriend yet, and why he agreed to keep the descendants of the Tang family in this way without much hesitation, just because Can't I give birth?

On this point, my mother kept silent.

In my opinion, the elder brother and Fu Yu's decision is probably to get the best of both worlds. With the elder brother's blood, Yu Nuo is a descendant of the Tang family, and Fu Yu is representing me, which is equivalent to having siblings. It's gone.

And is this really "the best of both worlds"?

Anyway,

Fu Yu is Yu Nuo's biological mother, this matter is a certainty and cannot be changed.

Now that the matter has come to this point, there is no need for anyone to hide it anymore, Fu Yu moved back home as a matter of course.

I don't want to see her.

It's not that they deliberately hid this matter from me, but that I can't get over the hurdle in my heart;

What is this? Needless to say, I know how much Fu Yufeng loves me. They have already proved it with their actions. What about me, why am I still struggling? I shouldn’t be more moved by the matter now, and then I will reconcile with them. Continue to live a sweet little life?

But not.

I have formally broken up with them, although they did not agree, but what I said cannot be taken back, people have to look forward and cannot turn back, not to mention our character, even if we get back together, we will repeat the same mistakes, and if we get back together Now, the relationship will also become very subtle: my girlfriend and my brother have a child, my niece's mother is my girlfriend, the children call me aunt, and then call my girlfriend mom...

The relationship is really messed up.

But as before, if you only want to be a bed partner, then it won't be a mess; even if I agree with Fu Yu, I won't agree.

According to their temperament, either love or die.

What an extreme guy.And I don't deserve this guy.

Wan Yan was wrong about this point, it wasn't that she wasn't good enough for me, it was that I wasn't good enough for her.

So I used work as an excuse to hide in the studio, and I did have a lot of work during this period, which gave me a fully reasonable excuse.

Seriously speaking, I am the manager of three artists: Lao Ge, Gu Chenghao, and Jiang Lubai; the more artists, the more work, and I am not running away.

I feel guilty for this kind of comfort.

I have been living in the studio for half a month. I am busy with work and have no intention of dressing up. I look a little unkempt, and I have played a slovenly home girl image in the studio;

Fortunately, the studio is full of acquaintances, so they don't care about this, it's just that when they need to go out to work, it won't work.

It was late at night, the work was done, and everyone else in the studio went home. I sat on the windowsill and drank coffee. I took off the calf prosthesis and put it aside without shyness. I didn’t have to hide anything when I was alone.

To say that a person has experienced too much sometimes is not necessarily a good thing, just like now, I just lean on the window and look at the night scene outside, and I will unconsciously think of what happened before. Naturally, it is all with Fu Yu Relatedly, I remember that in the similar night, we talked together in the water room of the girls' dormitory, were jealous and made out, were molested by men outside the school, fought for her, had conflicts and quarrels, and were driven away by her in self-struggle. Recovered by him as promised, declared sovereignty;

Even the first real love between the two of them took place in this kind of night...

There were too many things happening at night, and I was exhausted; I rubbed my temples, and the figure of someone lingered in my mind, and I couldn't tell what mood I was in.

"It looks like you're going to sleep here again tonight." A voice came out of nowhere, and I came back to my senses, only to see that Gu Chenghao had already sat on the sofa at some point.

"You haven't gone back yet?" I was surprised for a moment, followed his gaze to notice my prosthetic limbs, and subconsciously put them away behind me. Even though Gu Chenghao knew that I had prosthetic limbs for a long time, but was seen by outsiders I still feel uncomfortable when I get to my own embarrassment.

He looked away, as if nothing had happened, "I'm the only one going home, it's not interesting, you are alone, don't mind chatting for a while."

"I don't mind, it's just..." What's there to talk about.

"Just what?"

"Nothing." I looked out the window, not at him.

Sure enough, there was still nothing to talk about, and the air was already silent.

At this time, the phone rang suddenly, it was my brother calling, after thinking about it, I still answered;

"Are you still in Gu Chenghao's studio?" the elder brother asked.

"Ah."

"Still living there tonight?"

"……Um."

"Go home. If you have something to say, just say it face to face. It's not a problem to hide."

"...I don't know what to say, there's nothing to say."

"Yu Nuo hasn't slept all this time, waiting for you to come back."

I was a little moved, but I still said firmly, "Children, just coax her, don't let her eat indiscriminately before going to bed, or her teeth will be broken."

"When you come back, tell her yourself, she listens to you the most." The elder brother took the opportunity to push the responsibility on me.

I couldn't laugh or cry, "You are Yu Nuo's father, you should care more about this kind of thing than me."

"You will avoid the important ones, I mean, Fu Yu went to pick you up."

I was a little surprised, how these two points reminded me of one thing, so I casually replied, "Fu Yu is afraid of the dark, and won't go out at night, that's Feng Ji..."

Halfway through the conversation, he realized something, and with a shake of his hand, the phone fell to the ground.

I was taken aback, and when I picked up the phone again, I found that the call had been automatically hung up, and I was a little dazed for a while.

"Ah," Gu Chenghao asked, "forgive me for asking, does Brother Tang Ming have a child?"

"Ah."

"When did he get married?"

"not married."

"Eh?" Gu Chenghao was surprised, "Not married...an illegitimate child?"

Hearing this, I was taken aback.

Gu Chenghao realized that he had said the wrong thing, and quickly apologized, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean it, so just pretend I didn't say it, and didn't ask too much."

I wasn't that hypocritical, and told him generously: "I don't know the specifics, but I know that Yu Nuo was artificially inseminated."

He wondered, "Artificial insemination? Generally, who would do artificial insemination, unless the natural conception is unsuccessful, would you want artificial insemination? Who the hell is that child?"

"..."

"Um, I said the wrong thing again, don't be angry, I'll just say it casually, it doesn't mean anything... Don't worry, I won't tell anyone else!" Gu Chenghao vowed.

Naturally, I would not be angry because of his unintentional words, but what he said was unintentional, but it made me think a little more, "Artificial insemination... What are the necessary conditions?"

He thought for a while, and was at a loss, "I don't know about this, but I know that a birth permit is required to have a child."

"Birth certificate?"

"Yes, to apply for a birth certificate, you have to get married first, and you can only do it with a marriage certificate," Gu Chenghao said solemnly, and then became a little embarrassed, "Of course, not everyone who has a child will do that, but having a certificate is better than not having a certificate good……"

I was surprised when I heard this, "Is it necessary to get married before applying for a birth certificate?"

"correct."

I felt a chill in my heart.

I don't know if Yu Nuo had a birth certificate...

I hurriedly dialed my brother's phone again, and after two or three calls, my brother's voice came, "Hello."

"Brother, did you have a birth certificate when Yu Nuo was born?" I cut to the chase.

The old brother paused, and his tone was taken for granted, "Of course there is, not only a birth certificate, but also a birth certificate from the hospital, and a household registration is required."

"You need to have your parents' marriage certificate." I replied.

There was silence on the other end of the phone.

Not speaking is tantamount to acquiescing. My heart was half cold, but I still didn't give up and asked, "You and her, have you received the certificate?"

Still no response.

I waited for a long time, until my heart was completely cold, and my body softened, and I slid down from the window sill. Without prosthetics, my center of gravity was unstable, and I sat directly on the ground.

"Sister Song, are you okay?!" Gu Chenghao came over to check, seeing my expression was unfriendly, he was very worried, "What's wrong? How about I take you to the hospital?"

I waved my hand to indicate that nothing happened. He glanced at the mobile phone whose screen was still on, and reminded, "The mobile phone is still on."

I powerlessly put the phone to my ear again, and the elder brother inside was still explaining: "This is just a stopgap measure, we don't want the child's birth name to be unfair, and in my capacity, it's hard to say if this kind of thing gets out It doesn't sound good, and it's not good for anyone... Songzi, can you understand me?"

"Understood, of course I understand, there is no way to do this," I said weakly, "Although you are in name, you are also legitimate and protected by the law. If that is the case, why hide it from me? Now What is this called, what am I?"

"No, Songzi, listen to me. We are not in that kind of relationship. The divorce certificate is also because of the child. After the child is born, we also tear up the divorce certificate, so in fact it is just a formality and has no other influence..."

"How could it be unaffected, do you know what situation you put yourself in?" I smiled wryly, "Let's not talk about how this matter will affect you if it is picked up by the media in the future, just talk about Yu Nuo, you How do you want the child to treat this matter, she is still young, but when she grows up, how do you want her to face our messy and complicated relationship?"

"..."

"And Fu Zhe, when do you plan to have a showdown with your mother, or hide it for the rest of your life, that's okay, but you have to be sneaky all the time. Of course, the reaction to voluntary coming out and passive coming out may not be the same. Well, that’s all for the older generation, so what about Yu Nuo, she is young and ignorant now, how will she face this kind of relationship when she grows up, her parents are crooked, how do you ask her to introduce herself to others Parents, 'Because of her, they got married and divorced quickly'? Is this also called no influence?"

"Pine nuts..." The elder brother was speechless.

I hung up the phone and tried to stand up by the window sill. Gu Chenghao handed me the prosthesis, and then helped me to the sofa, watching me skillfully wear the prosthesis, he hesitated to speak.

I glanced at him, "Say what you have to say."

He said, "It stands to reason that I shouldn't intervene in the affairs between you, but there is a sentence that has been held in my heart for many years, and now I think I should say it."

"Say."

"Although this is quite immoral, I still think we should say it," Gu Chenghao paused, and then continued, "I always feel that you and Fu Yu's personalities are not suitable, and you will always get hurt when you are with her, really Your love shouldn’t be like this. As early as a few years ago, I stayed at your house temporarily. Although the time was very short, I think the way you two get along is that she is strong and you are weak. To put it mildly, it’s you I have been tolerant and pampering her all the time. To put it bluntly, it is indulgence. You are too used to her, so she thinks you are hers. But she will get angry if you treat others a little bit better. I want to say something about you, Sister Song. , you really dote on her so much, you almost spoil her like a child, if she knows how to cherish, I won't say anything, but obviously she doesn't know how to cherish, it seems that everything she does is as she pleases , capricious, she always asked you not to leave her, but didn't notice whether what she did would hurt you, please forgive me for speculating, just now you called your brother and mentioned that'her ’, it should be Fu Yu.”

I didn't speak.

He went on to say, "I don't know how you got along with each other, and I don't know what happened, but I always feel that if you really love someone, you must protect her, think about her, and take good care of her. Everything, let her be carefree, not be burdened by everything, let alone hurt her, if you can't do this, then this love will have to be reconsidered."

I fell back, half lying on the sofa, and replied in a tired tone, "After all, the angle is different."

"Ok?"

"Your words can be summed up to one conclusion. I hope we break up."

"Sister Song..."

"You have the same remarks as Wan Yan. You think we are not suitable, we are too tired to get along, and you also say that she is not good enough for me, and being together is a waste of time, it is better to break up,"

I glanced at his inquiring gaze, and continued, "I thought so too, and I also unilaterally broke up with her..."

"You two broke up?" He denied himself as soon as the words came out, "With Fu Yu's character, it's unlikely."

I didn't answer his question directly, but asked rhetorically, "Both you and Wan Yan think we are not suitable. My mother also thought so at the beginning, and she spent a lot of effort to prevent us from getting together, but now she But he made great efforts to bring us together, knowing that we had conflicts, he still acted as a lobbyist in front of me, asking me to take the initiative to apologize to her, and my brother also hoped that we could settle down and reconcile as before. From the perspective of my relationship with Fu Yu, You are all bystanders, but your remarks are completely opposite, do you know why?"

"why?"

"Because you are passers-by and they are relatives."

The latter did not speak.

"As relatives, they can see more clearly," I explained, "You also said that you don't know what's going on between me and Fu Yu, so you can only see that we are not suitable from the character, but as relatives, As a family member, we know how to look at things from our point of view, from big decisions to trivial ones, so they know that the relationship between me and Fu Yu cannot be dismissed with just a few words."

Gu Chenghao showed guilt on his face, "I'm sorry, Sister Song, I was the one who lied."

I don't blame him, "It's nothing. People are used to seeing things from their own perspective at the first time. We have all made this mistake."

Once the chatterbox was opened, it was difficult to close it for a while, so I told him some things about Fu Yufeng and I: "They and I met in the second semester of our freshman year, and the relationship we established before the end of the semester. It has been many years until now..."

"Wait," Gu Chenghao cut off the conversation, "You're talking about them? Who else?"

"Feng Ji, Fu Yu's second personality."

He was startled for a moment, and didn't ask any more questions.

I went on to say, "Speaking of which, what happened between me and them, if you talk about it in detail, you could write a novel. Some things can be said, and some things can't be said, but when I finish these few things, Your impression of them may have changed."

Gu Chenghao, "I'll listen to you."

I sat upright and told about the things Fu Yufengji and I met in college, and the eight years and three years apart. Telling him, I just picked a few important turning points, but these few things have already moved him, and even I myself am deeply moved after reviewing the past.

How many things have we all experienced, and how many years of youth have been wasted.

After the story was finished, I looked at the time and issued an "exit order", "It's too late, you should go home and sleep."

He said apologetically in his tone, "After listening to you say so much, I realized that so many things have happened among you. I am really talking nonsense, and I am a bit of a villain."

I smiled with relief, "It's a good boy who can recognize his mistakes and correct them when he knows his mistakes."

He laughed, "You sound like an elder from your tone."

"It's not impossible, I'm so much older than you."

"How old are you?" He looked unconvinced.

"Okay, that's it for today. I'm a little tired and want to rest." I stopped talking and said seriously.

"Okay, then I'll go first. If you still sleep here at night, you need to cover yourself with more quilts, or I'll bring the fan tomorrow." Gu Chenghao instructed.

"Okay, I'm not a child anymore, you go back quickly, pay attention to safety on the road..." Before I finished speaking, I suddenly stumbled and rushed forward, and immediately fell on Gu Chenghao, but he didn't expect it At this point, I was directly pushed to the ground, and I was on top of him.

"Sister Song..." His expression was very uncomfortable.

I quickly got up and apologized, "I'm sorry, are you okay?"

"fine……"

"It's fine." I said as I stood up.Because there is a big coffee table next to the sofa, the aisle between the two is relatively narrow, and we happened to fall in the narrow aisle. When I struggled to get up, my knee unconsciously touched somewhere under him, as if I had touched him. Something strange, his expression froze all of a sudden.

He also realized something, stepped back with embarrassment, turned his back to avoid my eyes, but froze in the next second.

When I turned my gaze and saw someone's gloomy face, the hairs on my body stood on end.

I couldn't be more familiar with that look.

"Exhaustion..."

Feng Jie directly ignored Gu Chenghao, who was stupefied, and walked over, picked me up and walked outside.

"Exhaustion?"

"go home."

In the taxi, she called home and asked the driver to drive the car directly to the rental house.

After entering the door, he dragged me directly to the bedroom, and as soon as my butt touched the mattress, he pressed over, and while pulling the belt around my hand, he said, "I'll give you ten seconds to explain."

I moved the corners of my mouth, not knowing where to start, "I have nothing to explain."

"Nothing to say?" He looked at me funny, "Then let me remind you, Tang Song, we haven't broken up yet, your unilateral breakup doesn't count for me, plus Fu Yu's vote is two to one, Your decision to break up is not approved, so you, a married woman, still want to go out and seduce Xiao Xianrou, this is called cheating, and cheating is betrayal, do you understand?"

"So what," I replied forcefully, "we betrayed each other long ago anyway."

He closed his eyes slightly, pinched my chin and condescended, "I never betrayed you, it was just a joke, and you can't betray me, you are mine, any time, if you let me know that you betrayed me, I will let you die!"

"You can act on every occasion, why can't I act on every occasion?"

"No!" He resolutely said, "You are not a person who can act on the occasion, if you 'act on the occasion', then you have moved your true feelings, and I will not allow this kind of thing to happen."

"I didn't know you would understand me so well," I snorted coldly, "You are too confident."

Unexpectedly, this sentence hit his sore spot, his eyes started to turn red again, he took out a pair of handcuffs from nowhere, and directly handcuffed me to the bedside.

"Feng Ji, why are you playing crazy!" I was depressed.

He looked very painful, "I am not confident at all. If I am confident, I will not be afraid that you will leave me. Tang Song, you have never given me a sense of security from the beginning to the present. You said you love me, but you never Let me feel your possessiveness, as if you don't care what I do, even if I have sex with others, you just watch, and then walk away without saying a word, without even a trace of anger, when something happens to you The first thing that comes to mind is to leave me, to break up with me, you say you love me, do you really care about me, which time did you not leave me alone in the same place, let me wait for you without a deadline, Fu Yu, etc. I can afford it, I can't wait, how much time do we have to waste?!"

I calmed down, "Let go of me first."

"No, I won't let you go in the future. I've made up my mind. You don't have to work anymore, just stay at home. I will support you. You just need to stay at home honestly and don't hook up with me anymore. .”

"When did I hook up with three and four!"

"When? Just now, you are lying on top of him, how do you want to hook up?" Feng Jie had a ferocious expression, "Seduction doesn't count, he's still rushing, don't you know he's already hardened, if I'm late By the end of the day, wouldn't you two have slept together!"

"Feng Ji, what nonsense are you talking about!" I was annoyed, "Can you stop being indiscriminate like a child!"

"I don't distinguish between indiscriminate and indiscriminate. How can I tell indiscriminately? Like you, you will only hide when things happen, and you will pretend that you don't see anything, and then throw a sentence 'Your love is too heavy for me to bear'." Let's go, are you satisfied with this?"

I knew he was resentful, so I didn't argue much, so I kept silent.

Seeing that I didn't speak, he laughed angrily, "I know I can't speak because I'm sorry, I figured it out, don't you just think I'm bored and don't want to play with me anymore, so you want to break up with an excuse? Broken leg, then thought I was unclean, then I slept with someone else, betrayed you, now I got the news that Fu Yu lied to you and your brother, I feel that we are even less qualified to love you , so you want to get rid of us, let me tell you, it’s a good idea! You don’t even think about getting rid of us in this life, we’ve already made up our minds, we’ll die together in the future, this matter is a certainty, we didn’t run away!”

"Seal you..."

"You want to break up with me, yes, I figured it out, as long as we can be together, it doesn't matter what your identity is, so whether you are my wife, lover, or any other identity, you must be together, even if you are X Partner is also a kind of identity, isn't it?" He suddenly laughed grinningly, "I thought about it on the way back, before you said that you can't be my girlfriend but you can be a partner of X and X, and you said that this is the best In the end, okay, then I will fulfill you. From today on, you will be my bed partner. No, to be precise, you are an X slave. Anyway, you think I am not qualified to talk about love with you, so we will not talk about love, just talk about love. Xing, but no matter what it is, you are my property. I am very possessive of my own things, and I hate other people's meddling, so starting today, you don't have to go to work, just stay here, stay here On the bed, wait for me to pamper you."

I was stunned, "Are you crazy?!"

"I should have gone crazy long ago, otherwise I wouldn't have been tortured so hard by you." He smiled strangely, and suddenly bit my ear, and his low and charming voice filled my ear with chills, "Since it's X slave , the first duty is to please the master, and the slave will be happy when the master is happy."

I shuddered, "You crazy."

"I'm crazy, you made me like this."

I closed my eyes: "Fu Yu!"

"Don't call her. It's her tacit consent," he said surprisingly. "She once told me that I would do whatever it takes to keep you by my side, so don't waste your efforts."

I gave up struggling completely.

For a long time after that, I really realized that life as a slave of X was worse than death.

X Slave, as the name suggests, is a tool for venting. I don’t know where he got the energy. It seems that he will never run out. These days I was forced to accompany him to try all the games, leaving many shameful marks on my body, except In addition to coping with his inexhaustible energy, another principle of being a slave is to obey the master's orders, that is, I will listen to everything he says, except for those things in the bed, and some of his evil things Interesting, I also want to be satisfied one by one, it’s nothing to clean up the housework, the shame is that he wants me to wear qingqu fox ears, hairpins and tails, and I’m naked and can only wear an apron to move around the house, saying it’s so cute , do it whenever you want, without taking off your clothes.

What's more, when he was in a bad mood, he tied me with a collar with a long chain like a dog, and asked me to bark like a dog, and if he disagreed, he would whip my ass , but only this point I have not responded to him, so my buttocks are scary red and swollen, but it is also rare to get a few days of free time without going to bed.

I once thought that if my mother saw this scene, it would definitely kill her.

Said that I had no dignity when I cried and begged her to agree to us being together, but now I really have no dignity, almost like barking like a dog and wagging my tail and begging for mercy.

I still don't understand why we got to where we are today, it's way beyond my imagination.

This night he came back drunk and called my name as soon as he entered the door. Seeing his smoky eyes, I knew he had drunk too much, so he stepped aside silently, waiting for him to sit on the bed so that he could take off his shoes socks.He rushed over uncharacteristically, and the smell of alcohol and lingering love words in his mouth rushed all over my face.

Originally, I hated the smell of alcohol, but after being influenced by him for a long time, I got used to it; but his love words that seemed to be drafted were a bit unexpected. You must know that during the days when I was imprisoned here, he was I have never said these words again, every day I pretend to be a big boss who goes to and from sensual places, and I am the service girl he ordered, and when I am happy to serve, I even throw off a few old people's heads as tips.

I couldn't bear it, I really thought I was selling it, oh no, in front of him, I didn't even have the qualifications to sell it, it just depends on his mood, anyway, it's useless for him to give me money, and I can't get out Door, these days I am like a bird in a cage, waiting for my master to enjoy it every day.

When he showed his abnormality today, it aroused my anger. He humiliated me to nothing before, but now he is making trouble, thinking I am for fun.

I wanted to push him away, but unexpectedly I was kissed by him forcefully. Just when the kiss changed from strong to soft and getting better, suddenly his lips twitched. I didn't expect it, but before I could react, I was kissed Filled my mouth with the contents.

When I realized it, that kind of mood was really unspeakable, I quickly pushed him away, hugged the bucket next to me, and vomited.

Fortunately, there is this bucket, which he specially prepared when I was chained in the room like a dog and couldn't go to the bathroom; otherwise I would spit the vomit that was transferred to my mouth directly on the floor, and then I would have to wipe the floor .

I finally got angry. I picked up the lamp on the bedside table and smashed it to pieces, and then used glass shards to cut the ankle sleeve on the anklet, but it was useless. I couldn’t even find a fruit knife. I thought about it for a long time When I came to the balcony, there were flower pots on the balcony. Even if I couldn’t open the shackles, I could still break my feet. If my feet were broken, I could find a way to take the cover off.

It's a pity that the chain is not long enough. Before I reached the end of the balcony, I stretched my arms and still couldn't reach it. Just when I was disheartened, a pair of feet appeared in sight, and then the potted flower was placed in front of my eyes , As soon as I put my hand on it, I was covered by another hand. When I raised my head, it was his eyes that were still red and unable to see emotion:

"Is that why you want to leave me?"