you are the minutiae of the world

Opposite the road in the community is a place that sells ice cream. It is not very hot in April, and there are not many people buying it, but there is a long road to cross. Mu Song led Qin Liang for two steps and found Qin Liang standing in the same place Not moving anymore, Mu Song looked back at him suspiciously, Qin Liang said, "Tired."

Mu Song laughed and joked: "Forget that you are an otaku, you will get tired after walking for a long time, the last time I climbed a mountain in Rongcheng, I was too tired to walk, I pulled you up, it's okay, I will take you to practice more in the future Just practice."

Qin Liang blinked and didn't speak.

"Do you still want ice cream?"

"think."

"Okay," Mu Song said, "You stand here, and I'll go buy it. Do you have any special flavors you want?" He rubbed Qin Liang's hair while talking.

This was the first time Qin Liang asked him for a long time, and of course Mu Song would do it for him.

Qin Liang nodded obediently.

Mu Song let go of Qin Liang's hand and crossed the road. When he walked into the ice cream shop, he looked back at Qin Liang, waved his hand and smiled at him. Qin Liang stood quietly across the road, neither moving nor responding.But Mu Song has gotten used to Qin Liang's indifference, so he went in with confidence. He inquired carefully and chose the sweetest ice cream in the store to pack. Thinking of Qin Liang saying sweet twice, he guessed that he likes to eat it. Desserts, then go back and see how the desserts are made. Now that Qin Liang is back to normal, he can call Auntie back to work. This will not only improve their food, but also learn how to cook from her. Qin Liang followed him to eat porridge, white rice and takeaway every day.Mu Song thought a lot about the bright future between them. The mood of this serious and indifferent man is about as sweet as the ice cream in his hand.

It's just that the sweetness didn't last long. When he walked out of the store and looked across the road, there was no one there.

Mu Song's heart skipped a beat. He ran across the road eagerly and was almost knocked down by a car, but he had no time to care about it. He stood where Qin Liang was standing just now, looking around. He no longer cared about his own image. Standing on the street and shouting loudly: "Qin Liang! Qin Liang! Qin Liang!"

People walking around were startled by his hissing and roaring and looked at him frequently, but no one came to tell him where the person he was looking for was.

The panic in his heart was getting deeper and deeper, he tried to call Qin Liang, but no one answered the calls over and over again.Just when he was at a loss, someone beside him suddenly exclaimed.

"Look! Is there someone there?!" Someone suddenly pointed at the high-rise building on the side of the street, and Mu Song suddenly turned his head and saw a figure on the protruding balcony flashing away.

"You read it wrong, there is no one there." The companion beside them said.

And Mu Song couldn't hear it anymore, he ran like crazy, and ran towards the figure that had just passed away in a flash.

This is a five-storey commercial building. Not long after the start of investment, the interior is full of decoration silt, and the roof is an open roof, but it is locked by a big lock. The property owner has repeatedly persuaded Mu Song that no one can do it. He went up, but Mu Song, who was already in a hurry, couldn't listen. He became furious, kicked the man in the property, grabbed the key from the man's hand, turned and ran up.

His throat and lungs hurt from running, but he didn't dare to hesitate or relax, he knew that that person was Qin Liang.

He ran too fast, sweat dripped down his cheeks and eyelashes, blocking his sight, he was panting heavily, no longer his usual meticulous image, he put the key in the lock, and there was a click , opened the lock.

It was dark, but there was still a dim cluster of lights on the balcony, emergency lights on the wall.

Qin Liang faced him, sitting on the concrete wall of the roof, with his back to the night sky of the city.

Mu Song couldn't catch his breath, and he didn't have time to catch his breath. He held up the ice cream he bought just now, with a smile on his face, and said slowly in a coaxing tone: "Qin Liang, look, I'll buy you ice cream Here, you are obedient, come here, okay, it's sweet, really, I asked the clerk specifically, this is the sweetest ice cream in their store, you are obedient, come here, let me feed you, okay?"

Qin Liang looked at him with a particularly calm look in his eyes.

No different from his recent 'normal' state.

"I'm so tired," Mu Song heard him say, "Mom told me to be obedient, let me not let people down, let me live well, I am obedient, I am obedient, I have been listening to my mother since I was a child, When it's your turn, I'll listen to you, but I'm so tired."

"We can rest when we're tired," Mu Song ignored the sweat on his cheeks, probably because of nervousness, they flowed faster and meandered down his face. Mu Song walked forward slowly, his heart beating fast , An ominous premonition filled the whole chest: "It's too dangerous for you to be there... Come down first, okay... I'll pick you up..."

"Don't go forward," Qin Liang looked at him, and refused lightly: "Go back, Mu Song, go back, turn around, don't look, don't look, if you don't look, you won't feel it, you won't Like me, don't look, just turn around."

"How do you want me to go back!" Mu Song suddenly broke out, he stopped, stood on the spot and shouted: "I can't turn back! Why can't you give me a chance! Why do you have to torture me like this Haven’t I done enough in the past few months! Didn’t I say I like you! Didn’t I change so much for you? Qin Liang! Is your heart a stone! Yes, I am I liked Qin Yu! But that was before I met you! You can't let go of the past! What can you do if you close yourself up! Will the suffering you suffered when you were a child disappear! Can't you see the efforts of the people around you? Can't you see my hard work! You have to torture me like this to be happy! I never blamed you for acting! Why can't you be considerate and considerate of me!"

Qin Liang waited quietly for him to vent. He didn't interrupt him, nor did he show any other emotions. He indifferently watched Mu Song's chest rise and fall sharply after the roar, and then spoke again after a long silence.

"However, I am really tired and in pain. I know that my mother loves me, but she still hurt me. I know that you may really like me, but you still lied to me. I know that it is useless to close myself, but I don't know what is useful, when she jumped down, let me live, let me be obedient, I am obedient and alive, but, I am so tired, I can't act anymore, she died, beat me for me, for me Qin Liang, who forgave her, also died together. You told me to be obedient, and I obediently left. Why did you come back? I don’t know what to do with you, what should I do, I’m in so much pain, it’s so painful , I'm so uncomfortable, Mu Song, I'm so uncomfortable, you can't see that I'm suffering, I put on this mask, but Qin Liang under the mask is so tired, so uncomfortable, so uncomfortable," Qin Liang said over and over again Looking at him is too uncomfortable, but his expression is still so calm: "My sun can't rise, I can't see the sunset, I can't taste the taste of this world, and my only dance music is slowly dying, Mu Song , I'm really tired, I don't want your likes, I want to rest, I really want to rest...I don't blame you...I blame myself...I blame myself for not being able to live normally, Mu Song, I I can't be normal, I'm too tired, I can't meet your requirements, I really want to rest..."

As Qin Liang spoke, he fell back.

Fear instantly filled Mu Song's eyes. He rushed forward desperately, but he didn't even have a chance to grab Qin Liang's sleeve. He watched him close his eyes and fall backward like a kite with a broken string. , Mu Song was lying on the stone platform, most of his body was already in the air. At that moment, he suddenly felt that he should jump down with him, but he was tightly hugged by the property and security guards who rushed behind him.

The last scene in his eyes was Qin Liang's slowly closing eyes and that calm face as before. His vision was blurred for some reason, and he saw the black and red blood gradually overflowing on the ground.

So glaring.

"Ambulance!!! Call an ambulance!!!" He opened his mouth and shouted over and over again, as if there was blood in his throat: "Call an ambulance!!!"

The fifth floor is not high. Qin Liang chose that place because he rented the shop on the top floor. He may have already planned everything.

He didn't die on the spot, but entered the emergency room, where he was rescued for a day and a night.

Jiang Yan, who was on duty in the emergency room, saw Mu Song waiting in the emergency room covered in blood, and was so frightened that she hurriedly called Xu Tingjiang.

The situation is not optimistic. Qin Liang hit the ground on the back of his head. He did not die, but many organs were ruptured and he lost a lot of blood. Now he is relying on Mu Song to spend money recklessly, using a machine to hang his last life, and after dawn again , He still didn't wake up, his body was covered with various machines and tubes, and his face wearing an oxygen mask could not be seen clearly.

Xu Tingjiang rushed over and saw a decadent, sad, and haggard man standing at the door of the ward. He stood there, the blood on his body dried up, but the light in his eyes slowly faded.

"Didn't you say that he won't commit suicide?" Mu Song's voice was hoarse, and his throat was already broken after yelling last night.

Xu Tingjiang opened his mouth, but couldn't say anything.

The nurse rushed out suddenly and said: "The patient is awake, call the doctor quickly...the situation is not good! Quick! Quick! Quick!"

After a lot of work, Xu Tingjiang stood at the door and saw the rapid decline of the body indicators on the machine. He knew that it might not work. Seeing the hopeless eyes on their faces, Mu Song pushed open the door and rushed in. The nurse didn't even have time to stop it.

Mu Song knelt beside Qin Liang's bed, carefully holding his slender arm full of tubes, his eyes were red and his voice was trembling: "Qin Liang, hold on, hold on, I promise, I promise ... I won't make you feel uncomfortable anymore, I won't make you tired anymore, please give me a chance... I won't ask you to be normal again... I can't do it anymore... From now on, you can do whatever you want How about...I beg you...give me one more chance..."

Qin Liang rolled his eyes with difficulty, and he regained consciousness briefly. There was blood in his eyeballs, and the whites of his eyes were soaked red, as if he had just cried. His lips moved, wanting to speak, but the oxygen mask It's foggy.

Mu Song gently helped him take off the oxygen mask, Qin Liang turned to look at him, exhausted the last bit of strength, the voice was so soft, so wronged, Mu Song finally heard his emotions.

"Musong...I hurt..."

"Musong...I'm tired..."

"Musong... you love me... right..."

Qin Liang looked at Mu Song pleadingly, his red eyes filled with tears, so pitiful——Mu Song finally saw his own emotions on his face.

Mu Song understood and heard it, this is the 'normal' Qin Liang he always wanted to see, but now, he doesn't want it at all, he just wants him to live well, even if he wears a mask every day.

But this was the last thing Qin Liang asked him to do, this was Qin Liang's last wish.

Mu Song has never satisfied Qin Liang with anything, except for this matter, he may never have another chance.

Mu Song's hands trembled so badly that he couldn't cry because his chest hurt so badly. He lowered his head and kissed Qin Liang's cold lips lightly.

"Okay, I love you."

Mu Song stretched out his hand, and slowly and firmly unplugged the switches of the surrounding machines.

beep

There was once a boy who suffered so much, he couldn’t learn to get along with the world, he had two heroes when he was young, and the heroes left with his mother, and when he grew up, he still couldn’t get along with the world, He learned to wear various masks, but the masks could not teach him to be happy. Under the masks, he became more and more painful, and then he chose to leave. When he left, he finally met his hero.

His hero said, I love you.

The doctors and nurses were walking backwards, but Mu Song slowly came out of the ward. Xu Tingjiang wanted to go up to comfort him, but he could only see the back of Mu Song leaving.

Like an eternal sad parting song.

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