love marks

Chapter 130 Nine, Subtlety and Stimulation.

After that night, I felt that Fu Yu had changed, he was more gentle and considerate than before, and he talked less.

Life still seems to be the same as before, seeing each other from time to time, living together occasionally, and the thing we do most together is to do AI;

Neither of us mentioned whether we had broken up, because we couldn't tell what the status was:

If it is a breakup, then we still have an intimate act, we will spend the night together, and we will try our best to meet each other's needs;

If we hadn’t broken up, we would no longer take the initiative to ask about the other person’s life, we wouldn’t live together, and she wouldn’t take the initiative to come to my house. Sometimes we would just nod and pass by when we met by chance, and we wouldn’t even talk much;

After thinking about it, I feel that the state of the two of us is more like an X partner, a living creature and tool to relieve loneliness. Simply put, it is two words: □□.

After realizing this, I just shuddered. I didn't expect that one day my relationship with them would develop to what it is today.

So after that, I avoided the possibility of meeting her even more, and I chose to ignore their occasional contact. Now that we have broken up, don't ruin this relationship anymore.

I don’t know if it’s due to restraint or a matter of face. They won’t contact me when they are sober. Every time I receive a call from them, they are drunk. With their crying voices, my heart softens every time, and I will go to see them, so it turned into this strange relationship.

So during this period of time, I ignored them and let the mobile phone ring continuously or be turned off directly;

I was also worried that someone would find the house and make a fuss through drinking, but it didn't, so I could also breathe a sigh of relief.

But if they could hide from the first day of the junior high school, they couldn't hide from the fifteenth day. They didn't go home, but went directly to the studio, which shocked Gu Chenghao and his colleagues, and they were also puzzled;

You can imagine the scene: someone with flushed cheeks and slightly drunken eyes, standing motionless at the door of my office, staring at me, not answering any questions, blocking the door to prevent others from entering, life and death Think of yourself as a door god.

How can I feel better with such a goalkeeper.

Even if Gu Chenghao wanted to talk to me, she blocked her from entering. Gu Chenghao was very helpless, and I was even more helpless. I walked over to her and said, "Aren't you dizzy? Find a place to sit down and rest."

"When are you off work?"

"do not know."

She didn't speak anymore, she went straight into my office and sat on the sofa. Seeing this, I had to find another place to talk with Gu Chenghao.

The previous "Zero Water Chill" was broadcast very well and received unanimous praise. We decided to strike while the iron was hot and release another movie, just in time for the Lunar New Year. The theme is music and youth dreams. The script has been finalized and we are now recruiting actors.

"Several supporting roles have already been decided, and there are only two protagonists left." Gu Chenghao scratched his head a little, "But I have chosen several times, but I am not satisfied. Does Sister Song have any good candidates to recommend?"

"Yes, you." I didn't hesitate.

"Me?" He was a little surprised when he heard the words, "I'm not suitable."

"You can't be more suitable," I said, "The protagonist is a person with a dream of music, struggling for music, starting from scratch, and succeeding in counterattacks step by step. Isn't this about your own struggle history?"

He was thoughtful, but did not refute, "What about the other lead actor?"

"Jiang Lubai."

"what?"

I raised my eyes, "Are you surprised? He also loves music, and the characters of the two protagonists are complementary. It just so happens that the characters of the two of you are complementary. Just act in your true colors, and you don't need to deliberately shape it."

He looked a little embarrassed.

"Speak up if you have an idea," I said.

"I don't have any ideas, I just feel... a bit awkward." He said.

I glanced at him and said casually, "No matter how close your friendship is in private, an actor must follow the requirements of the character in front of the camera, and make the character flesh and blood. I know."

Before the words fell to the ground, a voice came from the air, "Sister Song is right, whether you are an actor or a singer, you must first have professionalism."

Looking back, Jiang Lubai appeared on the stage with long legs.

I was a little surprised, "Didn't you go to record a show, why are you here?"

"The recording is over. I don't have anything to do at the moment, so I'll come over and take a look," he reacted and explained specially, "I didn't eavesdrop on purpose, I overheard it by accident."

I didn't take it seriously, "It's not a secret, just listen to it."

Jiang Lubai was a little excited, "Did I hear wrong just now, sister Song assigned me a new role?"

"Well, there is a movie that is rushing to celebrate the New Year, and you will be the lead actor."

"Really?" Jiang Lubai couldn't believe it.

"Do I have to be joking?"

"I'm afraid I heard it wrong, the protagonist, let me play the protagonist as soon as I come up, it's too exciting," Jiang Lubai was flattered, "Sister Song, don't worry, I will definitely act well."

But I shook my head, "You don't need to act, just be yourself."

The latter half-understood, thinking that I was playing charades with him, so he took two steps closer and asked, "Sister Song, do you have any other plans?"

I took two steps back, "Stand farther away, it's too high, the sense of oppression is too strong."

He stepped back angrily.

I glanced at these two long-legged little fresh meats of the same height, and felt emotional: "You two are so tall, are you afraid that I will get cervical spondylosis?"

The two were startled for a moment, then laughed.

After chatting casually for a few more words, I left it to the young man to walk back by myself, but I didn't want to but saw Fu Yu standing behind us without saying a word, and I don't know how long I stood there.

There was surprisingly little work today, and I had no reason to work overtime. I was half-forced and half-voluntarily dragged back to the rental house by someone. I knew from his ignorant strength that he was angry again.

But I have no intention of explaining to them again, they can think whatever they want, anyway, they have always been like this, if I say a word, take a look, or make a small move with others, it is a red flag in their eyes;

Compared with her distrust, my excessive trust also brought bitter fruit to myself, and it may be that they hid it too deeply, even the person who had sex with someone else told me that I only knew about it.

I don't blame them, their personalities are like this, and my mother's evaluation of me is also correct, I am too nervous to pay attention to the details.

It doesn't matter, anyway, there is no need to think about it now, we are not lovers anymore.

Just... □□.

I am like a sheep on the chopping board, I spread out my limbs and let someone love me. Naturally, there are regrets in one-sided sexual love. My waist is not shaking because of high emotions, but because he is going all out. .

After a long time, he lay powerlessly on my body, tears streaming down again;

"I don't believe it, I don't believe you don't have any feelings for me anymore, you did it on purpose, you did it to anger me on purpose, you want me to give up, right?"

I don't know why, but I actually echoed him with a sentence that even surprised me, "It's hard for you to be interested in such a broken body like me."

Feng Ji was surprised, and as expected, he became angry, bit my shoulder, and the place where the scar was originally turned into a bloody mess again.

I didn't move, and I listened to you.

"You really want to piss me off, I wish I could eat you in my stomach!" He said viciously, but in the next second he gently wiped away the blood on the wound.

"You're sober." I said.

He was puzzled, "What do you mean?"

"I should go." I pushed him away, got up and got down to get dressed.

After a while he recovered, and then he said angrily, "What do you mean, do you think I use you as a tool to vent my desire?!"

I wiped the blood indiscriminately, put on my clothes, and replied flatly, "Of course you won't, I will."

He was stunned for a moment, and then stopped me who was about to go out, "Speak clearly, what will you do? Will you treat me as a tool for X, or think you should be treated as a tool for X by me? Make it clear!"

I glanced at his wrinkled forehead, lowered my eyes, and snapped his hand away abruptly. A hot stream flowed down his arm, and the clothes were once again stained red with blood.

He grabbed my other hand and pleaded, "I just want to hear you tell the truth, do you still love me?!"

I tried my best to look at him with a disdainful expression, watching the erratic expression on his face, and said a few words softly, "Who are you, Feng Ji, or Fu Yu?"

"Isn't it the same person to you?"

"……Too."

"Then you still..."

"I don't love anymore."

He froze for a moment.

"From the moment you cheated, you stopped loving."

"You lied! I don't believe it!"

"You asked me for the answer yourself, and I gave it to you, but you didn't believe it."

"This is not an answer, this is a lie!" He didn't believe it, "You said you broke up with me not because I cheated..."

"That's what lied to you, and I lied to myself," I said blankly, "Actually, I have always been concerned about your infidelity, and I will always unconsciously think of the picture of you having sex with others, Especially when I was in bed with you, I realized that I had been lying to myself."

"Impossible!" He still didn't believe it, "If you don't love me anymore, will you be called by me, will you allow me to have sex with you, and usually meet some of my needs, dare you say that you have only a little feeling for me nor?!"

"What's the point of refusal? When was it not rejected by you? You have never faced up to my refusal. Although you have been very gentle during this period of time, it is difficult to change the nature of the country. I have already seen through you."

"But at least this time, you didn't reject me. Except this time, how can you explain it?"

"Probably because I feel that I owe you. I said before that I would not leave you, but I broke my promise twice, so I want to make up for you as much as possible."

"I don't need compensation from you, and you don't owe me anything. I just want you to stay by my side."

"Impossible." I said firmly.

"why?!"

"Because you can't have your cake and eat it too."

"What do you mean?"

"If the price of being with me is to make you lose everything, would you still choose me?"

"Yes!" He didn't hesitate, but continued, "But we won't have nothing."

I couldn't help but laugh, he still couldn't let go.

To say that they will lose everything is not because I intend to test them, but because I really have this feeling. During this period of time, I always have a faint feeling that something will happen, and maybe it will be serious. If this happened to them, the worst would be nothing, but at least I will be with them, no matter what their identity is; but if something unknown happened to me, with his character, he would never let it go, Then I can't drag them down.

She's already so busy at work that I can't afford to keep them distracted.

"I know what you want, but I won't get back together with you," I continued before he could open his mouth, "but we can continue to get along with this kind of relationship, neither far nor near, neither hot nor cold, in this way That's fine."

"How could it be good..."

"If it's Fu Yu, even if she doesn't know the reason, she won't object to me, because she knows that I do things for a reason."

Hearing this, Feng Ji stopped talking.

I continued to say calmly, "Our relationship for so many years, don't you know what kind of person I am? If you like it, you will always like it, and if you don't like it, you won't take a second look. Contrary to my expectations, but I believe in fate, whoever has his own destiny, as we have developed into the present, also has its own reasons, we don't need to deliberately reverse it, just follow its original track , wherever you go."

He was not reconciled, "Then you plan on us going on like this forever? It's not justified, it's like having an affair!"

"The main responsibility lies with you," I shirked the responsibility without hesitation, "It would be good if we broke up right from the beginning."

"How about that, you said..."

"I know you can't do it, so I can only do this first. Just to remind you, we have broken up now. To the outside world, I am no longer your girlfriend. We have nothing to do with each other."

He looked confused, "You want us to be sneaky like this?"

I don't know how to explain it to him, so I can only reply: "It's good for us."

He struggled for a long time, but he could only compromise first, and he still didn't forget to add bitterly, "Even if you are not my girlfriend to the outside world, you are actually my private property. Please restrain yourself and stop flirting with others all day long."

"I'm not your girlfriend anymore, our relationship is now at best." I replied "casually".

He gritted his teeth, "Don't be mad at me anymore."

A month has passed in the blink of an eye, the new movie has been filmed, and it is in the post-editing stage. I took the time to go home and found that my mother was looking for something anxiously, so I asked casually.

Seeing me coming back, my mother seemed to see a life-saving straw, "Yu Nuo has a fever, and I can't find the anti-fever medicine. Help me find where to put it!"

"If you have a fever, go to the hospital directly. The medicines at home are taken by adults, and children should not take them indiscriminately. Let the doctor see the specific situation." I said.

It was winter, there was a heavy snowfall, and the road was cold and slippery.Little Yunuo was tightly wrapped, but I didn't wear too much. As soon as I went out, I was shivered by the cold wind.

Due to inconvenient legs and feet, he took a taxi directly to the hospital, and after another half a day, when Yu Nuo got the IV, his elder brother and Fu Yu both arrived one after another.

I looked at Fu Yu in surprise, "This is so far away, what are you doing here?"

She glanced at Yunuo, "Mom said that Yu Nuo has a fever, I'll come over and have a look."

"It's nothing serious, just take two bottles of intravenous drip and you'll be fine. The main reason is that your place is too far away, so it's hard to walk on the road."

"It's okay." She didn't care.

My mother also helped to speak, "The child is sick. Be... an aunt to see if the child is normal. I will call her, otherwise she will not worry."

I'm ashamed, if my mother didn't tell her, she wouldn't know, and naturally she wouldn't worry about it. Telling her in case she was worried would make her even more worried.

I went to the bathroom, and when I came back, I found that Fu Yu and my brother were not there. It was a bit strange, and my mother couldn't tell where they were. Driven by curiosity, I swayed around and saw the two people in the stairwell.

"She doesn't know yet." The old man asked.

"Of course I don't know. We agreed not to tell her at the beginning." Fu Yu replied.

"Well, but Songzi is very smart and sometimes sensitive, I guess she will know sooner or later." The elder brother said again.

The latter was silent for a while, then said, "Do you want to tell her?"

"Let's not do it first, it will affect your relationship."

"No matter how bad it is, it won't be so bad. Didn't she tell you that we have broken up?"

"I said it, but I don't think you can tell the difference."

"That's right, after all, this relationship is here, so I can't stop cutting it..."

The elder brother sighed, "Let's find another time, tell her now, it's too abrupt, I'm afraid she won't be able to digest it for a while, and... Yu Nuo, you should stop interacting first, it's too obvious, I'm afraid Song Zi will see it come out."

"I've been avoiding her for a long time, I'm afraid that when the time comes..." The words stopped abruptly.

The air was silent for a while.

Fu Yu said again, "There is one thing that I have never understood, why she broke up with me."

The elder brother was slightly surprised, "Didn't she explain it clearly to you?"

The latter shook his head, "It's noisy, it's noisy, it's noisy, and it's taken for granted, but I always feel that the real reason is ambiguous...Brother, do you think it is possible for Songzi to fall in love with someone else?"

The elder brother laughed, and then replied with affirmative tone, "Don't worry about this, it is absolutely impossible."

"Are you so sure?"

"She's my younger sister. Of course I know her well. Let me tell you, don't look at her normally high-spirited, but emotionally, she's cowardly."

Fu Yu didn't really believe it, "I think she's pretty good at everything, and she handles interpersonal relationships much better than me."

"You have to understand her. The most important thing about her job is her network. It is essential to sort out the interpersonal relationship," the elder brother explained. "It's just a job requirement. If she casually talks to someone If you're going to be jealous, then you're probably going to die of anger."

"I know," Fu Yu was unhappy, "but I just can't help being angry. The entertainment at work is easy to talk about, because I have to face these, but those unnecessary communications, forget it, she knows clearly I'm just jealous, and I don't know how to pay attention..."

The elder brother understood, "You mean Gu Chenghao."

"..."

"That kid is pretty good, and I also feel that he likes our pine nuts."

"Anyone can see that the kid's mind is not pure, so she just pretends to be stupid." Fu Yu was depressed.

The old man laughed, "Sometimes, pretending to be stupid is also a skill, and if you use it well, you can get unexpected results."

Fu Yu was even more depressed, "Stop making fun of me at this time."

"I didn't make fun of you," the old man said in a serious tone, "You know, we can all see that Gu Chenghao likes pine nuts, but pine nuts don't know it, she's just avoiding the important things, sometimes it's better to be unclear, don't you think Do you really want her to accept a big boy who is many years younger than her? And this big boy is still a first-line star, her artist, how will people talk about it? The rules are high...Recently, Songzi's sex has not been broken. The entertainment media are looking for her flaws with a magnifying glass. They are afraid that she will not make mistakes. Do you think she will knowingly commit a crime and hit her at the gunpoint. "

"Then the scandal between her and Gu Chenghao has not stopped."

"That's just a gossip. It never came true. Do you know why?"

"Because of you," the elder brother explained, "she already has you, so she doesn't have the energy to deal with other scandal objects."

Fu Yu was still unhappy, "So, without these factors, they are still possible..."

Brother was ashamed, "Just keep your heart in your stomach, she won't fall in love with others."

The latter's expression loosened a bit, but he still said, "It's too early to speak..."

The elder brother slapped her on the shoulder, startling her, "Silly girl, hasn't she already slept with you?"

Fu Yu, who was still in shock, was a little confused when he heard the words, "What do you mean?"

"Pine nut, she saw the behavior of the man's sperm on the brain, what was her reaction?"

Fu Yu thought for a moment, "Disgusting."

"It's hatred," the elder brother corrected, "but how did she react to Feng Ji?"

Fu Yu was thoughtful, "But she hasn't responded recently."

"Probably because too many things have happened recently, so she feels tired," the elder brother analyzed, "but I think the main reason is her low self-esteem."

"self-abasement?"

"Yes, think about the reasons why you two separated for the first eight years, and what happened four years ago. Anyone who changed would be entangled." The old man said.

"But I think we have overcome all these things." Fu Yu was puzzled, "She broke up because of something that happened to me recently, so I think the problem shouldn't be those two things. matter."

The air was silent for a long time, and when I turned around to leave, another sentence came from behind me:

"Then ask yourself."

I couldn't help laughing. Is it my brother who always feels that he doesn't understand me, or I understand him too little.

After walking a few steps, a voice suddenly came from behind: "Pine nuts."

Inexplicably, I felt my heart tremble, I turned around, and Fu Yu looked at me with a sad face, a few steps behind her was my brother, and I was a little stunned.

"Why are you here?" This sentence was asked by Fu Yu.

"I..." I told the truth, "Seeing that you are not here, I came to look for you."

"Did you... hear everything?"

"...More or less, I don't know much about it." I replied awkwardly.

Their expressions are a bit complicated.

After thinking about it, I still felt that it would be much better to open up and speak up, so I made the point clear.

"Now that we've reached this point, let's stop hiding it. One of you can explain to me, Yu Nuo, what's going on, what's there to worry about me knowing?"

The elder brother and Fu Yu looked at each other, hesitated to speak.

"If you don't want to talk about it, then I'll ask my mother."

"No, you don't need to ask her, the old man has a bad heart, if he is stimulated again..." the elder brother stopped.

I chuckled, "Is this news exciting?"

It was a lot of hesitation, but when I saw their eyes, I had the answer in my heart.

"Pine nuts... actually..."

"Yu Nuo is the child of both of you." I said quietly.

They were stunned for a moment and bowed their heads in silence.

Not speaking is the default.

I laughed, unable to express the emotion in it, "It's really exciting..."

This is really the most exciting gift I have ever received.

"Pine nuts..." Fu Yu's eyes were full of worry.

I looked at this woman with eyes full of love, and my mood couldn't get any better;

This woman claims that everything she does is for me, so...

"So, this child, Yu Nuo, is also for me, right;"

"Pine nuts..."

"Because you wanted to help me keep a descendant of our old Tang family, so you gave birth to one with my brother, a dignified descendant of the Tang family, not this bastard in my stomach who was acquired by LJ !"

"Songzi, don't be like this!" The two panicked and rushed over.

I backed away subconsciously, avoiding their touch, "Don't touch me! I'm a bit messy now, let me be quiet."

"Pine nuts!"

I turned around and walked without knowing where I was going, a little aimless, everything in front of me was strange, even a little distorted, which made me dizzy, and I shook my head vigorously to identify the direction.

There is a hole in my heart, and the cool breeze is blowing.

Fu Yu, Fu Yu, you are so great, you are so selfless, so selfless that I feel ashamed.

Now I suddenly understand why my mother's attitude towards you has changed so much;

Instead of looking at the monk's face and the Buddha's face, take a step back and say, you are Yu Nuo's biological mother. Is there anything more important than blood relationship?

But what about me, where should I stand?

The woman I love the most and the person I love the most have a child, but because of my relationship, they can't recognize the child, and even hesitate to meet each other.

As for me, knowing that she has done so much for me, I still insisted on breaking up with her, just because her love is too heavy, and I don't want to drag her down like this all the time.

Breaking up means breaking up, still being such a mother-in-law, unclear, in fact it is a drag in disguise.

Fu Yu, Fu Yu, I already owe you enough,

And this time, I owe you a big favor again, how do you want me to repay you.

How to face you.