love marks

Chapter 130 Eight, is this a breakup?

When I hurried to the hospital, Fu Yu was out of danger and was sleeping on the hospital bed.

Wan Yan waited outside the door, and when she saw me, she stood up, with a complicated and unnatural expression on her face, "The doctor said that it was delivered in time, and it would be too late if it was 5 minutes later..."

I breathed a sigh of relief, and thanked Wan Yan, "Thank you... But didn't you go back to the company, how did you catch up?"

It's not a question, but a little surprised, because she left first at that time.

She sighed, "It was just a mistake. I always felt uneasy after I left. After all, you were in a bad state at the time, so you returned halfway, but you had already left by then, and her door was closed. I knocked on the door for a long time but she didn't see her open, so I put my ear on the door, and I could hear the sound of running water. I thought she was taking a bath, so I wanted to leave, but I still felt something was wrong, so I waited outside the door for a long time. The sound didn't stop, so I asked the waiter to bring the room card to open the door, only to see her whole body soaked in blood, with wounds on her wrists..."

Speaking of this, she sighed again, "I really didn't expect that she would be so extreme...Why are you doing this?"

Yes, why bother.

"She's all right now."

She nodded, "I'll be fine when I wake up."

I glanced at someone on the hospital bed again, and touched the pockets, only to find two pieces of big white rabbits, and handed them to Wan Yan, "I won't go in, please put the candy next to her."

Wan Yan was surprised, "She is like this, why don't you go in and take a look?"

I shook my head, turned around and wanted to leave, but was grabbed by her, who had a depressed and ashamed expression on her face, "I really convinced you, you two, one is extreme, the other is entangled, what exactly are you trying to do? Why do you want to do this, if it's just her wishful thinking, I won't say anything, but it's obviously not, if you don't have feelings for her, would you rush over here in such a hurry? Is it interesting to be moaning when you're at the door?!"

I was startled, trying to explain, "I am..."

"I don't want to care about the shit between you two," she said bluntly, "Although I may not be qualified to say this, I slept with her, and I still miss you, but a fool can understand what's going on, nonsense I won't say much, I'll go first, you can figure it out yourself."

As soon as the words fell, she passed by, and left with the wind under her feet.

Looking at the two pieces of candy in my hand, I couldn't help sighing.

Unconsciously, I thought of what Fu Yu said when he put the toffee in front of me for the first time:

"Eat it. When you are in a bad mood, eating a piece of candy can relieve you a lot. I usually do that."

Eating sweets really eases the mood.

It's not that I don't want to go in to see her, but I'm worried that once I step in, I won't want to leave.

But after a moment of hesitation, I walked into the ward.

She slept peacefully, with gauze wrapped around her wrists, and the traces of blood penetration were very glaring.

I touched it subconsciously, imagining her pain at that time with empathy.

She must be in despair, she put the focus of her life on me, but this weight is unbearable for me, her love is too fierce, enough to burn us each other, and I did not live up to my expectations and escaped again ;

Whether it was intentional or not, I still hurt her.

I kissed her gauze-wrapped wrist, put the hot toffee cube on the bedside table, turned around and took away her bedside card.

She hadn't woken up when she returned to the ward after paying the medical bills downstairs, and put the bedside card back in place. She originally planned to leave, but she felt that it seemed a bit unhuman to leave like this...

Bah, we broke up, so what kind of favors are there.

His feet still uncontrollably walked towards her and stopped, and his hands uncontrollably touched her face, caressing her smooth skin.

"I didn't break up with you because you cheated. Of course I know that no matter what you decide, there is a reason for it. I also want to be good with you, but your love is too heavy for me, so heavy that it suffocates me. I can't live anymore, how can love continue...Maybe you can't hear what I said, it's better, maybe you will hate me when you wake up, just hate me, at least it's much happier than love."

I withdrew my hand, turned around and left, my sleeves were suddenly pulled, I turned around in astonishment, she stared at me intently, her eyes were like an abyss, deep and boundless, and I couldn't guess her emotions;

I wanted to shake off her hand, but he grabbed her wrist tightly: "Is this why you want to break up with me?"

Inexplicably, I felt guilty, "Well, isn't this reason enough?"

He pulled out the needle in his hand, got up and was about to go to the ground, I took two steps back subconsciously, he smiled wryly when he saw this, "Are you so afraid of me, are you afraid that I will kill you?"

I swallowed unconsciously, "Calm down."

"You think my love is heavy, and you didn't say that my love was heavy until now, don't you think it's too late." He approached step by step, "Who said before that he would always love me and never leave by my side, now Don’t these words count?”

I replied dryly, "Then you also said that the world is impermanent, who can be sure what will happen in the next second..."

"You remember this clearly, so you really plan to leave me, no matter how much I ask to keep you?"

"Even if we separate, it doesn't mean that we don't love each other anymore. Maybe we can change..."

"Being apart is betrayal to me!" He grew angry, "You know the consequences of betraying me."

"Sleeping with someone else is also a betrayal, so how are you going to punish me!" I was also angry, a little unscrupulous, "My purpose is different from yours, you are ambitious, and every step is carefully planned But I am different, I just want to satisfy my own selfish desires, and I also have a relationship with work by the way, but it is a pity that the incident has been exposed, so my reputation is also bad, and my career is not as good as before. Don't give up, guarding me, this notorious rogue, refuses to break up, even threatens to die, what more do I want, you do everything for me, and I only think about myself, what qualifications do I have to be able to do it? Deserving of your love!"

His face was livid, "Stop talking."

I don't care about that, "Now breaking up is just an opportunity, you can announce to the public that our relationship is over, and by the way, clear yourself up, and say that the confrontation between me and that stinky man was a rumor that caused troubles that hurt Chi Yu. We broke up, and the secret filming of your sex with him was also due to my jealousy and revenge. The man’s response was not the truth. It was not a hidden rule or a fairy dance. Yes, you have been passively used by us from the beginning to the end..."

"Shut up!" His face became even more ugly.

"Just do what I said, anyway, plot reversals are not uncommon, and people have long seen it..."

Before the words were finished, suddenly there was a strong pull, my body lost all weight, and I fell on the hospital bed, Feng Ji was condescending, and grabbed my neck with one hand, his eyes were red:

"I said that you are not allowed to belittle yourself, why don't you listen to me? What do those people who eat melons know, you are not allowed to humiliate yourself with their words! Not a single word is allowed, did you hear me!"

I just felt suffocated and I couldn’t breathe, probably because of the nerve reflex arc. I had a subconscious feeling of nausea and nausea, but my neck was restrained by him and I couldn’t utter it. Instead, the blood flowed up, which stimulated the lacrimal gland and made me unable to make a sound. , Tears came out first.

Tears wet my eyes, this was not my intention, so I closed my eyes and did not look at him, and remained silent.

The sense of restraint at the neck disappeared, someone wiped the wetness from the corners of my eyes with his fingers, and seemed to sigh again, and suddenly pulled me up, before I could open my eyes, I fell into an embrace, his low and helpless voice rang in my ears "What should I do with you?"

The air fell into silence, and no one spoke again.

So the seemingly stormy quarrel ended quietly and in an awkward atmosphere.

After staying in the hospital for half a day, they were about to be discharged home. I didn't say much, and silently packed my things.

Fu Yu's parents had passed away a long time ago, and her relationship with her uncle's family was not very good, and she probably hadn't contacted her for a long time, so she didn't tell them about the accident;

Fu Zhe had a small problem with ZY company's cash flow, and he was trying to solve it. Fu Yu didn't want him to be distracted by this matter, and he didn't tell him, so until now he doesn't know about Fu Yu's wrist cutting.

I complained in my heart: It’s a small thing, thanks to the timely discovery, otherwise it would be a big deal if someone died.

She never thought about what I would do if something happened to her.

Although I was the one who brought up the breakup...

I suddenly realized that without me, she seemed to be left alone...

Automatically ignoring this problem, I diverted my attention by packing up my things.

After struggling again and again, I was still not afraid of death and asked, "You cut your wrists and committed suicide so impulsively, you never thought that you were going to die... What should I do?"

At this moment, she had calmed down, glanced at me and replied, "If you break up with me, it means that you don't need me anymore."

Hearing this, I was suffocated in my heart, and suddenly I was in a mess.

I don't need her anymore?

Now I realize that I never thought about it, I only thought about whether I loved her, not whether I needed her.

Sending her back to the rental room, it's useless to stay longer, I'm leaving immediately, it's rare that he didn't say a word this time, just watched me walk out and close the door.

Although we still love each other, but this time, it's really over.

This time the video farce fermented for nearly two months before it slowly subsided. Because of the special timing of the micro-movie, it got a high hit rate as soon as it was released. It has already exceeded [-] in just one day. Things, the whitewashing effect is not obvious, but it did not disappoint me. Sure enough, some careful people discovered the connection between the two, so Holmes got up one by one, and began to analyze the similarities between the content in the movie and the previous video content, and finally got It is concluded that this micro-movie is likely to tell the whole story of the "hidden rules incident" at the beginning.

As soon as this inference was drawn, a small wave was set off again, and another wave of heated discussions was triggered when the video farce had not subsided.

"It seems that the limelight will not go away for a while." The old man said with emotion, "Gu Chenghao's Weibo is filled with a lot of doubts, asking why he insisted on letting you come back as his manager, is it not early?" I'm ready to cleanse you up, now your reputation is no less than that of Gu Chenghao, you're getting more fans, right?"

"Followers are also black fans. There is nothing to be happy about. Those who believe in it will not believe it."

"It's okay, let's take our time, it's still a long time, so don't be in a hurry." The elder brother said a word of relief, then suddenly changed the subject and asked, "How is Fu Yu recently, I see that the two of you have rarely interacted recently."

"We broke up." I said.

"Break up?" He suddenly felt surprised, "Why didn't I know when it happened?"

"It's been a long time, when the micro movie was just released."

"Ah..." He was thoughtful, not convinced, "You really broke up?"

"Is there still a fake breakup?"

"But with Fu Yu's personality..."

"Don't say it's useless, I'm tired, so I'll go back first." I took my things and left.

When I got home, I found that the living room was in a mess, with miscellaneous things all over the floor. I was puzzled and shouted. My mother came out of the kitchen unkempt. I was shocked when I saw it, "Mom, what's the matter?" ?!"

"During the day, there was a small fire and the electricity caught fire. Fortunately, Fu Zhe was there at the time and put out the fire in time, but the wall was blackened, and the wall paint had to be repainted in two days." My mother replied like this.

I was slightly surprised, "Okay, why did the electricity catch fire?"

"The power consumption is overloaded, and the circuit is aging. I usually tell you to cut off the power when it runs out. You don't care. Fortunately, there are people at home, otherwise the house will burn down."

I looked around, "Where's Yu Nuo?"

"I'm asking Fu Zhe to take her to live with him for a few days. The house is a mess and needs to be tidied up." Thinking of what, my mother felt a little emotional, "Sometimes Fu Zhe is more caring than Xiaoming. My own son is not as good as a person with a foreign surname, and if there is any problem at home, he can't find your brother, he will solve it, and he cares more than his own son."

I replied casually, "It's okay, we are all family."

"That's what I said, but I always feel sorry for people who have done so much for our family."

"Then be nicer to them."

"Needless to say, I'm the kind of person who doesn't know who to rely on." Mom replied with a smile, and after thinking about it, she changed the subject, "How long has it been since Fu Yu came back?"

I froze for a moment and said vaguely, "Who knows."

"You haven't seen her recently, have you?"

"……Um."

"What's the matter with you two, you are so busy that you don't have time to see each other?" Mom was puzzled.

"It's been too busy lately."

"What are you busy with? You get off work on time every day. No matter how busy you are, how busy can you be?" My mother obviously didn't believe my words. It's gone, what's wrong, how many years have you seen the same face, tired of looking at it?"

I took advantage of the situation and laughed, ambiguously, "Maybe."

My mother was also very thoughtful. I walked to the side and began to tidy up the mess in the living room. My mother still followed me and asked, "Are you two okay?"

"It's okay." I replied.

"Is it all right?"

"It's all right."

"No," my mother still didn't believe it. "There must be something wrong. Your thoughts are written on your face."

I didn't take it seriously, "How can you be so exaggerated, just tell me what you say."

"What are you talking about? You are my girl. I don't know if you have anything."

"Then what do you think I can do?" I asked back.

"You don't tell me how I know, but I know that you and Fu Yu must have had conflicts. Every time you have conflicts, you put on a blank face and are absent-minded," my mother said, "Did you two quarrel again?"

I don't want to argue, "You say yes."

"How long has it been, haven't you reconciled?"

"Haven't I always been like that with her? It's no surprise..."

"No," my mother said with a rare serious expression, "this time is different from the previous state, it must not be as simple as before, you were all playing around in the past, I can feel it, you are much more serious this time .”

"It used to be a small fight?" Hearing this, I just wanted to laugh, "Which conflict was not a big fight, but a small fight... It's the same this time, mom, don't think about it, you don't feel that way allow."

I said things against my will.

After these years, I realized more and more that my mother’s words are wise words, but I can’t tell her, I can’t admit to her face that what she said is right, I can’t cry to her that my feelings have come to an end because I didn’t listen to her. What a mess today;

These are the results of my own assertion.

But I don't regret it, if I do it all over again, I will still choose to meet her, meet them, and fall in love with them.

If I can do it all over again, what I want to change is to tell my mother confidently when she stops us hoarsely: "Even if we are separated now, we will still be together in the future, so this time I don't want to waste time suffering Forget it, but choose to stick to it, at least it will make our future life more sweet."

However, at this moment, I still chose to let go, which is really ironic.

From this point of view, it doesn't seem to matter whether we were separated for eight years or not. Maybe we didn't separate in those eight years, but it may have made our separation even earlier.

"I hope my feeling is wrong," my mother didn't delve too deeply into her words, and there was a hint of earnestness in her words, "It's inevitable for a young couple to live a life of bumps and bumps. It's always a fight at the head of the bed and at the end of the bed. Even if you and No matter how big a conflict she has, as long as she thinks about it, there will always be one party who will give in first. Fu Yu is a sensitive child. As for you, sometimes you are too nervous, and you will hurt her if you do some careless things. I don't know, all girls want to be coaxed, it's bullshit to want any self-esteem at this time, you will go over in a while, say a few soft words, and coax her well, she is a soft-hearted child, so coaxing her will be fine."

I was a little surprised, "Mom, you mean, you want me to coax her?"

"Ah, what's wrong?"

"No... just a little surprised," I was slightly taken aback, "Why are you so concerned about our affairs now? You obviously didn't even want to talk to her before, but now you are more and more attracted to her."

"You said that," my mother blushed, "what does it mean to be more and more towards her? I just think that it is a family after all. As far as the relationship between you two is concerned, I didn't stop you when I tried to stop you. I just thought about it and didn't care." That's all, you can do whatever you like, anyway, sometimes when you think about it, Fu Yu is a pretty good kid, but she is a little obsessed, but I can rest assured that she is sincere to you. Although it was hard for me to accept it at first," the mother sighed and said with emotion, "Maybe it's because I'm getting older, and some things can be seen, and I don't want to be more serious than that. Now I just want you to be good. , supporting each other until they grow old, that's fine, as a mother, how can you not want your children to have a good life."

My nose was sore, and I almost shed tears again.

My mother said again, "Listen to me, don't lose your temper with her, anyway, she has done so much for you, even I was touched, don't look at the monk's face to see the Buddha's face, I will make some three delicacies dumplings for you later In the past, it’s okay to live there tonight, you two have a good talk.”

I was startled, and then said, "That night you will be alone at home, that won't work, I don't worry."

"Won't you call your brother back, you kid, you're a deadhead."

I was still a little awkward, "Let's forget about today, I'm too tired after a busy day, and I have a lot of things to do tomorrow."

"Don't make excuses," my mother disagreed, "There's no way this kind of thing will be delayed, and it should be resolved as soon as possible."

"But……"

"You two broke up?" she asked abruptly.

I was startled, "No."

Mom didn't think so, "That's fine. If you want to talk about why you are so stubborn now, you used to be catching up, but now it's good, you can't even push it."

I'm depressed, when did I catch up.

I have never noticed that my mother made dumplings so quickly. It only took a short time from opening the bag to being out of the pot. My mother put the steaming dumplings into an insulated lunch box and handed them to me. "Take a taxi, it's so fast, Otherwise, eating too late will be bad for your stomach.”

I don't know what it feels like, I have a feeling of being sold to them by my mother.

And just at this time, the elder brother also arrived home by coincidence, I was ashamed, I have never seen him so punctual.

Now I have no reason to refuse.

Tell her directly that Fu Yufeng and I have broken up, can my mother's heart bear it?

In the end, I still carried the insulated lunch box and dawdled around on the street.

If I want to go to her, will it be too timid, and it will appear that I have no concentration and no responsibility; I have already said that I have broken up, and I have said a lot of hurtful things, which made both of us very tired. At this time, I How embarrassing it is to run over and subdue.

Just wandering on the street for a long time, before I knew it, I came to a bus stop sign, and a bus happened to come. I watched those people get on and off the bus, and finally swayed away. The scene of Qian and Fu Yu squeezing the bus, at that time, our hearts and minds were full of each other, and there was almost no room for other things;

But now, I still have each other in my heart, but there are many other things...

Are we "open-minded", or the proportion of the other party has become smaller.

I didn't know whether I should go on or not, and I wasn't sure whether I should listen to my mother. I waved a taxi and got in the car and left. After hesitating for a long time, I still leaned against the billboard and stood still.

At this time, a familiar car slowly stopped in front of me, with the window rolled down, it turned out to be Fu Zhe, "Pine nuts? Why are you here?"

I was also surprised, "Then why are you here?"

"Xiaoyu drank too much again, I'll take her home, just so you can get in the car too."

I didn't move, "what's wrong with her?"

"Participating, drank a little more wine, went to KTV for a while, and made myself like this after tossing for a long time," Fu Zhe replied, "And you, what are you doing here if you don't go home at night?"

"I... I'm a little tired from walking, let's rest here for a while."

"Get in the car, I'll take you back together."

"No, I'll take a taxi back later." I declined his kindness.

He was puzzled for a while and thought of something, and it became clear, "You two don't live together now?"

"what."

"Then get in the car too. I'm worried about being alone when she's drunk like this."

His reasons were so reasonable that I couldn't refuse.

So I got in the car anyway.

I knew his habit of leaving the co-pilot seat only for my brother, so I sat in the back consciously, but Fu Yu was lying on the back seat, so I could only help her up first, but I just put her aside. After a while, she leaned over by herself again, and I could only straighten her up again. After a while, she fell over again, and I straightened her up again. After several times, she was a little motion sick. Although I had a bad feeling, I didn't have time In response, she had already jumped over, and then vomited all over me.

The smell of vomit after drinking is quite unpleasant. Although Fu Zhe looked at the front, he knew what happened by smelling the smell, so he handed me the tissue box at hand, "I didn't think carefully, wipe it with a tissue first Well, we can’t stop now, we can only talk about it when we get home.”

I looked at the vomit all over my body with complicated emotions.

After sending us back, Fu Zhe left without staying too long. I took the hot water and wiped Fu Yu who was in a deep sleep while recalling what Fu Zhe said before he left:

"During this period, Xiaoyu's condition was very bad, and his work seemed to be desperate. I heard your brother talk a little bit about the two of you, but I always felt that although you two had conflicts, you would not break up because you still have Love, I also know that my younger sister has many flaws in her personality, which are related to the influence her parents have given her, and some are due to years of being dependent on others... In fact, she is very pure in her heart, and no one wants to play those tricks in her life She must have done a lot of things that you can't accept, otherwise you wouldn't be so disappointed, but I would like to advise you that the relationship between you and Xiaoyu for so many years is not easy, so you should think carefully about it. You are not too young, don't make a decision that you will regret, after all, there is not much time to stand the waste..."

Brother and Fu Zhe are both bystanders after all. Although there is a saying that the bystanders know the truth, there are some things that only the authorities know how to make decisions.

I didn't stop the movement of my hands, and even increased my strength. Fu Yu was a little aware, but what came out of his mouth was still drunk: "No, don't touch me, the girl will be angry..."

My mood suddenly plummeted, I threw down the towel, turned around and went into the bathroom.

There is no bathtub in the bathroom, it is a shower, but there is a chair in the corner, which is specially prepared by Fu Yu so that I can take a shower after taking off my prosthesis.

She has always been very considerate and considerate. Once upon a time, I was so moved by her thoughtfulness.

I am still moved now, but not like before.

She has been considerate and he has been affectionate, they can give me everything but they don't know what I want.

I didn't know how long I lingered in the bathroom, until the hot water became warm, I stroked my wet skin, and my mind was empty for a while.

A gust of cold air blew from behind me, I turned around and saw Fu Yu standing at the bathroom door looking at me expressionlessly.

We looked at each other for a long time without saying a word. After a long time, someone closed the bathroom door and took off his clothes.

I regained my senses and subconsciously wanted to stand up, but because I didn’t have a prosthetic limb, I sat on the ground. My buttocks were stimulated by the smooth and cold ground, and my whole body became more energetic.

The two naked people met each other frankly. Looking at this body that I had owned for many years, my heart was still a little excited. I touched my nose subconsciously, and then secretly cursed myself for being worthless.

Someone walked two steps closer, and I subconsciously retreated to the corner. He looked at me for two seconds and didn't come closer, but said bluntly:

"Girl, I want to have sex with you, on the bed, on the sofa, or here."