i think i still love you

Gu Yifei should have heard the news from the doctor that the baby is about to be discharged from the hospital, and these visits are much more frequent these days.In the afternoon, Xiao Yifan received a call from the doctor saying that the baby's buttocks were a little red, and asked him to send a baby's buttock cream the next day.Xiao Yifan hurriedly went to the baby store to buy the designated nappy cream, and he couldn't wait until tomorrow evening to deliver it.

When I came out, I met Gu Yifei head-on, and Gu Yifei was quite surprised. Xiao Yifan usually came in the morning, because only in the morning was he allowed to enter the ward.

Now that he was hit, Gu Yifei stopped hiding and greeted Xiao Yifan with a smile.

Xiao Yifan also responded with a smile.

"I... I'm just looking outside." Gu Yifei was afraid that Xiao Yifan would stop him from coming again, so he showed weakness first.

Xiao Yifan smiled faintly, "You can visit in the morning of Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, and you can go in at 10:[-] next Monday morning."

"Yifan..." Gu Yifei had mixed feelings in his heart.

"Ok?"

Some words have been buried in my heart for several months, and I have rehearsed them many times in my heart, but the opening turned into "It's okay, you seem to be getting fatter."

Xiao Yifan was taken aback for a moment, then pinched his face, smiled awkwardly and said, "My dad may have fed me too well."

Gu Yifei immediately made amends, "No, you are a bit fleshy and good-looking. When I first met you, you were fleshy and cute."

The atmosphere was still awkward, Gu Yifei immediately changed the subject, "Does the baby have a name?"

Xiao Yifan smiled and said, "The nickname is Xiaoshitou, I took it, and the nickname is my dad said he would ask someone to figure it out before taking it."

"Little stone, little stone, sounds nice." Gu Yifei whispered, he seemed to like the name very much, and smiled happily with his head down.

Xiao Yifan put his hands in his pockets, leaned back against the wall, let out a long breath, and said in a very formal voice, "Gu Yifei, bring the formalities when you come next Monday."

Gu Yifei's smile gradually disappeared, and he looked up at him.

"The marriage certificate is at home. You bring mine with you. If you don't want to draw up the agreement, I will draw up the agreement. The house my dad gave us when we got married can be given to you if you want. I only want children." Xiao Yifan And added.

Gu Yifei's eyes were red, he licked his lips, squeezed Xiao Yifan's wrist and said, "Yifan...we..."

"I think you'll agree, right." Xiao Yifan met Gu Yifei's eyes and didn't let him finish.

Gu Yifei looked into Xiao Yifan's eyes, let go of his hand little by little, and slipped down.

Gu Yifei lowered his head, a little bit want to cry, but also a little bit want to laugh, the final answer is a slight nod.

"That's it, I'll go first." Xiao Yifan left in a hurry.

Xiao Yifan didn't look back, and he didn't dare to look back, for fear that he would lose control when he turned around. After entering the elevator, he turned around and saw that Gu Yifei had disappeared. He leaned against the elevator wall as if exhausted, and raised his hand. I don't know when his face was already torrential.

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Civil Affairs Bureau, after entering the hall, the crowds on the left and right sides separated, one side was chirping, and laughter could be heard from time to time, each face was full of uncontrollable smiles, and the other side was silent as if in math class, dozing off, playing Playing with the mobile phone, or frowning and impatiently looking up at the watch, and then craned his neck to look at the number currently processed at the window.

There is a queue for marriage, and there is also a queue for divorce. Xiao Yifan felt ironic looking at the number in his hand.

After the Civil Affairs Bureau came out, Xiao Yifan put the green notebook into the big pocket of the sweater, and smiled at Gu Yifei, "Then let's separate here."

Gu Yifei nodded and asked, "When can I see Xiao Shitou next time?"

Xiao Yifan looked serious, and said, "Can I ask you something?"

"what?"

"You... can you just pretend... that you have never had a small stone?" Xiao Yifan was already in tears when he raised his head again.

Gu Yifei pursed his lips tightly, and it took him a long time to speak, his voice trembling unnaturally, "Yifan, do you really... just hate me that much?"

Xiao Yifan looked at him and nodded stubbornly.

Gu Yifei closed his eyes in despair, took a deep breath, turned around and got into the car, the sound of the roaring engine disappeared into the boundless traffic.

Xiao Yifan found a step and sat down, took out the divorce certificate from his pocket, and burst into tears on the dark green cover. Gu Yifei only knew Xiao Yifan's heartlessness, but what he didn't know was Xiao Yifan received the final report from the hospital in the morning. Because Xiaoshi was born prematurely and was on a ventilator for a long time, his vocal cords were irreversibly damaged. Because he hardly developed, such damage is almost irreparable.Being so good is not because he doesn't cry, but because he can't make a sound at all.

This relationship was not right from the beginning, and I insisted on going further and further, Xiao Shitou is the most innocent, he hates Gu Yifei, he hates himself, why should he be so desperate, why should Xiao Shitou bear his mistakes At that time, he naively thought that the child could tie Gu Yifei's heart, but later he realized that the heart itself cannot be tied by anything, and the outbreak of conflict seems to be a cause but it is actually an effect.Xiao Yifan knew he was wrong, but it was a bit late.

Gu Yifei, we are cleared up, don't be afraid, little stone, dad is here.

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Six months later, Gu Yifei received a message from Xiao Yifan, "Is it convenient for the weekend? My passport seems to be still with you. I will pick it up if it is convenient."

Gu Yifei called back, and Xiao Yifan answered after two busy tones.

"Hey, I'm sorry I just saw the message. I'm here on Saturdays and Sundays. You can pick it up or I'll deliver it to you." Gu Yifei said first.

Hearing Gu Yifei's voice again after such a long time, Xiao Yifan was stunned reflexively before saying, "It's okay, I'll pick it up on Saturday."

"Okay, is it in the drawer above the tie rack in the closet?" Gu Yifei asked.

"En, yes" After almost a year, Xiao Yifan still remembered every location of that home so clearly in his mind, which made him feel a little ridiculous.

"Okay, then...can we sit down?" Gu Yifei asked.

Xiao Yifan was a little surprised.

"Go to the bar where I worked before? Just sit and sit, there is no other meaning." Gu Yifei thought that Xiao Yifan's refusal was a rejection.

Xiao Yifan smiled lightly and said, "Okay."

After hanging up the phone, Xiao Zhengyan came over with the little stone in his arms and asked, "Are you there?"

"It should be here, I'll pick it up on Saturday." Xiao Yifan took the little stone, and took a bite of the strawberry in the little stone's hand.

"You don't think about everything in advance, you don't prepare the documents until you make an appointment for a visa. No normal person can do such a thing, so I don't worry about you taking the stone to the United States by yourself."

Xiao Zhengyan and Xiao Yifan had been arguing for a long time about this matter. Xiao Yifan insisted not to let Xiao Zhengyan accompany him. He was about to be 30 years old, and it was unreasonable for his father to give up his career and accompany him.

Xiao Yifan immediately changed the subject, "Yo Yo Yo~~ Dad, hurry up and get another strawberry for Xiao Shitou." Xiao Shitou in his arms was staring at the wronged flat mouth of the strawberry that was inexplicably missing more than half of it. Look at Xiao Yifan and then look at it Looking at the shrinking strawberries, I'm about to cry.

Xiao Zhengyan was so angry that he lost his temper, and quickly took another big strawberry and stuffed it into Xiao Shitou's hand, muttering, "There are so many strawberries that I want to grab from the child."

Xiao Shitou took a big bite of the strawberry immediately, he was happy all of a sudden, he grinned, showing two small teeth, Xiao Yifan kissed his face, the strawberry juice on Xiao Shitou's face was sweet .

Ding dong~ The phone rang again, and Xiao Yifan picked up the phone, "The boss said that he accepted it, and lowered the price a little, 20, see if you can accept it, if there is less, I will talk to the boss again."

Xiao Yifan put the little stone on the bed, and texted back, "Thank you, Chairman, 20 is fine."

"Okay, then I'll talk to the boss and take some time to hand over the guild. I'm also going to disband the guild."

Xiao Yifan frowned and replied, "Don't, we've worked so hard in the guild for so many years."

"Hey, I retired in just one or two years at my age, and I really don't have the energy to manage a guild. We created it together, and those old people have almost left. Now you are gone too, so it's meaningless to keep it. gone."

Xiao Yifan was still a little sad, if not for the lack of funds, he would really not be willing to sell his account. "I'm sorry, my lord."

"It's okay, come and say goodbye to everyone when you have time tonight."

"Well, it will come."

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Xiao Yifan came early on Saturday night, ordered a glass of soda water at the bar, and leaned his chin to listen to that little brother with a voice that was scratched like sandpaper.

"I'm sorry Yifan, it's too hard to find a parking space."

Xiao Yifan slipped his arm on the bar, turned around, Gu Yifei was wearing a dark green jacket, I don't know if it was intentional or he forgot that it was the one he wore on their first date here.His appearance has not changed at all, it feels a bit time-traveled.

"It's okay," Xiao Yifan said with a smile.

Gu Yifei ordered a glass of beer and sat down.He took out his passport from his pocket and handed it to Xiao Yifan, "Do you want to go abroad for fun?"

Xiao Yifan took it, nodded and said with a smile, "Well, it may take a while."

"Oh? Go... to work?" A trace of anxiety floated across Gu Yifei's face.

Xiao Yifan smiled, did not explain, and changed the subject, "How is your work recently?"

Gu Yifei was reluctant to change the subject, and had to continue, "It's...okay, are you and Xiao Shitou okay?"

Xiao Yifan nodded, "Very good, Xiao Shitou was able to stand up with support yesterday."

"Is Xiao Shitou going to America with you?" Gu Yifei asked.

Xiao Yifan said in his heart, "If he doesn't go to the house and account, they will be sold for nothing." On the surface, he nodded with a smile.

Both of them were careful not to talk out of proportion.

Xiao Yifan looked at the time, "It's almost time for me to go back, otherwise I might not be able to catch up with the latest time."