i think i still love you

The next subway is coming. "

"Yifan..." Gu Yifei suddenly took Xiao Yifan's hand.

Xiao Yifan froze for a moment, then looked up at him.

"I'm sorry, can you forgive me?" Gu Yifei clenched his hands tightly, tears glistening in his eyes under the light.

"Gu Yifei... Heh, it hurts a little." Xiao Yifan turned his hand away.

Gu Yifei let go little by little.

"Or I'll sing you a song." Xiao Yifan withdrew his hand, ran to the singing stage, whispered something in the ear of the singer who was resting, and the singer nodded.

After singing a song, Xiao Yifan came to the stage, sat on the chair unnaturally, adjusted the height of the microphone, and looked over at Gu Yifei.Gu Yifei sat back on the chair at the bar.

"Hmm~" Xiao Yifan cleared his throat, nodded with the singer, and the singer plucked the strings.

"Don't you cry

I'm the one who should cry

you have confessed that you are in love with him

what can i do

……

……

so be it

At the end of the song in Aidu, everyone parted,

then break up

There is no need to struggle to love again"

Gu Yifei knew why Xiao Yifan didn't sing anymore, he sang 5 lines and 4 lines out of tune, and tears rolled down the corners of his eyes to his smiling lips.

In the interlude of the second paragraph, Xiao Yifan glanced at the place, and there was no one there.

"so be it

Love again is the end of the song

then break up

love without struggle

don't ask me again

How could you be willing to let him

……

......"

The audience is still noisy, no one cares about who is crying like an idiot singing shit on the stage.

After getting off the stage, a glass of "brainless" stood alone on the bar.

Xiao Yifan raised his head and drank it clean.

Gu Yifei, why can't you wait any longer, just wait a little longer.

……

……

Xiao Yifan looked up at the sky, the sky was very high and blue today, two planes flew past and left two cross marks, which were gradually blown away by the wind.

Looking down, he saw the little stone in the strap in his arms, looking around with his big eyes in novelty.

Xiao Yifan pointed to the plane outside the window, "Big...fly...machine"

Little Shitou kicked his legs happily and opened his mouth, only a hoarse breath-like voice.

Xiao Yifan smiled, raised Xiao Shitou's white and tender little hand and kissed, "Little Shitou, Dad will definitely let you speak. You have to sing to Dad and say I love you to your lover."

Little Stone is still staring at the big plane outside the window.

(34)

Walking out of the embassy, ​​Gu Yifei looked down at the blue note in his hand, sat on the flower bed and looked up at the sky, then took out his mobile phone, it showed two times, one Beijing time, one Boston time, two years ago , Gu Yifei felt that they were so close for the first time.

When the visa officer told him that it was approved, he suddenly went back to the time when the prison guard opened the gate and he stepped out of the high wall.A US visa may not be a difficult task for others, but because of his past, it took him nearly two years. At the same time, he spent almost all his savings and invested a continuous loss of 3 Years of companies can get this visa.

Gu Yifei took out a cigarette case from his bag, took out the only cigarette left in it with his mouth, searched all over his pockets but found no fire, he smiled self-deprecatingly, took the cigarette from his mouth and put it back into the cigarette The cigarette box was crumpled into a ball in his hand, he got up and threw it into the trash can, and smiled lightly at the trash can, "It's time to quit."

He walked out of the embassy area and hailed a taxi. He just transferred his car yesterday.

……

……

On the other side of the world, Xiao Yifan is taking a bath in the bathroom for the little stone who plays with mud and plays like a tabby cat, and he is not obedient in the bath, Xiao Yifan is covered in water, Xiao Yifan pulls over and pats his butt lightly After a few times, he pretended to be angry and said, "If you make trouble again tomorrow, you will be locked up at home and not allowed to come out."

Xiao Shitou laughed instead of crying, and smacked Xiao Yifan's face several times with his wet mouth. The sentence "acting like a baby is a good skill to learn!"

"Ahhhhhh..." The little guy can already make a sound, but he still can't speak. What he wants to do now depends on gestures. Xiao Yifan can also understand his own sign language.

"Let's learn pinyin again after taking a shower, and Dad will let you watch cartoons." Xiao Yifan released the conditions.

Little Shitou already knew the difference between him and other children in his ignorance, so he still resisted talking. In his current little world, reading pinyin cards is probably the most annoying thing. Obviously, he has worked hard to learn mouth shapes, but The sound is still wrong.

Like an eggplant beaten by frost, Xiao Shitou lowered his head, allowing Xiao Yifan to wrap him in a bath towel and knead him like a dough-rubber.Xiao Yifan pinched the itchy flesh on his waist on purpose, Xiao Shitou smiled and went straight to Xiao Yifan's arms.

Xiao Yifan still didn't have the heart to let him practice his pronunciation. On the other hand, he was really tired, so he put him on the bed and changed into his pajamas. After finding cartoons on his iPad, Xiao Shitou obediently watched cartoons on his stomach.Xiao Yifan went to the bathroom to wash the muddy clothes that the little guy had replaced, and took a shower himself. After coming out, he slumped on the bed and didn't want to move his fingers.

Xiao Shitou picked up the iPad and lay down in Xiao Yifan's arms to watch it with Xiao Yifan. After a few minutes, Xiao Shitou looked back and Xiao Yifan had already closed his eyes and fell asleep.Xiao Shitou turned off the cartoon, dragged the quilt to Xiao Yifan, climbed out of bed and turned off the light, climbed back into bed in the dark, got into Xiao Yifan's arms, kissed Dad, and fell asleep obediently.

In the early morning, Xiao Yifan patted the bare buttocked little stone, and Yuan Ya on the phone leaned back and forth with a smile, saying vaguely, "Our little stone has an immeasurable future." The reason why Yuan Ya laughed like this is because Xiao Yifan just The quirk of Xiao Shitou I told him is that he likes to take off his clothes when he falls asleep, and he is neat and tidy before going to bed, but he will be naked as soon as he wakes up.

Xiao Shitou rubbed his eyes, not knowing why the uncle on the phone was smiling like this, sticky into Xiao Yifan's arms, Xiao Yifan handed over the water bottle, and after drinking a few sips of water, he woke up.

"Uncle." Xiao Yifan asked Xiao Shitou to call him Yuan Ya.

Xiao Shitou raised his head and watched Xiao Yifan's mouth shape carefully, imitating the sound of "huhu" by rounding his lips.Yuan Ya applauded and encouraged on the other side, "Little Shitou has improved his pronunciation quite a lot recently."

Xiao Yifan gratifiedly put the small stones into his legs and said, "Now I can basically pronounce voiceless consonants, and I can say papa, but I can't say my father's sound yet."

"It's already very good, let's take it step by step, this is not something that can be rushed." Yuan Ya comforted.

Xiao Yifan nodded and changed the subject, "How is your health recently? Are you feeling better?"

"It's okay, he still vomits, and I felt him moving a few days ago, and his clothes can't be put on anymore." Yuan Ya spread his hands.

The landlady downstairs shouted Xiao Yifan's name at the top of her voice, Xiao Yifan hurriedly responded, and said to Yuan Ya, "Take care of me well, if I'm a younger sister, I'll bring Xiao Shitou back to China to see you."

"Then what if it's the younger brother?" Yuan Ya asked.

"I don't want my son to be gay, you fucking gay."

"I still discriminate against heterosexuals, you gay man." Yuan Ya retorted.

After bickering, Xiao Yifan bid farewell first, "Go to bed early, I'm going downstairs to mow the lawn for the renter."

"Why do you need to mow her lawn?" Yuan Ya asked.

"Hey...who made the rent for me cheaper, let's not talk about it, she will yell again later, bye bye." Yuan Ya took the hand of the small stone and waved it.

"Hey...wait." Yuan Ya stopped Xiao Yifan's hand that was about to hang up the video.

"kindness?"

Yuan Ya spoke hesitantly, "Well...I heard that...someone seems to be going to the United States."

Xiao Yifan naturally knew who the person in Yuan Ya's words was, his face froze for a moment and he said with a smile, "Come if you come, no one stipulates that people can't come."

"He asked me for your address." Yuan Ya said truthfully.

"you said?"

"I didn't say anything, but I'm afraid he will find out." Yuan Ya said seriously.

"Hey~ Boston is so big, it's not so easy to find someone, and I don't even know where I will move in a few months." Xiao Yifan said with a smile.

"Oh~" Yuan Ya didn't say much.

Hanging up the video, changing clothes for Xiao Shitou, and after washing, Xiao Yifan pushed the lawn mower, and the uneven and messy grass was pushed into a flat head, but Xiao Yifan's thoughts became more and more chaotic Unbearable, he couldn't help thinking about what Yuan Ya just said, and then looked up, Xiao Shitou had already made himself wet by the water pipe, Xiao Yifan couldn't hold back his anger, and yelled at Xiao Shitou loudly, He left the lawn mower and walked over angrily.Xiao Shitou was dumbfounded by that sound, and stood there in a daze.

"I let you play with the ball, why do you play with the water again!" Xiao Yifan said while walking with a dark face.

Little Shitou looked down at the wet clothes on his body, he didn't dare to breathe.Xiao Yifan pointed to his chest with his little hand, and shook his hand again. Xiao Yifan knew that he was saying "I'm sorry", and looked down at his guilty little face. His facial features became more and more like that person. Xiao Yifan knelt down and touched Touching Xiao Shitou's face, Xiao Shitou looked at Xiao Yifan at a loss, with tears in his eyes, and his anger disappeared without a trace. He softened his voice and said, "It's cold, playing in water will Do you know if you have a cold?"

Little Stone nodded.

Xiao Yifan couldn't help touching Xiao Shitou's eyes, nose, and mouth. It turned out that even though it had been two years, he thought everything had passed, but in the end, just a random word disturbed his mood so easily, it was really useless.

"Little Shitou, we will start from here when Dad gets his doctor's license.